Realms of Wonder

If you are really that worried, it may help your trip a lot, A LOT. If you put your phone on airplane mode, and away somewhere, bathroom/kitchen drawer, and also put away/shut down any electronics that have access to the internet. I have "ruined" trips before, by texting people, family, coworkers.. my old manager , going online, Instagram when I had it, etc.. While I am not saying that will happen, it may help to be extra safe.

Not knowing is beautiful, and uncertainty, like hunger before a big, satiating meal. Allow that hunger, it makes the meal even sexier

Is this true? How can you be absolutely sure?

Thank you for sharing

That is a radical possibility indeedy! That doesn't even make sense in my mind. it says "but its real, it happened, remember?" Pretty powerful stories...

Late at night, when the fog clears, an active mind and a tired body combine, maybe clarity arises. In the early morn, a beacon of light shines into consciousness, with a message, a calling, a why. Play Music that guides people into breakthroughs of Love by articulating the wisdom of Reality. Be the wake up call Be the warm "hug" Be the "Friend" in need Be the radiance of love needed during hard times Listen to their stories, hear their cries, understand their trauma, be with them when they struggle to love their self. Articulate the barriers they face, by sharing your own life experience, distilled into the abstract lessons and wisdom that life was showing. Be true, be authentic, share the authentic path with the world, by articulating reality in such a way, that leads them to recognize the love. Be the Musical connection to love Love disguised as Music. It may be years, decades even, before that is the main, independent source of income in this life. It may take years for me to bite the bullet and start the deeper levels of this work Contemplation Shadow work Building a successful independent Music artist business. And that's okay. Maybe it is slower than others, good! So many will resonate with the long climb, documenting that journey with music, people will see a trajectory that leaves them speechless. By articulating my struggle, people feel seen, heard, understood. that someone "Gets" them and their struggle. Play Music that guides people through breakthroughs of love, by articulating the wisdom of.... EVERYTHING.

@puporing Thank you for making the time to share your thoughts! It can definitely seem like a 'winner take all' market, I dont know if it truly is or not, I dont have enough experience or enough research "under my belt" to say, but I appreciate you caring to keeping me grounded on this journey

I see you, you’re struggling too, To fill a hole that can’t be found, I see you, you're fighting too, A war that no one sees, I feel you, what if no one understands? You do, that’s enough.

What is life-purpose? love. What is the most meaningful way I can show love to others? Music How exactly do I want that love to impact them? To be seen, heard, and understood.

Is that True for you? In your direct experience?

Well said! Some songs seem to bring whole new sides to a story, add an emotional element, or be with us through the exploration.

Very interesting, thank you

@SamC Last summer, got pink eye as a camp counselor, they prescribed a round of antibiotics to fix that problem, and it left a lasting impact on my ability to digest food, pass stool, bloating etc.. It wasn't until earlier this year that it got so bad that I had a fecal impaction, had hydrotherapy, and started taking a probiotic and it has helped Immensely. I currently take three different ones, daily, RAW Probiotics Ultimate Care, 100 Billion Live cultures RAW Probiotics Colon Care, 50 billion Live cultures Both from Whole foods Physician's choice: Shelf Stable Probiotic Supplement with Organic Prebiotic https://www.amazon.com/Probiotics-Formulated-Probiotic-Supplement-Acidophilus/dp/B079H53D2B/ref=sr_1_2_sspa?crid=1PL6Q0AGBVITL&keywords=probiotics&qid=1657386997&sprefix=probiotics%2Caps%2C190&sr=8-2-spons&psc=1&smid=AOSBPGP78CQDB&spLa=ZW5jcnlwdGVkUXVhbGlmaWVyPUEzRExDUjZDT0NMVlJCJmVuY3J5cHRlZElkPUEwMDk0OTg5MkRZUldJNDdHNVBQUSZlbmNyeXB0ZWRBZElkPUEwODg5MDAwMldUUzc2WlFaSEs3MSZ3aWRnZXROYW1lPXNwX2F0ZiZhY3Rpb249Y2xpY2tSZWRpcmVjdCZkb05vdExvZ0NsaWNrPXRydWU= Been on this regimen for about 2.5 months now, has helped a ton! Much love, Stay true

Good on your for setting up a solo retreat. If I were you, I wouldn't be too regimented with my time. Boredom is your friend. How many of the above activities are already a habit?

Insight from a dream. Context: I have never enjoyed horror movies/games, and never understood why, never attracted to them, repelled in fact. was having a dream, which I wont go into the details of, basic premise, underground colony, zombie outbreak, not being taken seriously by the hospital wing, yada yada yada, scary, gory, violent. The insight was. (and on reflection this is the relative domain) what is horror? what is a nightmare? a disconnection from LOVE! Imagine a life cut off from love, with no hope at all to reconnect with it, people don’t take anything existentially seriously or care, everything you fear is right around the corner and being experienced now? Yeah. That’s why I do not like horror movies. Imagine a horror movie, what is it? An expression of TRAUMA. Overwhelming, scary, sometimes gory and violent being, without Love. Its heart wrenching to think of a reality without love.

