Breakingthewall

there is only the present, now. everything else is illusion. your self half an hour ago is an illusion of your mind, the same as your future self. the same as your past life self, the same as your reincarnated self. Same as the others selfs. they all collapse into the now, the real, the existence. the rest is infinite illusion, without substance. does not exist.

reality is heaven, and you create hell. move away, and the heaven will remain. there is no hell, it is an illusion created by the distortion of your mind, which opposes, which wishes, which is afraid. Take a magic pill that puts your egoic mind to sleep, and heaven manifests

A childhood empty of love, where you have only received rejection or indifference, you have been in contact with empty people, it is difficult to overcome. Makes difficult for you to open yourself to love. all true love, all contact with people who really give themselves, is an enormous gift that life has given you. it's good to return it

shame is fear of rejection, nothing more. Would you mind if all your peers reject you completely? If so, you are susceptible to embarrassment, like almost everyone.

life is perfect, but you have the opinion that it is not.

faith means: abandon yourself. let go of the grip of the ego, the false control that does not control anything. relax and trust. dissolve in the reality that you are, indefinable and without limits

obviously I don't know, but it looks like it. very deliberate

life is presented to us as a test. we are immersed in vital situations that we must solve, as a kind of game. Normally we know what we have to do intuitively, but there are obstacles, serious difficulties, that prevent it. in the end it's all about being braver, more selfless, more true. if we get stuck in these trials, as is often the case, our life becomes blocked. we try to go down alternative paths, to avoid facing that, and our life turns into a mess. the tests are difficult and ruthless, sometimes like the horrible story of the Japanese girl you were talking about other day, and hardly comprehensible

@ethanb121 the problem is not hell but obsession disorder. I have lived like this with 17, 18 ... Every morning I woke up and the madness began. If it's not hell, it's whatever. It is your mind that needs to hold onto something. You are in no man's land, without certainty of anything, without knowing who you are, without anyone who loves you, without anyone you love, without a place you can call home, without anyone you can call a friend, floating in not knowing , but with a need to know. So your mind holds on tight to anything If it is not hell, it will be that you have an idiot face or that you played badly at table tennis in. the important thing is to sink your teeth into something and not let go. the solution? is not easy, but possible: conquer the world

Separation

you're going deeper. more clarity, more intelligence, more integrity, more openness. good job

well, a special factor comes into play in porn addiction. the sexuality. You can quit smoking, but you can't stop being sexual. If you try too hard, you may end up reaching out to altar boys in the church. watch out! sex is sex and you have to guide it appropriately. that is, sharing it with another human being, who attracts you, and whom you love. It does not have to be an exclusive one, of course, could be many. So it is not enough to leave porn, you have to go out into the arena, give to Cesar what is from cesar. Or if you won't rot your mind back in the old patterns

yes, you have to avoid becoming competitive. but doing the best possible in an activity suposed competitive without becoming competitive is a great mental exercise. Or what did you mean?

make it your goal to give your all

If you learn a sport or physical activity at a master level, with passion, and tune your body as if it were a musical instrument, your feeling with your body will change. It will seem to you that you have at your disposal a wonder of creation, and you will treat it as such

Surely you are right, i can see that you know what you are talking about. it is a delicate matter and there is no universal solution. I have the tendency, like many, that if something is wrong you have to fix it immediately. that may work, or perhaps have the opposite effect as desired. each one has to assess and decide, but it is good to know that these options exist

If you take a moderate dose, the bad trip will not be so much. I have had it, when 18 with lsd, 12 hours suffering in my room. there was only mental suffering, every second. then It stops, and that's it. made me open my eyes to my life situation and be able to change it, that's why I recommend it. I know it's not the magic pill of happiness, but can be revolutionary

being in that situation, why do you refuse to try psychedelics? We have already talked about it other times. I really do not understand. watch the magic medicine documentary for example. If they don't work for you, then you've wasted a couple of days and that's it

I would try a medium dose of mushrooms, 2 or 2.5 grams (dry) being alone . They can open doors in your mind on a level that I consider magic. And the worst thing that can happen to you is an unpleasant time. I procrastinate a lot to make mushrooms, it is lazy to get into that, but every time I do it I get benefits, openness, liberation.

nothing would happen, since you are neither cat nor human, you are reality dancing

much more quality of life as reality becomes deep, magical. the conceptual is left behind more and more and in its place there is reality, substance. It is like having lived in 2d and then doing it in 3d. there is no longer constant resistance to what is. you become an observer of yourself, without fear. You go from swimming against the current to letting yourself be carried away by the current. you melt into the fluid of reality, since you are that fluid. In short, you go from having a shitty stressed life to being happy, like when you were a kid.

@Bacher incredible report, I was feeling the panic of the dissolution without reference as I read it

I'm in the process in the sense that I can't quite forget my father, feel something deeply negative and sad in my life, i hope i can find the way in this. but in the sense of self-esteem yes. there are no traces of feeling "worse" left, no compensation for feeling "better". I can see others as brothers totally. It has cost me a lot, when they put a programming in your childhood, it is difficult to reverse it, you have to go deep When i said to go further in hard things, i was thinking they are healthy, even you haven't any problem. the hardness, the difficult, the austere, it makes you cleaner, or so it seems to me. in the end it makes life happier

I've had that problem for as long as I can remember. As a child it did not affect me but as a teenager a lot. my father was: I am special, magnificent, God loves me. but you are worse .God does not love you. you are shit. Since he did it full time, he did it well. many people believed him, which reinforced the role. The bad thing is that it is stressful and to take away he was an alcoholic, addicted, he vomited after every meal, he did not sleep ... he died very young. When I realized I was in trouble, I had to get very serious. my instinct told me to look for the hardest, the most extreme hardness possible. that that was what i needed. I did it, I keep doing it. I could have gone further. Maybe it will go further. not everything is meditation, psychedelics or therapy. you also have to go down to the sand

you have no control, since you are just an idea, a fiction. the you who thinks he is trying to understand is a compendium of memories, attachments and rejections, ideas and concepts without any reality. you do not exist. you do not suffer. you do not want. you don't reject. you are not dysfunctional, nor functional. you're just an idea. it's hard to admit it. If you remove that you, what it is remains, without judgment. what it is is indefinable. the definition is you. and there is no definition