mandyjw

Boys and their weapons. Sigh...

It's OUR enlightenment. When you figure out how to make that work out for us, let me know.

Shortly before my "awakening" in the winter I was walking or running by Pomroy's and a little fox ran across the road. I told my dad about it and he asked if it was healthy because we are always concerned about rabies. I said that it looked very healthy. During/after the awakening I realized it was a sign. Today I went for a walk to pick service berries and decided just to pop in because I was nearby. I walked up the steps of the pyramid as I often do. There right behind it was the fox, just a few feet away from me, bigger now and looking very stressed and overheated. It looked at me. My heart filled with fear. Please run away. Please be afraid of me. We shared a moment of common fear and shock to be face to face and then went away in our opposite directions.

No, I never really cared for having a social life either, yet something has always felt a little bit missing. I grew up in a really rural area and always blamed it for my lack of a social life, yet I've never left. But I've had a tiny taste of what our culture's idea of a social life is like and it's not my cup of tea. If it's a choice between that and being lonely I'd much rather live here in the woods.

Lives in Las Vegas, no social life. Huh?

@kieranperez @Billy Shears Applying spiral dynamics can be useful to help you deal with family members, it can help you filter out what you should and should not share. I like guessing where people are and occasionally throwing stuff out to gauge how they react and then I go from there. I'm lucky that my parents are both stage green but close to yellow so I don't have to be that careful. My dad occasionally entertains himself with stage turquoise stuff but doesn't quite believe that it's not just for his entertainment. I have some stage blue/lightly orange friends and we still connect just fine. Everyone has their weak spots. Everyone is searching in their own way. There are no real barriers to connection, they are just an illusion.

Ok, not that open-minded.

Sorry. Never say never, you can't know what will happen. Always keep your mind and heart open.

Ohhhhhh, so that's how you are able to put up with our bullshit. That's what all this work was for, TADA!

Yes, part of raising your consciousness means being present enough to catch when you are thinking egoic thoughts. You know them because they cause you pain. As soon as you feel that pain, you calm the mind. So awareness of how you feel is the very first, most important step. Every time you interrupt a negative thought with a conscious breath or looking at the sky and appreciating it's infinite beauty, your brain rewires itself. That's why diet, exercise, lifestyle and all personal development sort of flow into the same place of raising your consciousness, yes some steps take discipline to get there. It doesn't feel good to not have discipline when it's needed. Being unhealthy and eating a crappy diet doesn't feel good, but the reason so many people live this way is because they just aren't in tune with how they feel.

@Truthority What's worse, the thought that you're going to die or the thought that you'll live FOREVER? I'm so glad neither one is true.

Pay attention to how you feel as much as you can and as often as you can, and you'll be able to sort intuition from higher self from the ego's ramblings and demands. Even in what you wrote you mention how you want to avoid certain feelings, you already inherently know this. Our job is always to move in the direction of how we want to feel which we cannot do unless we carefully observe how we are feeling all the time. You get better and better at knowing how you feel and better and better at moving in the direction that makes you feel better. You feelings are already intuition itself, they are your inner guidance system. For example, this past winter I got an impulse to look up a book on the internet but I was busy and couldn't do it just then. I forgot what the impulse was. I vividly remember standing in my bedroom and remembering the amazing feeling of the impulse, which was still with me. I knew that I had had a really good idea and wanted to remember what it was, so after a minute I did and that time I was sure to do it. The book ended up being something entirely different from what I was expecting, it was a rabbit hole into nonduality, which was completely unexpected, because at the time I thought it was just going to be reading something fun and interesting. The thing about impulses is, they don't make logical sense so having a fun and playful spirit along with a deep desire for truth will go far. I have also experienced extremely forceful and almost terrorizing intuitions as a child before I knew how to watch my feelings. Looking back I know that if I had followed them I would have woken up, but why they came through years before I was ready to open my heart to them, I don't know. Compassionately working with fear in oneself is key. On the other side of fear is love. Of course, this is just another way of wording, pay attention to how you feel. Work with the fear, cultivate the love.

