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You are right that the concept of wage slavery should not become a limiting belief. A lot of people already feel enslaved in their jobs. A lot of people who are overweight feel fat. Should they feel fat? No. Should they start eating mindfully and start exercising? YES. It's the same idea. I've have had incredible opportunities for personal and spiritual growth only because I started my own business right out of high school. You don't realize what you're missing until you have the freedom. Don't feel stuck in a job, but do consider whether or not that job is working for or against your own life vision.

Really? That was one of my absolute favorites.

If enough people buy organic they won't hardly use or produce pesticides anymore. Also you're ingesting much lower levels by buying organic. There are drawbacks to organic though. For example organic meat has some humane issues when it comes to vet care. Also there are lots of land use issues. Smart pesticide use is probably the best bet for everyone. But corporations aren't smart. So I buy a lot of organic stuff. Don't stress, it's all perfect in its imperfection.

@thesmileyone Two words, Wim Hof No excuses.

@thesmileyone Come visit, it's freaking lonely over here! Sasquatch wants to say hi. I'm hunting him sometime this week. I'm really excited/terrified.

I signed up for AP English in highschool. It was the only AP class that I thought that I could handle. They sent home the summer reading the last day of junior year. I read one page in "Pride and Prejudice" or I think it was that anyway. I live where winters are long and summers are gorgeous. I looked outside and considered the prospect of giving up all that beauty so I could suffer through the reading and feel smart. I said fuck that. It was a great summer.

@Serotoninluv

@thesmileyone Thank you. But my IQ/education really is not all that good. I'll look up merkabah. I feel like I'm playing a really intense game of catch up right now. I'll take all the help I can get.

Sorry, I'm kind of simple-minded and need things stated simply.

The scenic route is great, just try not to have so many thoughts about all the beauty you're seeing. "Everybody on earth knowing that beauty is beautiful makes ugliness." That was a hard one for me to accept. I still call things beautiful, but I have to be careful how I do it. https://astudygroup.files.wordpress.com/2017/07/lao-tzu_-tao-te-ching_-a-book-a-ursula-k-le-guin.pdf?fbclid=IwAR2qkk6UkEECiBdIQkO0TSszmual98uvYti43PkkvZkQmIz7z1yzEBOvEd8

@Colin

@Serotoninluv People don't want to go to a doctor and be seen as an illness or a problem. They want to be seen as a whole person.

@Nahm I had a dental cleaning recently. God, it felt like heaven. Laying back able to relax and not having to jump up every 2 minutes to deal with some little tantrum or disaster.

I wore a dress, red lipstick and clamming much boots today. That felt authentic.

Maybe he really though he knew me? You want me to dress sexy to go to Walmart? My husband hates me to shop for clothes, hates the idea of makeup. Around here clothes that aren't stained is dressing up. If you wear makeup and nice clothes people think you are a goddess and women think you are a snob and HATE you. Its never been worth it to me.

@FoxFoxFox Yes.

Yes, I always avoided such situations by dressing like a slob putting my head down and avoiding eye contact.

@FoxFoxFox I am it. But I can still forget. When I forget, that's ego. Ego is an illusion created when you forget who you are. All that really changed is the intensity with which I am it and the amount of time I am. But I still definitely fall back into my old self sometimes. It would be really dangerous for me and everyone around me if I couldn't separate the two.

It's not really all that interesting. So I always try to get a business expense when I go get groceries so I can write my mileage down and take it off my taxes. Sneaky. Whatever. So I decided to look for a better tripod for my phone since I can use it to make beadmaking videos anyway. An employee around my age with bright red hair asked if I need help in electronics, so I ask if they have tripods. He asks me why I need it and I say for youtube videos, and he asked what I make them about so I just said "spirituality." His reaction was really uncomfortable but a minute later he made a big effort to make up for his reaction and said "no, that's really cool." So we talk about the tripods and I decide to look online and thank him and he won't let me go. He says "You're not from here, are you." and I said I was and told him where I live. And he tried to tell me someone he knew and I didn't know them and he kept saying that I looked familiar and thought he knew me. He introduced himself and held out his hand and said his name and I shook his hand told him mine. Still won't let me go. He's just starring into my eyes. I know what he's going to ask next and realize I'm not wearing my wedding ring so I more forcefully end the conversation and thank him for his help. he yells after me "Sorry, I didn't mean to make that awkward I just really thought I knew you."

@FoxFoxFox I still feel the same way I guess. Nothing is what I expected it to be. I still have an ego and still battle with self interest. I still have knowledge and desires in life but they are no longer my own. They seem more like a gift rather than a transgression or a desire that comes out of lack. I still have a certain perspective, and only by 100% owning my perspective and limitations, being too heart led and not very smart, etc, I have found out how to look to others for what I do not have. And they give it freely. Because they are me. It's not wrong for me to eat, to destroy things to live because nothing can ever be destroyed. It's not wrong for me to want to build, to want to acquire, because the time will come when I've built will satisfy the law of entropy. it's all perfect. It's all beautiful. I've been put in my place. I've been constrained and limited. I accepted it. It feels like freedom. It's all done out of love. I'm listening to Leo's new video right now. He said that people don't want to go down the rabbit hole. They don't want to have the boundary between their inner mind and outer world fall apart. That's what it feels like has happened to me. Everything is true in the moment. It's not what I thought it would be when i did this work. it's more like one of my childhood fantasies come to life. Only now i'm an adult and it's terrifying until I remember to quiet my mind.

Aakash, I didn't raise you to be the type of person who FLOUNCES.

Same to you honey.

Every moment of everyday. You can go barf now, it's ok, I'll be grateful for that too.

Being a complete slob is really enjoyable too though. I enjoy being a chameleon best of all.