Breakingthewall

@acidgoofy Speaking of which...I just had one of those experiences. Let's see, yesterday I did 5meo, breakthrough. empty, nothing, not horrible, just empty. Today I did it again, 20 mg vaped, total breakthrough, absolute void. nothing. death. the absolute ultimate reality is dead nothingness, the absolute is a funnel of horror. what we live in is a dead image on a background of absolute death. party!! ok, i do it again. Some time of awakening. I see it, the infinity that flows now. but he leaves right away, I did it too fast and the death ☠️ is still too fresh. Now I go down to the street to have a tea and see the sun. In an hour maybe I'll do it again, let's see if the fucking dead void opens. I know what's behind. I. Infinity. Now. it is absolutely challenging and exhausting but it's the price to open the illusion . all this is a hard work that I do for a reason: to perceive reality, the infinite flowing now. That is , me. every horrible break followed by a break where nothing opens makes my experience 24/7 clearer

Btw, i just read that 3 meo pce is a very dangerous substance. Maybe you should throw it and get some 5 meo

well done . I think you still have to go deeper. you are on the right path, you have to reach a point where infinity opens and total existence flows. all the intricate energy paths that make up your apparent being straighten out, control is completely relaxed. there is no you, only total reality, absolute joy. This kind of experience is very useful for two reasons. First, it opens the door to a joy, to a life, that was previously unimaginable. you lived in black and white and this is in color and 3d. and another, shows you that everything is here, in the present, in the only thing that exists. in you. this anchors you in the present in your daily life more and more, and this causes the traumas to be recognized for what they are, an energetic pattern that is happening now. the past is not real, it is now. and now you can fix it very easily if you understand what it is

@InfinityBeats Have you tried doing a complete breakthrough with 5 meo once a week approx? or alternate 5 meo and lsd, trip at night, so you have the day to do what you want, although with a little tiredness. Also, meditate for an hour every day. that is my project, although it is difficult for me to break through with 5meo, plugging or snorting does not work even if I do 35 mg. vaping yes... it will have to be vaped

Yes, I understand what you are saying, an experience is happening and that experience is perfect because there is no ego judging it as imperfect, and you consider that enlightenment. but there is a detail: you are the experience that is happening. you are the present moment. the experience is not happening to anyone, no one is the recipient of the experience. experience is movement, it is the infinite manifesting itself. you are that. spirituality=existence. The word work is very egoic, but in the end, the ego is the infinite manifesting itself. everything is a dance. You are not doing the dance, you are the dance.

For now it's always the same challenge, I do it, breakthrough and emptiness. it expands, encompasses everything, but there is nothing there, reality is dead emptiness. I am that. extremely negative. then I wait two hours, I do it again and the void opens. full awakening. I don't know why it happens like that. Sometimes the second is death too, a very challenging experience, but as i know, it's just a bad time Id say that the difference is that when it is death there is a self experiencing the void. when it is awakening, the self merges with the void, there is no body and there is an energetic discharge. Maybe i just have to increase the dose. 5meo is violent. It Uses violence to break your ego. if doesn't have enough power, you can't break it completely. though I'm not sure it's just this What about you? How did you get out of this? Happened again?

with mushrooms , reality is the infinite dancing with itself, making love to itself. everything is dance, harmony, beauty. It is perfection manifesting. it is an undulating, sensual, changing movement. Right now I am the manifestation of this, this dance taking shape. This perfect harmony is reality. intelligence, laughter, love. with 5 meo, reality is a well of endless depth. Everything is in that well. I am that. I am infinity, I embrace the totality, I have always been that. I recognize myself, my happiness is absolute.

You say that when you're a guy interested in spirituality, gone on meditation retreats, done psychedelics, etc. don't you see the contradiction? what happens is that you think that you have reached the goal, and the work is finished, when you have not really broken the final wall, where the true spiritual work begins, which has no end. If you had, you would understand what I'm saying. It is not the dissatisfied ego looking for a way out who wants to go deeper, that was the previous phase, in which the ego was trapped and sought to break its prison. there is no prison anymore, there is an endless present, but this present is of unlimited depth and it will deepen itself, not for dissatisfaction but for love for itself

Yes, sober or psychedelic state is qualitatively the same: the present moment manifesting itself. enlightenment is realizing that you are the present moment and that is reality. What happens is that if you are chased by a pack of hungry dogs and at the same time your appendix hurts terribly, it is difficult to realize that. the psychedelic radically changes the present moment but you are still you, it is always you. If the present moment is completely empty of content, its infinite depth becomes evident, and there what you really are is manifested. Right now, apparently something is happening. what is that something? That's where we have to dig deeper. imo it's not enough to just say mysterious things like this is nothing etc.

there is no noun without a verb or a verb without a noun, so it could be said that they are the same

both are imaginary. darkness is the same as cars or the sea, something you are imagining when it appears in your experience. nothing has reality by itself. Even the nothingness is imaginary

in my opinion human life is a puzzle to be solved, not a place of amusement. This is a work and quite difficult, to have fun there are the birds. human life has many layers, it is very complex, it is a game designed by a genius. reality is infinite, it is this present moment flowing without beginning or end, therefore, when this game is over, there will be others. how is the proccess? what comes next? is it imaginable? no idea.

