mandyjw

"Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer That we'll find one another in that dream somewhere out there"

@peanutspathtotruth I can tell you for sure, the brain makes its own natural DMT. I don't know, but I suspect I've got enough of my own natural crazy to go around. All I was trying to say with that verse is that the external world, including psychedelics are imagined. Intention and intuition is everything. Life and awakening is one giant personalized scavenger hunt, not everyone finds the same clues along the way but we all unite together in the end.

@Nahm There's a paradox in glass art, glass wants to be round and naturally takes the form of a sphere, but it takes much practice and mastery of the craft to make, (allow) a perfect sphere shape.

@peanutspathtotruth I have benefited immensely from psychedelics though indirectly, through other's insights from them. I'm not bothered by the "let's go meet aliens" stuff at all, I am a little saddened by the assumption by some that the potential lies within the psychedelic rather than in the magic of reality or the perceiver themself. The power of nature is such that "one" does not have to physically eat the mushroom but only look at it to really see. However that also means that it makes no difference whether you literally do or no not ingest the "magical" forms of nature. "It’s not what goes into your body that defiles you; you are defiled by what comes from your heart.”- Jesus

Sneaky.

Power tools are great for building houses, not so great for delicate work. Men and their power tools, I swear to God it doesn't matter what hobby I get into, men are always obsessed with their equipment.

Nothing can give you insights directly. All psychedelics do is heighten sense perceptions and stop thought (all the same movement), when that happens, not matter how that occurs, insights come.

Everything is nothing can never be a belief, that's why it's such a powerful pointer because we're used to believing in stuff that isn't.

I think everyone has the tendency to get a little bit married to the "thing" or things that seemingly helped them awaken.

@ActualizedDavid I do. I'm not sure though, that my problem might be that I never interpreted much at all, just kinda enjoyed the ride... or didn't. Sometimes interpretation is contracting and sometimes it's expansive.

Thought about how I love Collective Soul and used to listen to them a lot. I never really thought about the band's name and it struck me and I just laughed. I never used to listen to song lyrics at all. What a shock, all the music I ever loved was all just leading me back to myself.

@abrakamowse I have looked into gnostic texts and teachings, there's some really cool stuff there. I'm open to answers wherever the come from, In a way I don't want to identify as a Christian just like I don't want to identify as anything unless it's appropriate in the moment. I just noticed that the problem of exclusivity and my being bothered with it started with the religion I was raised into and still persists now even going beyond/through that religion. If we create our reality and we believe in hell then we can experience it. But if we don't give it thought or belief how could we? What was your experience if you don't mind sharing more?

Is suffering the root of desire?

Made this especially for TruthAddict, but also myself and everyone else.

@Nahm You say I took the name in vain I don't even know the name But if I did, well really, what's it to you? There's a blaze of light in every word It doesn't matter which you heard The holy or the broken hallelujah I was returning from a run today, and I saw my neighbor's trash and her bending over it putting it out. All within the same time frame as seeing this, I thought, ugh I really don't want to interact with her right now and felt my heart contract. I noticed what happened, how the thought and sensation arose with the seeing and when I looked again, she had never really been there at all, all that was there was just a trashcan.

Sigh.

I was born high. I was taught that high = evil. High = shame. Being high is not safe. So I tried to cover it up and be something else, other than high. That just created suffering for me and everyone around me. My mom said that Leo has "cocaine eyes." To me that's love. High = Love.

@Dumuzzi But I want heaven on earth, NOW goddamn it! No, that's not right. I don't want paradise on earth, I want to lose myself working towards paradise on earth knowing all the while that it's already here within.

@Dumuzzi The same "privilege" of heaven applies no matter what the religion, the idea that there is a cycle to break free of and one who can break free at all creates a game of winners and losers. Just because this is the thing that ruined Christianity for me says nothing about Christianity, it says something about the model of religion itself. The same exact problem exists in Buddhism, Hinduism, and Actualized.org. If God himself was ever whole and perfect and decided to disperse into this what we often call mess and chaos, and you are God, and were never separate but always whole and always that... how could you ever get to state of realization where you would not make the same choice again to disperse into illusory form? Illusory form, the world just is what it is this moment is just occurs on its own, it just is. The question is why pursue enlightenment, why does this story line play out of a singular being breaking the illusion then continuing their life in the illusion enjoying the coming and going of forms, enjoying the illusion of other beings who are completely caught in the illusion. Out of compassion one tries to teach others to follow suit, but there is no one to follow, there is nothing to achieve and there are no others to teach. Yet to story of teachers and insights and the notion of a spiritual path is probably the most tantalizing entertaining thing you could do with your life. But it is delusion? Should we all just admit, we're just here to have a good time? I never could understand why almost all the videos on America's Funniest Home videos were people getting hurt. Why is it funny to see someone trip and fall or have some bizarre accident and get hurt? Could my compassion and love strictly my ego? Is the will of God that I am able to laugh when someone suffers? Does God enjoy everything that's happening? I don't want that. I want to be sad for the movie characters. I want to be happy for them. I want to live in illusion and delusion, even after I've seen through it to the perfection of love, even after I've awakened and lived in a state of bliss and seeing through eyes of perfection, I came back to this because I chose it. I like it better. I prefer it.

If you've ever read Harry Potter, why does Harry's story start out with him living in miserable conditions?

I live in a really isolated area, I never thought I would stay but circumstances have kept me here. I've frequently felt very stuck though. I ended up developing a strong spiritual connection to it, and started realizing how very little of it I explored or appreciated, just by exploring and appreciating it. I found some beautiful places I didn't know about and started waving to the guy who drives his lawn mower everywhere because he lost his license for too many DUIs. Noticed how much around the town is changing for the better and started meeting new interesting people. I decided i wanted to leave about a year ago and couldn't make it happen, and then the connection I had ended up deepening even more, in really strange ways. I bought a house here that was in really bad condition and it took years to renovate. By the end of it I got really discouraged and thought it would never be a nice home. Eventually I gave up on being miserable about it and started appreciating my house anyway and shortly after that we found the right people to hire and it ended up being way better than I ever imagined possible. The house taught me an important lesson about appreciation and feeling stuck.

@28 cm unbuffed No, just be very aware of everything you think, feel and do around that subject, pay attention to the structure, not the content. Things are not as they appear. For whatever reason I still really like to believe that Jesus and Mary Magdalene never had sex.