mandyjw

@Mikael89 You don't believe in nonduality? You believe that there is truth and untruth? Are you still fighting for peace?

Don't be afraid or concerned, Leo is already doing this, all of his students are already creating their own image with or without the use of physical psychedelics.

@electroBeam This sounds really silly, but it's through love, you love them and they love you back. That goes for both gurus and trees. All trees are one, all trees are sacred. Sometimes you find one that's willing to be a symbol to you, to teach you the nature of the greater world. The tree that was the most symbolic to me was a tree that had grown into two and was breaking apart. I heard it splitting apart in the woods and I went to it and it showed me the nature of duality, how we are separate but together at the same time. I have since found by reading Nahm's posts here, that there's an actual word for that, holon. To make that particular tree even more interesting, one side is breaking and appears to be torn apart and the other side appears completely whole and undamaged.

WAY back, it was the one about how we are all chimps from a long while back, what's the name of that one? That one just got stuck in my head, I didn't have to work to contemplate it, it was like once I saw it I couldn't unsee it. Also "How To Stop Being A Workaholic" because that was a HUGE struggle in my life. This one was amazing, I was able to tap into Leo's experience just by watching it.

It's more paradoxical and nuanced than that. You desire something, but you let go of it, and when you do it has a chance to come to you. The universe wants to surprise us. We think we know what we want but we only ever have glimpses, if we could design the perfect partner we would be horribly bored by them. So you can't ever get what you want anyway, you have to let go of your demands and the specifics so you can know what you want and when you KNOW it you also get it.

I caught a fish once but it was too big to reel in on my own and I was terrified of it. I was so afraid that I threw the fishing line and someone else grabbed it, reeled the fish in and took it off the hook. Then I still wanted to take credit for catching the fish but I realized that I couldn't.

@Shin Trying so hard to not be profound that you are actually quite profound.

When the student is ready the teacher will appear. Teachers come in all kinds of forms, the forms of unconscious people and deeply enlightened beings, like trees. You'll miss them if you have the idea of a perfect guru in your head.

WHERE HAS DAVID GONE? I think I understand him now.

Both living over and over and death are illusions your mind made up. Still though, you are going to get older and time is a limitation that we have created for our own freedom to achieve things. Knowing that you will "die" soon is helpful so do everything that is important to you. That thought can be paralyzing and depressing though. So a balanced person embraces the paradox that everything already is, and nothing ever was so what you do doesn't matter. Then you get in the position of having time to play and do whatever great or small things you want, no pressure. And in that environment, masterpieces are often created. Or not. Be careful with "not knowing." Sometimes not knowing is more like, "I don't want to contemplate that, I'll ignore it." You can get to deeply know both sides of a paradox and the center. Then you will know know through not knowing.

Even after you are enlightened or have a major awakening, old mind patterns continue to function. Those patterns can result in all kinds of behaviors persisting after enlightenment. You are always going to be rewiring the brain and continuing to fine tune it or you'll be stagnant and stuck in those patterns. That's why I believe the best thing is to resolve that you'll be self actualizing always, there's no finish line.

I'm doing good this morning, and anyway, disagreeing with you always cheers me up.

I miss David Hammond.

@Nahm

I am the Body of Christ. See, you have to pressure yourself into being perfect, I'm allowed to be a sinner because I already forgave myself for all that past and future stuff.

@Nahm Is that what you meant by your note that you wrote for yourself? "There's no reincarnation"

That's a half truth.

18 Then Moses said, “Now show me your glory.” 19 And the Lord said, “I will cause all my goodness to pass in front of you, and I will proclaim my name, the Lord, in your presence. I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion. 20 But,” he said, “you cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live.”

Well then, sounds like a nice convenient way to skip over your shadow work. Jon and I were lab partners before we started dating and we had to draw some crystals. We were each supposed to do our own page, I made some pretty drawings and he took mine and handed them in with his analysis so I had to wait until they came back to hand in mind, very late. I was really disappointed that he would do that to me. Somehow this is reminding me of that experience.

Humility is the Devil's trick, but the mistake is in thinking that the Devil has a last trick.

I have a theory that certain repeating dreams of places and strong inexplicable feelings that come up when you see certain things are parts of past life memories. I have a handful that go back from my childhood but it can be hard to sort out early childhood experiences from past memories. For me it's a certain kind of antique chair, a really old clock and a memory/repeating dream vision of a meadow. It's also possible that you can tie into other people's thoughts and memories, dead or alive as you become more awake. I don't think it's necessary or helpful to personalize very much, "this was MY past life!", those kinds of thoughts. If we are all one and there's no time, what's the point? It becomes the same kind of thing as identifying yourself by what hair or eye color you have, it's just another identification with self.

AHHHHHH!!! What is happening? Your latest video did not embody an egoless state AT all.

If you are a parent here check out Shefali Tsabary, she is SO good! Letting the ego extend to your children can be a really big trap in parenting. It's easy to define yourself or your worth by how you are doing as a parent. That's why some parents demand that their kids get a college education and we place all kinds of unconscious expectations on our kids. I think that God gives you what you need to awaken, and if you have kids they will be the very ones designed to test you for all you are worth. I was extremely shy, easily embarrassed and hated to draw attention to myself. So God gave me an autistic son that can be a really sweet normal kid, but at the Christmas concert, or in public when he becomes unregulated God ONLY knows what he will do. There are only so many times that you feel like you are going to curl up and die of embarrassment before you realize it's not quite as bad as you initially thought.

@Natasha Thank you!

I am not excited, sometimes your encouragement is very alienating. Why not just say fuck it and enjoy the few true things there are in life, like nature and what connection and love there is left with other people without trying to throw everything away in pursuit of an illusionary attainment all the time. This place feels like the smart kids lunch table senior year in highschool, everyone talking about attainments and all the hard work they are doing to get them for the purpose of some future goal. Maybe I'm happy being the spiritual janitor or the lunch lady.