Breakingthewall

Now I understand it a little more. It would be said that if the wonder is fully manifested, I disintegrate. you can't stand it. In order to have a dual experience, reality must be veiled. but why do this? what is the goal of this? How it works? but yes, as @Moksha says, maybe the real substance of reality is too intense to be realized all time. Btw, I'm looking the sea and never in all my life have I seen such beauty as right now. purity, perfection in every form

another time, much more deeper. this experience that is now, is a dance of freedom, of beauty, of love. It's all the love there can be, it's right here. that is the absolute. this now. and i don't understand it, not far . I just penetrated to the center of the thing, the heart that beats in this. alive, full, total. this moment is that, and that makes my tears come out and my humility increases the secret is to be able to say, truly, without reservations: I give myself, I give myself to this, to the now. completely. if you can do that, the now opens But it opens just a moment, because I'm not so able to give my self, so i create the barrier. It's a game, but I'm in love of the openess, and everyone would be in love if the openess happen at least 2 seconds. The pure wonder.

For example, now I am in a park. I have taken 3 puffs of marijuana, I was writing all that mess above, and I have started to observe, and click, this moment is infinite. it does not have limits. Shit, writing this and thinking about it, it's got them again. Everything is designed to lock you in the finite appearance. the problem is that the finite appearance is shit and the infinite glory, and it's extremely difficult to be in the infinite apperance. a strange game. I'm far of the full understanding of this, but I'd say that.shift from one side to another with psychedelics is the key the goal is to break the barrier between me and the experience and to merge with it completely.

Real or appear being real is the same. I'm not experiencing, I'm the experience. direct experience is reality. there is not an experiencer and a content that is experienced, there is the experience. It can appear as someone typing on a telephone or as the absolute void, it's the same, it's always an experience. without experience there is no existence, and as you can see, there is experience and therefore existence. absolute void is just as real as my phone. it is an experience. the absolute is experience and is total joy without limit, or total joy because it's no limit. that's what I am, only that if I identify with what is appearing now, they are all tribulations. a real shit. So I get out of this shit and I put myself in the point of view of being existence, which doesn't have a point of view, it's a point of view. It is this, now. So you have to break the limits that they have you locked in the character and become the movie. Difficult movement, a lot of attachment , traps What I want, and it's inspired by Leo, is to penetrate the structure of this, to understand it to the fullest. because without understanding you are trapped

money is a form of language. means: my work for your work. but some are too clever and speculate. little parasites

animals suffer to some extent, since duality is suffering. the more duality, the more suffering. animals are hungry or stalked and eaten, that is their suffering. but when that does not happen, I would say that they do not suffer at all. A fish in a coral reef is in nirvana. humans, on the other hand, are involved in a crazy game. Even usually no one stalks us and we are not usually hungry , the problem is that we are not individuals, we are part of a hive, and our mind is a running program at the service of the collective ego. Fragmented and in need of love, we look for it in our peers who are in turn looking for the same thing. a crazy puzzle extremely difficult to understand and solve. war, death, torture, slavery, marginalization, addiction, depression. the great dance of extreme human suffering, the human tides moving, synchronizing, creating a single being made up of billions. funny right?

Of course, it implies everything. Let's see, reality is absolute, right? is infinite, and is one. This is so, it is the Truth. and you are that. and me too because you and I are one. but it seems that it is not absolute, nor infinite, nor one. seems finite and multiple. How is it possible? easy. from the blow of the hammer on your finger. for the perfectly made appearance that you have a body that can be damaged by external agents. but that got obsolete and we have invented something more fun to create a crazy duality. It is not your body that is threatened, it is your mind. your self image. As a human you are not an individual who must survive in the jungle, you are an atom in a hive, and you need acceptance, love and belonging. and who should give it to you is the other, who is also in need of acceptance, love and belonging. craziness! fun! extreme suffering! we love it!

Let's say that direct experience is reality. if you don't feel your body, nor are you aware of the existence of your body, your body doesn't exist. It doesn't matter if you've taken 5 meo or spent 3 years meditating in a cave. if you feel great pain in your body, your body is there, it doesn't matter if you have smoked a triple dose of 5meo. the thing is that your body is a big factor in the creation of duality. so is the thought structured in a dual way. 5meo promotes the disappearance of the consciousness of your body and the disappearance of thought structured around the self. It seems to stop synapses in the frontal lobe. this promotes your realization of the absolute. but the game is not to realize the absolute because you don't have a body and thoughts, but to realize what this experience is, how this is the absolute disguised as relative, and open yourself to this moment, totally. Any other things are just curiosities, interesting realizations and no more

If it happens, you wouldn't realize the infinity anymore, you would realize the duality. 5meo makes you realize the infinite because it eliminates everything, it disappears even your body. If you were in pain, the appearance of finiteness would return. this way you can understand what creates the appearance of finitude and how

That's it. You are on the way to full understanding. something that I would say is impossible to stop. What kind of crazy wouldn't do this work knowing that it's possible to do it?

if you do 5meo you realize infinity. infinity is absolute by definition. and it is also existence without limit by definition, that is, infinite love, that is, God, that is, you, me. ok, so when the 5meo is over, do you move on to the relative? NO!!!! (as razard would say) you are still in the absolute, you always are, it is what you are, but it seems relative. You have to understand how this works, what makes it seem relative, how this appearance is created, why it is created, what are you as a relative appearance, what is the appearance of temporality. To understand everything. to understand the absolute

What is strangest to me about all this is becoming aware that my whole life has no duration. it is a thought of an instant that unfolds in depth to appear to be a time line, and that when it ends it will be obvious that it had never begun, nor elapsed, nor finished.

