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I'm pointing to Shiva and Shakti. You need both principles. You need a balance of Shiva and Shakti. An imbalance causes 'problems'. They are equal. Balance between Yin and Yang. Manifested (yang) and Unmanifested (Yin). . Shiva and Shakti. There is no Shiva without Shakti and no Shakti without Shiva: "The feminine/masculine labels stuck on these two approaches mean very little, but help to explain and separate two approaches. Masculine says "I am God, I seek truth". Feminine says I am creation, I seek love. Yet there is no Truth without Love. And there is no Love without Truth. Like in the story of Narcissus, masculine is Narcissus, Feminine is echo. There is neither narcissist nor empath, male or female, each is only embodying part of the whole, creating the other as a pointer to wholeness."

REPOST (EDIT): Yang - Life energy The world had grown cold. Depressed. I could feel it. The planet was full of Life energy at the expense of Breath. Difficult to explain. The collective had become narcissistic (Life energy) due to too much Breath. Without Breath Life energy started to drain. Then there was a calling for Breath. The rebalancing involved the balance of Life energy and Breath. There were individuals who came forward who had the qualities required for the collective to have hope, love, and faith again. Not saying I am some kind of savior but I have always had access to a level of consciousness where I could Breathe Life energy into things, where I was warmth and fullness. Maybe in spite of my fool archetype or maybe because of it. I don't know. When the individuals came forward the rebalancing of the planet occurred. I required Life energy to be heard, which my communications with my unconscious/entities provided. Pandora (Breath) opened pandora's box by Breathing too much Life energy. Life energy (collective/masculine) then became stagnant, narcissistic, and self-worshipping. Life energy is seeming perfection, not in need of Breath. Blind to its own limitation. Love created the Evil of this world. You can see The Origination Story play out in relationships between men and women. Women are Breath and men are Life energy.

REPOST (EDIT): Brainstorm 'Life': Chi Life force Life energy and Breath. Life energy arises out of Breath. Life energy inspires more Breath. Because it’s so beautiful God wants to create more. She’s very creative. . The entities/archetypes had strong Chi (life energy) and Breath. They were very creative and loving. They strongly breathed life energy. They radiated Love and their core was filled with 'Love' (strong life force, Qi). Very beautiful. They were playful and spontaneous because of this strong life force at their core. They were full of Life energy.

REPOST (EDIT) : You need a combination of Man (Life energy - masculine) and God (Breath - feminine). God can heal and blossom that which is Man. And Man can inspire that which is God. I don't entirely understand this channeling. It came from an alien state of consciousness and I am not versed in this stuff. God wants both God and Man, higher consciousness and lower consciousness, wisdom and localized intellect. They are equal in God's eyes. Improvement/growth and no growth are also equal in God's eyes. Masculine and feminine. God created both to be equal. The ultimate qualities of Man and God are Life energy and Breath. Life energy in balance means health, beauty, and well-being. Life energy out of balance means narcissism and self-worship. Breath in balance is love. Breath out of balance is pandora's box. Too much God can be negative and too much Man can be negative. Adam and Eve: Eve gave Adam the forbidden fruit. Eve actually symbolizes God and Adam symbolizes Man (Life energy). Eve persuaded Adam to eat of the apple of Good and Evil (Breath) so that they might become Gods. Adam then sees himself as a God and simultaneously Evil is unleashed upon the world. Eve has been struck down and subjugated as Adam is now God and no longer seems in need of Breath, which is also threatening to him. The masculine and patriarchal Man has been refashioned as God.

Chi means 'Breath' and what I call 'Breath' is actually Source. 'Life' (Chi) is something non-physical-like. It's like electricity or energy. Glowing. It is life force. Whereas what I call the 'Breath' is the Source. The entities/archetypes would glow with this life force.

Slowly She lifts her head from the pillow of winter boredom Rigidly, she rises from her icy grave With light in her eyes And fight in her fists She commences the winter war And as the ice welks away The spring queen will take over

Wow. Sounds very similar to the 'entities' I witnessed during a mystical experience. Childlike, quirky, playful, bouncing everywhere. I had a similar embodiment at the time. I'm excited to see how this will evolve.

