Breakingthewall

I think you can get to live with a minimal ego. but do you really want that? The less ego, the greater happiness, so on the one hand, for practical reasons, the logical thing would be to want that. but this implies a great detachment. for example, leaving your law career and going to live in a cave with nothing material. I am not saying that this is necessary, but that it is a possibility. you, that is, the ego, since it is the ego that is trying to minimize the ego, do you want to give up yourself? up to what point? I personally prefer the option: to God what belongs to God and to Caesar what belongs to Caesar. a healthy ego that knows its place, its nature, and does not try to usurp what belongs to God, but who, while possible, will try to satisfy. i don't want to be ramana maharshi, in silent ecstasy. there will be eternity for that. Probably i would be much more happy in that fulfillment, but I feel that as an ego, I owe something to myself

The problem with narcissists is that to stop being narcissistic they have to adopt a very brave, sincere and noble attitude, and it happens that they are narcissists due to lack of courage, sincerity and nobility. so it is a very difficult and unlikely revolution that would have to happen to radically change their way of being

evil and good depend. For the ego, which considers itself separate, the good is what is positive for the individual, the clan, the social group, and the bad is what harms it. From the spiritual point of view, or from the truth, there is no individual, clan or group, so evil is selfishness, that is, what strengthens the illusion of the individual, and good is selfless, what brings you closer to the truth, to the whold. It could be said that the false good is that of the ego and the true, that of the truth. but....from the point of view of truth, total good is total selflessness, mashamadi. that is, a single breath, is evil. it takes you away from the whole, it keeps you individual, suffering. so we do not aspire to real good, we settle for not reaching levels of evil that turn us into demonic monsters wallowing in hell, but firmly maintaining our individual existence, the closer as possible of truth, doing evil acts such as eating. why? Because selfishness. We have realized that selfishness keeps you away from the truth and from the only true happiness, and we want to be happy. but not 100% happy, since we would disappear

It happens to me with 5meo that sometimes liberation is natural, easy, spontaneous, wonderful, and other times it is impossible. when it's impossible, be careful. experience would define it as the entire reality is transformed into a negation. there is a steel door that is: NO. if this happens, your whole being, your body, your mind, contracts. I get up and start walking and I want this horror to stop, but it doesn't stop, my hands and feet hurt hard, as if something wanted to get out and couldn't. My fingers get stiff, and it gives me the feeling that my heart can stop. this shit happened to me recently with malt but it has also happened with dmt. I have a way to know if this is going to happen or not: by vaping 3 mg. I notice perfectly if my being says yes or no. if yes i can vape after more and it explodes. glory. if not....be careful. I leave the matter for another day. the problem is if you sniff or plug. you can't test, and it endures much more. with malt it was snorted and when my mind was about to break, something held me back. a relationship that he should cut immediately and that i didn't. I had to end that relationship right now. there was nothing else. ufff spend two hours of nightmare. my whole being contracted into a point. 5 meo's explosion turned into a black hole, luckily the dose wasn't high, or I don't know what would have happened. the next day I did it again, because of losing my fear, but vaping dmt, and nothingness, infinity, me. my arms and legs vibrated as if with electric current releasing the energy from the previous day, and I let it go completely. summary: watch out for this. this substance turns on and off the faucet of Kundalini type energies which are a very serious matter. Do this in moments of opening, do not drink alcohol the days before, do not have sex, do not do it if you are in the middle of a conflict, start with low doses

there is no essential difference between your hand or the air around it, or the emptiness of space. they are all made of the same substance, which is nothing. there is an apparent difference. a proton is a shape in nothing. your hand is a very complex shape in nothing. any form is creating itself. imagining is a good word. you and everything that exists are forms in nothing, so it can be said that everything is imaginary. they imagine themselves since whoever imagines is nothing. so your hand is imaginary, or your hand is nothing, or your hand is god

if that's real, not only an idea, it is a real awakening. Subject/object is an illusion. It's the reality (you) interacting with itself. but the explanation about what are the others is still confusing. At least for me it is. The only explanation is that what we are unfolds infinitely. each proton is you completely, each proton is infinite, and the set of all protons is you equally, which is not understandable

You are trying to understand with logic and reason. A cat understands better than someone who uses logic. this is an obstacle. there is no creator god, there is this creating himself. spirituality is to leave the labels, it is the real thing.

