mandyjw

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  1. control (v.) early 15c., countrollen, "to check the accuracy of, verify; to regulate," from Anglo-French contreroller "exert authority," from Medieval Latin contrarotulus "a counter, register," from Latin contra "against" (see contra) + rotulus, diminutive of rota "wheel" (see roll (n.)). The word apparently comes from a medieval method of checking accounts by a duplicate register. ContROLL with it baby. Oh man, my daughter literally just rolled out my yoga mat. What synchronicity.
  2. Because this one phenomenon, that THIS here appears right now, is so utterly inexplainable and impossible, that anything else that happens within this is also both so utterly inexplainable and so impossible... and YET so common and seems to be so well known it can even seem mundane. It's like if my dog came over and spoke in English, "I just crapped in your bed" and I was like "Oh, my GOD, not again" overlooking the impossible phenomenon that he just spoke English to me. That's what we're like when we talk about mystical experiences. I mean, yeah they happen, but how can we explain them if we can't even explain this?
  3. No one can corrupt a religion. There is no such thing as religion, there are just individuals with beliefs, and not even that. If you were very familiar with Christianity you'd notice that the denominations within one religion are vastly different and distinct in their beliefs, and even the individuals within those denominations are vastly different and distinct. And if you go into the individual itself, their own thoughts and beliefs are vastly different from one another. What they say and do is a reflection that may have little to do with their true inner being. And so religion is just a thought occurring now and has no substantiality or meaning and never had meaning.
  4. The word phenomenon is derived from the Greek words 'phainein' meaning 'bring to light' and 'phainesthai' meaning 'to appear'. Oh my fucking God, it's a computer screen.
  5. He manifested the entire book and experience as one seamless thing. He did manifest himself out of the camp, that's the whole point of the book, why did some perish and some survive? What is survival, what is life about, what is purpose? Man ifestation starts with a man. If you're gonna play the part of human you gotta learn to manifest to break the manifestation you believe you are. Are we human? Or are we dancer? I mean.. manifester? Original thread title is right. It IS absurd.
  6. There's no difference between the two when you get down to it. Nothing anyone needs to balance. Some people start out with Jesus and some start with Tony. It's all good. "Ask, and it will be given to you." Most already believe and accept that the past effects the now, but that the future does not. The future effects the now as much as the past. But because the future is unknown, we don't want to go there. We'll stick with the familiar even when it's awful.
  7. I still have a problem with transactional spirituality. Someone's guidance and time are valuable resources that money can sometimes be exchanged for everyone's good. But RASA seeks to quantify and sell what is like the light of the sun. "Even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth, 'You owe me. ' Look what happens with a love like that. It lights the whole sky." - Hafez I admit that I have deeply naïve and romantic ideas about what spiritual communion should be like. I envision that it would be like going to a Thanksgiving meal, potluck style, bringing with you your favorite specialty dish to add to everyone else's, and you would sit and share and appreciate and there would be no thoughts of payment, or who owed who. Or I suppose you could skip all that and just go through the McDonald's drive through. I feel like we're going through an awkward time where that's all some have access to.
  8. Yeah, it's just me being me. Trump is just me being me. I really didn't want him to be president four years ago, but the universe couldn't hear the "didn't" part. Goddamn it. If I was writing a story, my characters would have lots of gray areas and deficiencies so I could highlight an unconditional love that transcends my brilliantly colorful characters. Guess what's happening? Just that. The book Man's Search for Meaning is the ultimate example of LOA in practice. The universe wants to push you to TRUE satisfaction, which is unconditional love. Go beyond the ideas of physical manifestation, suffering and feeling good and it becomes much clearer.
  9. @electroBeam I am partially concious of how and why I manifested Trump, you, and a the moon as much as I'd want to be. I deeply love all of you by the way. I wouldnt want to demystify the universe. But I do want to take creative initiative in some areas. The appearance of influence and free will all just deepens the mystery. LOA deepens the mystery rather than demystifying anything in my experience.
  10. Every possibility is created first in thought and with the belief that it's possible. Only then can it become manifest. I cannot give you a fresh baked chocolate chip cookie unless I know what they are, can envision them, and believe that I can make them. I've experienced really weird freak things happening to me because I obsessively worried about them happening a lot. And I created a weird niche job that everyone told me I wouldn't be able to pull off, but I was too busy creating to think about that. By the time I learned about LOA, it was like, oh hmm, that explains a lot. If you prefer the Law of Apathy instead, the law of attraction will work to uphold that in your experience just the same.
  11. Don't read Jesus's words with your logical mind, read it with your creative dreamy mind. Claustrophobia is only so common and horrific because we constantly must project ourselves outward. We can't stand to stay in with ourselves. Matthew 7 starts with this, 7 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3 “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.
  12. You can't focus on nothing, because there is no such thing, nonduality. There cannot be a substantial you, who is lacking something in some way. There just can't. Doesn't work out. It doesn't math. But we try to do it all the time. "I don't have what I want, I'm not the way I want, etc." An outright, explicit thought is already moving in the direction of what we want but most of these thoughts are just accepted and not even recognized, verbalized or intentionally, consciously thought. The only thing you can actually do is envision what you want, or appreciate what is there. LOA works the same way to find your favorite pair of socks that has been missing for two months, or in spiritual "progression". In fact, there's no real difference. Your missing/found socks are actually a profound mystical experience. But you think you and your socks are mundane, so you color over the magic that is there waiting to be noticed and invited in rather than felt as absence of. By the way, in the same way, there are no low quality teachings that you need someone else to help filter out for you. No one is teaching you anything you don't already know.
