mandyjw

@Truth Addict Capability to cause suffering.

You asked for straight answers. I just LOVE questionnaires!!! Do you think ur a guru? yes, just not a very good one. Do you think your a level 10000 enlightened master? Mmm.. maybe level 940 or somewhere around there. Do you think ur Leo? Yes.

The most dangerous form of ignorance is the belief that it has been transcended it in one's self. Only a love and openness to learn creates the opening to the light that ignorance cannot abide in.

Unless you're Jesus. Telling others has a way of destroying our own faith and confidence, but that's only because we let it. Our faith in other gave them power over us because that power was ours all along. When experiences are shared out of love and oneness there is no loss of power. The intention and reason behind the sharing of it is important to carefully examine.

There's still this flipity flopidy of "squeeeeeeee!!! The world is fucking MAGIC!" and "Oh damn, I don't really exist and my entire life isn't what it seemed" kind of depression. The depression is easier to see through as cloudiness though. Clouds are beautiful too.

@possibilities I think you need to hang out with mother nature and get to know her better. She's both drop dead gorgeous and hideously ugly at the same time. Breathgiving. Breathtaking.

@tsuki It's kind of like Ramaji's LOC system, super helpful and true yet at the same time also total and utter bullshit.

It definitely needs to be reintegrated at some point, in order for one to fully realize nonduality itself. Then it likes to stick around and demand the credit for the great insight. Duality is the seductive one, you know what happens if you give a mouse a cookie...

Tap water needs to be tested for all metals and pathogens, then you put in the appropriate filter or system to make it safe. Occasionally, but very rarely well water is safe naturally. It usually has too much arsenic or fluoride or something else depending on where you live. If you have city water it depends on your city what they put in the water, but you can always order a water test just like you would if you had a private well to know for sure.

"Write-off" means you throw something out as unimportant or a waste of time and forget about it. A "write-off" on your taxes is when you report that made a bad investment and lost money on it, so you won't be paying taxes on it. I think Nahm is saying you are being lazy in focusing on the duality of levels rather than seeing the full depth of the truth of no levels, or choosing to live from that deeper perspective. Could be wrong though.

This morning it was misty and the sun was out so I skipped meditation and went for a walk. Everything looks like a different world. I ended up at Pomroy's. There was pure white fur and a rabbit foot where my fox buddy found a snack across from the platform steps. It's very strange that it would be pure white, don't all rabbits change to brown in summer? This sign could be interpreted so many ways, but I'm going with clinging to purity and innocence. I struggle with this, I know that I've lived a really pure life, and it's served me well but it's created one heck of a shadow and ego identification trap. The sun to the east was unspeakably beautiful shinning through the tree branches welcoming me up the steps. On the platform were a couple of chanterelle mushrooms growing. I asked for an insight and I went to the stones where I got my first one and put my hands on it. There's this particular one that's sort of cast side on the corner, it's pink granite. I closed my eyes and my vision field vibrated very fast up and down. I saw some things my ego is letting play on autopilot, but didn't have any really strong insights it was more of a working through. In fact I was trying to dedicate my service and I saw that that wasn't quite honest without seeing through some things first. There's very little traffic by this place especially so early, but just as I left I heard a loud truck coming and was annoyed. I told myself there was absolutely no reason for it to go past me and essentially circle back so if it did, it was a sign. It was a white truck, old, loud diesel engine, jacked up, beaten to death, sped by me and spun out to loop back the way it came. I'm still a snobbish goody goody church girl little bitch, aren't I?

@TrynaBeTurquoise If Christianity was a big part of your childhood, enlightenment will heal, redeem and reveal the truth in it to you. As Nahm said, you may need to deviate from Jesus's teachings and study others in order to come back to them with fresh eyes. It's a really beautiful phenomenon to have epiphanies about the deeper meaning of pointers you heard all your life taught to you by confused people. Part of your own gift of teaching is to make this shit so complicated. The logical mind wants to help understand truth on many levels, the trick is not allowing it to co-opt it and keep "truth" a secret from the heart. The depth and fullness of truth can only be understood by both the mind and heart in union, only then and there is it made direct and simple. If you grew up trying to love Jesus, and figuring out what accepting him in your heart really meant, it wouldn't seem like going off on a tangent to try to understand a verse like this.

