Realms of Wonder

Good on your for setting up a solo retreat. If I were you, I wouldn't be too regimented with my time. Boredom is your friend. How many of the above activities are already a habit?

Insight from a dream. Context: I have never enjoyed horror movies/games, and never understood why, never attracted to them, repelled in fact. was having a dream, which I wont go into the details of, basic premise, underground colony, zombie outbreak, not being taken seriously by the hospital wing, yada yada yada, scary, gory, violent. The insight was. (and on reflection this is the relative domain) what is horror? what is a nightmare? a disconnection from LOVE! Imagine a life cut off from love, with no hope at all to reconnect with it, people don’t take anything existentially seriously or care, everything you fear is right around the corner and being experienced now? Yeah. That’s why I do not like horror movies. Imagine a horror movie, what is it? An expression of TRAUMA. Overwhelming, scary, sometimes gory and violent being, without Love. Its heart wrenching to think of a reality without love.

How to deepen my Love for Music. (In no particular order) Sing More, practice singing, expand my voice. Play Live/Live Performance/Singing in front of people. This is a very effective method. Spiritual Practice Formal sitting Meditation Psychedelics Breathwork Hard work Meditative Yoga Show up daily to create, train, practice, and improve. Play Music more, for no particular reason, because it's there, because I can, because I love it, play it more, and for longer. Take notes on every type of genre, making distinctions, seeing the nuances in each song, that makes it the way it is. Will a Job into existence that allows me to… Take breaks to poop and pee, take care of my body, and not need to stand for 10-12 hours on concrete. Shorter hours (8-10) Play/Produce music all day. Creative Not as stressful In the Music industry Tell the truth, in your lyrics, and when you connect with music. Always stay true to yourself, your heart, your values, and your vision for your life

I fall into different categories in different situations, and as state of consciousness changes. for example.. On the forum, seeing people make wild claims that seem to have no grounding in their experience, seeming to be obviously a mental circle-jerk, I quickly hop into naïve skepticism with a hint of naïve metatheorism. Thinking my big picture of life is "better" asking questions and making statements from that place. With my Financial psychology: I tend to fall into the naïve realism category, though it is shifting as I gain more awareness into my limiting beleifs, cores stories, and ideas of money I can go through every stage on DMT. LOL. Thanks for sharing, is thought-provoking!

LOL, rating spiritual ego. Who is doing the rating? I am the most egoic person I know

Obviously, I am right and know everything! Lol, thank you for articulating this.

Being a young man, and seeing so many around, ages 18-27, many seem sad, depressed, disconnected from reality. Why is this? It would be really meaningful to show them the traps keeping them stuck, to inspire them with a vision, to radiate love into them, and show them how to Love their self. What are the traps YOU see young men falling into in this day and age? What I see is... Falsehood, in the form of… Social media/entertainment Music: selling a false dream, spiritually shallow, idolizing materialism, and so on.. Role models: celebrities, musicians, political leaders, parents, and friends. Addictions such as... Drugs: nicotine, weed, cocaine, etc.. Chronic porn/masturbation Disconnection from... Their authentic self/inner guidance Feeling Emotions Authentic desires Values Strengths Others: Lack of high quality friends/companions. What am I missing?

When you waste your time, you feel it at night When you waste your mind, you feel it in life When you give your best, you're rewarded with rest When you open to life, life opens to you

Well said! @Razard86 Something to add as well, is the desire to wake up, or a desire to be "be present." One way to think of it is like an alarm clock, we set it to wake us up, but we always have the option to snooze. I see so many that do that, the pain "awakens" them long enough to snooze, and think of another reason to go back to "sleep." Working in a kitchen, often when I get oil burns or cut myself, is when I am not present, over conceptualizing. The pain like you mentioned, brings me back to the present. But without reflection on what led to me hurting my body, I may use that pain to fuel another thought story, driving me more unconscious... Overall, thanks for sharing! Love your articulation of this.

Coldplay: Yellow. Look at the stars Look how they shine for you And everything you do Yeah, they were all yellow I came along I wrote a song for you And all the things you do And it was called "Yellow" So then I took my turn Oh, what a thing to have done And it was all yellow your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones (Ooh) turn into something beautiful (Ah) and you know, you know I love you so You know I love you so I swam across I jumped across for you Oh, what a thing to do 'Cause you were all yellow I drew a line I drew a line for you Oh, what a thing to do And it was all yellow and your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones (Ooh) turn into something beautiful (Ah) and you know, for you, I'd bleed myself dry For you, I'd bleed myself dry It's true Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for... Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for you Look how they shine Look at the stars Look how they shine for you And all the things that you do https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKNxeF4KMsY&ab_channel=Coldplay

