mandyjw

Just that different situations and interacting with different people for different reasons brings out different aspects of someone's personality.

There's never the experience of mystical nonsense, because "nonsense" is judgement of it, just like the image of a master sitting in a corner implies someone judging his student. Maybe I'm reading into that but that's what it brings to mind. The master is the student. The master doesn't sit anywhere or watch anything that's not himself.

There is no separation between mystical nonsense and nondual awareness? That sounds... liberating. And FUN. Sounds fun. Maybe terrifying? Who knows?

@Artsu Does a chameleon have a favorite color?

One thing that helps me is to start with really small and seemingly insignificant things that make me happy and feel good to plan, do or think about. Buy a new houseplant, make a new recipe, look up a long lost favorite comic strip, that kinda thing. Sometimes we put too much weight on our dreams and sometimes they can actually hinge on something that seems very small and insignificant. Because really it's inseparable. “We can do no great things, only small things with great love.” -Mother Teresa Of course there are no great things or small things, just great love.

Yes, but that's partly because they haven't been trained their entire lives to be wary around men, told not to travel, explore, take risks, let down their guard. Men's frontal lobes don't even fully mature until 25. That's a huge liability. My mom was in extreme physical danger after her first relationship, and even though my dad was a really good guy, she would never stand up to him even when he was very wrong. I was taught always to keep the peace at all costs and back down when dealing with men.

Sure it is, if you are on the right side of what you're scared of and believe has the most power, if you join it and give it motivation to protect you, you're very safe. Maybe. If you fuck the devil himself what could possibly touch you then? If the strongest man in the tribe with the worst temper claims you as his, you're very safe. It comes out of a deep fear and need for security. The more desperate and unconscious our fear, the more stupid and dangerous the things we do to ourselves to avoid it. There's a difference between having your very survival threatened, finding yourself in a bad position in a dark parking lot just because you had to use the restroom on a long drive in the middle of the night and the fear you feel when you're going after something you want and give someone's words and reactions the power to diminish you yourself. Her bitter mocking reactions only come from the deep wounds a woman has around being treated like a piece of meat. Maybe if we stopped believing so strongly that we are just bodies that there's nothing for either men or women to fear.

I've noticed that Adyashanti, Jed McKenna and Leo fall much more on the truth/profound spectrum of enlightened teachings. While there's a love/childlike wonder/hilarity side that one might need to explore more to counter-intuitively go deeper into the true and profound. Maybe it's my bias but I see that as a common imbalance on the forum in general towards the truth/profound side. Because that was also my bias when I finally opened my mind to the law of attraction and Abraham Hicks shortly after a breakthrough happened and blindsided me. Just thought it was some sort of demon-possessed materialism gone to seed before. Everyone is different though.

@Johnny5 I haven't read it but I think he is talking about the same thing as Roger Castillo talks about it as no doership. That's something I've been contemplating/observing a lot lately.

@Johnny5 No problem, I don't mind posts in my journal.

I can't help but wonder... is your real objective to make sure our overpopulation problem gets solved?

Attraction is a living breathing thing, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Attraction to a person or thing can be conditioned or conditioned out of you. If there's physical abuse there might be a deep reason behind this feeling that has nothing to do with her looks.

@Johnny5 Ok, feel free to PM me if you'd like/can.