How did he put humans above sparrows there? He just mentioned the fact that people treat them as if they are worthless, two are sold for a penny. The one who can destroy the soul and body in hell is the ego or separate self, it's you.

I've been researching witchcraft a lot more. I read a site that said that you should know your moon sign when you were born. Like most I know my sun sign Libra, and never paid much attention to astrology. So I found out the moon phase I was born under. I was born on the full moon. https://www.gothichorrorstories.com/witchs-garden/ My very old shade garden is full of a lot of plants mentioned as being magical, Solomon's seal, lady’s mantle, cowslip, I didn't plant them, they have probably been there over 100 years.

What is greed, an aggressive desire coming from a misunderstood place of lack? We tend to blame the desire or greed itself, and not the perceived lack, or not being aligned. Lately I've been putting a lot more focus into my business, and it's a great illustration of how the law of attraction works. So knowing what I do now, I'm trying to remove a lot of ingrained pathologies about how I manage my time and think about sales from a place of limitation. If I start to see the world as nothing but giving and receiving of love, it's easy to see how one would get wrapped up in making money because money is a very honest sign of value or worth. And really I think it's the easiest one to get. I had a lot of turmoil balancing my home, my family and my kids with my business because making money seemed like the easiest and most fulfilling route to my feeling worthy.

It's so easy in this world to manifest a life of beauty and abundance in the material world. It's easy to sell things to hungry people. They are people who don't understand the nature of their hunger. It's not as easy to create a life with rich relationships love and deep connection with others and the earth. This is where my true greed lies.

I was a Christian all my life but always managed to avoid the worst of the dogma that usually comes with it. I started listening to Eckhart Tolle, Leo and some other teachers about 5 years ago and made great progress in mastering my emotions and opening my mind to spirituality, but this winter things starting falling apart and everything I did to keep depression and desire at bay stopped working. Before that I started getting sensitive to energy from places and had started having mild mystical experiences but didn't notice them for what they were. I read a book by clairvoyant doctor who grew up in my town and was fascinated by how similar our lives were in ways. At the same time a friend who I had had a huge falling out with and I started really reconnecting. She asked me to read a marriage book that I thought was disgustingly conservative and anti-feminist but fancying myself "stage yellow" I decided to read it as a favor so I could help her. The book turned out to be the law of attraction as applied to marriage in disguise. I somehow immediately connected it as law of attraction and saw how much I needed those principals in my life in general. I started honoring my desires again and realized that I wanted to move away from the rural area I live in. I started doing everything in my power to make it happen and then started doubting and searched on youtube out of desperation for something like "should I move?" Abraham Hicks popped up. I don't even remember what she had to say about the subject but immediately I was hooked. My Grandmother died and I applied her teachings to dealing with her death. Mystical experiences continued, I tapped into her consciousness the night she died, and starting noticing and believing in my mystical experiences. I decided that I really wanted to teach spirituality so I changed my youtube channel from financial topics to spiritual ones and starting coming here. I started doing Wim Hof breathing to help put me in a realized state to film. I found the old foundation in the woods where the clairvoyant doctor had lived and started getting insights there. @tsuki and I had some interesting conversations here and I started a journal and then I started channeling, and channeling memories and doing shadow work and he led me through to having a no self experience in the journal. It was grueling in a way but also with bliss states for days, I hardly slept or ate for a couple of weeks, my dreams stopped and turned into LOUD unavoidable channeling of insights or memories. This simplifies the whole thing and glosses over a lot of things and people that really helped. Tied into it was my discovering the history of the clairvoyant doctor and uncovering different parts of his history along the way. One common theme was inexplicable magnetic attraction to people or places, and I realize that I was doing a lot of groundwork beforehand, or during my entire life to become sensitive to it. I'm awake but not all the way integrated, I still have useless energy sucking thought patterns playing out, I'm still unconscious of a lot. That was in April and I'm just now getting back to work and life and able to going deep states of presence again.