There are no techniques that work all across the board because there is no path, you are aligning with truth/love that is in it's essence you, that is the process that we use the pointer of "the path" to describe. You always had openings to it in the past and you always were it. Because the world is scattered, if you think of a starburst, and you are a ray of light radiating from the center, the direction that one ray of light goes to connect with center is from a perspective different from the others. Some of us have to travel in completely opposite directions to reach source. Clearing the mind gives the opportunity for impulses to come to you that will lead you back to source, or rather better align you in your form existence with source. If you meditate and turn it into a "thing that you do" which often happens when we focus on how long we meditate for, it can lose its ability to connect you with source. Paradoxically, every day you meditate you "build" the ability to clear the mind and connect with source. Intuition is really important. Comparison with others or even yourself in the past or where you think you should be will block intuition. Intuition comes from paying attention to how you feel and if you set a rigorous schedule that you stick to no matter what and no matter how you feel you might be cutting yourself off. Having the flexibility to follow your intuition is important. But if for now the rigorous schedule feels good, then you're on the right track. Also a comment on past lives, if you uncover a past life or some sort of similar past connection, you can never really claim it as your past life. It is a bridge, a duality within the formless, pointing towards that you were always One. So there both are and are not past lives.

Aww... you're the Grinch. Can't escape those sweet stories.

The story is that humans became evolved enough for thought in the garden of eden and got the knowledge of "good and evil" or the illusion of "free will." Animals don't have that. If you think that that development was nothing more than a massive unfortunate mistake, then you cut yourself off from the magic of creation. So there's prethought, caught in thought and "no thought". Yet animals, and all of nature and those potent things derived from nature (psychadelics) from the prethought category all have the potential to help align you with conciousness because in a wierd strangeloop fashion it includes all and you are all of it.

@Leo GuraYou've really thrown yourself into the lion's den haven't you? Everyone says that nonduality and truth can't be described using language and are just pointers blah, blah, blah but until you understand that deeply people get the wrong idea. You're a polarizing, provocative as fuck teacher because your pointers are like knives to the heart. Efficient and effective, but... ouch. Yet your videos are super long and in depth. Well, God works in mysterious ways.

Just wondering if I'm off in drawing these conclusions. God doesn't care whether or not anyone gets enlightened, God loves all people the same. Yet in everyone there's a seed (as we are created in the image of God) that under the correct conditions, grows, maybe it flowers, and maybe... it even bears fruit. Yet when one bears fruit and aligns himself with God, God is still conscious of all others as one with itself and time is nonexistent so ultimately enlightenment and gaining or losing it itself is part of the illusion. You are everything and everyone and if you miss love as the connecting force you'll be choked out by weeds. Love burns up completely the elitism and unfairness as illusion, you cannot be separate from those who are "unenlightened".

I prayed my whole life to God to give me wisdom. Wisdom is that love is all there is. I want to learn to speak the language of love. I want to clearly channel it. Are we allowed to build the tower of Babel now? Have we been scattered long enough? I have such a deep desire to share this love and bliss. But it's so easily misinterpreted, so easily glossed over and thrown away. For he who has ears to hear, hear. For him who's heart is open, receive and give love for both are one. We could dissolve into beautiful nothingness together.

You need to build a toolbox for pulling yourself out of that state. Getting out in nature, grounding, crystals, a vision board, pictures that inspire you on Pinterest, a good book, exercise, whatever it is that does it for you. SHAUN!!! You can't improve the world from the position that thinks it's all shit. Don't let your light, your brilliance, your God given gifts go to waste. Source, the universe, and mother Earth thinks that you are amazing. She worked really hard to make you, and to make this world for you to enjoy and you want to reject her gift. Can you imagine how sad that makes her? You need to align yourself with her will to be happy. You know why? Because she is you.

Meditation/communion with nature opened that door for me. Also weirdly enough it was a mix of nature and past human history there that really did it. There has to be a, inherent passion/love for the thing itself, not just for what one wants to get out of it. I wish it were easier to point toward.

You don't believe that a Chinese sweat shop worker could be happy? Have you heard of hedonic adaptation? Conditions don't have much to do with happiness.

Why do you always come back to the evil when you can always come back to the love and the good? What's your experience right now at his very moment? What are you imagining? That's all you can take responsibility for.

I just noticed that there's a yellow orb that showed up in this photo. This is a road that goes into a cemetery.

@Aakash I must kill my own ego before I love others as myself?

Whaaaat? I thought killing my ego would be a heck of a lot easier than getting along with other people and now you're saying I have to learn to get along with people anyway?