mandyjw

This is a huge problem with imbalanced masculinity and the delusion of independence, which came to light here in a big way when Obama said "You didn't build that." Sex or cannibalism? It was all only ever metaphorical. Jesus said to them, "Very truly I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Also "When you make the two into one, and when you make the inner as the outer, and the upper as the lower, and when you make male and female into a single one, so that the male shall not be male, and the female shall not be female: . . . then you will enter [the kingdom]." It was all only ever about nonduality.

Well, that depends on how loosely you define Jesus. Was Mary Magdalene literally a whore or only metaphorically?

@remember I think we're like trees. Trees don't define themselves, they bear both the fruit and the seeds within the fruit. Independence is a complete fiction within duality, but as One you are ultimately independent by nature as you are the whole. Independence is only a freeing revelation to you if you believed you were dependent, dependence is only a freeing revelation to you if you believed you were independent. Enlightenment is only realizing the truth of that which we would not accept about ourselves.

I have wanted to speak to animals my entire life. Turns out the only thing that was limiting me were my own limited beliefs about communication and what "I" was. @Derek White Crows are truly a link between the false duality of dead and alive, a messenger and have been recognized as such since ancient times. I noticed a poison nightshade plant growing on the grave of a herbal doctor from the 1800's. I thought this was incredibly hilarious and interesting. Other odd circumstances that happened whenever I visited his grave (I've always just enjoyed cemeteries) lead me to read his book, which later lead to my realizing that he was not just an herbal healer but clairvoyant, awake and described how he awakened. It was all just part of a story line that aided in allowing duality to collapse for me. The day I awoke I had an impulse to leave my most prized possession on his grave, which happened to be an antique ring from the 1800's. It wasn't until after that I realized the stone bird baths by the grave were for the crows, who dropped the nightshade seed there to begin with, who took my ring as an "offering." Crows and dogs are both incredibly smart animals that live in close connection with humans and observe them carefully. The entire world, including the animal world is you, so it makes sense that crows and dogs would act as messengers at certain times. They can channel and have impulses from greater intelligence just like we can.

@remember I guess my name isn't Mandy for nothin'. It's funny how "the bride of Christ", romantic, marriage and sexual metaphors in various religions over the ages, and when you get right down to it attraction and sex ITSELF is just one big metaphor for enlightenment, for the mindfuck that takes place within your own psyche.

The Heroine's Journey https://maureenmurdock.com/?page_id=366 Integration is supposed to be the ultimate purpose of enlightenment, The Hero's Journey or The Heroine's Journey. People just start from different points. "The final stage of The Heroine’s Journey is the Sacred Marriage of the Masculine and Feminine, the hieros gamos. A woman remembers her true nature and accepts herself as she is, integrating both aspects of her nature. It is a moment of recognition, a kind of remembering of that which somewhere at the bottom she has always known. The current problems are not solved, the conflicts remain, but one’s suffering, as long as she does not evade it, will lead to a new life. In developing a new feminine consciousness, she has to have an equally strong masculine consciousness to get her voice out into the world. The union of masculine and feminine involves recognizing wounds, blessing them, and letting them go. The heroine must become a spiritual warrior. This demands that she learn the delicate art of balance and have the patience for the slow, subtle integration of the feminine and masculine aspects of her nature. She first hungers to lose her feminine self and merge with the masculine, and once she has done this, she begins to realize this is neither the answer nor the objective. She must not discard nor give up what she has learned throughout her heroic quest, but view her hard-earned skills and successes not so much as the goal but as one part of the entire journey. This focus on integration and the resulting awareness of interdependence is necessary for each of us at this time as we work together to preserve the health and balance of life on earth (Murdock, 1990, p.11). In the Navaho Creation Story Changing Woman speaks to her consort the Sun: “Remember, as different as we are, you and I, we are of one spirit. As dissimilar as we are, you and I, we are of equal worth. As unlike as you and I are, there must always be solidarity between the two of us. Unlike each other as you and I are, there can be no harmony in the universe as long as there is no harmony between us” (Zolbrod,1984, p. 275)."

Planning out my next youtube video, feeling a bit self conscious because I just finished watching Leo's newest video and at the end Leo says not to copy him and make youtube videos, so I wrote in all caps on the top of the notebook page CREATE, and the word ATE jumped out at me. creATE There's nothing new under the sun. Consume, be inspired, inspire, copy, reproduce, you can't ever not be uniquely you, and you can't ever be separately and completely unique. Jesus said to them, "Very truly I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. And... right now my daughter is banging on the keyboard and singing, " I don't care what you SAY, I just do what I DO!"

In the past week or so when I really look in my daughter's eyes there's this wild but impossible to describe quality there and I realize that it has nothing to do with me and I really have no explanation of how she or it got here. Going home for the holidays give you the feels Leo?

This is something that for awakening purposes you want to become conscious of on it's own or it can be like needlessly creating your own drama, which is fine, but not if you're not having fun with it. With that said, there is value in having the intention to address these things, you just want to let them arise when they are ready. Ask yourself, or whatever, I'll ask you, what are you seeking from doing this? What is the outcome you want? The inner child was a big aspect of the psyche I became conscious of with my shadow work experience. It's all tied with recognizing the stuff your parents left you to deal with and how it was dealt with, how smooth your transition from childhood to adulthood was, what parts of your inner child you disowned or traded in in favor of "maturity" and acceptance from others. Going through your old bedroom, or else old stuff from childhood, and really considering the things you either strongly loved or hated as a child can all be good places to look. In my experience it was a like a collapse of time or life flashing before my eyes and seeing how puzzle pieces fit in together kind of thing. I also realized that the most traumatic experiences I had had as a child were actually self created near awakenings that I lacked the understanding, support or maturity to follow through with. Go into it with the assumption that, it was all for Good, it was all Love and it all lead you to and is this very moment. You are the child, you will always be the child, the child never was.

