mandyjw

If I were to send you out, my child, I'd keep you close. I'd keep you so intimately close, you might even think I wasn't there. You'd be my runaway bunny. "I will become a bird and fly away from you." "If you become a bird and fly away from me, I will be a tree that you come home to." This love is so perfect, so intimate, you think you're flawed and all alone. Your attempts to escape me, create me. What magical complete fuckups we all are. Yep, couldn't have designed it better.

Look at her necklace.

I would say, "oh you make me angry." But really, I hate that I'm using you as an excuse to feel less than I really Am. Also anger feels pretty good right now because I've spent so long feeling powerless.

So what was the insight you had yesterday after kicking the rock in the trail and telling it it was a fucking asshole? That utter perfection includes imperfection. That what Abraham Hicks said about letting yourself mess up, and fall down, etc, was such a relief and so important. That a world that was perfect would be horrible therefore, imperfect. That this is perfect. So wouldn't it follow that the villains and the heroes are intimately one? Of course. But that's scary as fuck. It's scary as fuck! I mean it's beautiful, but it's scary as fuck. What did you read from Nissargadatta yesterday? "All the activities are done by the sense organs." I mean... fuck. Just fuck. They ARE! Why did you want me to erase the Narnia stuff I wrote? Because it's not somewhere outside. Ok, I'm repressing feeling when I see someone repressing feeling. If I did that, it would make me pretty angry.

FUCK YOU ABRAHAM HICKS. You leave your family, marry some insanely rich older man, you only talk to one of your daughters and you channel a male entity, like Seth because Jane was your mentor. Lets talk about Esther like she's some good for nothing, ordinary woman. That'll be good. People will relate. That's the only way people can relate to a woman. She's safe. She's worthless. She's kind. She will never threaten. She's just there to serve. To be used.

Welcome to my monthly "Burn Down the Patriarchy Event". If you do do appreciate such things, please watch the parade in silence or go do something else. Thank you. ALRIGHT SOURCE, WTF? YOU BETTER ANSWER FOR YOURSELF. SURE, IT'S ALL WELL AND GOOD TO JUST FOCUS ON WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU'RE A FUCKING MAN. ITS FUCKING EASY TO NOT WORRY ABOUT MATERNITY LEAVE OR ENVIRONMENTAL DESTRUCTION AND USE YOUR ONE POINTED FOCUS TO FOCUS ON THE BOTTOM LINE. FOCUS ON YOURSELF. Is that focusing on what you want? Is this just some fucking free for all of hedonism? GO FUCK YOURSELF. Geez, yelling in all caps is exhausting. Second wind didn't take long. FUCK YOU. Seriously, fuck you. You're NEGLECTFUL. You use charisma and "love" for your own benefit. YOU EVEN DOMINATE AS SPIRITUAL LEADERS. EVEN THE WOMEN CHANNEL MALE ENTITIES. FUCK YOU. Moojiis over there fucking his students. and OSHO. OSHO. OSHO. FUCKING OSHO. LEO. LEO. FUCKING LEO. Let's make a girl squirt, get laid and get enlightened on hierarchical levels. GO FUCK YOURSELVES. YOU'RE ALL COMPLETELY SO BUSY BEING FUCKED IN THE HEAD YOU'RE not even enjoying it. Is this a joke? Seriously is it a joke? Did I really consciously decide to be in on this? Why? Why me. Why am I observing this. Did I create this?

@Terell Kirby Aww, but there are proper answers? Sounds like someone trying to win a game. If there's only you and you also try to win, then you must also lose.

What are the chances of Earth being the perfect distance from a perfectly sized sun? I mean really. No suffering or effort is required to hold it all together. Huh. I've stopped worried about function so much, now there's just fun.

Of Monopoly? An antimonopolist who is dead now. There is no who. The creator of whos can't be a who. There's no time for the creator of time, so creator, creating, creation is all the same.

I'm not saying you're not happy as a overarching judgement of your life. I'm talking about in the moment happiness. That's the only kind there is really. You actually think it will make YOU happy to make him happy. I mean, honestly, yeah, that's what we want, it's natural, it's an expression of love to want to make the other happy, to give them something more, to take them further, deeper. But it's indirect. It seems selfless. Directly, you DO want to be happy. So stop caring so much about how happy he is. Just care about your own vibe a bit more. What you will find is that your expression of honest happiness, (spontaneity, your vibe, however it happens to come out) will do the trick. It's infectious. You ruin it by worrying about getting results from it. In order to allow this infectiousness to occur it requires you not worrying about his own happiness or trying to judge the level of his own happiness and not thinking about how he is responding to you. It requires, sorta kinda, not giving a shit about him. In the name of love of course.

Manipulation would be pretending that you're happy in order to make him feel less pressured, in order to give him the space to commit. It's a means to an end. Actual change would be actually being happy. Happiness itself. I mean, if you're happy anyway, who actually gives a crap if you get what you want? Sure, it would be nice, but you're happy anyway. Coincidently happiness is just there after letting go of the assumedly needed outcome.

None. The creator of the game Monopoly is unconcerned with winning or losing it.