Yeah, more than 3 arguments automatically implies trial by combat

You are supposed to meditate to get closer to the truth, that is, to lose the illusion that you are a human who has to have the best possible human life, with his memories and his stories, and realize that everything is the present moment

i am the infinite making love to itself, it's a movement, a flow. it's a noun because i am, but my nature is flowing . The noun is always moving, it's a verb too But yes, first is i i guess... difficult to say for now

the thing is: are you aware that right now you are the infinite making love to itself? And if so, how deep is your love? this is what it all comes down to god, as the bible says, is the verb. It is the infinite act of making love, which arises spontaneously due to the absence of limits. you are that eternal act. Understanding is a tool to deepen that act. the human kit is a very obsolete device and difficult for this purpose. It is full of obstacles that prevent seeing. we are emerging from the mud. That's why we have to use psychedelics. But well, psychedelic are part of the human device, maybe it have a lot of possibilities if it's well used. this is the game. let's play it thoroughly

but the goal of doing 5meo or psychedelics in general, at first, is not to realize things and then remember them, that's memory, ego. It is to thin out the barrier of space-time illusion that veils the reality of what we are, to see through it permanently. once this is achieved, the psychedelic trip no longer aims to break the deception, but to delve into the truth, for pleasure, beauty and understanding, since psychedelic trip is not different than sober state, both are just the reality . The difference is that in a sober state, a huge part of you is focused on the space-time illusion, on functioning and surviving.

Yes ,I could spend my life drunk, surrounded by prostitutes and snorting cocaine and that would be infinity. but the reality is that there is a movie that seems to be happening. I choose to get out of the movie and plunge into the present moment, and expand it, break its apparent limitation and realize its infinity. I am this present moment, nothing else exists. the whole movie is just a movie. but it's well done and it catches me, I can't get out of it, I can't get off the train. It is moving and does not stop. I want to stop, completely. so i vape 20mg of 5 meo dmt, which is nothing more than an illusion within the film, but it erases the film, stops the train. there is no longer a movie, there is an absence of limits, nothing more. absolute freedom of the infinite present moment. and I realize that I am that. Limitless depth...and then, you realize what you are. Absolute. Perfection. God. Hallelujah.

No, but it can do tricks. It can be you for a while, then me for another while, and when it's you, it erases the memory of being me, and vice versa. You, as a finite being, are your memory. At the moment that you are, only you exist, you are existence. but when you talk to me you are not talking to a robot, you are talking to yourself at another time and with another memory. a clever trick. At the end everything is a dream so doesn't mind. The thing is: only this present moment exists. It's the existence . Get deep in this moment, it's everything that exists, have existed or will exist . Everything else, you , the others, the things that are happening, are just nothing, images.

You are a door, a jail that imprision the infinity. Your mind is a very complex structure, with many layers, designed to keep you in the illusion of finiteness. it's almost impossible to break this without chemistry. and with chemistry it is not easy

just my opinion. since I have not seen in others understanding at that level. It may sound silly to you because you don't see the understanding that I have, but it is what it is. btw, I don't usually watch his videos. I have seen two or three. For what? they are just words. but leo understands infinity, the level of depth he has reached is incomprehensible, I would say. I would say that I have been in the point of Leo for some years ago, starting to get used to infinity. I understand what he's doing, although I am at a more initial point. of course, you are free to think that this is bullshit. I'd tell you that this is the way to get out of the prison of the mind, to expand to infinity and multiply your level of consciousness, we will see how far Again, I'd recommend you: become infinite. Many times. This is the way of understanding, freedom, evolution

It's extremely difficult to understand leo. I thought the same than flyboy said many times. He shows little patience with others, he has very little empathy, he repeats that he is the only awake person in the world, which makes many think he is crazy, he says incomprehensible things like that he wants to transform into a alien in front of the cameras, he is intimidating when he interacts with others, he likes to go to clubs to pick up girls, all that. but the reality is that leo has discovered the true awakening. Leo understands reality better than anyone. Sounds extremely stupid, but Leo is more awakened than Buda and Ramana maharshi ?. It's true, not a joke. That being said, don't believe Leo, but he can serve as inspiration and guidance.

@Jowblob there is an important nuance. God is not alone in the void. God is imagining the void. the void is just another experience, like having a coffee. there is no void, there is only god. If you have many times the experience of the void, you will understand

Exactly. This is something quite normal imo, since breaking human handholds is not a game, but this is not talked about much because this has not happened to Leo, I suppose because he is naturally especially detached. If nobody encourages you to continue, it is possible to stay at this stage, as it seems that it can happen to the op. He believes that he has seen the foundation of reality, the same as we thought. It also took me about a year to dare again with a total dissolution of the ego, and again it was the same. emptiness, absolute absence, horror. I had to do it 4 times until the nothing opened. once it opens, that's it. infinity, awakening . After that, the real thing starts. but you have to get there first

@Godishere It is incomplete, the same thing that happened to you with the tiles in the bathroom. I've been through that too, terror of emptiness, of loneliness. the last bastion of the ego. when you go through it, infinity manifests. getting stuck before is a mistake, subconsciously you are traumatized, it has been imprinted in your psyche that the foundations of reality are something very negative. you have to go through that. It seems incredible that being a human is such a complicated matter, but it is