Yes, but you became aware of how you are creating the experience that is happening now? what you see, hear and feel? what is neither memory nor concept? Are you aware of how you create another person who approaches you and talks to you? How is that movement created? if you are, you are extremely aware

I've had that realization with psychedelics. I was standing in my room and I was fully aware of how and why this moment was been created, of what it is all about, I saw it as a dance of love of the infinite with itself. but im not aware of that now. I'd like to get closer to that level of consciousness while sober, that's the real work. maybe not get there, but be as close as possible to that.

@Kingston Do you still realize that you are creating the reality? Or it's impossible for you to see that now? Reading you I'd say you really realized in that moment.

The form is very real when it takes the shape of a hammer in the direction of your bone. If it's real or not is the same. For you is real. thinking that it is not is of no use. the key is to surrender to it. the present moment is the absolute, nothing else exists. this is infinity, this exactly moment. If you surrender to it you fill yourself with it. but it's not easy to surrender. Understanding how are you resisting and why is a key imo, but not enough. You should understand deeply too what is this illusion, and this seems pretty deep understanding.

I realize that I am the now of infinite depth, I see it more and more clearly and i feel the joy of the now more and more deeply. but I do not give up on it. I look for advantages, I avoid misfortunes. I need the others. I ve fear of many things, sickness, lonely, even i know that they are relative. I'm in motion, not at rest, so no, I'm not enlightened and I don't think I ever will be, but I'm trying to enjoy the most as possible, and for that, you must be the most open to the now as possible, give yourself to the now, be the direct experience without reservation as much as you can. And about understanding, I'd say I'm scratching the surface penetrating like 2% in the depth, so I'm not AWAKE neither. But i think that maybe, it's possible to be

i understand you more or less, but I don't see that it is an imaginary form, nor that the phenomenal is not real. Is it real if your imaginary form is put in a cage for life? Isn't it sane to try to prevent that from happening to you? People's problem is not insanity, it's sanity. people do what they do because unavoidable forces have pushed them to do it. Awakening for me isn't the realization of sanity, it's the total opening to the now, and you're not opening to the now for a good reason. because you have to fit into a puzzle that is humanity. this makes you have software running all the time, very deeply. This is within another software dedicated to avoiding misfortunes and looking for advantages, called survival, and it has its roots embedded in us very deeply, because it's matter is fear. letting go of absolutely all that and immersing yourself in the now is not easy at all .you are constantly creating a bubble made of mind stream that prevents it. For an operation like this, you need anesthesia (psychedelics), but maybe not always. There is zero doubt because it's obvious, you are the now. but then the bubble returns. at the moment in which you consider that there are others, that there are external agents that can harm or favor you. Then you are not the now anymore, there is you and the other, two.

We are the opposite than be crazy. We are the ones who search for the only real sanity

I also come from a crazy family history. all those stories are real, from a relative point of view. when you realize the absolute now and open yourself to it, they are still real, but category b. what is truly real is this and it has no stories that can affect it. seeing this really makes all the energy you were spending constricting yourself loose. this happens pretty fast. keep deconstructing, working on breaking down barriers, and the opening will happen.

thank you, I also appreciate your posts very much, I even read them from beginning to end ?

@RamPhoenix I have had maximum negativity trips with 5meo, the thing is, they were exactly the same as the wonderful trips with a difference. what basically happens is that reality appears to be an infinite ocean of nothing. If I'm watching the ocean, it's nothing, it's total horror. 1, I am stuck in existence only for eternity, immobile. 2, I am nothing, I am death. but if I do not observe nothing but become nothing, the thing is the opposite. I encompass the infinity, because i am the infinity. I am unlimited total freedom. the infinite nothing is the infinite everything. an endless stream of existence. As in the other experience, I am alone and condemned to exist eternally, but I am not alone because my infinity is the opposite of loneliness, and there is no condemnation, there is perfection and total joy, without fissures, of existing.

Exactly, but the difference between having an experience of absolute infinity and not having it is the difference between seeing or not. You have to understand that not everyone will have this realization by taking drugs, it will only happen if you are predisposed or looking for it by doing constant deconstruction work. once you have had this experience, the moment passes and you lose it, but it is the difference between being blind forever or being blind and seeing for a minute. then you are blind again but you know what it is to see, and this makes you want to see constantly and take the necessary steps to make that happen, because, if it was possible for a while, what prevents that it's impossible now? you have to understand what processes occur to keep you asleep. if you have never woken up, it is impossible. to understand it is necessary to go from asleep to awake and back to asleep, several times. this promote the understanding, and understanding deactivates the walls that keep you tied but psychedelics not only do that, they also make your mind more flexible, cleaner, they bring to the surface all the negativity, all the bad habits, and they give rise to a quick and real transformation.

@Carl-Richard @Yimpa sure he was suffering but he said that his motivation to seek the truth was the truth itself, not to solve his suffering

@ZoweeZoe It's a very strange thing and it's impossible to understand until you get through the "cut" . you get into spirituality because there is a distortion, something in the software that you are running that squeaks. a dissonance that you carry with you everywhere. you have to align your software, align yourself, but from within the software it is impossible, you can do certain psychological strategies but no more. and if your distortion is great, as is often the case with those who are attracted to spirituality, they will not work. So if you are intelligent and have good instincts so as not to be fooled by yourself , you will see that the path is to gradually deconstruct your mind, go in the direction of cleaning this exact moment of the distortion that you are constantly creating. until one day the present opens up and you realize that there was no path, you have always been here. this , now. and the depth of this extends to infinity. but this does not mean that you understand, only that you can begin to understand, so this is the cut, where the psychological suffering ends and the understanding begins