I don't know. What I know is that if you have an experience, let's call it shamadi, whether it's sober or drugged, you're going to be certain that the entire universe is focused on your current experience. the infinite void is creating an idea and that idea is your experience. Let's say this is so. then you draw the conclusion that everything within that experience, for example, you, is imaginary. Only I am real, you are not. doesn't that sound like too simple? ...you say: if you know how conscience works...and how do you know it? saying with great certainty that you know so that others believe it? the reality is that I see a cat and I know that this cat is having an experience exactly the same as mine but without the idea of the self. why wouldn't he have it? Is there any physical law that prevents it? infinity divided by 1000 million, or by any finite number, = infinity. That's what the math says at least. 1000 million infinities, exact and total, which are only one since they are the same because any infinity is exactly the same to other infinity since they are everything, total. But which appear to be others, since they could be divided. So, solipsism is real, only one infinity, but many manifestation.

So since you can't be sure that others have an experience of their own, are you sure that they don't? As an absolute truth?

I have the same question, and I don't think it can be answered with solipsism. Yesterday I was looking at a stray cat, and it was obvious that it was reality experiencing itself.. there was no cat and reality, there was only an experience. The reality dancing with itself creating duality. but at the same time the cat was part of another experience: me. I was not an observer or an experiencer either, this is an illusion, there is no me, just an experience happening, and inside of it there is a cat, which in turn has an experience. Obviously the cat and everything else are imaginary. where is the cat now? I'm imagining it, the same as the others. But what it means? when I'm looking a cat, i perceive without any doubt another experience happening. In this forum, 3 weeks ago, everyone would have told me: it's obvious, only your current experience exists, the rest is imaginary, awake, but since appears another video of leo, that's no longer the...dogma?. There is no talk of solipsism, the easy way out. This was a solipsism forum since 3 weeks ago...and now?

@Vincent S beautiful!

that's how it is? I am not that sure. I would say that reality cannot be understood rationally. when you understand you are out of reason. when you return to reason, you no longer understand. Or at least me

I think you know the answer to your crossroads: get out of the rational mind, out of the concept. go into the now, as deeply as you can. reason is not going to give you answers, only more questions. but I d say that your attachment to reason is such that you do not see that there is anything else. my advice: something simple and non-threatening, eat 2 grams of mushrooms. They will show you that there is understanding beyond reason. Moreover, they will show you that there is understanding only beyond reason

many people with thousands, or millions of followers who listen to their ideas, would acquire a kind attitude with condescending touches, allowing their favorite students the privilege of being close to their energy, and so on. Leo is impertinent, harsh, unpleasant, even tyrannical. my opinion: he does this to preserve its primary and essential value: total integrity. without total integrity you are a clown, and he knows it. he doesn't want to be a shadguru-type clown, he doesn't want to give up to his freedom. His harsh behavior is detachement.

another possibility: it's just a strange situation for you, you're not used to it. Not used to sex, not to that girl. maybe you try again, and the thing flows, or not. knowing yourself and understanding your reactions takes time and experience

The most idiotic thing you could have done is feel obligated by the situation and continue to try to live up to expectations, or to prevent the girl from feeling bad. You owe yourself total respect. you did the perfect thing another thing, don't think: why I'm not attracted to her, if she was physically fine? is something wrong with me? none of that, sex is the connection between two people, not something purely physical. if it didn't flow, it didn't flow, and that's it. my advice is that on another occasion you try kissing, being close, etc, without having sex the first time, and see how you feel. good luck with the next one!

yeah, I understand you, you torture yourself, so the idea of the beach would be shit. Don't get me wrong, I torture myself too. But I try my best to stop doing it. after all, it is something we do to ourselves, it has to be possible to stop doing it and live on that beach in perfect happiness. why not?

