Breakingthewall

@Edvardas but another opportunity. Show me exactly where I talked about the ego in a wrong way. Explain. Show that you aren't just a fake that just want to feel superior

Funny, we think the same about each other. For me you are stuck in the concept and the learned idea and you don't even realize it. and you interpret the one who questions as ignorant while you project total security, like a teacher. verdict: fake

The truth cannot be given, you are right. Neither said, or thought. The truth is totally actual, can only be and realized in the present moment. The truth would blow up in our faces if it weren't for the many layers of fear with which we cover it. If the doors of perception were opened, reality would show itself as it is: infinite. but we have cover it with many layers of fear that are like blinders on the donkey: they only let us see what we have to see to be what we are

Well, you said I'm deeply confused, but you didn't explain in what.

I just said maybe. I doubt about anything. Leo at the end is just a.voice in my mind...I'm sorry if it bothered you that I doubt someone you believe so fervently in.

I'm not sure if knowing that can help you at all. know that or anything else. knowing is a thing of the ego. understand too. the ego must understand itself for liberation to occur, but the ego cannot understand reality. I don't know to what extent Leo is wrong. We take it for granted that Leo knows what he's doing, but there's a possibility he's heading down the wrong path. Are you realizing right now that reality is like a "dream" of god and that "you" are god, or it's a realization that you had on psychedelic and now you, the ego, is remembering? Because if it's so....are you sure that it happened? It's just more ego

totally agree. Too advanced ideas are going to pollute the mind. Leo's teachings are not teachings, they are stories from an explorer. It is as if I am on the moon and I tell you what it is like to be there. that's not going to help you get there

The problem is that you can be completely aware that it's reality one moment and then lose it, so it becomes an idea, like: I'm god having a hallucination. which has no value. realizing that really in real time yes, that is the true liberation, when the duality I/other completely disappears, but is it possible to be in it for more than a few seconds? very difficult for me, the mind begins to elaborate immediately, over all about the others. How's possible that there are not others? But in a way they exist, etc.

Maybe, but knowing this will not set you free. I have never read Ralston, since I have asked you and you have answered me, I will start something about him

Who is a good teacher in your opinion?

Not believing, understanding what are you. But it's very difficult to understand yourself. a system cannot be known from inside the system. you have to go outside, but there is no outside. it's more complicated than you think true liberation is the dissolution of the self. since the self is the prison. It is the energy that wants, that search, that need, that fears. but that energy appears for a reason. in theory it is impossible to be without it and stay alive, since its function is survival. you have to be extremely subtle to find the perfect balance that allows you to survive and at the same time be free. I would say that it is something that borders on magic. I'm not there and I've never met anyone who is.

Anger is the most egoic emotion. means: for me to be you must not be. it is the emotion that makes the human tribal and murderous. For my gene to thrive, yours must die. anger leads to hate, hate to war, war to fear, and thus begins the endless cycle of human unhappiness, producing egos crushed by fear, which produce egos with more layers of fear. until one arrives and says: I break the cycle. I will free myself from fear. and leave the anger behind.

Liberation is when the self dissolves, and it's fucking hard for the self to dissolve itself. the self is very tricky. Liberation is an art, you have to be some kind of genius. there are thousands of traps that strengthen the self. you have to be attentive all the time if you want to have any choice to dissolve yourself

Of course. But a bit of psychosis is normal if you force the limits so much imo. Probably he's going to be ok .It's like if you are a climber and you break a bone.

Exactly. For me this is the last barrier. If you want to open the void, first you have to face the horror of the total absence . The infinite no thing. I have more or less become familiar with it, but that does not mean that I want to have that experience again. Lately I have snorted 5 meo, so things happen slowly, but there is a moment when there is nothing and reality turns towards that. I think it means that if you want to open up to the truth you have to die first and not want to escape from it. The good thing is that I know that this is not the bottom of reality, that way it is more tolerable.

