Breakingthewall

Yes sure, but just the light is not enough for me ? i want the whole thing. I want to totally understand the existence. The absolute omniscience. The total opening. Happiness is good, but exploration is better! We are men, no kids, let's go to the bottom of the thing

Yes a lot. And about the normal life. but I always have a fighting approach and it sounds very negative. I guess life has steered me in that direction

@michaelcycle00 It is not a matter of playing mind games or fooling yourself with nonsense about love. Anything you tell yourself is nothing more than a placebo. the game is much more difficult and much more challenging than all that. you have to truly transcend the human and all its human things. this is extremely difficult, it is not a easy game and no one can do it for you. your suffering is what gives you the measure of where you have to go, where to deepen, where to understand. You have to be a genius or you lose the game. most people don't even start it so if you've started it better get to the end. For me its meditation 1 hour eery day, zero alcohol, zero toxic relationships, zero entertainment, zero meaningless activities, body in perfect condition, psychedelics every week, constant intention to understand and deepen, cross the surface, understand, undo the enigma. I find it a very interesting challenge and i ve nothing better to do.

more complex, more differentiation. The amoeba can differentiate between hot/cold, and move from one place to another, for example. Higher animals can make millions of subtle differentiations, but their lives are completely tied to the environment in which they live. Not having language, their mental or conceptual constructions are minimal, they live directly, the Garden of Eden, where there is no past or future. we are completely tied to the social environment and we live in the mental construction. We almost always enter a gray, artificial, sterile, false mental landscape. a guy from prehistory would be closer to an elephant than to a modern human. the mind is extremely plastic and evolution is rapid. language and complex social interaction leads us to this. and here we are trying to get out of the trap

Yeah, i know that, I'm not trying to understand with the logical mind, the only real understanding come from the silent, but we translate into words because we like to share. Now you and me are not having a conversation, it's an illusion. There is not you and me. There is only one. It's very difficult to really understand it.

It couldn't be called an ego, an amoeba is a total automaton, it doesn't need to make differentiations. It is not aware of itself. a sardine, a proto minimal ego, a dog, an elephant, a monkey, have an ego. They are very similar to us if we did not have language. Ego is the capacity to make differentiations.

that is a thought, a concept, an idea. Silence your mind, look inside, open yourself to the bottomless space that is. that is reality. there is no other. Other is just ideas.

solipsism is the certainty that you will never, in eternity, leave your point of view, therefore, your point of view is absolute.

everything is a game of evolution. reality goes deeper into itself and for that it needs those unpleasant things that are the lack of love, suffering, hopelessness and evil. we are soldiers and we are here to give it our all, whoever doesn't do it is stupid, he will sink into shit no matter how much he tries to deceive himself

No, an ant colony is a single individual created by many separate parts. ants are like the cells of a human body, not like many humans forming a tribe

Animals have egos in the sense that they consider themselves a separate entity struggling to survive. that is, they have individual ego. but they do not have a collective ego, which is the one that most absorbs us humans. it is the ego transmitted by language and which focuses on social relationships. this is because a dog is an individual and a human is not. a human is a part/whole of a hive organism and their mind is connected to the hive mind. All the human effort to survive is aimed at social acceptance. the human without the tribe is a larva, he is dead. the collective ego is a highly variable entity. it can span a clan or billions. each individual carries within himself a part and together they constitute the entity, like serial computers. That's why it's so complicated to be human and so easy to be a dog

The absolute is Maya. the understanding of reality is silent, not conceptual. for example, understanding the infinity of this exact moment. or understand that maya is a creation of your mind. I, that is, you, am reality. there is no maya vs absolute. I am not talking about healing trauma, but about using it to transcend illusion. the illusion is not the form, it is the meaning that is given to the form. this meaning is what separates us, what binds us to the mind. But there is more than the meaning, there is the human bondage, this is real, and trascend it is possible. This is the real challenge understanding is to realize that you are a construction in infinity made by layers and layers of energetic patterns that are being executed at this moment. all the past, everything that conforms you, is running now. To understand this is the challenge, and I'd say it's almost impossible without psychedelics

@Squeekytoy if Jed mackenna didn't realize that the relative is the absolute, and that he's both of them, where did he arrives after so much spiritual work?

