Breakingthewall

@Harman in short : go completely, without reservation, out of your comfort zone. if not your life stagnates. When 18 and when 60, but when you are 18 you have to start the habit of be brave, don't be lazy, do the radical. I don't know, buy a bike and tour the Congo. Forget the videos, Leo, and all that, go for the real thing

Just vaporize your ego until nothing remains, face the horror of absolute emptiness, absence of anything, and realize the absolute glory of what you are, the impossible that is. Wtf.

Agree, i don't want even 1 gr of that shit in my life. That's why I totally limit my social contacts to real thing, one to one only and when it really worths. Results: 95% of time alone. But for me it's much better

Yeah. I'm fake too when I'm there. No other option, it's the dynamic of that. What I mean is that it is ok to pass time but not good if you are trying to get deeper

@Tyler Robinson more common example: a Friday I meet to lunch with my friends from school. everyone shows great humor, everyone makes jokes, it seems like a fun and relaxed situation. everyone drinks beer and wine, some gin for dessert, everyone talks about girls, sex, politics and work, and someone who is not present at the time. everything seems normal, light, nice .... ufff it's unbearable fucking shit. They should pay me to be there. everything is fake, I notice the tension in the environment, everyone with their defenses bristling, not showing weakness, saying what they are supposed to say, each one in their role. When I get off that shit my mind buzzes for two hours. Why to do that? But for them it's a great time, after they go to another, and another... After that I go to a place where people I know from my ex meet, hippy style. It seems more authentic, people drink beer and smoke weed. They look closer and less fake. we talk about politics and about the world and people listen to what you say and give their opinion. it is a higher level. I perceive the need to communicate, to find common ground. to feel part of something, to feel that I am also part of it. they're nice but it's alienating. for them only the conceptual exists, everything is made of words. In the end, it's almost more alienating than the others.

So, what will you do? his memory is indelible. you have to recontextualize it. there comes a time when you realize that shit is just what you needed, for that game you came. realize that when you think things should have been different it is pure vanity. things are exactly as they are. You, the you who judge, have no voice here, you must bow to reality, not deviate a millimeter from it. the past cannot be changed. just realize that your pain is the distortion between what was and what should have been. when you see that it should have been, since it was, the distortion disappears. to see this you have to go deeper, to get away from the social matrix, to understand who you are.

What I did when I was about your age and in a very similar situation, was to move alone to another city on the coast that attracted me, with little money and the determination not to return for a long time. The truth is that it was hard, but it made things clear for me. salaried work sucks but you have to go through it. at least one year. later...you are in a complicated game, you have to play it with intuition, intelligence and decision. no one can tell you how, it's up to you. Just don't stay still, act

I would say that if you want to go deeper, you have to limit your social interactions to the minimum and maximum quality, only one on one, not groups. normal social interactions take you away from yourself, draw you into the social matrix. you also have to completely leave any entertainment like Netflix, novels, movies... any evasion. the basis of your life must be total solitude and you must be perfectly comfortable in it. Nailed in the present moment. and the people chosen to interact must be of the highest quality, you should be totally true with them. If not, you are going back every time you interact

existence exists and that's what we are. there is no death. There is only the cessation of an experience that is like a lens of God. you are god but you don't see it because experience prevents it. so in a way, you are the experience. but the experience is not real. then, you as experience are not real. so when you die someone will die who is not real, so death is not real. only god is

Women based in fear are attracted by strength and success. Women based in love, by true connection and real sexual energy

boredom is something that occurs in children, to encourage them to play constantly, which is a mechanism of stimulation and learning. in adults more than boredom there is anxiety. almost everyone is addicted to the mind and if we are left empty, we can't stand it, we need to fill the emptiness with whatever, movies, socializing, etc.

I have never been addicted to porn, I have used it to see the girl's bodies, but it always seemed empty to me. but I have been addicted to something else, a paraphilia. I guess I won't be the only one. my addiction was looking for a girl in contact apps to masturbate together with a video call or talking on the phone. and when i got it, to keep searching for another. I could spend hours a day with it, and i wasn't really interested in dating them, i did, sex too, but really i preferred the paraphilia. I thought that I would never be able to leave that addiction, but the solution occurred by itself: real, true sex, of total surrender, divine. makes everything else look like misery. the difference between quality sex is in your partner, she has to be pure in her way of being, without lies, and over all in you, that have to be the same. Now i think i know why I was addicted to that: i didn't really enjoyed sex because it was to many lie in me, but the sexual impulse was impossible to ignore, so it was an scape

Yeah, and beautiful. Much more than be blind

I'm not talking about an ego that has to get anywhere, I'm talking about an ego that must move apart so that reality manifests itself and the story that keeps us on the surface could be detached. Where is the history? In the depth? Do you understand the depth of reality, of what we are? Not understand, realize. There are not histories. Reality exist and is unfathomable depth. It's not just emptiness. I don't mean to know anything, i mean to be open to the depth, to be limitless I read your posts and for you spirituality is : there is no self, nothing can be explained. That is a dead end road, the neo advaita approach. Reality exist, and we are. And it's a door to open. Yes it sounds like to go anywhere but it isn't anywhere to go, is a door to open your mind and your heart to de depth that you are and you always were, just you were closed to it, as if you perceived in 2 dimensions example: imagine that you are a guy who only thinks about making money by scamming people and compulsively looking for sex with prostitutes. one day you take mushrooms , or have a traumatic experience, or anything, and realize the true aspect of human relationships, the depth of the human condition. Since then you see people differently, you make true friends and you have integrity, you set up an NGO to help the homeless. is this real, or is it the ego that has created a story of a path from *psychopath" to "great guy"? It's that you now are able to see a dimension that before you were blind to

