Breakingthewall

@The0Self but there is an inherent happiness from the absence or at least relaxation of the ego, right? emptiness is happiness, or perhaps, the absence of unhappiness is happiness, or seems happiness

So, what is your actual state, life, relationships with other people? does emptiness induce you to apathy? are you happy, or since there is no self you are neither happy nor unhappy? because even if you know that there is no self, you can invoke the self and be it, right? A light self who can enjoy of what it is, only because it is...or not?

there is nothing to seek, the i must withdraw and stop believing that it is the one who receives the experience, with which only experience remains, and the i sees that it is part of the experience, not its focus. There is only experience empty of meaning

you do not need high states, you need to remove the shadow of the ego. if there is no ego, there is only perfection. perfection is not a good or bad feeling, it is what it is, the present moment without interpretation or projection

@khalifa i have had a similar problem but only a few days. I'm sure it's an energy block, not neurological at all. you have started something and you have not finished it. I would try to finish it, having blocked energy feels like something very negative, dangerous

@FlyingLotus thank you , good koans , I'm feeling enlightened right now??

I know that idea, but...god has? it is putting human ideas to God. that he is bored, that he plays ... I do not think that is so. but who knows!

@Inliytened1 .then you think that there is no process, that there is no evolution. that God does not need to learn from himself ... it is possible. completely counterintuitive, but possible. But why that little probes?

in what minute does that appear? Hehe

even an infinite intelligence has to learn ... right? It starts from the basics and increases in complexity. Or so it seems. although once I clearly realized that no, that there is no process, there was no big bang, God does not create by steps. it just seems like it. What is the reality? I don't know

I would say yes. imagine there is a big bang and something emerges out of nothingness. the idea of "things", protons, elementary particles, forces, physical laws. all this to form a rock. an entity of enormous complexity. the universe is that rock, half a meter, let's say. a divine rock. manifested existence. so yes, it has a pov

@spiritual memes imo the thing is simple: 100% of those negative thoughts is ego. You have to transcend your ego, it is fundamental, because if you don't do it, those thoughts will eat you up. you can go the psychological way: try to improve that ego. but imo it is a utopia to get it. maybe you will get some improvement but in the background there will always be anxiety. anyway any ego sucks so don't feel unlucky. the good thing is that you have a very easy to identify ego. It is often said that the main engine of seeking enlightenment is suffering. so you know ... to seek for enlightenment

I was where you are a short time ago. the problem is that trying to understand leads to nothing, just anxiety. You have to take a step back and have a global vision, which includes that you that you are trying to understand, and see what it is. Realize that the concept doesn't mean nothing. to get out of that labyrinth you have to realize the infinite, which is you. infinity cannot be thought because it has no opposite, and to think is to oppose some things to others. This is like a mystical experience and usually happens with psychedelic. When you have been the infinite you will see what it is to think and you will give it the place it deserves. thinking you are not going to untangle the knot, there is another knot later. is rising above the labyrinth and seeing it. For me the way was meditation every day, at least 2 hours, with the intention of escaping from the mind, for silence to come (I don't know if this is adequate, but that was my intention, and it still is), loving silence more and more. also, 5meo dmt many times, with the same intention. Until the barrier of the concept and the panic to the void have faded.

A@Atb210201 Normal, the first time you see that your whole mental world that you are so attached to is nothing, it is quite horrible. Being able to accept it is a more or less long process, it depends on who. You see that everything is empty, then you forget it and you get hooked on the thought again, so many times. I would say that having thought loops like the one you have, about reality, trying to grasp something, understand, is a symptom that you are going to go beyond the mental at some point, since you are on not firm ground. It's Impossible to be in that intermedium point for long i think

silencing it. learning to be silent and to listen to silence. understanding that whatever the mind formulates means nothing, it's a survival tool. Is useful to survive in the relative world, that also is meaningless . I know that it is impossible to do this at will, but at least believe that it may be so. it is logical right? the mind is limited. It cannot understand the unlimited, it is impossible. but of course, If you have not realized the limitless, it is only a concept. This is what psychedelics are for. also meditation, but only this is enough for few

all those thoughts you have mean absolutely nothing. they are the conditioned mind creating concepts opposed to other concepts that in turn are opposed to other concepts ... that mean nothing. a survival tool that you are misusing. the truth is silence. what is not silence is not the truth. forget all those ideas, it does not matter one that the opposite. they all translate to: blah blah blah.

Yeah, that is why the traditional way consists of renouncing. Renounce to everything that is perceived as "good", eat what is essential, no sex, not talk, give up projecting a good image on others, any comfort. in short, to distinguish between good and bad, to relax the barrier and become enlightened. Simon the Stylite for example lived 37 years on top of a marble column . Fortunately today we do not have to renounce so much since we can modify brain chemistry

they are totally relative. they are just survival mechanisms. Obviously they seem very real and are very intense, if it were not like that they would be shitty mechanisms and you would not exist. They are very well done in the work of art that is life. The thing is: what is for you absolute and relative? I think here is the misunderstanding

the illusion as a separate individual, personal history, mental software that differentiates some things from others .... falsehood? I'd say it's true, on one level, like in a pyramid. you are at the bottom of the whole, and you are a separate stone, you go up to the stone of the top of the whole where everything is unified. But when you are down, it is true that you are a separate stone. True, relatively

they are conditions for the monkey to do this and not that and the individual/tribe/ species survive. biological switches, software. they are what creates the illusion of the individual, who blocks the doors of perception

@spiritual memes you have a difficult outlook, which is fortunate. an interesting challenge ahead. There are two necessary tools that you are going to need: honesty and courage. cultivate them every day. make them grow to a total level, with all that that implies. they are what is going to make the difference between a miserable life or a glorious life. Whoever reaches as low as you are, has the possibility of completely freeing himself. the last will be the first.

I believe that God is nothing and knows nothing, and suddenly it is a lot of energy that explodes and it is only that, and it only knows that, and that energy forms protons and God is protons, no more, know how to be a proton, and he is playing with the possibilities until reach a complexity as unimaginable as the human brain, a pattern within a pattern within a pattern ... all shapes in nothingness, and those unimaginable patterns intertwine in unimaginable numbers creating all this perfect and glorious dream that leads to .... maybe God doesn't know. Only divine improvisation

it takes true passion, desire for freedom, intelligence to understand the deception of the mind, courage to loosen any grip

No , I'm just saying that one thing will make your life more relaxed and happy and the other more dark and anxious. is like saying: is it wrong if I hit my finger with a hammer? it's not bad or good, it's painful

Only one meaning: be. The reality is empty, but we create the appearance of content. it's all illusion, maya. the reality is that our life has the same content as that of a lizard, empty. the lizard is closer to the truth, because it does not create an opera of imaginary meanings