If he said that, he's completely wrong. Maya is me, and I can fully understand myself. Just give me time. He's talking in a relative sense and shows his understanding is very superficial

Many days a awake in the morning and i see the infinity in everything, others day, no. I can have a total breakthrough to infinity with 1,5 gr of mushrooms. The thing is to see that a peanut is just an idea, and as such it has an infinite depth, the same as a hydrogen molecule or anything else

Psychedelic are imaginary. All my life is imaginary. There is no difference between sober or high. The infinity is the infinity and that's it. The change between awaken and sleep build understanding. Life is pure Mistic.

I ve not problem with suffering, mostly humanity is and has always been drowned in that shit and much worse. what i was talking about is understanding. I know what the absolute is, and I know what the relative is. I just have to fit the two together. and the goal of this is to go deeper. nothing is going to happen spontaneously, you have to win every inch, otherwise you will be swallowed by shit, like most of humanity. Being human is a challenge that very easily turns into a nightmare

What is your opinion about this? Maybe AWake? https://www.facebook.com/photo/?fbid=10159647650719409&set=gm.2536191743312740

What is the difference between real person and bot? Sounds delirium

btw i just did 5 meo malt. I thought about all this negativity i was saying, and in the trip horror came to mind. a boy from the congo forced to torture his mother and all that human stuff. agony, torture, death. suddenly, everything opened up and I saw infinity and i was it. I spent 10 minutes dancing around my house saying: yessss yesssss. and laughing out loud. Hallelujah. understanding is not easy friends. Let's keep working

@Vlad_ In my opinion you should go in a more progressive, methodical and thoughtful way. This is a path that requires time, you have to increase your baseline little by little, your understanding of reality and your ability to let go of everything. Better to do a trip of 2 grams each week, and then increase to 2.5 if you see it as necessary, and so on. after having done 5meo several times, with 2gs a total dissolution can occur. you have to get used to it, understand what it is. I am at that point too. we are at an initiation point pulling towards intermediate. Thinking that you are already at the professional point is a mistake and you will be slapped for your audacity Or said in a simpler way: your balls are too far ahead of your understanding. you need years before you can do what you want to do. Don't be so hurry

Yea of course, the trauma is the door to infinity. If the maze seems impossible to solve, it is when you have to apply yourself thoroughly and understand deeply. rise above yourself. there is plenty of shit in human life, in fact, it is the most common. the understanding of this is very difficult, it cannot be done at the level of the ego mind. For my part there is no problem, I have a capacity for understanding and action to spare, but for most it is a nightmare with no way out

I know it, oh master, but it happens that sometimes I have very negative experiences with short psychedelics (5 meo DMT, malt), and existence shows itself as empty horror with no escape. then I have to go back to doing psychedelics again and infinity opens up, and I was wondering in the previous post why this is happening to me. I guess it's from trauma, since I watched my parents die slowly and horribly with little time interval when I was a teenager, and also my father was a horrible alcoholic. hence the experiences of horror, in which existence is absolute horror. I can say that it is not fun and that it takes courage to go back in there that same day. If I do mushrooms it is different, I find that horror and in the end it is traversed and I find myself as unlimited amplitude, unlimited freedom. this is because the trip lasts hours and I can intentionally penetrate the horror of existence. when horror manifests itself, it doesn't seem like trauma, it just seems that the ultimate reality is that: horror. I just had one of those experiences yesterday, even i use to them, they are very challenging, but it's the psychedelic path, and I'm going to go to the end. Lately, if i do mushrooms, it's easier to break that barrier of horror, let's see if it dissapear

@Yimpa so? You asked before so condescending, to say what?

Very interesting. Do you know if that guy kept using the substance?