Breakingthewall

Microdose are nice, but not useful for introspection. Maybe yes for contemplating

Start with mushrooms, 1,5 grs dry, first time, and increasing.mushrooms could help you to improve about face fears, trauma, etc in a way that you can't imagine. Your life could improve a lot in not a long time, it's real

5 meo dmt is that you are looking for. It's the door to the infinity, over all if you already had that experience.

it completely depends on your reasons for meditating. Most people do it to improve their mental state, be happier, have more control over their emotions, etc. It is completely legitimate and also successful, it works. Another different thing is that you look for the real transcendence, the total deconstruction of your ego, the realization of infinity, etc. I know people who have done two vipasana meditation retreats and you talk to them about transcendence and they think: yes yes, all that is very good, very ideal, but talk to me about real things, about performing at work and being more positive for example. It is normal, letting go of ballast and being naked before infinity only happens when it has to happen

Time to let all go is coming. Good luck for you too my friend

I listened, even I think that jiddu was a fake. Was the first master that impressed me , and now I read and I think that he only want to sound misterious. But you never know. He says that any believe have not worth. Of course I agree. Only direct experience has worth, words and sistem of beliefs are empty, but some ways of thinking could help to make the ego less hard. Yeah normal, thats why I used that word. But I used after to perceive. When the mind dissapear , the limits dissapear. You realize that the mind is that: a limit that shape the nothingness. Without limit you perceive the infinite ,or the nothing if you prefer. But my realization finish there. After the experience, if I meditate, there is not a wall in front me anymore, there is open, no limit. I think I'm going to costume to that and be nothing. But it isn't the point. The point is that I'm sure that itsnt all. Go for a walk in the country, yes, all is a thought, but what a thought! The nothingness must be only a face of the infinity I don't know because I wasn't more deeper, but I think yes, it's possible be. There is a mistery to understand, the being.

Infinity is nothing that I learned. 5 meo stopped my mind , and infinity was revealed, as the limits created by the mind disappeared.(no wonderland at all) I can assure you that there was nothing learned there. The idea that was in my mind when I came back was: absolutely unthinkable (and horrible too because it's more nothing that I ever imagine) . I don't doubt your perception of pure nothingness but what about this, maya, the dream, what do you want to call it? for you it is nothing ... but it is a very rich nothing, very perfect, very deliberate. dont close the door to more deep understanding

@James123 Infinity is the great annihilator. Anything divided by infinity = nothing. That is why it is said that reality, the dream, is an illusion, because when you contrast it with the infinite it disappears, it is revealed as nothing. But it still exists and that is the mystery. Those who you said that they have meditated 20 years, or 40, always speak of the great unknowable mystery. Infinity is nothing but it has a quality, something, it is

I meant that have a very ugly taste for me, too demoniac. And I didn't see nothing to learn there, except to see how weird could be the reality.For me it is like putting myself in the washing machine on the spin program, as a practical joke it may be, but I am not going to do it regularly. I guess it will be different for everyone

@SourceCodo ufff I admire you. I went the second time to not look like a coward, but that's it! I have already fulfilled!! now you go, you will see, it is very funny??

This is the definition of pure nightmare. And it's sold for 20 € in the grow shops.

Smoking salvia for me was like giving a long, deep screw kiss to the goddess Kali, with her entire cohort of demons screaming around her. short-circuited spicy flavor, reality unravels and bounces, it is poisonous. it stings like hot chili. doing it a second time was because I didn't really remember the first. a third is not necessary

the value of a junkie leper and pedophile is the same as that of a nobel prize. both are forms that exist, expressions of the same reality

When you see the infinite, you will understand without a doubt that it has no beginning or end, it has no form, it is timeless, and that it is everything, but at the same time it is nothing, because anything dissolved in it becomes nothing. but nothing can be outside of it, with what is also everything. without origin, unthinkable

It is difficult to embrace the reality that you really are infinite nothingness, but it is so. nothingess uniform, no accidents, flat, pure, timeless, perfect. which also means, without a doubt, that nothingness is

Holiness is when you let yourself go completely, there is nothing left of the individual, you are a servant of the infinity, that is, of yourself, without ego. with the same joy you accept dying of hunger as living comfortably, or working for others. you give your earthly life with joy, you are fully enlightened, full of god

I really understand. Not so different happened to me not far ago...well without divorced, but with relatives and many friends. there are some behaviors that are impossible to maintain. Congratulations on having come out of falsehood and into integrity. being completely honest is priceless, it is essential

Great . Be fine with that isn't easy, be strong is necessary. But you don't need to show that you changed, you have another vision of reality, etc. When you "go up" a step in your consciousness, understanding of the ego, suddenly you see the games of others as something obvious, you wonder if they are the ones who have changed and not you. But it's possible to handle it and not make them uncomfortable (well if they aren't really egotic like a couple who needs drama of course) I think there isn't a thin line between spirituality and Madness. Maybe the people around thinks that you are mad, but not you. And it's easy to shut up and let them be

Of course , the secret is "only" that

as buddha said, the problem is desire. When for you it is the same that you are sentenced to life imprisonment in an Iranian prison, or that you have a trip to Micronesia with the girl of your dreams, then you can understand that something = nothing and see God. If not , to take psychedelics, and try to have any insight

Nothing=something something=nothing Do you understand? I don't. Some moments, in meditation, I got it. Yes , obviously, I'm a shape, all that I am is shaping the nothing, a shape is the same to another shape, suffering is the same than joy, shape is the same than nothingness. But in the moment that you analyze it, you loose, there is not logical in that

The vertigo of empty death. I have just been at death's door but I have not died. The horror of the dead void. There is nothing. Nothing, it opens before you, dead. Nothing dead, without escape because it is infinite. Infinite death Guys, I can say that in my specific case it takes courage to continue with this. I've been a serious rock climber, glider, sailing alone, Atlantic Crossings, etc ... all those kiddie games. Infinity opens before me. And once again I see that it is eternal death, unimaginable, unthinkable, beyond horror. And there I have to go, my whole life has been a preparation. I have to dive headfirst into horror. Nobody has an idea, no matter how much you meditate, no matter how enlightened you may think, what I am talking about. For me 5 meo is like that, and only I exist. Maybe for others this is child's play. It takes more courage for me than a firing squad. The shot does not know what awaits him, I do, the horror of non-existence. But how is it possible not to exist? Now everything is blurred, the emptiness, ah of course, what the mystics say. it's pretty deep down, liberation. Yes yes, the horror. Today I go back, to see if God, I , as they say (I don't see any god) allows me to die completely this time. Or if not tomorrow. The total, real, absolute, empty, death. You can't imagine the horror, the infinite. Well, as it supposed it's the door of enlightenment, let's go. And I don't want to live with the fear of that infinite horror. Dear friends, the 5 meo party is waiting for all of us

@abrakamowse @abrakamowse Great, thank you! I will read, I already read the first text many times. It's surprising that people can go so deep without any chemical help. Seems Impossible. Maybe you are one of them. the text explains the whole void thing very well. which is really the matter of enlightenment. As you said, it is surprising that in the books on spirituality almost nothing is said about this.

@abrakamowse the greatest thing that I ever read . I truly say thank you.

stop shouting peace to each other !!!?