PurpleTree

PurpleTree has some non-sensical, kind of obsessive thought loops sometimes for example about silly stuff like a statement i made or want to make about a text i wrote or want to write etc. and those thoughts can loop for minutes or even a lot longer. So two days ago i had one of those thought loops and then tried to be as aware as possible of that thought. I thought that particular thought in a very aware state and thought it very slowly deliberately, usually those thoughts just keep looping very fast in the mind. It worked and the thought kind of vanished. So in that instance it worked but maybe it was just luck, i'll keep experimenting.

Have you read a or some "spiritual" books? Do you meditate sometimes? Suffering and an interest in the universe is what makes me semi-serious about this work and keeps me coming back. Laziness, fatigue, anxiety etc. is what keeps from getting all the way in.

are you saying people should climb/fix those material/relationship/career etc. steps before they do consciousness work. or are you saying they can do it simultaneously, it's just important to not forget about those other "steps" while working on consciousness etc.?

No it's not. Maybe you need to get into nature more.

yesterday got up, ate breakfast, watched youtube and entered the forum, did some meditation, went for a walk, got a call about some "bird spectacle in nature" so i went there and watched those birds, they were glorious btw., went home ate dinner, took another walk, watched youtube and streamed some show. i also take my moms dog for long walks sometimes, sometimes visit friends, sometimes jog etc.

maybe there was a bad vibe in there from other people and you were sensitive enough to feel it. although if that were the case you probably could also feel vibes going into other places sometimes and it wouldn't be your first time.

when you're higher than usual

I've tried a few for anxiety sleep and fatigue Ashwaghanda - pretty good, works on gaba receptors, calming Rhodiola Rosea - Made me irritable and angry also a bit anxious, not for me Lions Mane - Pretty good but i think it messes with my sleep ( a lot of supps mess with my sleep) Probably a couple of others Not sure if i've tried Reishi I still have some Cordyceps at home which i haven't tried yet

sorry that your father "died" about re-incarnation its one of those things which does seem logical, and there seem to be hints placed all over which would support the truth of it or that it's at least partly true, many religions talking about it, people having experiences etc. but i think nobody can really be a 100% sure either way

bye take care

if you don't show intent you'll end up in the no go zone named friend zone, then she'll tell you about her lover while you hold her hand and nod while you say "yasss friend"

His initials are J C, like Julius Caesar or Jim Carrey

traumatised people raise traumatised people

you know that las vegas was mostly built upon the tears of the losers, just keep that in mind i never really quite understood this gambling addiction, well it's probably the dopamine rush, and the stories your mind paints "once you're rich" etc. but still the chances are soooo tiny a friend of mine is somewhat addicted to gambling, he says he also never understood this addiction until he started gambling.

Merry Christmas Wishing you guys health, love and wisdom

why?

Turtles, unfortunately they don't have teeth though

because it's crap if you guys vote for me as the worlds dictator it'll be beneficial for most though and also for the environment PurpleTree 2029

yea usually i'll just avoid situations where i can or could get rejected as a means of self protection. which obviously isn't a great strategy but i hope with inner work i can get to a point where i care less about it and have my feelings better under control.

cheers man

^ dude you have lots of songs for sadness i can into sadness too the last two aren't very sad but dark imo

no thanks, if they (these decision makers) don't want to own anything, that's great they can go into an ashram or whatever but let me decide for myself, thanks guys also i value privacy

Can you want her without being needy? Is wanting from the ego? Can wanting not be needy, for example if it doesn't come from a place of scarcity? How could you even approach without wanting her? Or are you just tricking yourself and her, or acting as if you don't care, but deep down you do care? Staying in the moment, approaching just to approach "freedom from outcome" Loving yourself so much that you just want to spread that love to her and others All those things are easily said but that's difficult.

i think i want to try a digital detox soon-ish, for two weeks or a month

ignorance is bliss