mandyjw

The mind constantly wants to check in and ask "how are we doing". It's worse than kids in the back of the car on a long trip repeating "are we there yet?". Just watch and notice your mind when it tries to check in on itself like that.

@RedLine Have you ever had the infuriating experience of having someone feel sorry for you over something you weren't even suffering for and didn't even feel like you were missing? Like for example they felt sorry that your parents were too poor to take you to the carnival but in reality, roller coasters make you puke and you'd much rather have stayed home?

Subjective. Has no real substance behind it, it's based on nothing. Happens completely all on it's own and also paradoxically seems completely controllable. I stop imagining monsters under my bed and they no longer scare me. I stop imagining my bed in deep sleep and nothing bad happens.

My problem with the analogy (one of them) is that it implies that falling in love is the result of a massive desperate effort that both suffer for. That's not accurate, unless you believe that's how things should be and so therefore that's how you also experience them. Like attraction, love happens, just the same as shit happens. Well, it's not really about what would make me happy, sadly cause I've noticed that when people change just to make me happy I only ask for more and stay unhappy. I used to think that the D&D was a complete waste of time but I've come around to appreciating it a lot more.

Hmm.. this actually worked for me quite well. Husband plays D&D instead of lifts weight but oh well, it was either that or alone with 10 cats. Yep and since everyone was saying "don't have sex", everyone had tons of sex. Now that people think they should be having sex they don't have sex.

@Max_V Have you looked into Temple Grandin? She has some great insights into autism. I have a 7 year old son who has mild autism. One thing I've found in my research is that it's important to be aware of weaknesses, but also more important to become aware of and develop strengths. In my experience people on the spectrum are gifted in certain areas and if allowed to follow their interests those interests then have a way of giving them the strength and motivation to develop in the areas they are weak in. That's pretty much the story of Temple Grandin's life. She has written a few books and has several talks on youtube.

Have you read the Gospel of Thomas? http://gnosis.org/naghamm/gosthom.html Also check out the other gospels, I especially love the book of John. Jesus speaks in riddles quite often, it can take quite a long time to understand many of them (weeks, years, decades, lifetimes, who knows ) but when you do it's worth it. I would suggest reading them straight from the source and doing serious contemplation on your own. There's nothing quite so rewarding as that in my opinion, I like teachings straight from the source, but it's also great to have some help interpreting sometimes. Just keep in mind that following interpretations of original nondual teachings is how religions get started.

It's about resolving duality. There is wanted and unwanted. You cannot rid yourself of your wants but you can become conscious that what is unwanted is illusory. That's how the law of attraction works, what you think about you get more of. What you fear shows up to face you. Not because you've been this bad person who has so little self control that they can't control their thoughts, but to show you that your fear is love. There is no duality between material and... not. It's nothing and something at the same time. Therein lies its potential. When you judge something as unwanted you give it substance and meaning, yet you also wish it away. It's the most painful recognition of duality, because it's a terrible misunderstanding. We do this with illness and we do it with the ego. We make the devil real, breathing life into it ourselves and we paint its face with our minds, and then wish our very own creation would cease to exist and leave us alone.

Narcissists and victims, doormats, codependents, etc, all have to exist as characters in the story of life of duality. If you are God, wouldn't you think yourself to be pretty damn special? If you are Nothing wouldn't you think yourself to be insignificant and powerless? If you are both simultaneously what would you think yourself to be? What would you think others to be?

You cannot accurately summarize your past. You can only pick bits and pieces of it to recall in the moment. You'll never get a grasp on your own past, much less anyone else's. However what we think ourselves to be is the bits and pieces of the past that we give power over us, and chose to define ourselves with. So if you see someone stuck on something in their past or actively trying to push it away they will unconsciously create their future to reflect it. Lessons are repeated until they are fully learned. That's why it's not so much about evaluating and judging what someone did in the past itself but being able to sense what kind of things they focus on and think themselves to be.