You attract what you attract based on your own beliefs reflecting themselves back to you, then you say "men are like that" or "women are like that." Nope. You powerful creators, you. Start having some fun and stop complaining to me that this is a SHITTY ART ASSIGMENT. It's not an assignment at all, you're free to do what you want. Then you complain you're missing your freedom, or your intimacy. What could be more intimate OR free than being the creator, creation and creating all at the same time? -Sincerely, Mother Nature

Yes! Take notice, make more opportunities or space for that. When the first Europeans discovered America, they didn't have any idea what they discovered. But technically they had discovered something that to the Natives point of view did not even need discovering. Then there was Lewis and Clark, and, railroads and electricity and the Oregon Trail, and, and, and... there's always more discovery. Endless discovery is what we really want. You can be satisfied by knowing there's no end to this. What greater perfection! It's when you believe the end to be inherent in the future and have thoughts that say "this isn't it" that it kills the mood so to speak. Awesome, yeah it's an interesting book, sort of boring as hell and fascinating at the same time. I wouldn't force trying to understand so much if it's not speaking to you. Just look out for what does. ❤ Also a thought that says "I experience lack!" is a thought that is turning lack into a THING, AND assuming that "thing" is problematic. But if it's a thing, how is it lack? Which is it lack, or a thing? And if it's lack then how could it be experienced? See how hilarious thought is? That's why that thought feels bad, it's ridiculous, but you aren't seeing the humor, you're believing it to be an issue in the moment.

This sure as heck happens to women too. Usually one partner pressures for marriage or engagement and the other is uncomfortable in response. I have a sister and the theme in our relationships has almost always been feeling pressured for commitment by men. She had to return so many engagement rings, and never did marry any of them. If one partner pressures, the other will will often react by desiring freedom or distance. Attract and appreciate in all aspects of your life, don't try to secure or lock it down. You can't really love and also mentally stamp MINE on it at the same time. Damn it, I think I just had an insight about my current money mentality.

@Shin Unity or letting go of thoughts that seem to feed the illusory sense of separation from complete and utter okayness or bliss. Sex, drugs and rock and roll are just good excuses to be what you already are. Then after the experience more thoughts can come in that say "that felt amazing and now it's gone" which strengthen more thoughts that say you're not ok, and you NEED such and such, which feels awful because that's not true. Then addiction is thought to be a problem had by a separate someone, when in reality, it's all a huge misunderstanding.

We often associate bliss with sex. The body often isn't used to interpreting bliss, passion, arousal as being uncaused.

Ha, it's the same reason Mister God this is Anna, couldn't be reprinted today I suppose. An intensely close spiritual relationship between an unrelated adult male and a little girl. It's only possible in its time. Shit. The barriers we put up to love! The repressions, the inhibitions. The fear, the judgement. I don't think I ever, ever, EVER wanted anything more than the removal of these. Sometimes in the name of progression we forget. You can't go forward without going back. You are a vortex. You move, powerfully, ever moving, never staying still and yet always staying still. "It is not a modern book. Culturally, we’re now more interested in earliest life for its possibilities of trauma. Anna is a dirty child, discovered at night by a 16-year-old boy, who adopts her into a house of various itinerants, where she stays for years. This odd couple frequently share a bed, naked, and wander the streets at night. The book is neither sensitive to nor interested in the possibly disturbing aspects of this unusual relationship, which I found completely refreshing. It did strike an eerily relevant chord for today, however, when describing the social anxiety of impending war: “The rules of ‘four sticks’ chalked up on the wall had been covered over with the regulations for the blackout. We were being instructed in the rules of a new game.” https://www.theguardian.com/books/booksblog/2020/apr/20/my-favourite-book-as-a-kid-mister-god-this-is-anna-by-fynn

I guess I never believed that a man could actually love me without being interested in me physically. Of if he did, maybe, that would be an insult. I didn't believe I was worthy of that. Never wanted anything more. The requests for pics. The stolen class pictures. The only man a girl can depend on is her daddy." - Frenchy Not even. I've been treated very well by men, historically. It's just an underlying self-consciousness, self-objectification. "I like what I see." - Butthead "It is my intention to see that which I want to see." - Abraham Hicks. Never wanted anything more. Hooo! Double meaning.

Music, nature, inspiring quotes, poetry, profound art, beautiful art? Ever had a really good dream? Do those things ever seem to trigger anything? One of the secrets about life is that positive feelings don't have to be triggered by anything. They are actually uncaused. It's beautiful that they seem to be caused but it's more about the lack of thoughts saying something is missing when we get something nice than the thing that's nice. When you get something new for example, or go somewhere new, or meet someone new, it's new and so you really perceive it openly, and really appreciate it. When we are on a vacation for example, we don't "know" what we are seeing, so we just plain see. We are less dragged down by prejudgment and the idea that we already know everything and so it is boring. In reality, we don't really know anything, even if we've been there a thousand times, it's always new. We may be continually thinking thoughts that weigh us down and gloss over the new childlike wonder of life. One of those thoughts that might be repeated is the story that "I don't feel positive feelings." You don't know that. Don't drag the past into your present. Eckhart Tolle's The Power of Now might be a great read for you.

Love of animals can sometimes be a symptom of hatred towards humanity, (ultimately self hatred). Not that the love is false, however, a dualistic belief of animals being pure, innocent and good and humans being inherently evil is the root of it.

What the F is going on with a blank canvas and a set of paints? Pure potential and pure actuality... where they meet. The present moment, the big bang. Boom. What do you want to create?

What do you really want to do? What are you passionate about?

There is no battle between spiritual and material, hence the beauty of nature. The materialism paradigm is what created the very idea of separation, it is what demonizes itself.

Yeah, my point is you really don't have any control over fame or what comes of it or why. Also more importantly, it's Friday. Enjoy yourself. Everything ties together beautifully except when we're busy convincing ourselves it isn't.