Breakingthewall

people feel separate, an individual entity that must fight to survive. that generates insecurity. will i be suitable? it causes you to compare yourself with others, and if you interpret you are under, you feel depressed, worse, in deep not suitable for survival. so the obvious reaction is to try to be above. How? There are many ways, including feeling more spiritually advanced. the remedy: see that there is no better or worse, only the perfection of what is

Leo repeats this disturbing idea several times, which suggests that the conscience suffers from loneliness. Maybe he is right, but I would say that you are not going to live Leo's life because you are living it right now. there is only existence, it is only one with the appearance of being multiple. It is a kind of trick that it does to unfold infinitely without ceasing to be just one, and it is empty but at the same time it has characteristics (I think), it is pure joy and creativity

Yeah , if once out of non-existence existence arose, it will do so again. non-existence does not exist, so it has no duration, it is instantaneous, so you will instantly continue to exist, since non-existence does not exist. for me the impossible question is: how can existence exist?

This is not true in my experience

and it is the beginning of seeing that you are obviously the manifested existence, in its absolute perfection, brilliance and glory. not a better experience as it always was, but it seems so much better

It seems obvious that your conscience and mine, if you completely remove the memory, are exactly the same. the experience we are having, to which we give meaning, centered in the self, makes it seem like two different consciousnesses, but it seems clear that this is a forced illusion, trick to keep the body alive. If we accept this, it is obvious that when my body dies, my experience of the self will disappear, but the consciousness that is being, will continue to be in you. The question is what would happen if all the universe turns off and disappears, and there is nothing left. the timeless undifferentiated emptiness. would "something" arise again? It would seem that if "things" have been created out of nothing once, this will continue to happen.

on a materialistic level, everything you perceive is a creation of your brain. everything you see is created by the back of your brain in real time from light impulses entering your retinas. quite a job. so there is nothing strange that this can vary with psychedelics since It's not the real world, it's a good imitation that your brain does

This doesn't mean that the realization will not happen at some point. the ego mind is cunning and knows how to hide in front of your face. At 12 is when you start to worry about how others see you, insecurities, etc. keep digging, mushrooms are a wonderful tool. probably one day you will see ... ah of course, this

think that in all religious traditions of all cultures (that I know of) sexual abstention has been promoted among priests. Suppose this comes from imitating the true spontaneous asexuality that seems to occur in many true enlightened and mystical ones. I think that in heightened states of consciousness sexuality declines, or at least changes. I think there may be a type of enlightened sexuality (I'm not sure), but it is normal for the more instinctive, animal sexuality to decline as consciousness rises

we are under the illusion that we have come a long way to get where we are ... and we never moved. we just add layers, or remove layers. but imo if there are more layers to remove, until there is nothing left. that's a goal

When? How would you define when within the infinite no time? what is the difference between before, after or at the same time? If time is an illusion, those concepts are illusory Physical reality is the dream of the infinite mind. You could label it as "dream", or "physical", "real", or any word. It is what it is.

do it without a doubt. Obsessive compulsive is probably a manifestation of your guilt. With 5meo it is possible that you realize that there is no fault, only what is, shame is the real "sin", lack of humbless. it can have huge benefits. It can also be unbalancing, but one have to take risks

Not only of society. deep down, innate, there is the duality between life and death. a huge urge to live. as we are social beings, this translates into acceptance-rejection, because the society keep us alive. it is something very real, not just social. the "should be" in the end is what it should be to optimize survival. for this it is difficult to transcend. it's on our hardware. for the self, or the "should be", to dissolve, it is not enough to understand it. you have to see that what is is perfect by definition. it is the existence that arises from emptiness, absolute. It is not easy to see absolute perfection in illness, violence, loss. in fact it is almost impossible since it goes against our hardware. that is why traditionally whoever has really wanted to see it has had to renounce the world, that is, the need for survival. I think nowadays we can see glimpses or even get enlightened as our survival is highly guaranteed. That is why today we have the possibility of transcending the ego without being heroic renouncers. but if we were in other circumstances, it wouldn't be so easy