On the imbalance: I 'transformed' in their presence. It was almost like and due to a recontextualization and realization. They were my children. I was 'mother' and 'wife'. Some kind of hidden 'knowledge' was revealed by circumstances. Circumstances were dire seemingly, I could feel something wasn't right but nothing had come to pass. Premonitions. So I started saying stuff to ease the energy. The imbalance caused me to see things that weren't there because I was dealing with energies that were so 'real'. My mind filled in the blanks. It's hard for me to discern what the hidden knowledge was. Something about leaning back, leaning forward, and Spirit. I was in a world of my own, so I wasn't exactly grounded. I have entities/archetypal figures of my psychology helping me to lean back. In reality, people are starved of this quality and it impacts everything. Spirit/embodiment/love is like Leaning forward with a capital L. It overrides all other forms of leaning forward. It is superior to all other forms. If you have spirit then you can manifest entities/archetypes within your psychology to help you profoundly lean back. I remember knowing that. Recontextualization plus leaning back = transformation. Leaning back is the key to attraction and health. All good things flow to you. Again, people are starved of this quality. It requires a pure/childlike heart to enter into the cave of wonders. The Genie (entity/archetypes of your psychology) will give you all that your heart desires. Of course, you can only get to that place during an imbalance usually. So you'll be coming from a place of service, selflessness, and spreading love usually. It is a natural reward, healing. If you can survive The Descent. I was able to heal myself through the breath of life. Spirit breathes life. 'Life' (Health and goodness) is then the result of that. Breathing life - ultimate leaning forward.

Just mean that childlikeness goes hand in hand with the divine similar to how turquoise or feminine development goes hand in hand/ is correlated with a relationship with the divine. Created my own spiral of maturity that includes immaturity at the top of the spiral (joker). Idk felt like it.

Preach.

Quality of action over quantity Using headspace. Going to schedule in quality of action into my check-list of things to do over quantity of action. Headspace has mindful washing hands, washing face, brushing teeth, walking etc. Quality of action is energising and motivates you to take more action from that place that you've set up within yourself. Movement breaks the inertia and quality breaks the resistance. I'm writing this for myself, so I can remember.

Leadership and involving her in your work. Have work that you are working on and include her ideas or feelings, even if they seem silly. She’ll fall in love because you have something you are working on, and you are being inclusive and easily influenced by her and her ideas. She will feel heard and loved and admire you all at the same time. Worked on me.

It depends on other factors. How is he with you a part from this? I’ve had someone do this to me before and they were vibrating at resentment and suspicion, not pleasant and it never went away.

On why women can be ‘fickle’ Feminine is complex, bordering on mystical. We aren’t cut and dry like guys. We can sense multiple layers in the situation intuitively and our feelings reflect that. When we deny our feelings, it can feel like we are denying a vital aspect of ourselves and what we have to offer. Also you’re dealing with the collective female painbody. Most attractive masculine qualities Leadership and involving her in your work. Have work that you are working on and include her ideas or feelings, even if they seem silly. She’ll fall in love because you have something you are working on, and you are being inclusive and easily influenced by her and her ideas. She will feel heard and loved and admire you all at the same time. Worked on me. My idea of success A fluid reality while balanced. Basking in reality itself. Beauty streaming through. My higher self/the Daimon I still have contact with my higher self. Especially when I am happy (as they instruct me to be). Happiness overwhelms the medication and I receive communications. Although my higher self is always there behind text to a degree no matter my state, it’s permanent. The angelic part of my psyche = the higher self/the Daimon = the true nature of the shadow, in my perspective. The angelic part of my psyche/the higher self is the future self and the true nature of the shadow.

Feminine is complex, bordering on mystical. We aren’t cut and dry like guys. We can sense multiple layers in the situation intuitively and our feelings reflect that. When we deny our feelings, it can feel like we are denying a vital aspect of ourselves and what we have to offer. Also you’re dealing with the collective female painbody.

@Loba Awesome! I also tried that route but unfortunately it didn’t work out for me. Speaking can be quite intimidating and my health kinda stops me from processing what I wish to say quickly, as well as my personality - to not form opinions quickly - stunts my capacity to make videos. You don’t appear crazy at all to me. Passionate and focused, definitely not crazy. I became unwell around the time I failed to follow my true path. I took a wrong turn for the sake of money and my spirit could not tolerate it. A bit like what Bentinho talks about how if you don’t keep up once you reach a certain level you can become very unwell or die.