Same could be said of the Nazism

it's just that Islam is less evolved than previous religions. and not only that. Other religions have a background of truth, in Islam it is difficult to see it. rather it is a pack of lies. It is true that other religions arose in sophisticated and cultured environments, such as Rome, India, China, and Islam in a very primitive environment and that would be an excuse, but the lack of truth is still there. The religion of the Native Americans, for example, is much truer, and they were more primitive.

in short: transcend your ego. the usual in spirituality, nothing new. only that we, who use psychedelics, know that this ego has enormously deep roots and it is totally impossible to transcend it. you think yes, but no. the last layer, the total emptiness of existence, you cannot go through it, unless you are enlightened like maharshi. for a normal guy it is absolutely impossible. But there's the chemistry. Chemistry gives you the breakthrough, but it also gives you the understanding of who you are as an ego by destroying it over and over again. Seeing the glory of existence lends an underlying joy, but it is temporary, the door closes again in a few days and only the memory remains. you have to repeat the play a thousand times, until for you the structure of the ego is obvious. then you permanently identify with existence, you are open to the deep, when before you were open to the superficial, to the linear, to time. with this you conquer neither more nor less than immortality, completely real and without a doubt

well your point is true, but the reality is that one gets lost in the character and it is impossible to get out of it. attachments are strong, then your existence is fearful and joyless. if you open the door, that is, if you move out of the way of the door, you see that the character is just a character and the attachments are empty, there is no fear of losing anything, since nothing is real, and reality is a unfathomable well of abundance in which you recognize yourself as what you have always been, not someone but the reality itself. The point is about is having this opening 24 hours a day. reason? It is more pleasant, with a huge difference, and true perception come to you. all psychological shit is swept away. it reveals as unreal. indeed what I describe is a great advance of dmt, or 5meo, or meditation, or whatever, but it is reality. the same as reality is what you say, the moment you are living. but the difference is that in your current experience you are, like an inevitable monolith, in the middle of everything, giving everything your limiting, fearful, attached flavor. your present moment is you, when it could be god. they really are the same but they feel very different. One is limited, the other is limitless

And believe me, there is one last door. you have to dive headfirst, without reservation, into the absolute horror of absolute nothingness. this is not a joke. absolute emptiness. you have to disappear really. then the jet reactor will emerge and from it will sprout the inexhaustible jet of the glory of existence and a feeling will emerge: hallelujah. Hallelujah. and your heart will open Sounds wo wo? It's the reality

The absolute truth is that existence exist. they look like trees on the road, me with the phone on a terrace with a coffee, or whatever. we get lost in a linear and superficial view of the fact of existing because we create the illusion of a temporal process, so we navigate on the surface of this supposed process, in which you say that you are seeing trees on the road and then you will arrive somewhere from other place. these are all mental images that create the appearance of "you". if you erase them, what remains? existence will continue to exist, without the road and the trees, without time. this is god. then you say: ah ok, I understand, god is existence, blah blah. No. it can not be understood. understanding is something within it. what you can do is be, and that is nothing that can be thought, anticipated or imagined. it's reality. the glory of total existence, if you allow me language wo wo. realize that is important because it sweeps away the sadness of life, the rumination, and opens the door to true intelligence, since it is pure intelligence. spirituality should be oriented towards realizing that. Many mystics have said it, and I also say it, I am a normal guy who has thought: what they say sounds real to me. I put together the explanations and stories of many and my own insights about reality and come to a conclusion: this is true and I want to see it. then you do what is in your power for it. today there are tools, information, literature, and over all, drugs, it's quite easy, not a big mistery

I think it's not the same. a salvia trip takes you to unimaginable places. It seems that it opens some dimension, or something like that. On the other hand, when you dream at night, everything is related to your waking life. it is basically the same as daydreaming, a function of the mind that reproduces reality in order to anticipate events and increase survival

mushrooms are usually warm, although sometimes they can get sinister. They always have a touch like organic. 5 meo dmt is true that it has that brutal flavor, the divine disintegrating ray without mercy or consideration for the ego. I have tasted the 5 meo malt 3 times and it was much warmer the first two and definitely horrible the third, but it was due to external circumstances. I have the feeling that malt does not tolerate impurities, lies, in your life. expel them as if they were an infection and you will suffer in the process

Everything that we think, as you say, are histories . But reality is not that we think. It's unfathomable depth. When i said a door i mean that you, with all your mental processes, conciouss and unconscious, are creating an appearance of being that is unreal, and this appearance works like a door, blocking the depth. If you remove the door, the depth manifest, and it's not nothing, or infinity, or anything else. Well, it is, but also it's alive, it's an explosion of existence, it's god, and it's you, and you can't imagine until you realize. The last door is the emptiness. You have to face the absolute emptiness with total acceptance to open it

Wrong, god exists, it is behind a door. The door is you. Believe me, I'm not speaking for narcissism and other nonsense. I would like the whole of humanity, including you, to open that door. I don't think my cousin, the far-right lawyer, will do it, but you? Man, you are thinking about spirituality all the time. open the fucking door

I don't understand why he says that. the apparent reality, the history of the ego, is like a dream, because it is unreal. reality is one, organic, deep, and has no meaning, while the history of the ego is multiple, superficial, and full of meaning. but when you dream as an ego, it's different. your dreams are snippets of waking reality, they are not original, they are your mind rearranging its memories and creating an experience. The dream, or creation, of reality, of God, is completely deliberate, completely creative, perfect down to the smallest detail. it is real! in fact, it is god. the dream is the dreamer. in the nigh there is dreamer and the dream, duality. not in reality. God is not dreaming reality. this is reality, this is god. it just seems like a story