Breakingthewall

my biggest self-deception was to betray myself in exchange for "success", to stop being me and live in the fight, to lose myself to the point of not even remembering who I was, without realizing that without love there is only an empty shadow.

discovered this forum 2 or 3 months ago, a little after of discovering the 5 meo. Before that I never thought about spirituality ... how strange. I am very happy to be able to read the thoughts of such intelligent and unlimited people. it's an oasis in the desert

the others are real at the same level that you are real. solipism is nonsense, we should talk about nobodyism

The universe is consistent, it is governed by mathematical laws and observing life it would be said that for God it is not an easy job to create it, millions of lifeless planets, the miraculous creation of carbon, bacteria, it seems that nothing else comes from there a few thousands million years, little by little some more complex beings, based on evolution the thing is getting interesting, some mass extinction involved, millions of symbiotic viruses with DNA, in the end a being aware of himself and the universe ...how much work! More than a labor of love, it seems the work of a team of engineers who avidly seek ... something

I follow the opposite way, first the awakenings, or realization, idk how to define, induced by psychedelic, and after that I realized about the importance of meditation, to try to be concious not only a single moment

I had the same thought meditating half an hour ago. I think there are many...like anchors, that anchor me to the ego world. Like if I stop thinking I'm going to get lost , and thinking the mind do like a control of the situation, all time creating like an artificial environment with all the memories, the ideas, etc. It exist like a hard resistance to let those anchors go

It smells like cheap marketing. Shadguru smells like business man, money money

@BogdanD I ve never taken ayahuasca but other psychedelics. Im almost sure that it has not caused you any harm, what surely would ve happened is that it s released repressed parts of your subconscious, and that is what makes you suffer, but at the same time gives you the opportunity to face them. If you have taken ayahuasca that time I suppose it would be with the intention of seeing what is inside you. Id continue down that path, self-inquiry, with and without psychedelic. About the shaman, I think it isn't important at all, there isn't magic, it's all in you

If you have the sensation that you are being dishonest, you are being dishonest. It's the only way to know it in my opinion

Hitler was a soldier in the trenches for 4 years when he was very young, seeing death and destruction on a level that we cannot imagine ... I think it is not unusual that he was quite insane. It seems more strange to me the people of today who order to bomb a city from their office for pure economic interests

I think it's not like that, when your realized that you are an illusion is like you are the void, and the person that you thought you was is like an hologram without substance, like a trick that never really existed... really weird . Like all is a comedy, a dream, and you are you, now, when you die, always. When it happens it's like...oh yes of course...and this hologram ? I almost already forgotten...it's nothing. But without words. So when you die the character that you think you are is going to disappear for ever without any sadness like the nothing that really you are, without any remember of miss or mister anyone, and you are going to be the void who is , like now, in the no time

Well for me time is a big one, project to the future, the image of your life like an history, etc. Others for me are the body, takes care of the body, fear to sickness... another the relationship, the important people in your life, fear to isolation...and many others, many imaginary things that make you prisioneer

Yes because always is now. Time is a mental construction, one of the many bondages

Exactly, the joke to show that he, a super enligthened guru, is a funny guy too. I think his manager have a contract about those jokes. He could answer: I don't know, I never tried psychodelics, but no, he knows exactly that they are a source of bla bla bla...his ego have the size of his beard and his clothes

thoughts are an evolutionary tool. animals also think, through images, memories, to avoid dangers, learn, survive. If a human grows up alone in the forest, he would also think only through images, and with very spaced thoughts. would it be enlightened? but by living in society and learning language, thinking becomes more verbal. With the thousands of subtleties that social behavior demands, thought increases in volume. In this society where from a very young age we spend hours every day watching ertentainment, feeling false emotions induced by actors and scriptwriters, things get crazy. in the end we are just gray thought

It is difficult to say if what James says about the loneliness of nothingness is so or not. I have had several different realizations with 5 meo. the first absolute nothingness, empty, not being. I was really scared. how could not be? It was only loneliness, the only one that exists ... therefore it was, so it was not "not to be". another occasion was infinite love. I was not alone since I loved myself and my love was infinite, others less profound, dissolution. I was all there is. once in the middle of the night without drugs, the infinite void, without limits, that is, and my self, the person that I am, looked like a hologram, a disguise devoid of substance that really is nothing. Which of these realizations, all subjectively very real, is real? all? none? impossible to know, impossible to know anything ... only letting go is possible and I'm in that job. letting go, abandoning the mind, attachments, the past, the future, the concern for the body, for life, for God and for everything. be empty

@Leo Nordin I want to deepen because the true, the real, is deepening. on the surface there is only unreality. The thought is dead, it has nothing for me. I want to deepen and dissolve the barriers that limit my being because I want to live, I selfishly want the richness of unlimited life. as you can see, nothing very special, just practicality. what james says sounds very real but it is not something that can be done at will. it requires detachment, and that requires time, work, intention, certainty. I may be wrong and follow an impossible path

@Leo Nordin see beyond the mind, thought and illusion. dissolve into nothingness and no time, be without mind

I can't experience it looking a wall. I experience it smoking 5 meo, when the thought stops, there is not you anymore, no time, no space, nothing. No love, no bliss, no wonderful being, absolute nothing, but the nothing is alone. So the nothing is. I'd like to make possible go so deep without any substance, but seems impossible

when you come out of the dream there is nothing, an empty hole, not being. but not being is. it's incomprehensible

a thought is you undulating, adopting a form and thus creating limits, a distinction between you and the rest. I think that it is an evolutionary function closely related to language, and its objective is to act in complex groups to making possible the survival of the weak animal that is the human

Yes, it is. This is the real life, the abandon, dissolution of the ego and merge in the moment. Most of us ve been educated just in the opposite, our society glorifies the ego, the wall, the separation, that's why it's so difficult

maybe in gods perspective lonely, or eternity doesn't means nothing. Lonely is scary for us the humans, for an octopus maybe it's ok even for the eternity

Absolutely agree, it's not you when the wall dissolves and there are no limits. But after a while...there is the wall again, limiting. a really solid wall

@Pensamiento ArteArteArteArteArteArteArteArArteAArteAr So that satori that you had when you smoked those 15 mg of 5 meo becomes in a permanently state of awakening? Or did you do more times? Every time I do I have an experience of awakening, but some time later, 1 or 2 days, I forget the experience. Well, I remember, but only the idea, like "all is an illusion", but I can't remember why , how I saw that, because it's a realization completely out of the mind, and now I'm back in the mind mode. Meditating I can't go so deep.