Last night I had one of those annoying repetitive dreams. I dreamed that we were going on a vacation and we were flying on a plane somewhere tropical. I've only flown once in my life, when I was 17 with my husband, then boyfriend and his parents. I have this dream a lot and normally I desperately don't want to go, my inlaws are always asking us to go on vacation with them but we always say no, and I especially don't like spending money on plane tickets and vacations and have a really weird resistance to travel. This time though, I really did want to go. I dreamed that I wasn't really packed and especially so because I didn't have my glasses or contacts and was totally going to be screwed. I couldn't decide if we should go back or if we would miss our plane. We went back and my husband didn't seem to give a crap the entire time if we missed the plane, this is typical of his attitude which is in my eyes almost always really relaxed to the point of complacency. He balances my high stung neurotism, but we'd both do well to balance out our own personalities. We went back, I grabbed some contacts and stuffed them in my pocket and we made it back on the plane. The stress I felt though... This is an area in life that really shows my learnt fear and focus on limitation. It's also funny that with my decision shortly before awakening to try my hardest to leave this place, I ended up fully falling in love with it. There's a new statue at the real life mansion summer home that I run to on long runs. Last summer I got sort of obsessed with the place, I'd run through the field of goldfinches and buttercups and there would be fountains and manicured gardens, a rare look as prosperity in this place. The stone statue is of a girl holding an american flag and her feet are broken off.

@pluto AWESOME list there, thanks!

He's like the grinch of nonduality. In his youtube videos he sits in his ugly wicker chair in a sloppy t shirt 3 sizes too big and flails around as he rants about stupid people. I mean, I enjoy the variety but it's not for everyone. There's a sense that he's fundamentally missing something very important that can make listening to him painful. Hopefully one of these days he'll get annoyed enough with the rest of us and venture out to steal Christmas. In comparison Eckhart Tolle and Rupert Spira give off an aura of peace and tranquility, they sound beautiful, they dress nicely and they even have pretty flowers in the background. There are way more enlightened and fully self-realized people in the world than you've ever heard of. Very few are famous or even well known.

I started using fluoride free toothpaste but I would not recommend the switch unless you've already cut way back on sugar in your diet. Then I found out that there's a ton of naturally occurring fluoride in tea, green tea and matcha. If you drink it get young leaf tea grown in Japan, not China. If you are concerned I would look at your entire diet, and not just your fluoride intake. Almond milk is full of calcium carbonate and other additives and preservatives are likely doing more harm than fluoride so I cut out my almond milk habit too. You can also add seaweed or a natural iodine supplement into your diet, it helps flush fluoride. I awakened without the use of psychedelics or much formal meditation, all the while I was drinking green tea and using fluoride toothpaste, so I don't think its a huge concern worth obsessing about. However our food system and environments are so contaminated that it does require a lot of knowledge and awareness to avoid the worst of it. The problem is definitely not just fluoride.

I think we are experiencing birth pains of bringing forth a more conscious community. Most of us came to this as lone wolves and unconsciously (or consciously) want to keep our old identity.

Not selfish at all, you just get blinded by your own light when someone tries to block it with a mirror.

It feels ground breaking and I feel stupid for not realizing this simple fact earlier, I meant what the hell is the law of attraction and Abraham Hicks all about? How am I this numb? More arguing for my own limitation.

This arguing for limitation is pervasive. It's the hidden agenda of almost every thought or at least every thought that doesn't feel good. My entire ego, and all the useless thoughts exist just to argue for my own limitation. It steals the energy away from action in its complaining and arguing for why this or that can't happen, and why this person is wrong or down to everyday frustrations like why I don't have energy to clean the kitchen, it's all just arguing for my own limitation. When I "saw", I was in a particular "place", I was in the cemetery.