Breakingthewall

And believe me, there is one last door. you have to dive headfirst, without reservation, into the absolute horror of absolute nothingness. this is not a joke. absolute emptiness. you have to disappear really. then the jet reactor will emerge and from it will sprout the inexhaustible jet of the glory of existence and a feeling will emerge: hallelujah. Hallelujah. and your heart will open Sounds wo wo? It's the reality

The absolute truth is that existence exist. they look like trees on the road, me with the phone on a terrace with a coffee, or whatever. we get lost in a linear and superficial view of the fact of existing because we create the illusion of a temporal process, so we navigate on the surface of this supposed process, in which you say that you are seeing trees on the road and then you will arrive somewhere from other place. these are all mental images that create the appearance of "you". if you erase them, what remains? existence will continue to exist, without the road and the trees, without time. this is god. then you say: ah ok, I understand, god is existence, blah blah. No. it can not be understood. understanding is something within it. what you can do is be, and that is nothing that can be thought, anticipated or imagined. it's reality. the glory of total existence, if you allow me language wo wo. realize that is important because it sweeps away the sadness of life, the rumination, and opens the door to true intelligence, since it is pure intelligence. spirituality should be oriented towards realizing that. Many mystics have said it, and I also say it, I am a normal guy who has thought: what they say sounds real to me. I put together the explanations and stories of many and my own insights about reality and come to a conclusion: this is true and I want to see it. then you do what is in your power for it. today there are tools, information, literature, and over all, drugs, it's quite easy, not a big mistery

I think it's not the same. a salvia trip takes you to unimaginable places. It seems that it opens some dimension, or something like that. On the other hand, when you dream at night, everything is related to your waking life. it is basically the same as daydreaming, a function of the mind that reproduces reality in order to anticipate events and increase survival

mushrooms are usually warm, although sometimes they can get sinister. They always have a touch like organic. 5 meo dmt is true that it has that brutal flavor, the divine disintegrating ray without mercy or consideration for the ego. I have tasted the 5 meo malt 3 times and it was much warmer the first two and definitely horrible the third, but it was due to external circumstances. I have the feeling that malt does not tolerate impurities, lies, in your life. expel them as if they were an infection and you will suffer in the process

Everything that we think, as you say, are histories . But reality is not that we think. It's unfathomable depth. When i said a door i mean that you, with all your mental processes, conciouss and unconscious, are creating an appearance of being that is unreal, and this appearance works like a door, blocking the depth. If you remove the door, the depth manifest, and it's not nothing, or infinity, or anything else. Well, it is, but also it's alive, it's an explosion of existence, it's god, and it's you, and you can't imagine until you realize. The last door is the emptiness. You have to face the absolute emptiness with total acceptance to open it

Wrong, god exists, it is behind a door. The door is you. Believe me, I'm not speaking for narcissism and other nonsense. I would like the whole of humanity, including you, to open that door. I don't think my cousin, the far-right lawyer, will do it, but you? Man, you are thinking about spirituality all the time. open the fucking door

I don't understand why he says that. the apparent reality, the history of the ego, is like a dream, because it is unreal. reality is one, organic, deep, and has no meaning, while the history of the ego is multiple, superficial, and full of meaning. but when you dream as an ego, it's different. your dreams are snippets of waking reality, they are not original, they are your mind rearranging its memories and creating an experience. The dream, or creation, of reality, of God, is completely deliberate, completely creative, perfect down to the smallest detail. it is real! in fact, it is god. the dream is the dreamer. in the nigh there is dreamer and the dream, duality. not in reality. God is not dreaming reality. this is reality, this is god. it just seems like a story

This time is perfect for awakening for one simple reason: there is nothing else to do. It has already been seen that reason is a dead end. and wealth. and the couple. and all. It has already been seen that the human condition is dissatisfaction, old age and death. what a scam right? anyone with a little blood will find a way out of this horrible trap

but god is not in front of you, he's under a ton of shit that is you

@Jannes the substance that goes directly to the realization of god is 5 meo. and this does not happen always or easily. try working with 5 meo, it also has the advantage of short duration. When the door opens for you, nothing will be the same. it is as if you had lived mummified and suddenly, you resurrect. your heart opens . your mind opens. there is nothing like it. Push. go for it, with determination. open the door

Yes, we humans are addicted to stories. so much so that we confuse them with reality absolutely always. stories are just stories, but we are programmed to lose ourselves in them. imagine a world where adults are enlightened and tell children that stories are just stories. would produce enlightened children? I think not, that genetics rules: get lost in the stories. be a rat in the maze and contribute to evolution

the pessimism and negativity thing reminds me of my father. the translation for me is: since I lack balls to do what has to be done, and also I'm lazy, well, I'm going to say that everything is horrible all the time, so it's not my fault, it's reality. but no... in the end reality catches you. you have to do what has to be done, you have to put courage in life, you have to give your best , and leave the complaints for 5-year-olds kids

all that is the narrative of the ego. Saying that is the same as repeating any random word for hours. it means absolutely nothing. but yes, according to the narrative of the ego, everything is very unfair. at a deeper level, fair or unfair means nothing. And a little deeper, nothing means nothing. there is only existence existing. and it is extremely beautiful

yes, that is real spirituality. the concept, the meaning, is a very superficial level, a tool of the mind to optimize survival. we are educated like this since we are children since as humans this is our main advantage, but it takes us away from reality. When you learn to recognize this function of the mind, it is not difficult to get out of it and go deeper. the conceptual mind that interprets is superficial and linear. reality is deep and alive. everything lives, everything is organic and in movement. nothing is separate from anything, everything flows together. you are not separate, it is your mind that creates separation with that activity. If you want to feel life, to have a deeper understanding each time, you must learn to stop the separating activity at will.

