Breakingthewall

Imo it doesn't work. the problem with meditation schools, like Vipassana, is that they do things by force. his idea is: the problem is thinking, so we have to stop thinking and we will do it for my balls. the question is: why do you think compulsively? that forces you to constantly interpret reality, to label it, to project yourself into the past and the future? it is anxiety. If deep down in your psyche the vibration is anxious, trying to stop thinking will be like stretching a spring. you can do it for a moment, but its inertia will be to return to its position. you have to go to the bottom and understand the mechanisms of attachment and rejection that have created the illusion of separation and with it your entire psyche, face them and unravel the labyrinth. become a being without a psyche. I speak in theory because I am not at that point. I am at the point of deepening day by day, understanding and seeing how anxiety is diminishing and with it the mental noise. meditation is a practice that helps, but it alone is not enough

you have to go deeper into yourself. the first step is daily meditation. You drink to calm your anxiety. your anxiety is the distortion between what is and what should be. This distortion is the product of the illusion of separation that manifests as a lack of love. You need love. You think you'll have love when things are as they should be. they are not, and the distance between those points is pure anxiety, a void of love that is filled with addiction. seeing all this is not something that reason can achieve, you have to get to the bottom of yourself

solid and worked criticism. many valid and real points. but I have many doubts about many things. first thing, the word "teacher" . For me Leo is not a teacher, he is a guy who delves into reality and explains his findings. These hints can be useful for you on your way. I guess if you take the course he's talking about, he'll be a teacher, but he's not for now. second, traditional spirituality. I have the feeling that absolutely no one frees himself from the trap of the ego through any school of traditional spirituality. this may be wrong, but I can't help but think so. As you say, the goal of spirituality is liberation, not knowledge, since you cannot know infinity. but maybe if you can understand it. one thing is to cover and another to understand its mechanics. more and more it seems to me that without understanding there is no liberation, and without psychedelics there is no understanding. psychedelics are essential to be able to delve into the structure of reality, to understand it and thus stop being trapped in the trap of the ego. For liberation there must be understanding, and in this Leo is the pioneer. no one else tries to understand or explain what they have understood. lastly, his unloving attitude. It seems that he is a rather lonely guy, not at all gregarious by nature, who despises everything that is belonging to a group, feeling accepted, etc. and that is very noticeable when interacting with him. It seems that he has the typical superiority complex of a smart nerd who did not feel accepted in childhood for other kids less smart than him. and that shows, it makes him a bit poisonous in interaction with people, the dumbs. but hey, that's his problem, no one is perfect. And i think it's an advantage. It keeps him far of the sectary temptation. if what we want is to free ourselves, his work is of enormous help. That's enough And 4, the environment in the forum. What do you expect? A group of truly awakened people? Not today. Maybe one day.

depends. if she's a adolescent-minded woman (she can be 18 or 45), she'll find it attractive. adolescent I mean focused on liking, experimenting, hedonism, a certain narcissism. if she is a woman of mature mind, focused on giving, family, love, she will find it disgusting. Today we live in an adolescent, narcissistic, immature society. this is not intrinsically bad, it has positive things, others not. so, more and more people will see it as something positive

in the end everything is reproduction. females have intrinsic value because they are a reproductive receptacle. its value is its body, its genetic quality. man does not have intrinsic value, he has to demonstrate his value, his ability to bring his offspring forward, to guarantee their survival, to create individuals capable of surviving. from all this evolves an enormous courtship dance that is the human society.

@flyingwhalee if i where you, i would do a breakthrough of 5 meo DMT. It's going to reconfigure your energy patterns. Try first some small doses and see how you react.