“At the same time, there will still always be a faint air of insanity about people who have walked the Madness Road, even when they are acting completely sane and normal, just like there will be a faint aura of "death" around those who have walked the Death Road - and for people with the Sight, they may be able to see and smell Death in their auras. (That "smell of death" is difficult for most non-Sighted people to interpret, and they may end up associating it mentally with "evil" or "wrongdoer" or just "creepy". Even if they are lawful and upright people who never harm anyone, people may just "feel" after being around them for five minutes that this is someone dangerous or harmful.) That's because shamans don't ever really come all the way back. One spirit-worker, however, pointed out to me that walking the Madness Road has one significant benefit: A shaman may well be asked to deal with people who are broken in all sorts of ways, and having spent time insane can give insight and compassion in those cases. When one spends time delving into damaged psyches, it's good to know the territory intimately.” Props to @Loba for finding this. I had the smell of death almost overwhelm me several times in the past. Would almost pass out while burning up and smelling a strong smell of death around my aura. Becoming unwell was always a threat during the mystical experience the incense holder that caused a strong smell of death in the bedroom where I became deathly ill at 21 was not a coincidence I think. my mums bedroom wasn’t far from the incense holder. I wonder if….I remember during the mystical experience that my mum and I were tied together I’m constantly battling with physical illness. On a side note: I had an aboriginal shaman lady tell me I was her daughter in the hospital. I felt like we knew each other, but on a spiritual level. She told me not to be afraid of the ‘big men’.

There is a certain ‘setup’ that pertains to Being. And also a certain attitude and way of being that can potentially indicate a relationship with Being. The real thing is messy, unexpected, and doesn’t fit into neat little boxes.

Chaos. The beginning of the path. "Don't talk like one of them. You're not! Even if you'd like to be. To them, you're just a freak, like me! They need you right now, but when they don't, they'll cast you out, like a leper!" This joker is a little more complex. But chaotic is another way of saying childlike or foolish. So is empty (empty cup). Batman is a matured version, hence Joker's feeling of camaraderie with Batman.

The divine shines through. Integration. Fluidity/'schizophrenia'. Although he's very immature. Has a dense shadow and has been pushed over the edge. Integration of the fool is a part of maturation so the Joker is going through a maturation process even though he's immature. To embrace your 'incelhood' (as the joker did) is to blossom and mature, grow in wisdom and knowledge and skill.

I have yet to mature into the path I have chosen. 'Knowing' and wisdom comes with that maturation but you start as the fool necessarily, just like in the Tarot. The fool already has value/is a major arcana in that it has a keen experience of the divine. Maturation is a bonus. Your fundamental nature also remains the same (the fool) but you have matured. Foolishness and the divine go hand in hand like a childlike nature and the divine does. It is a struggle, but worth it.

'Incelhood' My definition of incel is a little different I suppose than the typical definition. I've always been a little 'Off'. That's my definition. It's a little different than being on the spectrum or low IQ. It's a deep lack of social calibration, a foolishness, a silliness, a difference. It's inherited. And also a part of my personality (So/sx energy). Think Donald Trump minus the narcissism. Being in contact with people for a long length of time tends to have negative effects due to it so I'm deeply introverted. I don't know how my Dad and my sister do it. I think it's because they were blessed with extroverted charisma and craftiness/manipulation. Donald Trump plus the narcissism. My Dad commented the other day how similar Donald Trump and him are. Donald Trump is the ultimate incel in my eyes. Of course I have a partner who I love and adore to bits and spend every waking moment with, when we're not fighting all the time. He is completely normal, no incelhood or autism. He tells me he is attracted to me. And also I'm mostly asexual so celibacy is irrelevant to me. This side of me that is 'Off' is a big reason for my gifting in fluidity/'schizophrenia'. I do not conform to norms and I have no social frame of reference. It is something I have to learn to integrate. I was making progress earlier Along with not conforming to norms and not having any social frame of reference, I don't have a clue about reality. Like I embody 'not knowing'. This has upsides and downsides. Downsides: I have no clue. Upsides: I have no clue so reality can be as fluid as it wants. No limits. I am not solidified in beliefs. I have no solid beliefs and expectations. I'm like a child. And here's the kicker. I purposefully make myself that way. Childlike. The Bible doesn't demonise the fool or weak things always: "But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty" My Dad: "People of the world think we are fools, because we are small but God exalts us. People of the world are very prideful and God uses those who humble themselves and exalts them" A childlike (not childish) perception makes the world very beautiful. The divine shines through when you are not clogged up with heavy judgement and beliefs, what I often see in other people/adults. You can feel a divinity shining through everything. He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them. And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes one such child in my name welcomes me.”