Exactly. It seems that buddha's goal is the end of suffering, and with it, the end of the wheel of reincarnations. this implies that reincarnation is something negative, that is, that life is something negative, that it would be desirable to avoid. the buddha's goal is total ego death. Well, after living like a prince, like a seeker and like a lover. not a bad plan at the end. individual existence is suffering. being a proton implies resistance to stop being a proton. but as you say, we can say that this is a positive suffering. accepted suffering, with a goal: to be. And there is a suffering that seems more negative, the frustration, the cowardice, being trapped. the suffering from which existence cannot escape. I would say, more than seeking the end of suffering, seek to accept suffering, and even seek it, since it is a source of life

If you really don't care about everything and life doesn't interest you, you couldn't go to a nice beach, look for a good place, and stay there for a few years, maybe the rest of your life, doing nothing, looking at the sea and the clouds ? you will surely find food. a long empty present , and In the end you will die anyway, so why rush?

buddha was right. The root of suffering is desire. without desire there is no life. life is suffering, each breath is a struggle not to stop breathing, which will happen at the end. individual existence is desire to be separate. Without it, you will melt into the whole. Buddha thought that the goal is to merge, to reach nirvana, to stop being an individual. That is why he advocated the end of desire, the cause of suffering, that is, the cause of individual existence. Another question could be ir there is any problem with suffering

Self-acceptance comes when you realize that any non-acceptance is a learned idea with no value. What is is. reality is, and not accepting it is like not accepting a rock, stupid. You accept every last molecule, last trauma and last thought, as you are. there is nothing to compare with, there is no model of should be. Social success is adhering to that model, but that in the end is adhering to a delusional idea and it will collapse, or it will be permanently on the verge of collapsing

there are two definitions of evil. from the ego, evil is what is harmful for you or you society . from spirituality, evil is what strengthens the ego. In many cases, they coincide. the ideal is that they coincide completely. an ethical system is advanced to the extent that it comes closer to the latter.

We have to understand that we are preference machines. we prefer this and this no, and as kids our reality is preference. pure selfishness. some have what we call nobility of character. that is, they are capable of distinguishing truth from preference, and in very few cases, moreover, they choose the truth. Others are miserable and they can't even see beyond the preference. Preference is everything. Nothing more exist. knowing that we are preference machines... what is love for us? we call love what suits us, who cares for us, understands, helps, values. This is not love, it is society. You love your partner because he contributes to the company that is your life, if he stops contributing, you fire him. that is human love. it has nothing to do with the love that is existence. To understand that reality is love, you have to see through preference. remove it and reality is a shining jewel, a work of art of love. the colors, the sounds, each breath, and beyond: the pain, the decay, the sadness. they are jewels of love, but to see it we have to put aside what suits us. the prize is great, is to see. Preference is blindness

A very large part of the impact of the trauma on your mind is the certainty that this should not have happened, that it was unfair. imagine that the trauma that hurts you so much has happened to absolutely everyone and everyone talks about it openly, at barbaque... yes, the years when my father made me suck his dick... uff yes, What a bad time, very disgusting. would there be trauma? Well, I've given a bit of an extreme example, but really, where does the real pain begin, and where does the shame of not being adequate? many times it is more the latter. I have a trauma, well, many, but this one for example: when I was a kid, 10, 11, my father used to cruelly made fun of my physique because i become too tall, he told me that I had a disgusting body while he put on bodybuilder postures and said, I am perfect, you are imperfect. your feet are disgusting, your small penis, the feeling was frozen. rejection, death, fear, sometimes I dreamed that there was a car where all my family went but I did not fit in. Right now it doesn't affect me at all, because I'm not ashamed at all, zero. This is how my life was, and it makes me even funny. reality is wild. there is no "should be". that's a childish idea. this is the jungle, and it is something very beautiful, wild, lethal. Of course that shit was not nice, but imagine, if you were in war and you were really traumatized, you would awake with terror, but probably in a while you would forget, the pain would fade. But if you are ashamed...it never fades. If the other kids bullied you, you are not traumatized, you don't remember the fear, you are ashamed. Pure ego. Let's put the other cheek (mentally), and of course, don't let it happen again. Forgive yourself

existence is love and that is something you can see in some moments, and in others, or most, not. we are completely conditioned people and we do not see beyond our conditioning. That's what we meditate for, to transcend conditioning and see clearly. If you see through the conditioning, being completely indifferent to what is good or bad for you, you will see the perfection, the art, the passion, the pure love that exists in everything. in a stone on the ground, in a word, in the noise of traffic, in the sky, in a building. This is what we aspire to with spirituality, not to masturbate the mind but to direct vision, because in it is true love, the only one that exists, that encompasses everything. that is total intelligence. absence of stupidity, since stupidity is the preference. useful to survive, but stupid as soon as it takes you away from the truth and deceives you, it makes you stupid