Breakingthewall

Agree, insanity is a relative concept. In an absolute level, there is nothing like sanity/insanity

Infinity means that everything is infinite. Finite is only an appearance. A proton have infinite depth. The limits are just a perception. A finite universe just seems finite, but it's substance is the infinity, and any piece of infinity is the entire infinity. That's why they say reality is a dream. The finite universe is just a dream of god, in the sense of it's just an appearance, a mental construction

What do you mean with conciouss 24/7? There are many levels to be "conciouss" .Could you explain the process that led you to that? what psychedelics? how often? how much meditation? I can free myself completely doing 5meo, but what is the use of being free 5 minutes a month? I want to be free all the time. I want to be a hole to infinity, not a limited ego. It doesn't make any sense to be, there's nothing there that interests me in the slightest. only freedom is worth. Is it possible?

I don't know. Here for me there is a problem with the timeline. you are the absolute void that it is, and you are creating this intricate movie because you want to and you can. for expression, love and play. death is an illusion in the sense that life as you perceive it is too. what you are is neither born nor dies. So saying when you die doesn't make sense because "when" is a creation, a special effect. all reincarnations are now, everything is now. in my opinion, when you die the entire cosmos dies. We all die at the same time. all lives in this universe are simultaneous and end simultaneously, the timeline is a fiction. when your particular movie ends, it's the big blackout, the end of this universe. time to start another work of divine creation I guess. a cosmos of eons and trillions of galaxies is a breath of god. the power of infinity goes beyond any idea. what we are is more than we can imagine. The difficult thing to understand is: why for me the reality i this pov right now? my perception is that what you are is a limiter that limits infinity to your concrete experience, with which it could be said that your pov seems to be the only thing there is because it really is ... but on the other hand this is not the case . I don't know if this can be understood mentally, they say yes, let's see.

In those circumstances I would try to fight. Who knows if help shows up at the last moment, or if I kill a wolf and the others get scared, or whatever. But if I'm old and have terminal cancer, and I've been feeling like it's the end for months, I'd kill myself. or at least I hope I have the courage to do it, and not pathetically continue receiving treatments and generating suffering around me without any hope of recovering

The catastrophe is very common. if you persist in your stupidity, you become more and more stupid. you get older and stop being a promise to be a pathetic adult lost in thoughs, in the mind. full of fear, neurosis and suffering. your relationships are superficial, you live in the mind and there is no depth in your life, just evasion . later you are even older and your health fails and you live in the black terror of death, the black depression of loneliness, despair and anguish. in other words, in hell. So you've lived a life that would have been better left unlived. A catastrophe

all that is true, all addictions, evasions, impurities, must be eliminated. The impulse to serve others has to arise naturally, with your work, your business, your life, whatever. you have to be absolutely fine with yourself without needing to fill your mind with anything. You have to be able to spend days alone and not need to escape. you should not see any content for entertainment or evasion, only if you are really interested. You have to eat perfectly, what is necessary, the best. nothing else. You have to exercise your body so that it is at 100%. why less? but before all this, you must have realized what you are. this is achieved with psychedelics. without them it is very difficult. what you are will guide you on the path of purification and balance, joy and love.

human life is like a difficult game. you have to learn to play, a little every day, and become a master. If you don't, you'll get stuck and wallow in shit more and more until you die. just accept the challenge. Don't do so is a guaranteed catastrophe.

Of course, it's just my impression. We could equally say that the act of committing suicide is precisely what you wanted to experience. And indeed, if you do, it's because you exist to do exactly that. In fact I think that in some circumstances, like terminal disease, it's a perfect way to go out, really brave and elegant

There is a thin line between don't force others and others forcing you. For your family, the best that you could do is to be strong, coherent. An example of integrity. Not a weak man that wants to be nice with everyone and sometimes explode in anger

suicide seems like a bad thing because you, as an existence, as the void that you are, aka god, have chosen to live this experience. with all its nuances, all its content. so, when things get ugly, even horrible, with maximum suffering, als, terminal cancer, whatever....you have chosen that. then, you, the avatar that you really are, should give your all, and endure your ordeal. you want to experience that. you want to be crucified. if you escape... I don't know if it's a punishment, but seems a disappointment.

it is completely realistic. what takes you away from the joy of being is your mind. realize what your mind is, understand in depth how it acts. detach yourself from the mind, and that's it.

The attacks of anger are usually a symptom or manifestation that you subconsciously feel dominated, forced, obligated, to do things, to have a life that is not your choice. They are usually a cry for help asking for freedom. maybe you live in an environment where everything is compulsory, you are corseted, you cannot express yourself, say what you want, do what you want, be you. the remedy is to free yourself and be the master, the boss, the god, the total tyrant of your life down to the last millimeter. then you see no reason for something as dumb as anger. you are sitting on your throne looking benevolently at the world you have conquered. you need a lot of ball, that's true, but what else you could do? be an idiot?

