Realms of Wonder

Still on track with my diet, still no added sugars, gluten, dairy, fried foods, or processed junk. The closest I came was eating Thai food with my family. its been almost 4 weeks since I started, since I made the decision.

Song #3: Wacky Tacky: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1avZSwm-2MY2QcVdjrSiSEhGxcIkjw8e2/view?usp=sharing This one was fun to make, an instrumental, think of it like psychedelic candy for the mind

I always go magnum Bare-skin. I keep them everywhere, my backpack, my car, my apartment, my camping gear (lol,) not a fan of wallet condoms.

Warning, this is kinda graphic. Experienced a bike crash a week ago, skinned up my elbow, here is how it has healed since then! Night of.. Today! I find it fascinating how the body heals, there is a world of difference between now and a week ago not just in how it looks, but the pain is almost all gone. INCREDIBLE!

Song #2 As I Can: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1irJ4jzBhTFmTFtgGSQdWoP83tk4zYZZo/view?usp=sharing This is my vision for life, an authentic life, my own mind, to go where no one has gone before, to explore, to discover, to know myself, and melt any barrier to love. "I'm gonna live my life as authentically as I can I'm gonna give my love to as many as I can" I dont know how authentically I can live, I dont know how much love I can give, that is what my life is for, to discover, to understand and to create that. This song is also a proclamation of who I want to be, I grew up with people pleasing as my go to survival strategy, its taken years to get to where I am now, the degree to which I dont care what others think and can be authentic, and I still have farther to go. As you listen to this, think of the life you desire, think of who you need to be to olive that, to be that. That's possible for you!

Song #1 The call: https://drive.google.com/file/d/11HTNGqZc-79e13UAO9EZBS5vVUbwxFn9/view?usp=sharing The call, a pulsating, vibrating message of consciousness, in this life, we will be presented with a call, the call to adventure, our adventure, out heroes journey, will you answer? This song is special, as I grew up playing classical and Celtic violin, felt forced into it by my parents and grew resentful, leading to me quitting for a while, music finds me, and I come back to it, now extremely grateful to have that skill, its a part of me, enjoy this sonic love, let it cover you, let it bathe you in light, and hopefully, lead you, to accept THE CALL.

RIGHT!? There is so much, on further reflection, there's a lot of insight into IDEOLOGY! That runs so much of the show, as well as cult psychology. Also interesting to try and place people on the spiral, what stage they are at based on the values they show.

addiction to stimulation

Which one are you most afraid of?

I have some experience with this. Currently, 9 days out of 10, I wont go on my phone till my morning routine is done (around an hour and 55 minutes,) my phone usage is around 1.3 hours a day, using it for music, texting, facetiming parents and friends, total time on YouTube is around 30 minutes a week, no social media. There are a few different levels to this, and multiple ways to approach it so I will share what has worked for me. Mental/Mindset Layer. Big Picture: Bring awareness to the issue, the consequences and potential results. Then create a vision of what you want in your life, leading you to make a CLEAR, WELL INFORMED, DECISION. About what you want in your life. What will happen if you dont quit? visualize the worst case scenario and write it out, 1 year from now, 5 years from now, etc.. This will help your you mind realize why its not in its best interest to continue the way it has. WHY Do you want to quit? This needs to be really clear, without understanding why you are quitting, why would you? especially when the mind tries to seduce us into checking it, this WHY will ground you. What are the costs of breaking your addiction to your phone/computer? Important! if you cant accept the costs, how can you change? Examples include Losing the easy stimulation when I am bored Cannot use it to escape my self and emotions Boredom/facing boredom etc.. Make a comprehensive list of every way you can think of, that your mind tries to seduce you into checking/using your phone, and watching YouTube, etc.. You have to really WANT to change. Until then, you wont, your decision to stop will be half assed and you'll keep caving, at some point you'll realize "Holy shit, I want to change, I am tired of how things are, how I keep falling into the same traps over and over again, and losing out on what I am capable of." Outer/Technique layer. Big Picture: Sustainably lowering the amount of time you spend on phone, YouTube, social media, etc.. At night, put your phone in your bathroom or kitchen to charge. Make a commitment to finishing X amount of work/practice/routines before checking phone (start small) Expect resistance. Do research into how to quit Slow is best. There really isn't an easy solution to this, it may take years to completely break the addiction, for myself, its taken a LONG time, and its still something I am aware of and working on, and not every day is perfect. However, it is possible, and worth it!

Today I got confirmation of my class schedule! Wednesday I will talk with my boss to make him aware of what is happening, and how my work availability will be changing.

Is that True?