  13. Oh shit, I'm on the wrong block, singing the wrong note. Or maybe I'm not really, but just singing a song about being on the wrong block just for the fun of imagination.
  14. This kind of conflict is a real asking to question our beliefs about self and other and what we really expect to get both from spirituality and from a partner. What do you really want? I've shared this frustration, but also been blown away at opportune times with how arrogant I was and how my partner could see things and had embodied things that I just plain old wasn't valuing. Sometimes we want to be understood by others, and spirituality is venturing out into something beyond understanding. We see the value of what is beyond understanding, beyond knowledge of self and other, but why do we still carry the need to be understood by others? What are we really seeking?
  15. America was uniquely, unexpectedly shaped by World War II. We tried very hard to stay out of the war and ended up going all in. The timing of it and the accidental circumstances made us rise to power. Accidently. Many Americans, maybe because of this or because it was there before that, have a form of naivete. It has a light side and dark side. It and the principles with which the country was founded (religious freedom), seems to give rise to an atmosphere where people are free to dream. Some amazing things have come because of that.
  16. You shouldn't be afraid of catching an STD from your partner. If he's not really committed or you don't trust him, maybe you're trying to be cool and ok with something you really aren't cool and ok with? You need a partner that is safe to lose yourself with and then you have to drop the blockages that are your own from that point on. Do not proceed to point B without making sure that point A is taken care of. If you are having problems orgasming, look into that on your own. Learn. Explore. Tell your partner about it. If he doesn't care about it, that's not a good sign. Sex is about giving pleasure and then learning that what reeeally gives your partner pleasure is also giving pleasure, until no one knows who is giving or getting. Do you believe or did you have expectations about how you're supposed to have sex and that it's supposed to be amazing? Sometimes what we think something should be gets in the way of what it is and sex is all about being present. Instead of thinking about what you fear and what you do not want, let your imagination roam. Focus on what you do want. How else will you discover what turns you on if you aren't willing to explore your own experience? Forget what you think your sex life should like, or what you think other people's sex lives are like. Forget about how it's not what you thought. No experience is what we thought it would be. Be only interested and focused on your own experience.
  17. You can do whatever you dream of, the universe is literally always giving the means by which you can do it, it's throwing the cash at you but then all you can think of is questions and fears of why you can't. To go further Leo might stand for wisdom and the counting money with you symbolizes further studying and focus on wisdom itself. I'm not a dream expert, I just interpreted it as if I dreamed it, so you'll have to feel if it resonates or not.
  18. The questioner is coming from a paradigm assuming that people have bad energies that in her attempt to heal them, she takes on. Fear, separation. Those are the illusory bad energies. I think Sadhguru is just pointing beyond this, where real impersonal healing happens? I agree, but this can be profoundly powerful, like holding or being a safe space for someone to experience the expansion that they are. People can seem to provide focus, and that expansion at the same time. But how could you possibly be a safe space for healing if you were concerned about taking on other people's energies? Or if you DO seem to experience taking "other people's energies"? That's probably the reason I've spent most of my life as a hermit. Or how you you possibly heal when you expect that a healer has some power over you that you don't have? Wouldn't the healing be the shared allowance of that power?
  19. They say nonexistent to point you in the other direction of what you've already believed all your life. If you see a mirage of water in the desert, what you see, the mirage, is real. It's just not actual. Like you can't drink the water in the desert you saw, you can't die or find your separate self.
  20. You become passionately dispassionate. It doesn't matter what's happening. That can look like celibacy or it can look like sex. Celibate person might be in the throws of ecstasy, person having sex might be miserable. Who knows, who cares? You want someone beautiful and amazing to fuck you, because then you can accept yourself as beautiful and amazing. Then you stop thinking that you're beautiful and amazing and your partner stops being beautiful and amazing, and you think the change happened in them and not you. So you look for someone else who can make you feel that way. You already are that. Fuck beautiful amazing people, fuck ugly people and enjoy the liberation of not having to be beautiful and amazing anymore, fuck no one. Nothing changes. You're the ecstasy.
  21. @tsuki I don't know. All sexuality is just a murky reflection of desire for God. If you know how one works you know how the other works. It starts with the deception of other than, so that they can merge. Ultimate safety and throwing caution to the wind completely is a paradox that exists without conflict only outside of mind. So we lose our minds when we fall in love. Physical attraction uses this same mechanism for its own manifestation. When you master something, you do it almost mindlessly, no need to think, it just happens. So true mastery mimics that state of no mind which is naturally, prime territory for attraction.
  22. Here's a Rupert Spira pointer I just read that I really liked. Just like your thoughts don't have independent existence from your mind, individual minds don't have independent existence either.
  23. Love is just something that turns off your survival mode of functioning. Because sex is historically incredibly risky for women, we're wired so that a man who throws caution to the wind actually makes us feel safe to do the same.
  24. Hey, in an age of endless choices of entertainment always available and at your finger tips, God gotta keep up with the competition.
  25. My awakening was proceeded by discovering poison nightshade growing wild on the grave of a clairvoyant herbal doctor. There were several other subtly strange experiences around his grave, and I thought that it was so strange and ironic to see nothing growing by his grave but a poisonous plant. So I read his book. It opened my eyes to the mystical intuitive side of the spirituality I was pursuing and more. How far down the rabbit hole do you want to go? There are entrances everywhere. Or none other but now.