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@Evil Raccoon it’s funny that I have the urge to be friendly with you because of your description that only proves my need of acceptance.

@Evil Raccoon swinging backwards every day

Again, i feel the same sometimes I guess I feel that way and maybe you too, because I was wired to search for happiness. But this is a shallow understanding of reality. So we began perusing truth. And this is the red pill. There’s no going back. You can’t ignore what you know now. It’s a deep connection. And it’s beautiful. And yet, truth is the same whether you cry or smile.

I recommend Panditarama Lumbini Vipassana retreat if you go to Nepal! I hear that Goenka’s retreats are also good. There are many all over the world. If you need more input regarding Panditarama, feel free to message me. I’m happy to help

David Deida’s books!

I would say not to worry about being a nice person, for now. Focus on being your more authentic instead

You've helped her so much already, from what I see with your threads here on the forum. Now, maybe it's time for you to move on.

Do you have anyone in your life that is constantly expressing what they think of your choices? If not, what affects you is then, your own perception of the opinions of others. Because you never know what’s in people’s minds. You simply assume it and condition yourself accordingly. But You have the responsibility. And this is tremendously important to comprehend, because you gain control again and start to take action, cultivating bravery and courage to be authentic in every choice you make. If you do have someone who’s that toxic, remove them from your life and move on

First thing that came to my mind was courage.

You might have disliked the tone, the implications, the person, the post, you name it. That's not the issue, but the hateful way you approached, insulting and disrespecting Someone here. That is not allowed here. Don't make this personal.

@allislove Could you step in?

@Loba That's literally non of your business. If it annoys you so much go do something else... But know others are not the problem. No one has the power to make you angry. Take 100% responsibility for what you're feeling here. Insulting is not cool. It's against the guidelines even. Show some respect or leave.

@Loba That's some over-assuming. I don't think the issue is Someone here or anybody else. What makes us angry in others most of the time is a reflection of our own bs that we feel shame for.

@OBEler I wouldn’t know. Never tried mdma. Does she do contemplation on psychedelics?

I would start simple. Do you have a bike? Or you can go on walks. Stay outside more. Leave your phone behind or change it for a flip phone or so. Don’t add this just because. You can function and solve your issues without these figured out for a while. Now, anxiety and depression have the same root. Not being in the present moment, but rather thinking about the future and the past. And it’s ok, you don’t have to aim to resolve this at this very moment, just bare in mind that they are solved the same way. Most of the stuff you mention next sound like consequences of your psychological situation. I wouldn’t focus on them directly. They’ll get better with time. To warp up, move a little bit, and get out of the house! Connect with nature, walk your dog or your neighbors’. Feed the birds with bread in the park. Clean your bedroom, put everything you didn’t touch for the last 6 months in a box. Cook for yourself. Brush you teeth for 3 minutes. Take a warm bath before sleeping. Clear up your mind. Avoid intense stimuli like movies. And do your university work 2 hours a day for week. What I’m saying is to implement small habits that make you feel good or make the existent more intentional. Once you do this you’ll get better. Be brave! Best of luck!

@OBEler how is she? Is her arm better?

@Ethan1 That’s trippy. I see you’re a visual learner and thinker

@Ethan1 sounds nice another great source for mind maps might be spiral dynamics and cook-greuter’s work!

@Ethan1 That's great. I have the idea that once you finish the notes, it would be easier to navigate through the map if there was an organization of some sort. But I've never done anything like this, so don't really know how it works I'm giving a look, would like to help you, but have to rewatch the video maybe, since from what I see you're focusing more on the examples that Leo gives, no?

@Ethan1 Wow that's really cool of you! Actually think the content vs structure is really important for the mapping itself, to categorize things in a meta way. Are you using any logic for the first tier of blocks, that are linked directly with the center? Or the idea is like doing a visual notepad?

That's some major work! Wish you the best of luck. A meta-analysis really important to analyze beliefs is content vs structure. Here's Leo's vid about it:

Hi there On the path of being more authentic in my interactions with others, I find two types of struggles that I would love some insights on. On the one hand, sometimes I feel that what I have to say, would expose me in a way I don't feel completely comfortable with. On the other, I fear that sometimes, when talking about a topic that I happen to have reflected on and have my own conclusions of, I came out as cocky if I express it openly. Ultimately, I guess both of them are fear of how others perceive me and that will always affect my authentic way. I also do understand that's an extremely egoic thing to feel since all this resistance is a need to protect my "identity". And I usually, get a kick out of piercing through this ego resistance, but mainly with people that are close to me. Not so much with others. Did you ever deal with this? How did you overcome it? I deeply appreciate everything you have to say.

@LastThursday I think you're talking about it on an absolute level like, even when you wear the fear barriers, it's You who's doing that and have the responsibility, even. Is that what you mean?

Your understanding is really valuable to me. I aprecciate you sharing it! I'm deducing you're asking if I have considered seeing a therapist?