Sure you could dry it. Simply left it open until it's totally dry

a while after that message, I wanted to do a test. since the previous time it was hard, I put a small amount, like 6/7 mg. a tiny line, close to invisibility. when it started to go up it was something like 22mg of 5meo dmt in intensity, maybe more. not enough for a total breakthrough but very close. I saw all of reality as an image in my mind about to fade. Suddenly I saw the misery of human love, its conditionality, its falsehood. the love that is given in exchange for something. The almost impossibility of a real human love, because humans have layers and layers of selfishness. I realized the hunger for love that I have as a human, the need to love and be loved. an enormous sexual impulse occurred, that need for love sublimated in sex. the trap that is everything. The difficulty of being selfless, almost impossible. The misery that human life is. It doesn't send me to infinity, but was not far. the effect lasted almost an hour. I think that if it had been 25 mg it would be an overdose like snorting 70 mg of 5 meo dmt, Maybe really dangerous. Be careful with malt, it's extremely powerful

Exactly, good explanation. But the problem imo is that the thing goes very deep. there are many layers and awakenings are necessary. It is not enough to realize that you are not, you have to realize that you are. And it's not enough to realize once with 5meo etc, you have to be open to what you are always. If not, you always will be attached to the need of human love.

Not agree, the essence of meditation is detachment. what happens is that many meditators strive in concentration and get a forced silence. that silence is worth nothing imo. detachment is realizing that all your mental paraphernalia? is absolutely nothing, software that enslaves you with no real substance. once you see this you can meditate walking down the street. reality takes on color, depth and beauty, and loses meaning. you are in wild territory, without handles for the mind, where life and death are the same

Yeah, i guess so. Working on it

As I told you before, I have little experience with malt, I only did it twice, but it seemed completely different to me. 5 meo dmt takes you straight to infinity. It doesn't matter if you're in a bad mood, in an uncomfortable place, any set and setting. malt, the first time it made any dirt in my house unbearable. As soon as the effect wore off, I spent two hours frantically cleaning. the second time, with only 12 mg snorted (this in DMT is really weak dose), I had a horrible experience. I was dating a girl, I knew she would want a relationship, I made it clear that I don't, even so we date for sex. deep down it was not something fair. well, as soon as the malt hit me, the whole reality was: break that relationship immediately. the feeling increased until it reached a point where my whole being was concentrated in a point of anguish. I left my house (difficult) and I staggered down the street walking nonstop, suffering greatly for an hour. I thought I could have a heart attack and I didn't care. I just wanted the punishment to stop. wtf! As soon as I could I put an end to that unbalanced relationship and since then something tells me: no casual sex. bad idea. impure. We'll see what happens the next time I do it, maybe I'll be forced to give all my money or something...that's why I never tried again. this is my experience, a bit strange. 5 meo dmt is completely different, totally clean, no meanings or ideas, just infinity

@EmergentUniverse i think it was an interesting question.the problem is that few people have made malt. I did it 2 times, and I see big differences. I do not understand why they have closed the thread, it is a subject that has not been discussed at all.

If your mind were perfectly empty, there would be no time, only the eternal present. time is an idea of the mind. for animals there is no time, only the present. They are in the Garden of Eden. humans are in the hell of the mind, and we build time and all the other crazy egoic paraphernalia.

It's so simple that seems stupid. you suffer because you are causing yourself suffering all the time, it is a kind of energetic mismatch. you simply have to get to the bottom of the thing, understand what you do and how you do it, and stop doing it. You have to understand that absolutely everything depends solely on you. you are the executioner and the victim. Saying this doesn't make any sense, you have to see it, but I guarantee you it is. There is no more suffering than the one you inflict on yourself. if you stop doing it, the suffering disappears. There are no more chains than those that you yourself create. do not think about this because you will not get to see it with your mind. just go deeper, understand, deconstruct the walls. play the ego game and pass the phase. Free yourself.

I think you shouldn't commit suicide, you have to keep trying. But having said that, I think that not committing suicide in case this has consequences in reincarnations, is a meaningless story. If you kill yourself, it's because you were here to kill yourself. but since we are here, let's accept the challenge. the challenge is to be present and absolutely happy in a hospital with terminal cancer, in a nursing home, in a Nazi death camp. Let's try to play the game, it is exciting and it is possible to finish it successfully, and if it doesn't happen, we are trying. Suicide is cowardly. you have to keep playing. But if you're not going to play and you're going to be complaining, it seems better to opt for suicide

@amanen a truly incredible, inspiring and profound list. I would like to ask you: how do you explain solipsism? For me this is the most elusive. Let's see, you say: in this dream there is this, in others Dream, other etc. then, there is this dream and other dream. there will be in the future. this is incomprehensible to me. there is no time, everything is now. On the one hand, my perception is that only I exist, you are in my imagination, my pov is absolute. but in other hands, everything that can exist, exists. everything has a pov, there are infinite povs now. is solipsism same that infinite povs like everything is the same as nothing? what is your perception of solipsism?