“Child,’ said the Lion, ‘I am telling you your story, not hers. No one is told any story but their own.” ― C.S. Lewis, The Horse and His Boy

Overcoming selfish cravings does not look like any particular outward state, decision or life situation. Love without attachment is a paradoxical overcoming and surrender to.

Attraction itself is a beautiful thing, that can only exist if there is some level of incompleteness. You don't want the whole world handed to you on a silver platter at birth, you'd never appreciate it and you would ironically feel as if you had been robbed of something. You want to desire, you want to long for things. When you understand this, that you want to want, it almost cancels itself out just like a positive and negative magnet and the mechanism of attraction itself. There's the wholeness, within the wanting.

@remember I see. How does it feel though?

@remember What we are doing here with nonduality and spirituality is seeing through the ultimate duality of good and bad. It is the mechanism itself of judgement existing within ourselves, it is that separation itself that is seen through. Judgement and separation is self destructive and any cause it decides to take on it will ultimately destroy as well. If you love animals, love. Love the future world you want to see with peace and respect for all beings. If you split your energy, if you love the animals but not the animals who eat other animals, you give away all your power. You were never separate from any of it.

@remember If you want to make a change, moralization and shaming oneself or others is counterproductive and leads to backlash, and self hatred. There are lots of other ways to motivate yourself to go vegetarian, there are inspiring people who talk about the diet, there is the love of animals itself, the way eating cleaner makes you feel, thinking about the positive changes for the world and environment. I have a new puppy and having him around makes me want to eat much less meat, but other things around me to seem to be helping me make that decision as well. When a change should be made things start to line up to help you with it. We don't need to use the same tactics to get people to stop eating meat that religions use to keep people from having premarital sex because we all know how harmless and effective those are.

LOVE ITSELF IS CREATED MEANING! That's what THIS is!!! OF COURSE it's possible to see love in something as mundane and everyday as numbers. If you deny meaning you also deny love behind creation, if you get stuck on the meaning you also miss the love. Like the nature of nonduality, meaning itself cannot be accepted or denied, it is you.

There's no done. And...it's already done. The author of a book is living their happily ever after, dreaming and creating a story, even though they might write harrowing or torturous scenes they love their characters as an aspect of themselves and their imagination the entire time. As Alan Watts said, but summarized in my own words, the Christian idea of heaven is boring AF. You came for this. Maybe your story has a happy ending where all the pieces fall into place, or maybe there are questions left unanswered, you're the author. Don't judge a book by its ending.

@Rasheed Gifts and scavenger hunt notes from you to you. When I was little my sister and I used to love hiding little animals and toys in the sand for us to forget about and discover later. This is your/God's sandbox. If you can get a lot of time in nature it's the most amazing breeding ground for those sort of gifts or reminders.

@Rasheed When you are in alignment, numbers align, stars align, it's all you.

You make the meaning. This is not a dismissal of the meaning, it's quite the opposite.

That's the miracle of creation. There seems to be a somebody or a something with a background story and a future dream, plan or trajectory.

How do you exist in the first place? That question is just as unanswerable as the God one. When you see that you don't, and yet, here THIS is, the God question gets answered in a beautifully non answerable way too. It's the same question being asked, by the same asker.

Just throwing this out there, it's interesting that you do cocaine because you want to connect with your brother and his friends, and perhaps when you are high this desire or intention for connection can only be interpreted in a very base sexual way? Is it possible that you have a desire to build an honest relationship with your brother or other male friends? Something tells me that while your relationship with your brother is a close one, it is not an honestly close one because he would understand and honor your desires for a better life and self actualization more than partying. @Surfingthewave Has some great suggestions. Focus on self love and self care. Your thoughts are weaving a lot of story lines about being unworthy that are not in any way true. Art, nature, meditation, running, yoga, music, comedy or anything healthy you love that puts you into a different positive state are the best tools to interrupt these thoughts. Make a conscious resolution not to entertain these thoughts anymore. The need to connect and engage with things we don't actually chose to connect with will go away if we can allow ourselves to truly connect with ourselves. You are worthy of love. No thought that says otherwise is true.

We don't get to let go of the things we don't want. There is no you to let go of them. Hint, the OCD and fears is deepest unignorable guidance. It so desperately wants you to be free, (because it is your higher self knowing what you want most), it makes you too uncomfortable to settle for less. What is letting go in a world of love where every challenge and bad experience is a clarifying, character defining, motivating moment to make you go in the direction you must go? You are not a character in a story, you play a character, but you are the author. The author puts challenges and limitations in front of the character she created out of love. When they are loved as part of the story, there is no need to let go, to sort through your emmories and chose the ones you like and the one's you do not. It is the death of the limited character who judges between good and bad, wanted and unwanted. He then wakes up to see that what he wants is the entirety, and the limitations and scars in his backstory. Then he is free to consciously dream and guide his story as both author and character. By the way, the only way you can be conscious of a dark night at all is because you are the light.

Interesting topic. Think and Grow Rich was written in 1937, at that time opportunities for women to take the lead or go it on their own in business were pretty much non-existent. The only way to mask and also fulfill your ambition would be to find a man to support or be the face of your endeavors. Still works today. In my opinion women are more accepting of others taking the credit if need be, but no less ambitious about making real change for the better.