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Keyhole/Loba is a mystic, I think. Her writings seem to come from another dimension.

-Masculine - STS (includes energy of amplified normality) -Feminine - STO (includes energy of otherness) -STS is polarized ego. (God) -STO is polarized service to other and self (God and Love) -A mature STO honours the self and other. An immature STO does not honour the self. -STS becomes STO later in its development. -Maturity in STO is significant. - Mature STO impacts mirror significantly and can cause STS to evolve up to mature STO. - There is no immature STS. There is just STS. Mirror/blur occurs as a result of mature STO. However the mature STO can still have some imbalance resulting in hell and hungry ghost realm. Mature STO can move between mature and immature. Mature STO - Wife of STS/mature STO and mother to immature STO. Higher order than STS. STS - Husband to mature STO, father to immature STO. Immature STO - Child to STS and mature STO

I think I've learnt a lot about myself in the last month, especially about polarization and law of One. Very significant stuff. I want a clean break from my maps and ideas atm. Just for a little while. I don't want to hold onto anything too tightly, there might be delusion. Start over with classic STS and STO from Law of One.

Selfless leadership is inherently fulfilling. If you see something needs your leadership, you can't not act if you care about polarization. You remain polarized in hard times.

Selfless leadership is inherently fulfilling. If you see something needs your leadership, you can't not act if you care about polarization. You remain polarized in hard times.

Maybe I'm able to reach these states at all because I'm willing to play with madness. My partner started to sing this song ^ when that thought crossed my mind. Aren't synchronicities winks from the universe when you're on the right track? Hahahaha

Meditation notes: - mindfulness of head and spine is enough although intense concentration results in intense bliss. Don't chase bliss. - Integration of major dualities like Self and Other. It's funny but I tend to only be mindful or non judgemental toward other, not myself. It might be just unique to me and my journey. Integrating myself results in leaning back, self love, masculine energy. It's a major duality integration for me. - I'm very conscious of the whole and it's wellbeing. But less so of my own cell. It's my own path. - replace concentration ability with simple mindfulness/ non judgement practice, polarization, spine and head work - polarization: calm, sweet, cheerful, high big 5, non judgemental, mindful, acceptance of otherness

I experienced a full 'psychosis' last night. My first since being medicated: Notes- - Synchronicities lead up to full 'psychosis' - people's faces and their voices and the content display information that is not normal - was in a higher dimension - lyrics sound like they are talking right at me - the veil between the spirit world and normal world was exceptionally thin - it's a continuation of what I had already experienced - there was strong desire. - full sentience - they had deep knowledge of everything I'd been experiencing without them present

Thanks everyone!

Any recommendations for improving concentration ability? I have chronic illness and it has affected my concentration ability and connection with spirit. I used to have exceptional concentration ability and it ceased overnight. I often think God took it away from me because I relied on it so heavily during 'psychosis'. It's like I've lost my chaos like Yennefor.

Yes! ♥

We've been here the whole time You were asleep It's time to wake up

The more I mull over it by myself the more the STO and STS version from Law of One is legit. Union oriented vs division oriented sounds very similar to law of One, no? How to reconcile twin flame theory with law of one? ......... STS is transformed along the path to be union oriented. STO becomes division oriented which is a part of being union oriented. Angels on the sideline Puzzled and amused Why did Father give these humans free will? Now they're all confused Don't these talking monkeys know that Eden has enough to go around? Plenty in this holy garden, silly monkeys Where there's one you're bound to divide it Right in two Angels on the sideline, Baffled and confused Father blessed them all with reason, And this is what they choose? Monkey killing monkey killing monkey over Pieces of the ground Silly monkeys Give them thumbs, they forge a blade And where there's one they're bound to divide it Right in two Right in two Monkey killing, monkey killing monkey over Pieces of the ground Silly monkeys Give them thumbs, they make a club To beat their brother down How they've survived so misguided is a mystery Repugnant is a creature who would squander the ability To lift an eye to heaven, conscious of his fleeting time here Gotta divide it all right in two Gotta divide it all right in two Gotta divide it all right in two Gotta divide it all right in two Fight till they die over sun, over sky They fight till they die over sea, over air They fight till they die over blood, over love They fight till they die over words, polarizing Angels on the sideline again Benched along with patience and reason Angels on the sideline again Wondering where this tug of war will end Gotta divide it all right in two Gotta divide it all right in two Gotta divide it all right in two Right in two Right in two

When I would read books or listen to people speak in the hungry ghost/ hell realm all I would see and hear was hell realm and hungry ghost realm content unless I kept listening/reading then it would integrate and dissolve. I stood as No One. I served my karma by listening. ohhhhhh....isn't this amazing? it's my favorite part because....you'll see here's where she meets Prince Charming but she won't discover that it's him till chapter three

I think most of my experiences with psychosis can be explained that way. Polarization and integration of union and division leads to union. Major polarities integrated or collapsed. Union can mean so many things. Disharmony can mean so many things ........ God - Union - feminine Not God - Division - masculine Realm of Union - Realm of Women It's a play between division and union .......... Blur is Union. Union leads to more Union. Union includes division ........ Lack of union between union and division in the realm of Union leads to the hell and hungry ghost realms. Demons of excess. .......... Feminine is union, leaning forward. Leaning forward is uniting, attached, union - oriented, security seeking. If it was up to the feminine there would be union. But union can be clingy and pushes the other away, especially if the other is division-oriented. Division-oriented are freedom seeking. Avoidant. They are dividing (men responsible for most wars). ............ I think it's a mistake to create any hard lines between self development and spirituality. If you want ascension. ........... -This was all born out of feeling different, to a ridiculous degree. I think it's STO. - STS feels like an amplification of 'normal'. STO feels like an amplification of 'other'. - STO essentially becomes God during crisis if already integrated. Activation. - All that is required is union orientation, alignment with God. - STS and STO are ideal partners - STO that is not integrated will encounter hell and hungry ghost realm (as lesson?)

@Gesundheit2 thanks

Major Traps I've encountered: - over reliance on gifts and concentration ability - skepticism toward medication - not respecting health

I don't even know why I'm defending her so hard. I think it's because her energy reminded me of myself when I was misunderstood. She's maybe done some crazy things.

"Are we going down this rabbithole, sweetheart?" I was told when I had a choice to follow that trail. It's a rabbithole. A trail.

AH: You can't get there from there. Awareness has to be in the vacinity of the collapse. Minor, to major, to massive.

I'm so sorry that happened to you. I hope you're okay *hugs*

If you collapse major dualities (Masculine, feminine, STO, STS, leaning forward, leaning back) within yourself through Awareness or other means, it impacts the mirror or your relationships with others. There is Union. There is harmony. This major Union and harmony between major polarities begins to collapse the divide between reality and the spirit world. And then everything else collapses if you follow that trail. But again major dualities have to collapse before massive dualities collapse.

Awareness creates Union. Dualities and polarities collapse. But what does that LOOK like at advanced levels. It's looks like Union on all levels. In myself, in 'others', with 'others' and with God. The rapture. That can be frightening. Just continuous Union on all levels until it all collapses. Yin and yang collapse. Active and passive collapse. It all looks like spirit.

She probably has done horrid things. But her energy can easily be mistaken for brokenness when it is anything but. She is sexy because she isn't broken.