Breakingthewall

indeed, you are an ego. the bad thing is that the ego, due to its foundations and construction, tends to become saturated, complicating, embittering, going crazy. So you, the ego, must be able to dissolve from time to time, realize what you are, a kind of image, dream, software, created by you, the emptiness, which is at the same time you, the ego. . since you, the ego, are the whole universe. when you dissolve there is no universe left, only emptiness. Doing this exercise from time to time will allow you to be a happier ego, less attached to yourself, with greater possibilities of enjoying and loving the reality that you are

the point is that you are the infinite void that does what it wants. It is you, and I at the same time, it is a game, it has no limits. Time does not exist, create it, there is no you or I in separate time, it is all at once, or never, or in turns, it is the same. there are no limits to what you can. it is unimaginable. You are God and you do what comes to mind and everything comes to mind and everything is the joy of love But: Are there other minds in this dream, understanding that they are all basically the same, or am I just imagining others? I believe that they exist as a dream, just as I exist. Each one is another universe, just like me, and we are all images, projections of the void, but there is no difference between me imagining you, or you imagining me. we are both different projections of the same, but just as existent

selfless love is rare. most only seek to strengthen the bonds they need, to be something for someone, a kind of exchange of favors. where it is most noticeable is in couple, but also in friendships. often seem like business relationships

there is a first duality in the mind of a newborn baby: food / hunger. mother = food = life. duality really is life / death. instinct is powerful, millions of years of evolution creating desire to live. Without that desire, you would not live. Over time, the human, who is a social being, translates the life / death duality into acceptance / rejection. the millions of subtleties of the social relationship are creating bonds, attachments, rejections. this has enormous force. if they kick you out from the tribe ... better not think about that horror, it is not a possibility. the tribe is life, it is everything, more than life. and we have already built the prison of the ego, whose foundations are fear, attachment and rejection, and its appearance, concepts and ideas made of words. Anyone who thinks that the ego is nonsense, misconceptions and nothing more, will find himself returning to prison over and over again in a thousand different ways, believing that he is freeing himself and being more and more imprisoned.

that means you are smart and you have realized the death trap that is the ego. people will tell you: don't think about those things, live each day and be happy! But you, as an ego, are a being who seeks the greatest advantage, the greatest security, and you have realized that this does not exist, that it may seem that you have your life very resolute and organized, with your family and all that, But the reality is that you are in the trenches of the First World War: any day something much worse can happen to you than what will happen to those in the photos, and above all, the end in the best of cases is decadence , old age and death. You, as an ego, are completely screwed, there is no good deal possible. without escape. the only solution: transcend your ego

You are looking for experience, outside of yourself, things that contribute to you, that make you more spiritual, more advanced. all of that is ego, you know. the only peace is in looking inside and realizing that there is no place to go, experience to seek, enlightenment to achieve, goal to reach. just this, now. When you see it, it is not difficult to meditate and find the balance

nothing is a bad word, since it leads to mistakes. we say that reality is nothing in the sense that there is no differentiation. contrasted with infinity, any something, or differentiated thing, ceases to be "something", it is nothing, but still is. it is the undifferentiated infinity itself. the word nothing suggests non-existence, and non-existence is impossible, since existence is

there is true altruism, that is, doing something because it is what should be done, regardless of how you are going to feel. the same as true selfishness, which is doing things that make you feel bad, such as mistreating others, addictions

Smart!

inspiring. encourages me to answer a question about my immediate future

recent studies show that people with high cholesterol have a lower risk of mortality from any cause. The new theories affirm that the only risk hypercholesterolemia is familial hypercholesterolemia, a disease of genetic origin. It seems that in other cases the cholesterol level is not related to atherosclerosis. chronic inflammation or diabetes is much more.

Yes, as I read later, mercury can block the kidney ducts and cause kidney failure, so you have to start small and see the reactions Yes ,ala lasts 3 hours in blood, but what I don't understand is because it is a problem if there is an hour or two in which there is no ala in blood. But probably there is a reason , I'll try to find. Yeah, it chelate from the blood and organs, so where is the problem if you have the amalgam? Well, sure it's better to don't have... Thanks for your answer and for your post, i didn't know about mercury, i was searching a lot since I read it

anxiety is crazy. The thing is like this: there is only the present moment, what your eyes are showing you, the air that hits your face, etc. this present moment seems empty of meaning but it is deep, full, magnificent. silent but sings a song of joy. It sounds silly but it is. And the anxiety is this: to this movie in hd you superimpose a dubbing of very low quality in which there are many voices that came of another voices that you listen before, shouting that the blue color of the sky should be a little lighter, and those trees there, they are not enough big, what are them made, etc. you believe that stupidity and so minute after minute, totally nonsense, without any meaning, even you think there is a lot of meaning once you get into that madness, it's really hard to get out. First you are a child, happy, you live, you feel life, and little by little you are entering the madness of cheap dubbing, and you believe that that is reality, that meaningless interpretation. getting out of there is possible, going back to what is direct, what is true. of course it generates anxiety to live in that madness, it is the sign that you are still alive. others submit completely and never get out of that trap To get out of that trap you have to put all your intelligence, inspiration, courage into play ... and when you finally manage to get out, you realize that it was idiotic, something very simple, silly. But from inside the trap you couldn't see it ,you only saw the trap to get out of the trap you have to realize something very shocking: you are not real. you are a voice that repeats like a parrot, nothing more. only the blue color is real, the experience that happens. the meaning is illusory, made up, a bubble soap

i think you just have to love them as they are and not expect or need to be understood. who wants understanding, when there is love? who knows if one day you realize that it was you who did not understand

you do not exist. seriously, you think so, but no. there is only the impersonal reality, flowing. absolutely everything we think about is mental constructs. there is no war, no hitler, or anything, only fantasies of our ego that imagines that it is a person who is thinking about war. a trick. all of that is the same as a bunch of flies eating shit. reality in motion and we, the non-existent, making sense of everything, and believing that we are real. crazy?