M-Maybe Leo is wrong? I feel you, it sounds frustrating, challenging, to feel that what has "worked" hasn't really led to the sustainable feelings you want. In this particular situation, if you feel so much resistance to doing those things, and powering through has led you to feel empty and disillusioned, what is life trying to show you that you are not seeing? In my own life, willpower is less powerful and effective over the long run (months and years) then effective habits, systems and rituals. I have also noticed that if I have to exercise a ton of willpower to get something done, I may be trying to change too much, too fast, impatiently expecting results. There is a balance I am still learning to find, between effort, strategy and action, and letting life unfold, and surrendering to the process. It sounds like you are on the right path! Stay strong, be true, much Love

Very Interesting hearing more of the story. You sharing about talking with that friend who was asexual, reminded me of when I was 17, a girl I was friends with in highschool said the same, instead of try to see it through her perspective though, I (in my mind) demonized her like there was something "wrong" with her. Was it difficult to see sexuality through his perspective? Endurism, had to google that one. very interesting, sounds like you have come a long way my friend, gaining awareness of more and more of yourself. Thank you for sharing

WOW. Thank you so much! @SamC The encouragement you show is inspiring, given freely with no attachment. Love that you and I can connect so deeply. I look forward to the days when we collaborate, and bring new, innovative, impactful, spiritually connected Music into Existence. Love you Brother!

Interesting seeing responses, shows how much it can very for different people. Big Picture, Psychedelic's have been a huge boost to, Vision, Clarity, articulation of Life purpose, and even work on my life-purpose (Music.) New ideas, ways of singing, or placing sound can come from tripping, Lyrics, melodies, and so on.. I would say, it depends on what your desire is, and what you are focusing on in life. For example, if the social domain is one that is the focus for this chapter, Micro dosing LSD, DMT can be very helpful in reading and feeling connection with people, flow of conversation. Deeper trips alone or with a trusted friend, can free up blockages, mental and physical, lead one to face trauma, limiting beliefs, the shadow, leading to more fluid social interactions in the months and years post trip. Another Example from my own life: Gaining clarity into Life-Purpose. I had my first real "OH MY FUCKING GOD, OF COURSE, THE SIGNS HAVE BEEN THEIR THE WHOLE TIME! MY LIFE PURPOSE IS MUSIC!!!" on 4-ACO-DMT, after taking the ULPC for the first time. Though there has been additional clarity over the years since then, that was a special time. Continuing with the example of Life purpose, Psychedelics have an uncanny ability to allow the unconscious/subconscious bubble to the surface, leading to much more intuitive, authentic answers to questions such as "What would be the most meaningful impact I could have on people?" Like Leo Mentioned, it would be a good idea to watch his video on the top dangers of psychedelics. https://www.actualized.org/articles/the-top-dangers-of-using-psychedelics Much Love

I see it so often. It is no wonder so many young men are sad and depressed. Those are some really good points, what did it take to learn from those experiences? It seems you have more wisdom looking back, then you did in those specific moments.

Thank you for making the time to more fully explain your perspective. Well said, pointing to the structural problems not just he symptoms.

beautiful, raw. Love it! Thank you for sharing.

Love this thread, thanks for reviving it! @Vision

How much do you poop per day? In March I experienced something similar. However, it was related more specifically to not drinking enough water plus stress. Basically, though food was being digested, I could not poop! It got to a point beyond constipation, where I would sit there, straining for half an hour and nothing, lol. so I scheduled a colonic, hydrotherapy session, and it did wonders! It was about an hour and a half, and I was blown away at how much unpassed stool was in my colon. Afterwards, I added in a bunch of probiotics to help with digestion, haven't had that problem since, bowel movements pretty regular as well.

DMT Insights. Life is meant to be lived, like a game, played for its own sake. The only way to lose, is not to play, and in that case, still haven't lost because that’s the game. Its so infinite it includes every possible outcome, move, result, and play. As God, I Am. I am Able to choose what I want out of life, be specific about it, and Live it, giving my entire being to it. It may take years and decades for it to be realized, but this is it. Music, is a massage for the mind, a loving way to DIE. Just like a good massage, my music may leave people sore, painfully aware of the "knots" in their self. I will love myself to death. MY/God's Music, will show people so much Love, that they melt into infinity. Into their True/Authentic Self. I choose not to be normal, I will stand out, I will be extraordinary. I will face whatever I need to, to be true to myself. Every fear Every lie Every story Every moment

Is that the only reason? Or are there other reasons?

Why are you on this forum?

Hey all, would appreciate perspective on this. Is it a bad idea to avoid politics during the early stages of Self-Actualization and Life purpose work? I have purposely shied away from politics, even voting locally and in any elections, and my excuse has been that I dont understand the political domain enough to make conscious, intelligent decisions. This could remedied by doing RESEARCH, and LEARNING about it, But in my mind, it makes more sense to handle my life more, meet my basic needs, heal the worst of my neurosis, build more positive habits, and create more value in the world through my life purpose, and then, on that foundation build a deep political understanding. Am I fooling myself?

Good points! I conveniently forgot that I dont need to understand every detail about the political-scape, to make a decision on who should lead America. Thank you! Really appreciate the time you all gave to help.

That video is haunting, seen it a few times since it was released. Chills every time.