PurpleTree

he should chill a month at a beach in a hut without internet etc. maybe hawaii

You know i have approached before and have gotten some good feeedback etc. but in those times usually i was drunk, in the right mood, and most things aligned. Now with the pandemic there are no parties and doing it in a store, on the street etc. feels so leechy and awkward i'm not sure i can do it. Would be great though.

the thing is, i don't take it really serious, like astrology etc. it's just fun to play with such things imo

either everything is empty of meaning or nothing. this was mostly fun, how is it empty of meaning?

have you done that and it helped making you feel like less of a creep doing it? parts of me yes other parts no. but generally i think yes. coming from a somewhat broken-ish home i'd like to make it better. i'm also really afraid of commitment though and fear getting into the "wrong" or a bad relationship and then being stuck. the parts of me that don't want it and are afraid, are sabotaging me i feel what if you already know the person for a longer time, then it's a whole different thing.

I thought about it because yesterday at night there were many christmas trees standing on the sideway. And i thought it would be soo funny if i "borrowed" a smallish one of them and brought it to my friends place as a decoration. When i tried to lift it up a twig hit me directly in my open eye and hurt quite a bit, i still feel it a bit today. I thought that's instant karma for trying or thinking about "borrowing" this tree. My friend who doesn't care about spirituality in the slightest liked the idea and took an even much bigger one and brought it home, without any harm being done to him. But there were also other incidents in my life where i thought the universe doesn't want me to do some stuff. .

like if you push the red nuclear button in a zen way for example?

also many stories which people looked at as "conspiracy theories" turned out to be true after some time or decades. conspiracy theory is a crappy term imo

even if there is the potential for sex/dating i think men and women can totally be friends friends imo are people who you can count on, and sometimes you can count more on a women than on a man for example. some women are more honest than some men etc. it doesn't really have anything to do with gender

hug a PurpleTree jk i will find a tree to hug laters

that's some good stuff thanks Preety for taking the time here might also lie an issue, see i do think my intentions are mostly "good" but i also know the devilry inside of me (like it is in everybody else) i know that i have a huge fear of commitment, so if i might like the women maybe deep down i'm thinking she's be better off without me. sometimes good intentions can also lead to a "bad" outcome. i did have a good number of female friends over the course of my life but right now there's maybe only 3 or so female friends which i talk to on a regular basis, not a huge number, this covid is also killing my social life. yea if i could do it while being tipsy that would be alright imo (not great) but i have to generally get reeeally drunk to shut the mind down, which is a bit dangerous in itself. a lot of this people pleasing, limiting beliefs and anxiety crap probably comes from being "raised" as an only child by a single mother who wasn't always very mentally stable. so from very early on i felt responsible for the "bad" feelings from my mother. then started smoking weed daily from a very young age onwards in a way to self medicate which in some ways numbed the feelings but in some ways just worsened the issues over the long run. so those things are pretty deeply ingrained and hard to get rid off, entangled onion layers

well it seems like a step up, which is good because anxiety basically just blocks you to do anything. you also seem sensitive if you can sense that feeling in other people. it might also be projection though, maybe they're actually not feeling awkward?

That's some good advice. But if i bond like that with a woman, like hanging out without being sexual, the first time i met them. Then the friendzone feeling is very strong and then it makes me feel guilty to now try and be "sexual" or show some interest other than friendship, like now we're friends and i don't want to hurt her, take advantage of her and what would she think of me. Then it gets weird. You're right i should show steadily interest in her as a woman and not just a friend then but if i don't do that initially i almost can't do it afterwards and i have to be drunk to do it initially. I also do like to have females just as friends.

yea i guess it's an important discussion to have although i don't know if it's so useful to have this discussion with cops as they're kind of low in the food chain and just generally react to crime etc. let's say it's true that 8% of the population (black men) commit 50% of violent crime, ok then but what are the reasons for that? but that's not really the cops job to find out etc. they don't make policies, they probably don't choose how much training they get etc. it's politicians etc. like for example biden. but maybe after countless of such discussions the politicians and people in power will listen up, who knows

Wtf this just popped up in my feed, watching it now, ugh 2 hours 20 minutes. John Bolton is such a rascal of the warmongering type. Get him Yanis.

ok that makes sense but why israel?

i don't buy it why would they contact them and not let's say finland or mexico?

how is the "later more prevalent"? or do you mean just with humans? but even there i don't see it

Also i listened to this episode of Leo yesterday and thought it fits with this (there are also looots of roles i play)

^ maybe god wants you to enjoy life and this creation more, instead of feeling guilty and being miserable do you go into nature a lot and marvel about it? how could you call that hell? it's basically heaven, nature that is even if this species is going extinct you couldn't change it

I've for example had that experience before being told about it by Leo and i suppose many others did too. But personally didn't take this extremely serious (as serious as Leo for example) well in one way i did and in one way i didn't, it's hard to integrate such a thing especially with just one two experiences of such a thing. Is your life really that comfortable though if you think the world is basically hell? We all have our issues. People in the west have much more material wealth etc. But also a lot of us come from broken homes with broken parents and have mental issues etc. Sometimes people in poorer countries have better family structures and so on, sometimes also not of course though.

Had that experience le's say twice really, although the experiences were very different, one was more about the universe and one about god long before i knew of this forum, not sure if i totally believe those experiences. But i am definitely leaning in that direction.

I don't think it was really manipulative. Do you think everything/everybody is god or not? Or do you think everything which seems conscious is god or do you think there is no god, just a question about your views. Or do you think you are god and this child is just a "poor innocent, african child" which seems in a way condescending. Also if this place is so bad, why not just stay away, instead of coming here and dishing out insults? I get it you're hurt and i'm sorry for that. But how should a fruitful argument come out of insults? It just makes me want to insult you back

i'll just say you should stop insulting people here an leave it at that

you don't think that innocent child is also god?