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@Caoimhin I did give it enough shots. I prayed, I surrendered, I studied and I was open. But what I found didn’t lead me back to Christianity, it led me into something less defined but more alive. The idea that truth can only be found in one tradition is too narrow for me. I get that certainty brings comfort, but for me what works best is to man up and face the unknown. Btw, you remind me of Athelstan from Vikings

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@Emotionalmosquito I get you, I’ve been there myself. This felt more like a dam breaking than just a moment of bad judgment. But if you want to be taken seriously, the way you deliver the message matters most. You've probably used enough words over the years and by how you describe them they’ll focus more on the outburst than your pain behind it. There are better ways to get your message across though...they might not hit hard in the moment, but have a long lasting impact.

@Emotionalmosquito So you're calling out the double standard but then use some seriously inappropriate language in front of your niece? Come on man, you need to lead by example, not mirror toxic behavior. It sounds like you're stuck in this family dynamic, and honestly no real point was made with that outburst.

Or maybe you don't have to look at all and sit back and relax. The soul level connection is a hoax..

I see, that's a valuable realisation, mate. You sound a lot like one of my friends. I could never fathom how he can stay in a relationship for pragmatic reasons while remaining conscious of the motive behind it. That sounds absolutely foreign to me. I think for some personalities it’s manageable. But for me, it always came at the cost of personal growth and once I noticed that I couldn’t unsee it.

I trained this some years ago but then it freaked me out when it worked. And somehow my mind always went "You hate spiders? Here, let me show you one in dinosaur size, I'll put it next to the faceless demon down the corridor :)"

If I get that old, then help me God. How many people are in relationships for psychological comfort, even when they’re not sick per se? I’ve yet to find someone who isn’t. And I’ve yet to find a woman who’s faced the challenge of being content on her own. At this point in life, I couldn’t feel comfort in seeking support from a relationship, knowing they're mostly an unconscious act. The last time I was sick, my girlfriend made me feel even more sick, so much that I had to break up. Women aren’t naturally empathetic, they’re just really good actresses. I’m saying you gotta be a little mad to fully indulge in relationships...not saying it’s not okay to be

Technically, one has to be a bit of a madman to be in a relationship in the first place.

Good luck with trying to evolve without passion

@Lyubov I can definitely relate. My parents got into a cult and I grew up in that environment. Everything was about control, fear, and following ‘the right way.’ Having conversations with them now is exhausting because they’re so stuck in their beliefs they're unable to see any other perspective. The ironic part: They didn’t want my sister and me to grow up in a toxic environment like they did – yet, in trying to protect us from the world, they built us a custom made straitjacket from hell. The other day, my mom even claimed she was the best mother in all of Switzerland because ‘we were the only children raised in the truth.’ Funny enough, our therapist doesn't agree.

@Caoimhin I prayed to God to guide me to truth when I was a Christian. I asked for clarity, for understanding, and for a deeper connection. I believed that the God I had worshiped would hear my prayer. The answer I received didn’t come from the Christian God. It came from something beyond those boundaries, a deeper sense of truth that transcended the labels I had placed on it. There is no fear in love.

After severe episodes of panic attacks I am now suicidal, last weekend I went to the forest with my gun, but couldn't pull through. The past decade have been a big struggle, only to barely stay alive. There's no hope of life ever getting better. I have no family to turn to. I need help but don't know how to get it, I feel paralyzed but can barely acces my brain.

@Schizophonia I see where you're coming from, but your analysis is way off. All I said was that women do want to be approached at clubs. Nothing about personal insecurity or rumination. Also, if hanging out here 'in a dilettante way' means someone is wired to 'I am not enough', then by your own logic, wouldn’t the person with more posts be even deeper in that mindset? Just a thought from my end

You probably misinterpreted my original comment, I don't see the connection bro.

What are you talking about? Did you mean to @ me?

@Leo Gura You should update the guidelines now that religious debate is tolerated.

That's where single girls go in hopes a high value man approaches them.

It doesn’t provide any satisfying answers based on reason. Rather, it prescribes beliefs that require faith. This is especially damaging to children's critical thinking abilities. As for adults, they are pulled in because their vulnerabilities are exploited. Even if the original teaching was about enlightenment, chances are Christianity does more damage than it does to enlighten.

@gettoefl So you're saying that without external conflict we would settle into a meditative state on our own? I'm with you on that. But my question is whether the actual practice of meditation and going through the motions is actually necessary to reach that state. I would argue that it's just a learned practice, ultimately unnecessary and therefore a distraction.

@Leo Gura Would you also say that there are things about consciousness that others understand but you do not? I'm genuinely interested, not trying to challenge your position.

@gettoefl You just doubled down with more cryptic sentences. What does any of this have to do with what I asked? Would someone actually start going through the same mental and physical mechanics we associate with meditation, without an outside source teaching them how it works?

If there is a way for Christianity to exist in a more conscious state, it would require a complete transformation. At that point, would it even still be Christianity? It would have to actively work on undoing the harm it has caused. But the reality is that the people doing the real work of putting an end to its abuse are the ones who leave Christianity behind. Why do you think this is?

@gettoefl Are you saying rumination is about making money? Either way, your reply is all over the place, I don't get what this has to do with my question.

Jesus Christ