Breakingthewall

I'm not focusing in my fears but in how to realize the absolute in the deepest possible way, because it is absolute beauty.

you assume many things without knowing me at all and you put yourself in a position of superiority, as if you were a teacher, which is very funny. idolizing leo gura does not make you leo gura

What do you try to say? That you are very advanced? We already know that. So, if that's clear, we could talk normally. Yes, everything is imagined, but i live in the relative and i can't realize the absolute unless i do a psychedelic, so I'm trying to understand the obstacles that avoid that i realize the absolute at will. Well, i can at will, doing psychedelics. Yes , psychedelic are imagined. And everything else .

Great report. deep truth. I also notice a huge difference with mushrooms after doing 5meo many times.

With Absolute state i meant to be in a state where there is no ego or bias

That's all good, but as a human I go after what I want and run away from what I don't want. the ultimate reality is the infinite total absolute, which is absolute perfection and that is what we are, but I do not live in an absolute state, since I am human. I want my business to succeed, I want to have the best possible people around, I want to be away from toxic people, I want to have the best possible health, I want sex, I don't want to live in material poverty, if they tell me I have a degenerative disease, I might get a gun and blow my head off, and this will all be absolute perfection. the same as gang rapes or burning 8-year-olds kids alive with gasoline.

Man please, we know all that, but we are talking about what are the obstacles to realize the absolute, an understanding exercise. Why do you think death is a so big demon? Maybe not for everyone

Im not talking about demons, i meant that if you want really realize the absolute, you must eliminate even the slightest preference from yourself. If you prefer to live than die, you will not realize the absolute, or if you prefer to keep your hands than have them amputated. you have to come to a complete resignation. but taking a psychedelic you realize the absolute completely without the need for this. I'm not talking about being happy or erasing your trauma, but realizing the absolute

I don't know because i didn't do that, but it is what the mystics of all times have tried. Maybe some of them got it.

many have understood and tried. living in a cave, depriving himself of any comfort, sleeping on a bed of nails, fasting for a month, etc. works up to a point it seems, but well used psychedelics work best and you don't need to torture yourself

good understanding, there is no yin without yang. the problem is that it is almost impossible to abandon preferences, and as soon as you prefer one thing over another, as the poem says, heaven and earth separate infinitely. For the glass to be truly transparent, for you it has to be the same as your children being tortured or having Christmas dinner with your family. Quite difficult, but to jump that difficult step, we have psychedelics, which make the opaque transparent without having to renounce being human.

Would you get to see the beauty in a group rape of a 10-year-old girl? The problem with life and why people darken and, as you say, become opaque in the light of the absolute, is the darkness of life. It is a difficult enigma to understand, but possible. But it's not a good idea to underestimate it's difficulty

I would say that the understanding of reality that he exposes is authentic but limited. his explanation of the collective ego, of what a human is and how he creates lasting energy patterns based on social interaction is quite good. what it doesn't explain at all is how to reverse those patterns. He says that one day he woke up and was free of all mental rumination, but that doesn't happen to anyone. He seems sincere when he talks about it, but you never know! there is money in the game, and lots of it

I'm right and you're wrong. I know well your realization, the total existential horror. You're alone stuck in eternity. There are no words to explain this. the problem is to find the balls to return to it several times. the solution is 5 meo. this is very difficult with only lsd, but if you do it with 5 meo, then with lsd it happens. the thing is: infinity. your realization is limited, it is limited by emptiness and loneliness. when these barriers are broken, the absolute will occur. then you will see yourself standing up with open arms screaming yeeeeeeesssssss. Hallelujah. the total, absolute, infinite, unimaginable, unthinkable. the total power of total freedom: god. You have hit the jackpot.

what you say makes sense, the first time i had a full psychedelic trip, my realization was that i was existence and i was trapped in existing for all eternity. an absolutely negative feeling, of existential horror. but then I did more complete breakthroughs again and what happened is that I had to break that last barrier, in which I was really still myself, and that the absolute total infinity was. This is the exact opposite of existential horror, it's total freedom, absolute power and something so positive it's infinitely positive, so if I were you I'd keep pushing

That's right, and if you look at life you will see that it is completely ruthless and cruel, so why would it be different in humans? yin and yang, life has a glorious face and a horrible face. the joy of existence, the fullness of love, and an 8-year-old boy forced to torture his mother with a knife to death. birth, joy, love, fullness on the one hand. pain, agony, suffering, torture, corruption and death for another. you cannot understand one without the other.

I have many genuine questions, but the only one who can answer them is myself, so I do not come here to ask anyone anything, because no matter how much wisdom they have, what they tell me will not answer anything. What I come to is to do a joint exercise of self-inquiry and understanding of reality. for me quite useful by the way

my experience in psychedelic trips is that reality is, let's say, fragmented. the real point of view is infinite, it includes infinite points of view within which there are infinite points of view, etc. that's me, but by some kind of trick I wear the blinders of a donkey and that makes my perception limited to what appears to be now. if I take a psychedelic, the trick wears off and I perceive infinity. The hard thing to understand is, where is infinity now if I don't perceive it? It's right here, but my state of consciousness deceives me and makes me see what I see. So, what are the others? I am right now making a performance. Like a dance with myself. They are exactly as conciouss as me.

it is your subconscious rising to the surface. It is hidden for a reason, since at the time you could not handle it, and to hide it has created energy blockages. letting go of all that is the first part of the spiritual work. There comes a point where you do psychedelics and there's none of that. you begin to notice the effect and suddenly... infinity. you do not go through the trauma phase since it is integrated into the conscious and the mistic happens directly. This does not mean that the trauma is not traumatic, only that it is integrated into the conscious. You will receive waves of sadness in this process, but it is either that or the blockage

Exactly, total happiness, total freedom. the meaning of the expression: hallelujah

Very good explanation. The difficult part is the final part, this: Difficult or impossible to understand but it's the best explanation that i read. You could realize it, but you can't understand it, or at least i cant

everything is the absolute truth since nothing else exists, but you can carry out a constant fragmenting activity that makes it seem to you that reality is something that it is not, although it continues to be what it is. So, the more in that direction your constant mental processing is, the more distortion will be generated, the more confusion and suffering, which are also the absolute truth, but we want to avoid them because they lead to an experience of madness and existential horror called hell.

the only really valid requirement would be what is occurring in your direct experience now. the second, what has happened in the past, the third, the deductions based on this, but knowing that all this is just ideas, although useful to mentally process in a cleaner way, since it is inevitable to mentally process.

Really? You do well, integrity must be total

direct experience goes beyond that. It's not like: I have the experience of riding a bicycle, so I know how to do it. On the other hand, I have taken a theoretical course on flying helicopters and it is different. no, the theoretical course is also direct experience. Mental marturbation is a direct experience of mental masturbation. its content is irrelevant. there is no direct experience vs. reason, there is direct experience and nothing else, and everything, absolutely, is within your direct experience. "outside" does not even exist as an idea, it is non-existence, which does not exist. direct experience is this, the now, and it is reality aka god. is the absolute total infinite. This is awakening, to realize the now, the direct experience without outside, of unfathomable depth. Every time you think in terms of "outside" you are fragmenting yourself, getting into the dream, into deception. you can say: yes, well, that's very good, but the others really have a conscience. ok, you have to realize that your direct experience is thinking about others and what they are have conscience. they are just something within your direct experience, a concept. Is the concept right or wrong? it is indifferent about the reality that it is a concept within your direct experience, and nothing more than that. Different quality. Reality and idea inside the reality