I would say that insanity is the destructuring of reason. you keep reasoning and your mind still has content, but that content is not organized in a structured way, it is chaotic. you are lost and cannot establish cause/effect relationships that work. This leads to more and more confusion, until the mind works in a random way, creating thoughts and emotions without logical structure.

Yes, the thing is not about to listen the voice or be silent, it's about to truly realize that all the mental paraphernalia is nothing. As long as you believe you can understand reality with your mind, it doesn't matter if you discipline yourself to be silent for several hours a day. It will be a tense silence, with subconscious activity in the background. but when you really see the mind for what it is, then even with mental activity you can be in a meditative state, because you don't cling to the mind. you know it's a false grip

@amanen if you want to show some would be a pleasure to see them

It seems that no one here has realized that the ego is suffering. more or less intense, but essentially suffering. the ego is a ghostly vampiric entity that overlaps reality to promote the evolution of the species at the cost of promoting suffering. the materia the ego is made of is anxiety. and your struggle as an ego is to minimize anxiety. but this one will always catch you. You will think that you have overcome it by egoically projecting yourself into a future without anxiety, but this is an illusion. in the present moment you are an ego that escapes with stories and is made of moving anxiety. movement from past to future, imagining a fictional cosmos

in my experience, once you realize that the content of the voice is indifferent, most of the time it is like that, a kind of meaningless background noise. unless you focus on something practical and the voice acts as a problem-solving tool, which is what it is for. the rest of the time it is not silent but it is in a kind of stand by, and with 10 minutes of meditation it becomes silent. the key is the real understanding of what the voice is. the voice is superficial, and above all, the content of the voice is not you. confusing reality with the content of the voice is the problem that all humans have, once you get out of there you realize how obvious and silly it was, but when you are attached to the content, you can not see it

When you meditate, it happens that you see that the inner voice is a ghostly entity that is superimposed on the experience that is happening. you are meditating and you feel the temperature, the light, your breathing, and that is what there is. and that's it that is the total, absolute reality. nothing else exists. anything else you are inventing, it is a creation of your mind. this is very shocking and difficult to maintain since you have created a huge and elaborate mental world, but that does not exist, they are only thoughts. the act of thinking is real, but not the content of thoughts. You have to get to see this, beyond the voice of the mind. the voice is real, it is happening, what the voice says is completely indifferent, noise. once you stop paying attention to the voice in the sense of believing what it says, the voice starts saying unrelated things, like: my mother went and then the car and her grandfather then the pride and the trees.... like this all the time. this is the step before the voice is silenced. when silent, you are free.

The guy invents everything . I started one of his books and left it when I read that he said that the consciousness of the world had risen 20 points in 1987, and that this had not happened for thousands of years

interesting. It was the first psychedelic that I used and it is really shocking, its strength is enormous, but the sensation is negative, it has a demonic flavor. you stop being yourself completely, that's true, and you become a kind of strange nightmare. then you come back and it is true that there is a feeling of: I have ceased to be me. By the way, what other psychedelics have you used as a tool in your process?

I remember well eren eager. I have thought many times: here is a guy with a palpable, fast, real evolution

life is suffering because as humans we come equipped by default with an ego son of a bitch whose mission is to create unhappiness. in fact, it is unhappiness. and if you let him loose, he can drown you in oceans of unhappiness. we are born with a parasite that we feed with tons of information, and that has us by the neck, by the balls and with great force. Go alone to the desert for a month, so you will get to know him up close. you will see how happy you are

In my experience , no way . There is a wall very hard, perfectly constructed, an immovable barrier: you. You are the enormous obstacle that prevents reality from manifesting itself, and without a magic pill that makes the dog guard fall asleep for a moment, not even God passes by. when you sleep the guard dog that you are and infinity is, you realize the solidity of the door. you can break it a thousand times it comes back. And when the wall is there, you only see the wall, no matter how much you know what is behind it. the mechanics of the self are masterfully constructed. you have to be extremely perceptive to start any deconstruction

@newbee It is not about justifying the violation. obviously we all work on a relative level and I don't justify anything on a relative level. What I am saying is that if we want to understand what we are, what we are is absolute. this is so and that's it. the rape is you, and the massacres of wars and all, and ultimately not even, since they are illusory. it's all illusion, and you're creating it right now. this is not a joke or new age religion, this is reality. So, if someone comes to me telling me I'm stupid for having those ideas, I tell them: they're not ideas, it's reality, direct experience after deconstructing the walls that separate me/other. and he answers me: you are parroting, etc... like that, because it seems that way to him, without giving the benefit of the doubt... it shows that he is a close mind. But of course I'm not justifying anything wrong. Opposite, i can't bear even the slightest lie.