mandyjw

Not particles, not part, whole, hole. Who made UP with the English language anyway?

I tried to cut myself off from the past, my desires and use spirituality as a bypass for all that stuff, in my belief that the present moment was all there was. I ended up going far enough in that direction, that I basically "vomited up" my issues and past trauma, seeing through it as a story that was perfectly designed and connected... with the present moment. It all goes full circle. It's all one. Never fear of neglecting one in favor of the other.

My daughter is literally dancing around singing "Let It Go" as I type.

@SoonHei Love without restraint

Does energy have an opposite? If we're made of "particles", moving (back and forth, all around) so fast it's as if they are still, or we are made of movement or energy itself, we are literally made of, ARE back and forths... without restraint. The "without restraint", or nothing, must be the "opposite" of energy? That's... well, miraculous. So if energy is light... Love. Its opposite is not, it's without restraint.

I like this. The question got sparked in another thread in which I was remembering my religious background and remembered really doubting my faith and questioning it and then I asked myself, "but what is THIS? How could God be any more impossible than THIS" and I realized that depression and doubt always sort of lead to or came from that question, what is THIS right in front of me, how is it possible? And I realized the same exact question was asked when I asked what is happiness and what is depression, or why do I experience both and can I have one without the other? What is doubt and what is knowing? And oh, how I trick myself into wanting one thing over the other. I've been asking the same question my entire life. Different words, same question. Woah. Ok. The mind is continuously and sneakily taking Good and trying to make it into good, and then it feels bad. And even this is Good.

Stay or leave. Together, to go there. What does Abraham Hicks actually teach? How to TRULY not "have" desires!!! From the Tao Te Ching, 3. Always without desire we must be found, If its deep mystery we would sound; But if desire always within us be, Its outer fringe is all that we shall see. The work is done, but how no one can see; 'Tis this that makes the power not cease to be.

@Nahm Me neither.

In the middle of the riddle one feels little.

In the middle of the riddle one feels little. Why do we ask questions? Who wants to know? I'll meet you in the middle? Meet, meat. John 6:53 So Jesus said to them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in yourselves." "The band's name came from a crayon drawing made after an incident between Linton's younger brothers, Jim and Ed Linton, who fought frequently. Jim usually won, but Ed sought revenge by drawing a picture of Jim shoving the Earth into his mouth; the picture bore the caption "Jimmy eat world" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jimmy_Eat_World

Oooo... Why does there seem to be connection and disconnection? How can there be connection without disconnection? How can there be connection if there is no me? How can there be disconnection unless there are two or more? Why does connection feel good and disconnection feel bad? Why does it seem like when I'm disconnected, I can't connect? Why do I make two out of the one? Who does this serve? Am I the problem or the solution?

The atheist and the believer are one. God and Love are taking it a step too far. Where does the question stop and the answer begin? We're on the same page.

@tsuki It's only fun till you've had e nuf. No one remembers exactly when that was though.

Why is there something rather than nothing? Why is there duality? Why must everything have an opposite? What was (are? I wrote "was" instead of are, era spelled backwards) we doing here, realizing the underlying transcending oneness of duality itself? The nondual and the dual can never be separate. The one is many, it's always many, it can never NOT BE MANY, just as it can never NOT BE ONE. Is this true, or am I bullshitting myself? Did I not choose to bullshit myself, am I not the magician putting on a show and the audience together for the purpose of entertainment? DOCTRINE says it's ONE. It's ONE MOTHER FUCKERS. (doctrine, the doctor's in, and it's been doctored. No illness, no doctor) Why the back and forth? Why the good and bad? Why when I got sick when I was a kid, really sick, all my desires and identifications disappeared and there was suffering. There was studying the patterns on the linoleum of the floor, and existential questioning, a desire for death over suffering. And when it lifted there was a bliss state. Or when I had my wisdom teeth out, 18 hours later, there was a bliss state. Is the bliss state just a "goody" as Preetom says? Is it something more or is that wishful thinking? Is it like the cork shooting back to the surface after it's been held down, far under the surface of the water? The further you hold the cork down, the higher it shoots out of the water from the pressure, it's like loading a gun. Fear is a tricky thing. It's afraid to be wrong. Where does wrong start and right begin? Fear is afraid to venture out for fear that it will suffer because of it. The desire to transcend conditions itself CANNOT come out of fear. It must come out of love. Fear is resistance, cutting itself off. It is afraid of itself, and yet it serves itself. This flip state seems to be the entire purpose of our existence. No fear, no courage. So then, what is the difference between fully accepting conditions and transcending them? Is not fear and depression a beautiful building up to their opposites, and then, where does the fear end and love start? Does not the view from a high cliff on a mountain stun and awe, where fear and beauty merge and are felt fully? Where does depression end and happiness start? Where do they meet in the middle? Do they cancel each other out? So then, how can there be opposites at all if one does not have a beginning or end, if they cancel themselves out in the middle, what is the middle called? What is the opposite of energy? Where does the question stop and the answer begin? So why is there something rather than nothing?

Hilarity and also the deepest form of love is love itself, singing this to itself. Pull away, so you can come closer again. Forget so you can discover and know again.

He also said that I am "projecting the world", creating and consuming it all at once. So if there is no inner and no outer, how can happiness NOT come from my inner resonance and acceptance of outer conditions. The conditions are not suffering themselves, the lack of acceptance of those conditions as aspects of the self is suffering. It's really tricky not to cut off and reject an aspect of one's Self and not to turn some sort of conditionless state into another ideal of the mind. Is there an underlying fear that by embracing something, one will become lost and venture away from the "safety" of some sort of conditionless state?

We're afraid of what we want most of all. How does that even make sense? It doesn't. We're afraid of our own abusive inner critic, thoughts. I came out of the door and looked back into the window in the door at my reflection. Instead of seeing my face I saw a blinding light where my face should be and remembered that I had turned a bright light on and thought this was poetic. Then perfectly on cue within seconds, a huge flock of birds flew right over my head loudly and I looked up into the sky to see the moon over the trees. Imagine image imagin i magic Made in the image of God, imagination of Self. This song was the "devil" when I grew up. I remember being horrified by the lyrics. "Imagine there's no heaven" Imagine all the people Sharing all the world You may say that I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us And the world will live as one

Suffering and pain are not constant at all if there can be things in between. If those are conditions, so is suffering. You are created in the image (imagination) of God (you). Imagine what you want. Train your brain to only notice and attention to the conditions you want to experience. That's your freedom. The magic of appreciating and fully feeling amazing feelings is that you get more of them. What are you afraid of?

It really sounds like signs of a virus or illness coming on. Also as @OctagonOctopus there are all kinds of different migraines, that can be triggered by different foods and food additives. If the flashing lights don't stop without other symptoms consider seeing an eye doctor.

Learn something new that's difficult for you, that you have zero experience or natural talent in, and use it as a practice of self love and not judging yourself. Also make a list of things you enjoy doing just for fun, and do one everyday.

What about inspiration, passion, gratitude, peace, love, joy, awe, appreciation, connection. Are any of these happiness, are any of them not? There's conscious connection and acceptance with Self, all states that feel good are forms of connection.

Oh. My. God. Kundalini energy much? She's absolutely enchanting.

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