Breakingthewall

A stream of pure joy that flowed endlessly, and that was me. It hasn't stopped flowing ever since. it was terrible to live so long with that flow blocked, a real test

I am very grateful to all those explorers of the mind, those mystics, who with their experiences and their brilliant intelligence have helped me escape from the prison of the ego, where I lived imprisoned. I am also grateful to the beauty of the world, fantastic, and to my body, which works like an atomic clock also to psychedelics, true magic in the form of a molecule

by the union of true mysticism and the ego's need to understand reality

because if you are, even for an instant, that instant is eternity, since in your beginning and in your end is non-existence, and non-existence does not exist, only existence exists, there is no begging or end. you are, now eternal, without limits

relationships are like anything else, work, anything: if they are what you really want deep down, they are wonderful and you give it your all. if not, but you force yourself to do so because it is the least bad alternative, they are misery

It seems that is what the universe does. go from the simple to the most complex as possible. maybe creative passion

Evolution?

there is only the present, now. everything else is illusion. your self half an hour ago is an illusion of your mind, the same as your future self. the same as your past life self, the same as your reincarnated self. Same as the others selfs. they all collapse into the now, the real, the existence. the rest is infinite illusion, without substance. does not exist.

reality is heaven, and you create hell. move away, and the heaven will remain. there is no hell, it is an illusion created by the distortion of your mind, which opposes, which wishes, which is afraid. Take a magic pill that puts your egoic mind to sleep, and heaven manifests

A childhood empty of love, where you have only received rejection or indifference, you have been in contact with empty people, it is difficult to overcome. Makes difficult for you to open yourself to love. all true love, all contact with people who really give themselves, is an enormous gift that life has given you. it's good to return it

shame is fear of rejection, nothing more. Would you mind if all your peers reject you completely? If so, you are susceptible to embarrassment, like almost everyone.

life is perfect, but you have the opinion that it is not.

faith means: abandon yourself. let go of the grip of the ego, the false control that does not control anything. relax and trust. dissolve in the reality that you are, indefinable and without limits

obviously I don't know, but it looks like it. very deliberate

life is presented to us as a test. we are immersed in vital situations that we must solve, as a kind of game. Normally we know what we have to do intuitively, but there are obstacles, serious difficulties, that prevent it. in the end it's all about being braver, more selfless, more true. if we get stuck in these trials, as is often the case, our life becomes blocked. we try to go down alternative paths, to avoid facing that, and our life turns into a mess. the tests are difficult and ruthless, sometimes like the horrible story of the Japanese girl you were talking about other day, and hardly comprehensible

@ethanb121 the problem is not hell but obsession disorder. I have lived like this with 17, 18 ... Every morning I woke up and the madness began. If it's not hell, it's whatever. It is your mind that needs to hold onto something. You are in no man's land, without certainty of anything, without knowing who you are, without anyone who loves you, without anyone you love, without a place you can call home, without anyone you can call a friend, floating in not knowing , but with a need to know. So your mind holds on tight to anything If it is not hell, it will be that you have an idiot face or that you played badly at table tennis in. the important thing is to sink your teeth into something and not let go. the solution? is not easy, but possible: conquer the world

Separation

you're going deeper. more clarity, more intelligence, more integrity, more openness. good job

well, a special factor comes into play in porn addiction. the sexuality. You can quit smoking, but you can't stop being sexual. If you try too hard, you may end up reaching out to altar boys in the church. watch out! sex is sex and you have to guide it appropriately. that is, sharing it with another human being, who attracts you, and whom you love. It does not have to be an exclusive one, of course, could be many. So it is not enough to leave porn, you have to go out into the arena, give to Cesar what is from cesar. Or if you won't rot your mind back in the old patterns

yes, you have to avoid becoming competitive. but doing the best possible in an activity suposed competitive without becoming competitive is a great mental exercise. Or what did you mean?

make it your goal to give your all

If you learn a sport or physical activity at a master level, with passion, and tune your body as if it were a musical instrument, your feeling with your body will change. It will seem to you that you have at your disposal a wonder of creation, and you will treat it as such

Surely you are right, i can see that you know what you are talking about. it is a delicate matter and there is no universal solution. I have the tendency, like many, that if something is wrong you have to fix it immediately. that may work, or perhaps have the opposite effect as desired. each one has to assess and decide, but it is good to know that these options exist

If you take a moderate dose, the bad trip will not be so much. I have had it, when 18 with lsd, 12 hours suffering in my room. there was only mental suffering, every second. then It stops, and that's it. made me open my eyes to my life situation and be able to change it, that's why I recommend it. I know it's not the magic pill of happiness, but can be revolutionary

being in that situation, why do you refuse to try psychedelics? We have already talked about it other times. I really do not understand. watch the magic medicine documentary for example. If they don't work for you, then you've wasted a couple of days and that's it