Yes , and because it is , is absolutely perfect. Obvious in a way, impossible to see in another. For the mind that continually projects the "should be", it is a completely absurd idea .but it is not an idea, it is real, if it is seen, the perfection and real beauty of each thing is manifested, you just have to eliminate the should be

like that, a kind of breakup that happens without warning ,but it must be the i itself that wants to break itself it seems

I don't know if it happens to you, I would say yes, in my case the problem has been a long time that I believed that many things in my life should not have happened, should be different. This creates a constant background distortion that is anxiety. imagine that what should be is one track, and what is and is another. if they are not exactly the same, there is distortion. To match them, you have to understand one thing very clearly: absolutely everything that has happened to you and you are is perfection. there is not a comma to change or a millimeter to move. any pretense of it is a huge lack of humility, ego in its purest form. It may sound very obvious but it is not really easy to see. The idea yes, but not how real is it. you are the reality, completely perfect. the idea that something should have been different is madness, delirium. There isn't "should be", doesn't exist such idea. If you can see it, you will see how absurd it is to have "dark spots". I don't know what is the technique to see this, I saw it clearly for the first time with mushrooms, the reality that arises from the nothingness like a miracle should be different?? suddenly, in a moment, all thinking about my story stopped. lost its strength. then he came back but after a while of meditation it becomes evident again. is liberation

What kind of evidence? If you could explain...

what you're talking about is the ego movie. You can try to make it a wonderful movie, where you are the best friend, the best father, the best professional, a hero to the world ... it is the same, it is all a mirage. totally unreal. empty. imagine living the rest of your life in a cave without interacting with anyone, in total silence, immobile. what would you think? a nightmare? it seems to the ego. any need to do something, to be something for someone, is ego. the problem here is that the ego is not real, it is a scam. It promises you fullness but then it deflates, and you can see that all that movie was just imagination, a total madness. the question is whether you want to run to the beat of the ego like the rat in the wheel, or take a step back and be stunned by the emptiness of the scam, and rest in the present without further pretense. It's the only real thing

Of course, no one tries to describe consciousness with thoughts. it is trying to identify the origin of the thoughts. imo arise from the need for control. the need for control is the i, and it is the creator of thoughts. Though are a manifestation of the need of control, trying to control every single second, without leaving a gap for emptiness, because for the need for control, emptiness is the supreme lack of control

Do you think so? I'd say that as you need control (or you are the need of control), thought arises, but it's difficult to say

Even a shift happens, and the ego somehow dissolves and it becomes obvious what you are, or what you are not, there is limitation. you can go much deeper, it's only the begging imo

the barrier is me, I can't completely abandon myself. in meditation there is some need for control, which is translated into thoughts. Could be silent, but shortly. the need for control is less, but it exists. the desire for survival, the attachment to the body, is great, the need for company too. here we are communicating all the time! . there are many barriers, freeing yourself is really very difficult, don't you think?

depends on the person. I don't think Martin Ball is a very balanced person. Another famous lsd consumer, Timothy Leary, lived in very good conditions but never stopped being a total egotist. I think that if you use them wisely and purposefully the benefits can be enormous, but it's not guaranteed Could be some kind of addiction like excess of enthusiasm at first times, but abuse is very rare, especially if it is used for personal development purposes. you have to make an effort to get out of your comfort zone and do it

how would you know? it is easy to be deceived. I think I am very close to dissolving the self and in some moments of meditation it happens, or with 5 meo. Self-referring thoughts are few in everyday life and the compulsive need to be in control is low, but there are still barriers. So no, i didn't, or maybe i partially did

Albert Hoffman, the inventor of LSD and discoverer of psilocybin , lived 102 years in magnificent condition and never stopped taking LSD . Another famous who defended and used psychedelics was Ernst Junger, hero of the German trenches, and Nobel Prize in Literature, who lived until he was 103