Nothing will prepare you ? Glad you've been enjoying it!

Day 14, two weeks since I have eaten Added sugars or sweeteners (aside from stevia and a bit of agave) Fried foods processed foods (salami, sauces, etc..) Gluten its been around a year and a half Dairy its been about 4 months.

Try it and find out, Advisable to start very low, 1/10th of a low dose. Can be very helpful!

Just finished Carnivale. What a show! Laughed, shed a few tears, wrote down some quotes, this really made me think, so much insight into self deception, the heroes journey, being true to yourself, and more. The music really got me, as a violin player, I loved it, the setting, 1934, dustbowl, extremely convincing and interesting to see. Overall 8.5/10, would be higher if they would have gotten to finish the next four seasons

11 days into the diet cleanup. feeling clean in body, clearer headed, more connected to my body, my congestion has lessened. Staying devoted to my decision, no gluten, dairy, added sugars or sweeteners (aside from stevia,) no fried foods, processed or unpronounceable foods.

What do you think?

Not an expert, though I have some experience. I did something similar, a 6 day solo retreat, fasted (I got Covid, what better way to spend that time then fasted ?) though I was inside the whole time, not camping. If it is your first fast, be prepared for intense cravings, uncomfortable even, after he first 2.5-3 days, the body enters into ketosis, so the next days will be much easier, though not without difficulty. When you break your fast, do it slowly, and with something easy to digest, such as bone broth, fruit juice, melon, grapes, etc.. give your digestive system time to engage after being "offline." Also, break your fast on a "good" day, meaning, there will be days during your fast where you feel shitty, emotionally and physically, even spiritually, be patient and wait for a day when you feel relatively good, and break the fast then. Lastly, do some research on your own, google it, find some articles/videos. As for the muscle loss, I wouldn't sweat it, its just 5 days, what you lose, can be gained back over the course of weeks and months. Good luck! Would love to hear how it goes.

8 days, going strong, eating veggies, high quality meats, mostly chicken, healthy fats (olive oil, coconut oil, avacado oil,) Fruits, dried and fresh, nuts and seeds, and that.s it.

Every conscious choice takes me deeper into infinity. Not the idea of infinity, not the story I believe it is, actual Infinity.

6 Days since I made the decision to take care of my body, no added sugars, no fried foods, no dairy, gluten or processed foods. I am surprised at how easy it has been, 99% commitment is a bitch, 100% commitment is a breeze.

Hey all, fully recognizing that the choice and decision will be up to me, feedback would still be super valuable. Basic premise... I do not know what kind of job to transition into while I continue to build my musical career. Back from an 8 day solo retreat, spurred into action by a health problem caused at my current vocation (Cook in a kitchen.) During the retreat, I began seriously strategizing what job/career I would transition into, main idea was... Get an internship at a music studio, work my way up to a producer, then work that job and gain the skills it would bring, till my music career takes off. Once back online, I began researching the viability of that plan, it took as little as 30 minutes of research to realize that it would not work, no way. Now I am at a loss. I am sitting in a large pool of uncertainty, not knowing what to do. Context. Life Purpose: To play Awe-inspiring music, guiding people into states of loving-introspection, making them Authentic. Ideal Medium: Live performance. Domain of Mastery: Songwriting. Top three values. Authenticity/Truthfulness Music Wisdom Signature strengths. Authenticity/Genuineness Wisdom/Perspective My long term strategic Life-Purpose intent/Vision (5-30 years,) is to be a successful independent musical artist, to perform Live, spiritually connected Music, leading to mystical, breakthrough experience for the audience. I am little over two years into the skill building stage, my music is getting pretty good, but not so good they cant ignore me, not to the point where I can quit my job and just start touring... There are so many developmental steps before that can happen, building a loyal fanbase, releasing a catalog of high quality, brand aligned music, marketing myself, a website, social media presence, and yes, eventually, live performance and touring. Ideally, this job would be creative, allowing me to increase relevant skills, anything from networking/social skills, to actual songwriting or playing music, marketing, website work, and so on. Also allowing me to work less than 45 hours a week, giving me enough free time to continue my training outside of work. WHAT DO I DO? Do I continue to try and find a job in the Musical field? Do I get a job that allows me a more healthy, stable platform to build my life purpose on? Am I missing something obvious? What questions am I not asking? What blind spots am I not seeing? I feel that I am missing something, I imagine there being TONS of opportunities, ways to make my life purpose work. I just dont know, I cant see what the future holds. Any feedback appreciated. Regardless of what happens, I will continue on this path, not knowing is fine. Much love,

4-ACO-DMT lead to a profound insight into my life purpose, everything led from that.