This is kind of inspiring AF actually. You have every reason in the world to go for your dreams, all out, all in, especially if those dreams are for creating a more harmonious world. If status quo and societal expectations of success were holding you back it helps to know that they are a sinking ship that will shortly be at the bottom of the ocean anyway. Only thing to do is learn to surf and have a great time doing it. What if those kids are going to be completely key to finding a solution? You and the apparent "ego" are perfect manifestations of nature itself. The apparent separation, the feeling that nature is good and humans are bad and apart from infinite intelligence is the ego, the illusion of separation itself. Everything will be alright whether it includes humans or not. Everything is already more alright than you can ever know. Obsessing over the environment isn't the belief that nature is as important than humans, it's saying that the humans that exist and believe they are in control of things must maintain that position, they must maintain their intellectual superiority to nature. The never had that intellectual superiority. It's sheer illusion. They are as one with it themselves, as the oneness they observe in the circle of life and believe themselves to be apart from as the observer, (and worrier).

Enlightenment seems to be about allowing the mystical and magical to bubble up and overtake you, then to have the wherewithal to kill it or look behind the curtain. The artist/creator knows the depths of pure magic that went into a painting as well as the utilitarian, practical nature of the paint and canvas better than anyone who just looks at the finished piece.

There is a lot of material out there to scare, shock and shame people into environmental change. It doesn't work. What we need is more inspiration for environmental change. Ironically if Leo made his how to get a hot witch girlfriend video it would probably do more good for the environment than a lot of the other stuff out there aiming at that. We need more people to truly connect and fall in love with nature. Teaching spirituality and getting more people to become aware that what they seek is true contentment is much more effective than reiterating the fact that environmental destruction is a massive problem. Also all the stuff about society and government is all part of working toward the mindset shift that is necessary to really mitigate and stop environmental destruction. More awareness isn't working, we need inspired change. Just my opinion.

Doctors have just caught on to the fact that more is connected than they thought and they are still reeling. "Oh my GOD, gut health affects all these OTHER conditions! Who would have thought? Gut health is the key!!!" But everything... EVERYTHING is connected.

Invest more in teachers. Pay them much more, educate them better and give them much more freedom to teach as they see fit. The things I remember the most from school were the things my teachers taught me because they were passionate about them themselves. Also Seth Godin's Stop Stealing Dreams is free to read online, it's excellent. https://seths.blog/wp-content/uploads/2019/05/stop-stealing-dreams6print.pdf

My take is that any business that is providing an essential service, food, medical care, housing, have the potential to be very conscious or very unconscious. Just consider the variety of food businesses there are from organic family farms to coca cola.

@billiesimon Ever lost yourself so much in a game that you started having a miserable time, hated everyone you were playing with for being competitive with you, and completely forgot that the game was supposed to be fun and wanted to quit? Sometimes I think those of us who want to awaken us are just such sore losers who take everything so seriously that they ask to see through the premise of the whole thing. Once you're reminded that you're playing for sheer fun and not just your own fun, but everyone's fun, the entire game changes.

How can you know easy and kind if you don't know hard and cruel? The suffering is the illusion of duality and opposites which allow the Good to be. There are opposites but no opposition. Thinking veils and covers over the fundamental Good. Feeling discovers it but thinking says "don't go there, feeling is where hurt happens to me." Counter-intuitive.

City lights are flashing, they call you to the streets Hearts are filled with passion in everyone you meet The Boulevard is waiting, it wants to get you high Neon signs are waiting to sell you anything you want to buy But I know your devices, it shouldn't seem so odd You lied from the beginning, I see through your facade Angel of light, I see you glow in the night But you only bring darkness to my soul Angel of light, You're telling me wrong is right I won't let you're evil take control They follow in your footsteps not knowing that you fell Bumper to bumper on the freeway to hell You lead them into wrong and you make it look so right You lead them into darkness and make them think you lead them into light But I know where you're going, too bad you're not alone If it wasn't for the real light I might have never known You got the clergy working overtime to widen the narrow way You've got politicians everywhere listening to what you say You've got false apostles teaching lies perverting the only way You've got principalities and powers waiting to obey You've got philosophies and vain deceipts lying to deceive You've got hate, and greed, ungodly lusts in the deadly web you weave Somehow you've got so many thinking you're not even there One look is all it takes to get them blinded by your glare I programmed my brain with this song above as a kid. This is my favorite at the moment, synchronicity is funny. You and me and all your inspiration my love We lightning riders, we lightning riders, we're one You and me and all the nah, nah, nah's in our lungs We lightning riders, we lightning riders, we're one I'm just blowing up, blowing up These bridges behind me Yeah, I'm just blowing up, blowing up These bridges behind me I'm just blowing up, blowing up These bridges behind me Yeah, I'm just blowing up, blowing up And now I glow in the dark

Spiral dynamics progression of the imagined God.