I have not experienced that. What I have experienced is that the void is bottomless. having no bottom it is infinite, and then it realizes itself. the total infinity, that is, you, realizing yourself, reveals itself as absolute freedom. That freedom is absolute joy. instantly this makes everything that can exist, exist. infinite creation is simultaneous and inevitable. as if it were a physical law. the lack of limitation of the void creates god, who is the void itself perceiving its infinity, and this infinity is omnipotence, total freedom. total freedom is a cry of infinite joy, infinite joy, infinite love, creation of everything. the infinity of creation is beyond the imaginable. It is not that God wants to experience things little by little, it is that everything is always, out of time.

existence manifests itself as absolute good the moment you stop having desires. as long as you have desires, everything that goes against those desires will be evil for you.

@Razard86 @Razard86 man, let's see, I read your publication and I understand one thing: you have to love your avatar unconditionally. what I get from there is that you have to stop comparing yourself, imagining flaws, etc ... typical of self-help. did I misunderstand your message? maybe. simply, as this is a forum, I read it and think about it. and I think that is not the realization of God. and that's it. as I see that any criticism bothers you so much, in the future I will read what you write and I will keep my opinion to myself

This is some sense is true, the need for survival is the primal instinct. As a social human, your survival depends on being accepted by others. If the clan expels you from the cave, you are dead. you need not only to be accepted but to be loved, to succeed, to prevail, in order to have more possibilities of an effective reproduction. this is basic. It is the first thing that you must transcend. the social ego trap. but this is only the beginning. once this is absolutely indifferent to you, when you master the subtleties of the unconscious psyche, you are still at the beginning. this is not enlightenment, it is not the silence of the mind. Maybe It doesn't matter to you whether you're handsome or ugly, but it doesn't matter to you if they crush your bones with an iron bar? As the hsing hsing ming poem says, as soon as you create the slightest distinction, heaven and earth are infinitely separated. if you want to enter the territory of the divine, for you it must be the same to make love as to be crucified. this is impossible...or almost. That's what psychedelics are for. it is you who has not read carefully what I wrote, only from the susceptibility of a vulnerable ego.

Id say you didn't understand. There is no avatar, the avatar is just something that you believe exists and that is separate from what the avatar is not. the avatar is a creation of the ego. the you that you have to love unconditionally does not differentiate between the avatar and the rats that devour its guts while the avatar is screaming. what you are is the whole movie, not just the protagonist, and if you want to love yourself unconditionally you have to also love the bad guys in the movie, not just the good guys. love your enemies, you know.

Exactly, when for you it is absolutely the same that the rats eat you alive that make love with the woman of your life, then you will have it. although it is not as easy as it seems, the human attachment is strong

What has been the effect of deeper awakenings in your life? translates into greater freedom? higher level of consciousness as a baseline? more happiness?

I just watched your video about God Realization a while ago. Indeed, I have not had such an awakening, to see how I am creating reality right now, my memory, my psyche etc. whenever I have done 5 meo and it has sent me to infinity, it has been a moment. my human attachment is still strong, although every day less, very quickly it grabs me. but if I have realized many times the infinity and I have become completely infinite. that infinity has stayed with me, it has changed my psyche. I don't know things, like I'm forming my hand and stuff, but I don't see that it's crucial to know that either. I think knowing is from the ego. once you have become infinite, you know that one thing is the same as another thing. It doesn't matter if you are a god, if you have created your parents, if there is only one pov or more, if there is reincarnation....all that is ego, the only thing that matters is being able to detach yourself from the human in order to be infinite. knowing things is attachment. it is ego. what is it for? if it is infinity. Maybe to know those things could help to the total freedom, in that case, welcome