The first times I did 5 meo I didn't get a total release, and it happened to me that I noticed an intense energy that tried to come out through my hands and feet without success. the feeling was very negative and after this my hands and feet hurt for two days, and I had muscle spasms in my legs non stop. One night I focused on it and I got a shock of energy that made my body vibrate for a minute, and the spasms completely disappeared. now, after many total advances, with only 3 mg I get a total energy release. I am sure that my energy configuration has changed drastically. I am a different person than 2 years ago, when I started with this. there are no knots in me, the channels flow freely, the feeling of the bottom is completely different from what it was. I was a sick person, and now I'm not. that simple and the disease that I had came from an energetic construction formed in fear since childhood, very difficult to correct. There is nothing like bombing your entire energetic being and dissolve it, and later reconfiguring itself, it's like rebooting a computer. all stuck background programs stop, everything is cleaned

There are people on this forum who genuinely seek the truth. obviously we all have an ego that wants to be liked, to be the smartest and all that, but above this, there is a real desire to go deeper, to open up to existence. this forum is alive and there is true selfless intelligence here, and @Razard86 contribute with yours and with your energy

the biggest barrier, the biggest attachment, is vanity. and the solution is humility. every pain is vanity. even the fear of death is vanity. without vanity there is no suffering. humility must be total, then the ego loosens, the future and the past disappear from the equation and only the present remains, clean and perfect, in the absence of the vain tyrant who judges everything as not enough for his majesty. the idiot focuses on the fact that the tablecloth is not silk and therefore does not enjoy the delicacies cooked by an artist. You have to make that cocky bastard lower his head and humble himself. so much so that it seems that it does not even exist. Reality is god, and you, shitty ego, are here to serve, not to command

He has several important contradictions. He says that everything that can exist will exist, but that right now, there is only your pov. right now implies time, infinity cannot be temporary. everything is right now. He says that the whole thing is some kind of video game with the aim of tricking your ego into creating a believable experience, that if you see a kangaroo, only the front of the kangaroo exists, since it's only there as a special effect. but then he has an experience in which as a god he makes contact with another god, and it seems that this whole worldview changes....what follows from this? Awakening in progress? . Btw the poem was great imo, excellent, and no solipsistic at all

Yeah, i am the totality of god, but in the highest level. The problem is that in the solipsism video this was not understood. It was understood: only your ego exists. or so I understood, both from the video and from what was discussed in the forum. Seemed always very simplistic, linear.

That is the difficult point . when you raise your consciousness you realize that you are everything, that is, amanen, you are inside my dream, I am dreaming of you, and there is nothing more than my dream, it is absolute. It's what Leo has always said and it's completely consistent with insights that happen when you become absolute. but I would say that the construction of reality is more complex. the bubble is not solipistic. everything is interconnected. reality unfolds infinitely. infinity has infinite simultaneous points of view interacting with each other if we rise our consciousness, we leave our bubble and access a larger bubble, until we reach the totality in which you and I are one. but if we lower our consciousness we fragment and become multiple again . each one of us is an eye of god, who has infinite eyes. what the eye sees is different in each case. the one who looks is always the same. And us the humans are the eye looking the eye.

We don't want to get rid of your ego. We want your ego to stop generating anxiety. and then leave a little space to go deep, not always superficial. as you say, the ego must stop judging things as inherently good or bad, and simply judge them as desirable or undesirable for the ends it pursues. ends like survival, for example. when you stop judging you realize that almost all the suffering was unreal. it was just wounded vanity. suffering is easily bearable. More, you get proud of it. Humiliation, totally unbearable. But there is not humiliation, it's a delirium

As far as is known, quantum physics is wacky. and the invariance of the speed of light same

totally agree. 5 meo undoes all your emotional knots but not gradually like mushrooms, but with a bomb effect. It is as if your emotional body were made up of intricate paths, ramifications, areas of energy blockage, others more fluid, then you take 5 meo, and all the branches extend in a straight line like beams of energy that start from the center and encompass the whole. not even the slightest curve remains, everything is straight to infinity. and then they directly disintegrate and only the bottomless void remains. this, even if it lasts only a second, changes your structure forever. that's why if after 5 meo (another day) you take lsd or mushrooms you go to infinity easily. and if after many trips you can do 5 meo easy, without any violence, I would say you are close to achieving that total liberation without any substance.

Agree, it's all the same, but since it's infinite, the word "same" doesn't make sense either. and the point was not that, it was to say: only the coffee that I have in front of me right now exists, nothing can exist outside my field of experience. and why? because....attention....god cannot experience more than one thing at a time. god can't. powerless omnipotence

really that for you your parents mean something more than a stranger is ego. any meaning is ego. the deeper you get the sting of: my parents should have been different, more deep you will have to transcend your ego in order not to feel anxiety. so the worse they were, the better for your spiritual path