Awakening is really twisted. I'm awake 3 seconds, many times during the day, and i see...shit, nothing is real, there are no others, it's totally obvious , everything is like a...soup, and the meanings are invented. But you can't be there more than a moment because the i is who realize that and starts: how? So, the others are me, but exactly how? And the mind takes the control and it's impossible to do an step back and see because you are inside. It's interesting not to get crazy being all day shifting in that dance. An i that doesn't exist trying to don't exist without success

yes i know that quite well. with 5 meo many times. I disappear and reality is a singularity stuck in eternity, infinite, without escape, from...nothing. death. total horror with no escape. I'd say it's one of the worst experiences possible. for me the solution to that was one time in which I vape 5 meo, that happened, and when I came back from there I thought: it can't be, I am and I'm not that, I put in the pipe I don't know how much, but a lot, and I vape thinking: maybe this will kill me, well, ok. I returned to the horrible singularity, but this time the void opened. it was the same emptiness, the same singularity, only it contained the totality of existence. I was that. I am that! it is unimaginable, no idea can come close, no adjective. So what you have to do is face that horror again and again, until you get used to it

fucking self...full of sadness, revenge, feelings of injustice. it's kind of a dark globe in the middle. it is there, limiting, wanting...something. wants to look at the phone. he wants to meet some girl, he wants something. he's not happy like that. something is missing, many things should have been different. search search search. a ball in the center of the chest. sometimes it disappears, when meditating. diluted. reality ceases to be a dark ball that searches and suddenly it is love. freedom. beauty. like when my mother was alive and not yet an adult who wishes wishes wishes. Like when I had not yet seen that life is a fight and if you don't fight you sink and die. damn self, you make me unhappy but you give me power, you make me free on earth and a prisoner in the mind. fucking beloved self, let's make a deal. to Caesar what belongs to Caesar and to God what belongs to God. Let's play seriously, to win, but then relax. then you go to sleep.

@Leo Gura good luck and courage, be a pioneer is dangerous. sure this stabilizes and is a step towards new frontiers of the human mind never seen before

@Moksha hello! where were you? you retired alone in a cave in a mountain? surely something like that. I'm happy to see you again

Of course, that is the problem. Survival instinct is what keeps us tied to the apparent, to mental constructions. the feeling is that if you let yourself go, you die. It's not something you can let go of. there are people who let go totally with LSD, but that is not normal. I use 5 meo for that, and even with it it's very difficult. Many times I do it and everything disappears, there is nothing, I am not there. the absolute emptiness. but a horrible feeling is installed that permeates everything that says: death. reality is death without limit. absolute horror. So when I come back I do it again. until surpassing the last barrier, the horror of nothing. an interesting exercise that without that substance would be completely impossible for me, maybe after thousands of reincarnations, not now (I say reincarnations as an example, I don't know if such a thing exists) . then, once like you, you have realized that all mental constructions are false. or rather, that they are mental constructions, and you understand their nature, you see that you cannot stay there, because that is a trap, a prison that only brings unhappiness, or even if it gives some happiness, it is still a prison. so you have to transcend it yes or yes. no alternative

It's not that they didn't exist, it's that they were you. everything is you .your mother's love is the love that you are, all your memory is a perfect artistic mosaic that unfolds in infinity....but what I just said is a story. you don't have to adopt beliefs like this, or type: the others are imaginary. this is a mental construction. you must deconstruct. do not change one construction for another. there comes a time when you realize that you have absolutely nothing to lose because all the constructions are false, then you step on the accelerator. careful with the ideas of leo. They are great, but they are ideas. don't adopt them. Leo tends to say: this is how it is, you are imagining your parents, etc. This from his point of view is deconstructing, from the one who listens and is in another mental hold, it is to construct. God is a mental construction, everything is. Of course Leo's ideas helps, but at the end deconstructing requires letting go of any hold

that is that the awakening is calling you. the total dissolution of the form. we can talk about it all day, think about it endlessly, that doesn't get we closer to the truth...but it could help our mind to accept it's place. you can only be unlimited. when that happens you say: the cup was empty and has been filled from the infinite source. the prodigal son was lost and has returned. I was wandering through the fucking desert and now I rest in a garden that sprouts infinitely. there is only one way out: inside

I understand you very well. I sometimes do 5 meo, and when I come back I think: what now? what do I do with life? for what? the only answer that comes to me is: be perfect. fully align with the perfection that you are. there is nothing else to do. eliminate the superfluous. purify yourself to the maximum

infinity is terror to the mind because it cannot be captured by it, it is beyond it. the mind needs to give form, place, definition. infinity makes the mind zero. it is the death of the ego, since the ego, being expanded like chewing gum in an infinite dimension, completely disappears. you cannot think the infinite, only be it, and to be it you have to break the barriers that form the ego, that define it. but the ego cannot help but define, that is why there are so many traps in this work. infinity is truth. the limitations that give it an apparent form are just appearances, let's say falsehood. therefore, all content of the mind is a lie, by definition. only useful as a pointer to render the mind