is not a slug being eaten by ants, that is our egoic vision. there is no "a" slug. there is reality moving, adjusting, flowing. the slug is not an independent being, it is a reaction, an attempt, a movement. It is the way in which reality manifests itself, balances, adjusts. Nature is terrible for your ego, since the ego is precisely a resistance to being eaten by ants. there is nothing wrong with being eaten by ants, except for your ego

there are several things about the protocol that I don't understand. I understand that the doses of ala have to be low at the beginning, and that it mobilizes the mercury of the brain and if it is too much it can cause serious disorders, but the dmsa does not cross the brain barrier, then, because you have to start with low doses, and because can produce side effects? Another, the rounds have to be 3 days, because if you do it for just one day, the mercury is mobilized but not all is expelled .... but what was mobilized on day 3 is not going to be expelled either. What happens if you take ala every 5 hours? Why is it so important that the body is not even an hour without the contribution of the ala? if at the end of each round this is going to happen. Why is it so dangerous to chelate if there is mercury left in the mouth? chelators bind to the mercury that is in the body to expel it, if you have a filling that is putting some mercury in your body, where is the problem if you take a chelator to expel it? If the ala and the dmsa bind to the mercury, forming another inactive compound, which is excreted, where is the problem that the body is without input for a few hours? what is chelated will be expelled, and the rest will be where it was before. Because the body does not have the capacity to expel much, so you have to start with a few mg, but later, in the future, if it has the capacity to expel more, and the dose is increased? if it is expelled in the urine, this does not increase or decrease What would be the problem with taking ala daily, for example every 8 hours for 2 years? If the ala chelates the mercury and then is ejected, eventually all the mercury will be ejected. why can't you just use ala? I'm sure there will be solid reasons for all this, but I haven't found them

@SQAAD you are right to feel that way. we live in a society of superficial, narcissistic and stupid people. but not everyone is like that. truly noble people exist, it is in your hand to have the instinct to approach them, and to stay away from the idiots.

Instead of committing suicide, why don't you lie in a hammock between two trees on any beach, and wait to get old looking at the sky and the sea? In the end you will die anyway, there is nothing to lose or gain. I know that it's very difficult to lie in a hammock and look the sky and be happy, there is you creating unhappiness

life is basically a war between some beings and others. It would be said that God loves war, more than allows it

No. It's being a fast evolution. It is clear at practically all times that the voice is a parrot that says empty things, to which it is not necessary to pay attention. I identify with what happens, the experience, and the moment takes on richness and depth, great beauty. it cannot be explained because it is the opposite of explanation. interpretation, and sharing ideas with people who interpret everything, is sterile, meaningless. I still do but i see it's emptiness. Only be is fullness

1 h in the morning before doing anything for me is the key. a whole hour because for me it is after 40 min when it is real meditation. then it is very easy to sit for 30 min at any time of the day, even in the street, and remain silent again. If I don't meditate in the morning, the day is very different, full of thought, of ego.

I think that the issue is not to make psychedelics or not, it is the reason why you do them. I do psychedelics because I want to deactivate my ego, I want my mind to be a mirror when I'm walking down the street, just flow without interpreting. This is a divine experience, no more is needed. psychedelics have greatly helped me understand who I am, as an ego, and as infinity, and thus be able to take a step back and shut up. Another thing is that with psychedelics you look for experiences. then you are strengthening the ego. You can become god 100 times that later you will continue to be your ego, only inflated by interpreting that you are God, that you know things that others do not, etc. what matters is to flow in the present without hindrance. well, what matters to me, you can also feed a spiritual ego if you want, but you will continue to suffer

I ve read your post of 2019. very interesting! I understand your point, you have been in spirituality for 8 years and your ego is still intact, no matter how much you have temporarily disintegrated it. my idea is that the goal is to weaken, or disintegrate the ego, to live in this world with joy, enjoying every smell, taste, pleasure and pain. that is, the truth is a tool, not an objective. the goal is freedom. I believe that deepening in the truth the ego weakens. mine at least does. but I see that yours does not, even with the most serious combined practices. What else can you do to stop identifying with thought? It is not enough for you to know that the depth is infinite so there is nothing to know, nothing to think about, just be? It is very difficult! but it is possible i think, it is a true game. Quite exciting, a challenge, you need all your intelligence and passion...let's see

seek awakening. When you are as fucked up as you say you are, you are cornered, there is no way out, things were twisted from the beginning and no matter how much you straighten them they will always seem crooked. When the idea of suicide crosses your mind, it is time to seek awakening. do your research, you are in the right place. If you awaken to your true nature, your problems will be fixed, since they will not be a problem.