PurpleTree

i hope it works out this time

it brought us here it seems like it's this urge is what brings many of us to this pathless path I've always wanted to understand many things but other things i didn't care about (like math for example) but also this kind of urge which is a kind of seeking is also what's keeping us away from just being or being-ness it's often making up stories about stuff and comparing this this and that so i guess we try to turn this seeking energy on itself and let it dissolve eventually and then we become enlightened and fly away into the sky like sweet baby jesus

again right now i‘m waiting in line for a shit club just shoot me now jesus ?

I feel like i‘m waiting a a lot waiting for these people waiting for this woman to fall in love with me waiting for enlightenment waiting for this person to text me back etc

yea i see both sides our language is clumsy if you‘re waiting for an outcome then it‘s uncomfortable but if you surrender then it‘s just what is and meditation

How can you recommend 600? that‘s crazy and dangerous, you should edit your post. 90-120 is enough

I had the feeling of levitation a lot laying in my bed. But i think it‘s a form of sleep paralysis.

Sorry to hear that bro i also have issues with approaching because of a fragile ego and some childhood trauma i only do it when the stars align which isn’t often are you doing „inner work“?

it‘s the same everywhere, not just at parties the issue (or not) is not the party but the validation seeking, never having enough, comparing itself to others, trying to appear a certain way „ego“

I don‘t think there is really free will so it happens on its own

Some shroom experiences were really very „mystical“ though, one time i was jesus, one time krishna, one time islamic, one time some kind of ancient planet dweller. I don’t think everyone gets those

Yea a few, most on shrooms But also a few without, for example dreamt that somebody died and then they did etc.

^ yea i guess it‘s a type of „seeking energy“

No move to the mountains and shoot game

Selling stuff and contracts and ask for donations stuff on the street. A friend did that and said he never met to many people and women.

I agree it’s like those dumb old standup jokes ”hey guys have you ever noticed, white guys dance like this mimimimi but black guys they dance like this mumumumu” or maybe you were talking about something entirely different sorry i just skim through posts ?

Yea i agree that it’s mostly probably health related, maybe a dopamine or other issue etc. Or some inflammation, lactic acid or underlying infection or something. And most of those issues will stay unaddressed as most doctors can’t find them and don’t know much about it same as with chronic fatigue. Theres also a thing called PEM (post exertional malaise) https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-exertional_malaise

Some men get a bit of exhaustion or depressive like mood after ejaculation. Me i do get some symptoms sometimes as i’m already a bit chronically fatigued, it also messes with my sleep sometimes. But after about a week of no ejaculation i start to feel weird and sleep also deteriorates. But who knows what’s going on theres also placebo etc

I read this quote “only the phony won’t get enlightened” i’m not sure how honest i am with myself. i often have conflicting thoughts, ideas and beliefs how do i know which one is true for me? also especially for example when it comes to sex and women because i think most men would like to have sex with most decent looking normal women, so how can you be fully honest there. how to get fully painfully honest with yourself?

4.5 was already too much for me I think First made a tea then ate the rest. Got me a week of paranoia.

Buddha said life is suffering. Maybe we’ll have to suffer a bit more. Suffering is the greatest teacher some say. Can you talk about the scam more?

I mean why not just try it. i tried it and it wasn’t for me.

I also like Gangaji and Suzanne