Breakingthewall

What limits me the most is my difficulty to stop perceiving my life as a process. I know that what I am is the pure present right now, but my mind tends to create the image of a story, I am the son of, with such and such antecedents ... something that branches off infinitely. I know this is a fantasy, but my mind drifts towards that, the only antidote is hours of meditation. it is something that limits you completely, it absorbs a lot of mental energy that is wasted uselessly

ignore them. the ideas are within the mental. you meditate to separate yourself from the mental, to simply be. we have the absurd feeling that we need the mental to maintain balance, that without clinging to any idea or concept, we fall into emptiness. you meditate to realize that this is not so, emptiness is fullness and you do not fall anywhere, you are simply you, really. forget the ideas

@ALLIS If you only have 15 mg left, better vape, it is a breakthrough dose. If you plug it in, even if it works this time, it will be a very smooth effect. at least what I have noticed by plugging in 15

You will have it when you stop needing to get it and need to give it. If you need to get it you're a beggar and you only get shit

@Hello world your life is totally blocked and things are getting really difficult. you must do something. I would start with a weekly psychedelic therapy, specifically mushrooms. It can be very hard but you have to get out of that hole, face what is blocking you. what other options do you have?

Brother. Are you crazy? How is it possible that you continue working for your father? you will grieve until you die and in the next life. Cut out that situation completely right away, even if you end up starving. My father was also a narcissist and he did that so nice to mess with my physique since I was 10 years old, only that my father was a pianist and a beautiful, seductive boy, not a boss. At 19/20 I completely cut off my family, and once your personality begins to flourish, you realize the depth of the effect of that criticism. my father wanted next a dog without self-esteem that moved the tail when he wanted. This, from childhood, castrates you, and regaining your self-esteem is a very difficult task. don't make it harder for yourself by prolonging the situation. you don't really understand the depth of your dysfunction. When you get out of this, your impulse will be to beat your father to death, and then take your dick out and piss on his face. beware! you can end up full of hate. get out of there as soon as possible. Do therapy, be independent, cut any relationship with that man until you totally respect yourself

you have to untangle the enigma of your life and free yourself . an exciting game. Find passion in yourself and play it.

false krishnamurty. it makes the simple complicated, and conveys the idea that any practice aimed at awakening is useless. the important thing for him seems to be to show that only he is enlightened. narcissistic

there are no other lives because others imply a beginning and infinity has no beginning. there is only actuality. the present seems something that leads to another something, another life, an evolution, but it is not. it is actuality. It is happening now and always will be, there is no way out. there is no death, no birth, no evolution, no other lives. only the infinite void dancing. the good thing is that it is infinite and is infinitely loved

on Sunday I did mushrooms and my room lost its meaning. some things were the same as others, everything opened and was unlimited, the entire reality was my infinite room executing a dance, like a flame

the mind you speak of is the "should be", or what is the same, the desire. If you give up the desire for a while, a minute, and your mind stops at once, you will see that there is no problem. You are creating problems with your desire. there is what is, silent, meaningless but completely full. but to pause the recording before you have to understand what that recording is. it is a projection of what you think it should be, created by social interaction, by language. something completely unreal, false. Forget about love, infinity, about everything. Just silent

everything is simpler than that. have balls to stick in the present and forget the mental nonsense about what should be, and that's it ... you have it. what it is.

I really liked your report, I read it several times. I think your trip has been to free yourself from your ego and just be, without separation between you and that isn't you. but just be is wonderful. the ego is a sad jail. We have to live in silence, present, without stories. It is possible that on your next trip you will see how that present opens up to the limitless

the human being is a cosmic joke, a voracious murderous monkey that sows shit and tortures himself in every imaginable way. a very funny joke

@cypres You almost won the debate, but your opponent has resorted to the wild card: you do not exist, there is no one here.??? well, tried to contribute:. you harm yourself to: forget your horrible anxiety for a while, show yourself and others that you are brave, and I guess also because you want to feel sooooo special

@Raphael i remember you, you doubted whether to leave your mother alone with your aggressive and inconsiderate father, in a country in Africa. I hope you could have improved your situation. my father died when I was 20 and for me it is a wound. He treated my mother badly, he disqualified everyone, he messed with my physique when I was 11 years old, and all my life with anything. All was bad. he was a self-esteem eater. It makes me sick to think of him. I don't know if one day I'll be able to forget that shit. It serves as an alarm for meditation. If I decrease the practice, the disgusting snake begins to bite

Talk about your "flaws" openly. remove the shame from your life. do it every day, don't hide. say what is not easy for you to accept from yourself. On the other hand, if people get very silly, tell them the most offensive thing you can think of, without any barriers, but not inventing, something that is true, but without anger, like a joke. It is as liberating as 5meo, or more. When you start, you can't stop!

@The0Self In the end, its structure, as it is built on nothing, begins to crumble, but the fixed patterns have strength and are capable of restructuring and functioning, what happens is that they are so unpleasant compared to being free of them, that they are not tolerate. I start to see the miracle: the disappearance of that shit, really

Logically it should be the same since if it were not lsd, it would not work, or it would be completely different, but there are many experienced users who say that it is not the same

That said, there are many masturbating looking in the mirror, putting on latex clothes, moaning, even doing stunts.

you can be negative or positive. negative, looking at the pretentious who only write to wank looking in the mirror, or positive, looking at the flashes of purity, goodness, really. in this forum, and in life

You don't remember anything before two years because your ego is minimal, very rudimentary. There is only being, and it is all the same, undifferentiated, so you cannot distinguish between an instant or a month. little by little your ego is forming and your memories are printed, your ego is formed. Your ego is not a nonsense that you will easily forget, it is a real energetic pattern, ways of processing that although they are not material exist, dissolving them requires talent, it is an art. minimize its reality, its importance, perpetuate it. If you think that one day you will realize that you are God and everything is a dream, and after that your ego will be deactivated, you are wrong. it has concrete foundations

That is true, but if you do not solve the causes of suffering, you will continue with it inside, always. You will notice it more or less, but there it will be. I am referring to the psychological suffering that in my opinion is the rejection of yourself. the solution is acceptance. If you accept yourself fully, completely, including suffering, it will lose its poison. you have to make an effort and accept, value, say, that part of you that hurts, ashamed you. there can be no distortion between what is and what should be, or you will have a permanent knot inside. Accepting the divinity of your suffering is the key, humiliating yourself in the sense of eliminating the idea that things should have been different. you are that, there is no more. there can't be more. It is not in your hands of you, as ego, to think how this and that should have been. As an ego it is only in your hands to be proud of your suffering, it is your distinctive as a human, do not hide it or make up, or you will be hiding yourself.

@flyingwhaleehave you ever tried analogs? I have 1cp lsd. there are those who say that the effect is very different, others that it is the same.

It is not that it cannot be known, it is that it is irrelevant. the relevant thing is to be. that somehow is knowing