Breakingthewall

I once had a kind of dream, after doing psychedelic the day before, about death. the person, me, with all its characteristics, attributes, memories, detached itself, and with all serenity dissolved into nothingness forever, as if it had never existed, and emptiness remained. only that I really was the emptiness, absolutely void, I always was and the person never existed. I think death could be like this

there are behaviors that strengthen the ego, and others that weaken it. the selfish, evil and sadistic make your ego heavier. With a heavier ego, you will behave more that way, entering a circle in which you will be separated, unhappy and fearful, until you reach hellish levels. I would call that "bad". If your behavior is disinterested, integral, clean, your ego will weaken, with which you will be happier, intelligent, open. I would call it "good"

All is magic, nothing is mundane. You have to turn off the radio to appreciate

Great quote

true, language is very useful for survival, it allows us to act as a group, but it has a price: it creates a jail, it imprisons you in a very complicated system of good / bad, dualities, where good is acceptance, which means survival, and evil, rejection, which is identified with death. Getting out of this maze and be free is not easy at all, but it is an exciting game

This shit is a challenge. I have to remind myself every moment that the past is only in me, it has no real existence, if I don't do that i hear my father insult my mother and me 20 times a day and I go into a loop of hate. Everything is in my mind right now, and with relative ease you can control those loops, there is a clear awareness that it is you who creates those shitty self-referential thoughts

@Javfly33 have read several of your posts about 5meo, very oriented to transcendence and the realization of God. I think you can have deep realizations of that type, but your ego will return, and without taking too long. Have you tried mushrooms in medium doses, 2-4 grams? they can work miracles with a sore ego. It is lazy to do it, since unpleasant moments are spent, but it is worth it if your intention is to be totally honest with yourself

@James123 i told you , there is nothing...but there is something. I only Intuit it, behind the void

I look forward to it. it can be revolutionary.

@Leo Gura have you thought about writing? maybe you would reach more people

samsara theory is very egoic. life as a test to reach a goal. and denies life: it is not desirable. the goal is to escape from life, which is just suffering. It's very silly. Is the life of birds suffering, or that of a dolphin? the human is complex, but it is not all suffering. I would rather stay in samsara for a few million more cycles. life is Beautiful and the absolute isn't going to move

Yeah , the ego is a trap. escaping from the trap is critical. The difficult thing about it is that outside of the trap there is nothing. adaptation time is needed

@SQAAD your ego is a perfect survival machine programmed to escape from the bad (for your survival), and pursue the good. He is your friend, but you have to keep him under control, know exactly what he does and how. more accurate would be to say that he must keep himself under control

@James123 yes, we are nothing, amplitude without limits, zero. but there is a problem here: we also exist as "something". I think that enlightenment is more than liberation and nothingness. Maybe my ego can't accept be nothing, of course, but there is something!. And yes, it's liberating, relaxing, resting in the present at the end. But same time it's like sad. The void where there is no where or when, no shape, no energy. Always the same moment, the zero moment. What a party. But same time, there is a big party. The universe is. Impossible to understand that duality right now

@James123 i cannot "be" nothingness, only see it as one who looks out into an abyss. there is calm but also rejection. do you access that every day? how long, if i may ask?

I am increasing to 2 hours a day and it is getting easier, lately 45 minutes seems like 10 but it is not something completely "good". I arrive at an unlimited emptiness, with hardly any thought, there is no time, there is nothing there. like you says, before birth. but it's intimidating, it looks like death. yesterday I tried to hold out as long as I could there and I had a physical reaction, nausea for hours. Later there is a great feeling of freedom, like no ego, very present, but also the feeling that behind this appearance there is only emptiness, nothing, zero, death. it's like a bad 5 meo trip. there is no enlightenment there, only nothing. Still I look for every moment to see it again

@Joscha i have found your report very inspiring. has a simple message: if you want to enter heaven you have to be ego free, otherwise you will fall into hell. i'm sure if i d take 600ug of lsd like you i would visit hell, it needs a previous big work

@Amit It surprises me how someone can call another stupid in every sentence of a conversation. demonstrates violence. be careful, that violence will one day turn against you

I would say: people fear being excluded from the sex market as much as death

@Joscha @Joscha thanks for sharing! I think that if on that trip you had had a close person with experience in psychedelics, the hellish situation would have lessened by 80%

if you make deals with the devil you always lose. but it is so tempting that it is difficult to give it up, even if over and over again we see that its reward is a fraud.

@Joscha Could you share that trip report?

@Kalo i hate weed since long time but I'm going to try ?

5 meo lately? Yes, there is only you, the one, playing a strange cosmic game with yourself

existence continues to exist, and we disappear because we never really exist