Breakingthewall

enlightenment is getting out of jail, to remove your neck strap. the question is not if you want enlightenment, it is: can you live in jail? if you can, you will.

the thoughts are the ego talking to itself. if he is silent, he disappears, and since he doesn't like to disappear, he doesn't shut up. so contrast things, oppose concepts, create dualities. the ego was created talking to other people. if there are no people around, speak to himself thoughts are you taking a shape. if there are no thoughts you are formless, unlimited. As you need to perceive your shape, you think. If we stop being addicted to needing to perceive our shape, thinking can stop. It is difficult because it seems that you are going to fall off a cliff. you have to hold on to the shape perceiving yourself as a shape was essential to be able to adapt to living in society. you put all your energy into getting it. now it is a deep habit, very difficult to abandon. it was necessary, now no longer. for many it is a hindrance, and hence the need to change the frequency. you have to put all the energy back into leaving the form. a kind of cycle that some have to go through. learn to think, and now learn to not think.

thoughts are the bricks of that building which is the ego. you have believed that that building is you and the sensation of being without them is of the vertigo of the lack of control. that vertigo gives me more and more pleasure every time. much more beautiful to live in the wild nature than in an artificial building full of barriers and rules

Thanks, the same I tell you about your posts. the family issue is complicated, and in this case it is incontestable because my parents died when I was a teenager, but in this case, I think the key is that my family are deeply idiots?. Seriously, I think the spell of a "successful" narcissist runs very deep. the people with whom he has used seduction see him as an extraordinary one. It is strange being someone addicted, alcoholic and perpetually angry, but many people only see one thing: the company of this person raises me, or lowers me? Narcissism at the end

That is. It is something terrible that generates enormous anxiety. It turns the person into an empty shell that fights 24 hours for their self-esteem, and their way of fighting is precisely to get away from true self-esteem. Life put me in the funny situation, as a teenager, of going to live with my crazed narcissistic father and his young, submissive nurse-wife. As he was a pianist, and had a lot of social success, I went with an open mind: good! I'm going to learn the secrets of masculinity. I'm in luck. what a joke! I think I can detect a narcissist by the tone of his voice, his posture. They are people who talk to themselves, they look at themselves. they are trying to convince themselves that they are not a piece of shit all the time. every word that comes out of his mouth can be translated as: I am not shit. what a curse they have on them. My sister, a psychologist, who at this moment maybe is looking for her next narcissist to submit to, thinks that I have a completely distorted vision, that my father was a wonderful person, handsome and a pianist, and that everyone loved him. in fact we hardly speak to each other because this subject. it is a taboo subject in my family. for me it is absolutely obvious, but who knows ...the power of a narcissist could be enormous if you don't detect them

meditation is the key. With meditation you realize that you do not need anything external to you to be happy. you feel completely aligned with reality, and the idea of an addiction is absurd. Anything that is not real, positive, is something you don't do. you love yourself and treat yourself well, it's simple

Guys, sorry for my ignorance, what is wing? what is the game? any link? Before the covid I made a very serious commitment to start 3 daily conversations with girls on the street. It was difficult for me, my ego found excuses all the time, but I did something. I thought it was an original idea of mine ... obviously more people came up with the same thing haha. The covid cut all that... any tutorial on this? Seems really interesting

great realizations. They seem silly, but no ... they screw your life. It cost me a lot to stop daily masturbation with porn. Well, and worse than porn, chatting about sex with girls from app dates. It is something that flattens your mind, makes you an idiot. I started there and then I stopped watching series, then movies, then novels ... in the end it seems to me that all that flattens the mind, leaves you dull. the problem is that, as you say, sex calls you. solution 1: real sex. Solution 2: once a week, or every 10 days if you can, you masturbate thoroughly. One day you can without being stupid and depressed. several days no

This is pure ego, the same as thinking about your partner's past sex adventures. since you cannot perceive him / her directly, you get a mental idea of her/him. the only thing that matters is the moment ... that's why it is so difficult to have a lasting sexual relationship, but the miracle can happen ... or so I think

dreams are the ego, which does not shut up even while sleeping

It is a ghost created by language and by the contrast of you with others. you exist, but the ego is less than the tip of the iceberg. it is nothing because it has no substance, it is made up of learned ideas. what happens is that you totally identify with those ideas, those dualities. all you think is duality, contrast of one idea with another. a huge imaginary house of cards. Trying to undo the castle is impossible, because you are using the self to undo the self. only meditation works (and psychedelic), which is not something mental but mechanical. Going beyond the ego has nothing mysterious and is done in a second, but it takes hours to reach the necessary frequency for this to happen. what you are is absolute, that is, not verifiable with something else. what is testable is thought. Thought will only lead to more thought. Thought is deception, by definition. Because thoughts are definitions, and the reality is undefined. You are not thinking about reality, it is reality forming thoughts.

the others are the ego. your need for others is a need for the ego, which is an entity created by interaction with others. without others there is no ego. there is no loneliness except the loneliness of the ego. do not underestimate the scope of the ego.

to survive you have to kill and consume another life. a lettuce is a living being. You pluck it up by the roots to make a salad. what you call justice does not exist. life is cruel, ruthless and murderous. what happens is that we live in a bubble of civilization and we do not see it. our ethics is a joke. We believe we are pacifists and ethical and we go to the sales to buy clothes that slaves make, destroying the environment and killing countless animals. Live without money for a while, you will see the society of love. A century and a half ago we had slaves and we hit them with a whip to make them work faster, now we don't do that but we let them starve while the rich have private planes and yachts. your body is vulnerable to thousands of viruses and bacteria that devour it from the inside without medicine, if in a natural environment you have 10 children, 3 or 4 will survive, and your wife will probably die in childbirth. That is the reality, it is not bad or good, what happens is that your human sense of what is bad and good for you says that viruses are bad and that your parents love you is fine. it's just an evolutionary differentiation for survival. the deepest reality is that there is only existence, it does not matter a soft mattress or leprosy, torture or kisses. everything is glorious existence

