PurpleTree

Liberated from the struggles with your self and reality. Liberated from the energetic pull of that you and reality/others should be different as it is. Liberated also from time and so on.

Yes i think ultimately it comes down with a early deep belief of something being not right, something about me being not enough, others not being that safe. Which seemingly stems from growing up in a not very stable home with a single mother who was overburdened and emotionally immature etc and so on. In the story.

The one who seeks for the solution is the one who is suffering. The one who sees problems everywhere is the "problem" Maybe it’s just the paranoia of being a separate entity. Anyhow this thing is going to play out how it plays out, already no control.

It is seemingly a hindrance. That’s how i got on this path of psychedelics and spirituality nonduality in the first place. Buddha said life is Dukkha (suffering)

There’s a part in me that’s apparently very paranoid but i don’t know how to get to it. Triwd shdow work etc. It comes up a lot during psychedelics. If it’s childhood trauma, genetics, fear of losing control, just amygdala or brain chemistry or something else. Anyhow it doesn’t really matter. But yea i prefer taking psychedelics alone i think as i‘m sensitive to other peoples energy and always think i have to take care of them.

https://on.soundcloud.com/fJFM3YjS1bPX57iA6 https://m.soundcloud.com/kollektivturmstrasse/kollektiv-turmstrasse-live-set-rec-2023

For me usually unfortunately i get too paranoid. It’s switching between hell and heaven and quite exhausting. That’s why i‘m kind of over them. I might do ayahuasca one time with a shaman but other than that no urge at the moment.

It’s similar on psychedelics. One time on shrooms or ayahuasca i felt like i was Jesus or a Hindu god and a lot of other stuff. One time i didn’t know anymore if i was me or my mother.

You can also be someone else in a dream. It rarely happens but did sometimes.

Bought a cute Ganesh in Amsterdam two days ago

Anyhow here’s a nice talk from Kenneth that I’m listening right now.

Well it doesn’t really matter anyway.

True. It’s also why paying with money should still always be possible.

You don’t even know if there’s reincarnation. So maybe this here is all you get.

I never slaughtered an animal but gosh i’m going to buy a hamburger in about 10mins

At the deep level there seems no free will. In the dream there is free will. But we want th deep stuff not this dream stuff.

Would you go and watch Jim Newman if he came to your area?

Actually no. There seemingly isn’t free will.

Yea it was nice. I went to see Alexis and Andreas and combined it with a city trip.

I think my faves right now are Alexis and Andreas because they have so much material. Alexis is more on the flowery language side while Andreas is very kind of ordinary. Jim is good too. I actually went to my first live nonduality events also this year.

I guess he means the conflict between Muslims and Hindus around that Kashmir area? I have no clue how old this conflict is and if it started before the names of the countries. God only know what he means anyway. What i like about Kashmir is their sweaters, they are very soft.

Alexis, Jim Newman, Tony Parsons, Andreas Muller, Kenneth Madden, Roes Emerson is also nice but it’s a bit a different thing/style

What’s the end all?

Nonduality on youtube.