It's not either/or, so it really is like having your cake and eating it too. I'm feeling this a lot lately, and also there are times when it's cloudy again and I can't quite see it. Those times are not your fault. Like a toddler learning to walk, you get back up again after you fall and over time you fall less and less. As for having your cake and eating it too, for example I'll really enjoy and relish the thought of reading a book without holding myself to feeling bad when I completely lose interest in the book. I realize that the idea of the book in its whole form is just some idea and expectation I've trained myself to and that I'm completely free to love and have books and intuitively flip to pages or just enjoy the look and feel of them on the shelf. There's nothing I need to get from them. I realize that books are a concept rather than something actual, and I that can only read one word at a time. In a way you could say I've "given up" books, but in reality I've only unleashed the freedom to enjoy them and love them as never before. Before I always had this ingrained backlash before i got into consciousness work at all, when I would get really, really happy, I would come up with a massive atomic bomb negative thought to destroy it all. "What if this goes away?" "What if some tragedy happens?" Now when those thoughts occur, I'm able to see the illusion/perfection in what is, and just sheer enjoy it. You could think of it this way too, most people spend their whole lives in the pleasure/pain mode. The fear of death comes up and they quickly change to chasing the next thing as distraction. The path we've stumbled upon here is presenting the monster of death/illusion/reality up front to be confronted, now. Instead of it lurking in the woods for the next 10 miles of the trip, we're facing it and accustoming ourselves to the fact that it is only a threat in the mind and means no harm. Yesterday when I cut my finger I realized that the fear and pain came in so uselessly AFTER I cut my finger. Especially when I had to change the bandage on it, threatening to make me pass out, hit my head on the toilet and be in even more trouble. I mean really, WHY, what's the point in that reaction? I don't know why I can only see it for what it is. Next time I'll be more mindful when I use a vegetable peeler. Maybe. If I even remember and aren't thinking about something else. But all that regret and pain was completely useless. I wasn't in control of any of it. You can drop the preservation agenda, and still care very much for your life and your body. You care even more because the preservation agenda was actually really counterproductive and a danger in itself. I've done so many things like this, giving myself an infection because I used peroxide on a wound so much I prevented them from healing. That's the sort of dangerous neurosis your giving up. Life is still very much a wonderful priceless gift. So priceless it can't be lost. I don't want to compete but help enhance and expand if anything. No, didn't know it had a meaning.

@DrewNows Because Jenna Marbles is my idol. Also it works with my schedule well and because most of the people who follow me also follow Leo so it's not to compete with his videos.

@Johnny5 I know that feeling. There seem to be some major back and forth backlashes along the way. You doing ok? I like to use my natural born ADD as a counter-intuitive asset in this work to completely distract me sometimes. Abraham Hicks recordings on youtube are great for backlashes too.

I think it's a feng shui thing. All about creating certain atmospheres in the home. https://www.nst.com.my/property/2018/07/389944/feng-shui-right-place-lovely-thorny-plants#:~:text=According to basic Feng Shui,placed in a wrong area.&text=A living room is an area for you to relax.

I think it's because you may subconsciously have fear and tension around them because of the possibility of being hurt by it, falling on it, or something like that.

That's pretty much spot on. Also could be said like this, we don't know what we want because we can't name it, so it changes by the minute. Good luck!

I think if you accept that there will be back and forths it goes a lot better. There are backlashes with everything, but if we don't identify with them, it cuts the power of them over us. Try to find out what is triggering the binge eating, what time of day do they happen, etc? Journaling from a curious, NOT judgmental perspective could be really insightful. Also eating a good breakfast with protein and adding veggies into your diet and making that a habit can have really positive effects. You don't succeed by focusing on behavior you don't want, so instead focus on adding in healthy habits that inspire you. Also scheduling in treats can help for some people, because they look forward to the treat rather than focusing on deprivation. It's really about watching your own psychology and feelings around food because we have our own unique motivations and fears around food. Judgement blocks us from seeing them, so curiosity is key.

Whaaaat? I don't think. But overthinking is why I'm here.

When you're close to passing out part of your vision starts to black out and when you close your eyes it's sort of reversed as bright light. Funny how we have two eyes but see one fields of vision, we make up for blind spots and our visual field doesn't end, it's endless, we imagine it ends. If we look for the edges where it fades out, you just chose a new focus. You'll never find the edges of sight, just like infinity. You'd think that living our whole lives we'd notice or think about this at some point but we haven't. Lived our whole lives.

Looking at my signature quote. My pointer finger has a bandage on it. Just had a horrible feeling thought about summer going away and insecurity about coronavirus next winter and then started humming this tune. Took a long time to remember what the song actually was, had to ask my husband to confirm. The world is your snowball, see how it grows, That's how it goes, whenever it snows. The world is your snowball just for a song, Get out and roll it along! Merry Christmas.

There's no duality. Past and future occur now, but that also means that there is no "now" in opposition to the past or future. You know by how it feels when you think of the past and future if you're thinking about them the way your True Self sees them. If it feels good to remember something, it will likely bring around more amazing experiences in kind. If it feels awful to remember something likewise it will bring about more experiences like it. If it feels bad to remember something good out of longing for it, don't. If it feels good like nostalgia, do. You can even experience such an open hearted open-minded state that memories that you always thought were awful occur to you and are seen in a new light and are seen in a big picture context.