Yeah man, i didn't say that the work is easy. Get the shit off of you and get to the root. the root is that you are the reality. all that unlovable and unpleasant are relative concepts that have been engraved on you by interaction with other people. deconstruct all of that down to the core. It is an exciting job, and if you do not do it, only darkness awaits you, so less victimization and more get to the point

What do you think keeps you isolated? Usually the problem is not accepting oneself, seeing one's life as an unfortunate tragedy, spending the day ruminating on defects and complexes. do the work necessary to fully accept yourself, and people will come to you

It is wonderful to be able to rest in the present, which is you and you always were. It feels like coming home, a sense of childhood joy. give yourself and your desires and projections to the pure present and forget about yourself. The only problem that I see since this begins to be possible for me, is that I find the company of other people very annoying beyond a short time, since their way of seeing life, their speech, so attached to to he mind, affects me and makes me fall back on the mental to me. because really, the source of suffering, of having separated myself from reality and having lost myself in the mental for so long, comes from the relationship with others

@Blackhawk Hell does not exist, it is just a mental image that you are creating. you can go from hell to heaven in a second. heaven is reality, hell is mental. reading you it seems that you want to wallow in hell. pure self pity. your hell is the same as everyone else's, an image. there is only heaven and hell. If your hell is especially unpleasant, congratulations, an incentive to get out of it. The labyrinth seems indecipherable until you leave it, then you see that it was a trap. You couldn't solve it out no matter how hard you tried. You could only rise above him

you consider your life as a story, with a beginning, an argument, a goal. This is done by almost everyone, and it is the sure recipe for frustration and unhappiness. life is the present moment, there is no more. The secret is to focus completely on the present, open yourself to it, and things will flow. all that of finding a girl, creating a family etc, are fantasies. Open yourself to the present and what has to be, will be. a minute of freedom is worth more than all those fantasies fulfilled Seeing yourself as a character with a trajectory is pure ego. the freer you are from that, the less deceived you will live. It is not easy because all people consider their life that way and they will consider yours the same, like a resume. dealing with them will lead you to that point of view over and over again. there are few people who really live in themselves, without conceptualizing themselves. it is a challenge to be close to egoic people (almost all people) and not fall into their vision

one of the first times I did 5 meo it was weird, not complete. My legs went numb from the calf down and I noticed great pain in my feet and hands. After hours this disappeared, but the next day I had spasms and fasciculations in the muscles of the legs, many per minute. this lasted for several days, long enough to cause me to go into paranoia of neurological damage. One night I focused on those sensations, and noticed how I could somehow release the energy. I began to do it more and more until it became an explosion, jets of energy of minutes of almost unbearable intensity, from the pelvis, feet and hands and head. after an hour of these discharges the thing stopped, and the fasciculations had completely disappeared. apart I noticed a release in some way definitive, repressed energies had been released

I am not enlightened because I do not realize that I am god creating reality, but I have removed the sticky ego, or at least, deactivated its power. It feels like there are no more questions. like blissful fullness, like I've been lost in madness for a long time and have come home, like cleanliness, alertness, direct perception. like this is normal and the other was "special". total absence of fear, abandonment, Let go of the wheel, give up control. Beauty everywhere , It seems as if an enigma, a test, has been presented to me and I have solved it, and now unlimited open space opens

step 1 understand what the ego is. the ego must understand what it is, understand its unreality and accept it. Step 2 is to get rid of your ego for at least a moment, a few minutes, and after many times, every day if it's possible. This is achieved with intensive meditation, retreats, etc. and / or psychedelics. the moment you are nailed in the present moment you see that the whole ego movie is unreal. the ego will quickly return, since it leads a life creating the illusion that it is absolutely necessary, that without it there is vertigo and imbalance, deadly emptiness, madness. When you spend a few moments with the ego deactivated, it is clear that it is not necessary, that being is knowing. later, when the ego returns, there is step 3: untangle the ego. once it has been seen what it is and has lost almost all its venom, you can proceed to clarify it, solve each dark spot, eliminate all traces of trauma, of "it should have been different." if this is not done, the ego returns and returns, and even if you know that it is unreal it catches you again and again. at this point I am, with good daily evolution, occurs spontaneously after steps 1 and 2 I think that step 4 is to live without ego, or with a custom-built minimal ego. It is possible and it is the only way to live that is not stupid

my feeling is that I am solving an enigma, and behind there is another enigma, and so on ad infinitum. The reality is that you take a step back and in a second you see the unreality of all that, but after a while the inertia slows me down, and I see myself again wasting energy in generating a story

What limits me the most is my difficulty to stop perceiving my life as a process. I know that what I am is the pure present right now, but my mind tends to create the image of a story, I am the son of, with such and such antecedents ... something that branches off infinitely. I know this is a fantasy, but my mind drifts towards that, the only antidote is hours of meditation. it is something that limits you completely, it absorbs a lot of mental energy that is wasted uselessly

ignore them. the ideas are within the mental. you meditate to separate yourself from the mental, to simply be. we have the absurd feeling that we need the mental to maintain balance, that without clinging to any idea or concept, we fall into emptiness. you meditate to realize that this is not so, emptiness is fullness and you do not fall anywhere, you are simply you, really. forget the ideas

@ALLIS If you only have 15 mg left, better vape, it is a breakthrough dose. If you plug it in, even if it works this time, it will be a very smooth effect. at least what I have noticed by plugging in 15