How to deepen my Love for Music. (In no particular order) Sing More, practice singing, expand my voice. Play Live/Live Performance/Singing in front of people. This is a very effective method. Spiritual Practice Formal sitting Meditation Psychedelics Breathwork Hard work Meditative Yoga Show up daily to create, train, practice, and improve. Play Music more, for no particular reason, because it's there, because I can, because I love it, play it more, and for longer. Take notes on every type of genre, making distinctions, seeing the nuances in each song, that makes it the way it is. Will a Job into existence that allows me to… Take breaks to poop and pee, take care of my body, and not need to stand for 10-12 hours on concrete. Shorter hours (8-10) Play/Produce music all day. Creative Not as stressful In the Music industry Tell the truth, in your lyrics, and when you connect with music. Always stay true to yourself, your heart, your values, and your vision for your life

I fall into different categories in different situations, and as state of consciousness changes. for example.. On the forum, seeing people make wild claims that seem to have no grounding in their experience, seeming to be obviously a mental circle-jerk, I quickly hop into naïve skepticism with a hint of naïve metatheorism. Thinking my big picture of life is "better" asking questions and making statements from that place. With my Financial psychology: I tend to fall into the naïve realism category, though it is shifting as I gain more awareness into my limiting beleifs, cores stories, and ideas of money I can go through every stage on DMT. LOL. Thanks for sharing, is thought-provoking!

LOL, rating spiritual ego. Who is doing the rating? I am the most egoic person I know

Obviously, I am right and know everything! Lol, thank you for articulating this.

Being a young man, and seeing so many around, ages 18-27, many seem sad, depressed, disconnected from reality. Why is this? It would be really meaningful to show them the traps keeping them stuck, to inspire them with a vision, to radiate love into them, and show them how to Love their self. What are the traps YOU see young men falling into in this day and age? What I see is... Falsehood, in the form of… Social media/entertainment Music: selling a false dream, spiritually shallow, idolizing materialism, and so on.. Role models: celebrities, musicians, political leaders, parents, and friends. Addictions such as... Drugs: nicotine, weed, cocaine, etc.. Chronic porn/masturbation Disconnection from... Their authentic self/inner guidance Feeling Emotions Authentic desires Values Strengths Others: Lack of high quality friends/companions. What am I missing?

When you waste your time, you feel it at night When you waste your mind, you feel it in life When you give your best, you're rewarded with rest When you open to life, life opens to you

Well said! @Razard86 Something to add as well, is the desire to wake up, or a desire to be "be present." One way to think of it is like an alarm clock, we set it to wake us up, but we always have the option to snooze. I see so many that do that, the pain "awakens" them long enough to snooze, and think of another reason to go back to "sleep." Working in a kitchen, often when I get oil burns or cut myself, is when I am not present, over conceptualizing. The pain like you mentioned, brings me back to the present. But without reflection on what led to me hurting my body, I may use that pain to fuel another thought story, driving me more unconscious... Overall, thanks for sharing! Love your articulation of this.

Coldplay: Yellow. Look at the stars Look how they shine for you And everything you do Yeah, they were all yellow I came along I wrote a song for you And all the things you do And it was called "Yellow" So then I took my turn Oh, what a thing to have done And it was all yellow your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones (Ooh) turn into something beautiful (Ah) and you know, you know I love you so You know I love you so I swam across I jumped across for you Oh, what a thing to do 'Cause you were all yellow I drew a line I drew a line for you Oh, what a thing to do And it was all yellow and your skin, oh yeah, your skin and bones (Ooh) turn into something beautiful (Ah) and you know, for you, I'd bleed myself dry For you, I'd bleed myself dry It's true Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for... Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for you Look how they shine Look at the stars Look how they shine for you And all the things that you do https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKNxeF4KMsY&ab_channel=Coldplay

M-Maybe Leo is wrong? I feel you, it sounds frustrating, challenging, to feel that what has "worked" hasn't really led to the sustainable feelings you want. In this particular situation, if you feel so much resistance to doing those things, and powering through has led you to feel empty and disillusioned, what is life trying to show you that you are not seeing? In my own life, willpower is less powerful and effective over the long run (months and years) then effective habits, systems and rituals. I have also noticed that if I have to exercise a ton of willpower to get something done, I may be trying to change too much, too fast, impatiently expecting results. There is a balance I am still learning to find, between effort, strategy and action, and letting life unfold, and surrendering to the process. It sounds like you are on the right path! Stay strong, be true, much Love