Hmm.. I've never really purposefully journaled to try to work through stuff, it just comes up. What is purposefully? I suppose I've been contemplating that lately. I've been on such a great feeling spree, feel like I've hit a bit of a wall though. I want big things. Pretty sure I'm holding myself back by thinking I'm bad and unworthy. The youtube videos I make highlight this. The judgmental feelings of myself they bring up and the anxiety posting them and reading comments can be a lot. A few weeks ago I was really excited about them. Just went to check, and there's a brand new SUPER mean comment. It's almost funny how quickly I'm getting what I'm focusing on right now. Reminds me of the time mom told me not to step over a fallen tree while skating and I put one foot over it and it went right through the ice. I don't even have to have the karma boomerang leave my hand to smack myself in the head with it. Hmm... Fuuuuuuuuuuck. Sorry, this is a stream of consciousness flow now. I don't know why. Apple blossoms. Why do antique clocks make me feel so weird? Is ADD a gift? Streams of consciousness flow are bullshit. I don't even know what the fuck I'm conscious of, sure as hell can't write it all down. It's separating the mental voice from feelings, so everything that's thought has to come out in words, which isn't normally how I "think". Thoughts are thoughts and never separate, so I'm separating out my thoughts purposefully by doing a stream of consciousness flow. . Is that why talking to people helps? I feel like wanting an audience makes me a narcissist, and I feel like wanting to make money off spirituality makes me even worse than that. And that doesn't feel good, so obviously it's not true. Sometimes I feel like throwing the settlers of cattan cards of life in the air. I don't fuckin' wanna play anymore. I quit trying to be vegan and started eating meat again. Lost 7-8 pounds in three weeks and got my energy back. I was doing it for my consciousness. There is an energetic thing with it, I think. One of the last realizations the day I awakened was that of communion. "What did you have for lunch?" Nahm PMed me. Ground beef. I was barely eating, I lost a several pounds over the couple weeks leading up to it. "Cows are holy and that's why you must eat them." I wrote in that journal. Realization that I'm the devil. 666 post. What the fuck does that mean? Who knows. "You're a bitch, scam like all of them." The youtube comment says. Well, at least I'm in good company. Incredible how that comment aligns with the thoughts I've been thinking. Today I was thinking about how if I was Eckhart Tolle I'd think I was a horrible speaker. But because I'm not he is perfect. Journaling never fails to satisfy. "All humor is self deprecating." I wrote that on the forum twice in the past 24 hours. Awful youtube comments are pretty hilarious when you remember why you wrote them for yourself.

Counter-intuitive simply means that it's not what you think it would be. True intuition is more feeling realm than thinking realm. So when we say intuition and use the word counter-intuitive we almost refer to what you think you know. True intuition is a deeper knowing beyond what you think you are. We're so quick to believe thoughts and believe that we know the way things are, so that's why doing what is counter-intuitive (the opposite of what you think will work) can be so fruitful.

You'll never fully integrate any of the stages. Plenty of people who are already financially independent are still stuck in orange because of the fear of financial insecurity, or insecurity in general. It's based on one's own psychology and the neurosises, fears and beliefs they have. Transcending is much more of an inner, subtle immeasurable shift than just the external situation. For one going FI could be necessary, for another it could be giving away their savings. You never know what's right for another. There are no rules or directions to follow.

@LastThursdayMaybe I'm weird but I think Eckhart Tolle and Rupert Spira are both funny. Also Jim Newman is both deadly serious and hilarious at the same time. It's really interesting.