Breakingthewall

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  1. Depending, sometimes it's better to do your will and forget any sign, but just my opinion, could be wrong Yes , play the game. The thing is: you live in an illusion of temporality overwhelmed by thousands of ideas, stimuli, desires, fears. spirituality is taking a step back from that. open yourself little by little to the now until you open yourself completely. you have to master the game, it is very difficult. you are the game, a trap to yourself. you have to take control of the game and not give it to others. there are no others, only you. not in the solipsistic sense, but in the sense that only you can be you. You are alone in your experience, for ever. If someone is with you, he is in your experience , but he never will be you. You are always you, so only you can do this. You are a kind of enigma, a puzzle. If you want to awake, you have to solve it. The thing is: do you want? Do you really want to open yourself to the now, open your heart, completely, renunce yo all your illusions, to your ego? I think it's the best idea possible. Over all because anything else is shallow, false. There is only one real way: the truth. But that is what you really want? Difficult with 19 imo, but if you can avoid some tons of shit and falsehood, better for you
  2. I feel the same, something tells me: toxic. I can only see this when I have already realize it directly, not before. then, if I see it, I take it as an interesting curiosity and forget it immediately. Real spirituality is opening yourself up. Opening up is what you need to do to eliminate the apparent separation between you and reality. It's not something you have to know, it's something you have to do. You have to give yourself to the reality. and once done, you no longer have to do anything. just be freely, without obstacles that limit you. This is the only happiness that exists, the rest is farce.
  3. Exactly. when time stops, reality changes from a linear configuration, like a chain of events, to a configuration in depth, like absolute being, or as you have said, the truth. by changing configuration, the way of understanding also changes. it is an empty, inarticulate understanding, impossible to preserve, it only works in real time. When time stops, this moment is eternal, and you realize it with total clarity. It's the limtless reality now . Id say that this is awakening, and id say that time is the essence of the illusion
  4. Maybe it's possible, but in a non-conceptual, non-logical or articulate way. that way it is impossible, it works on another frequency.
  5. If I were you I would forget the weed. It is very psychotic, more than other psychedelics. and it is very easy to abuse it. If your path is really inwards (which would be very positive for your life) read about spirituality, meditate, perhaps psychedelics in a very specific moments, but above all, do not conceptualize. don't make a belief system with god, infinity, solipsism, and all that. spirituality is like playing a sport. You are in the field, you feel the situation, you are present, you do it. You are not thinking about the ideas of how to play, what it means to play, why the human being plays that. no, you play and that's it.
  6. The solution to your problem is simple: forget the ideas. they mean absolutely nothing. If you are in this game of spirituality, you cannot formulate ideas as if you were a philosopher. or spirituality or philosophy. It is a mistake to have mystical experiences and then conceptualize them. mysticism is now, it does not belong to the mental realm, but it is life now, it is you. philosophy are conceptual systems, ideas. they don't make any sense, they're a hobby, and not much fun. 5meo opens you up to reality right? Well, just think about this: when I did 5meo, I opened myself up to reality. Right now I'm less open to reality. do i want to be or not? If yes, find out what prevents it. don't think about anything else. forget the words god, infinity, illusion, drop all that. you are open or not, and that's it
  7. Yes man, i am. Fuck!. Just now, here, i am in infinite deep. Could you feel it? You are me. Look inside yourself. It's bottomless. Abandon any resistance, flow in yourself, feel your plenitude. You are.
  8. My level in 5 meo is the level of Leo when he was starting many years ago. It doesn't means that in everything else he could be deceived. But probably he isn't And i use 5 meo to make an openess, because i use to have a wall in front of my face, but now seems that the wall is gone. Let's see. Yes, he's totally sane in appearance, more that sane, but there is a possibility that he has gone down a wrong path. the guy with good taste has twisted games. but on the other hand, he seems too smart to fall for something like that. although, again on the other hand, he looks... how to say it... trapped in himself. But again... maybe he's playing a game impossible of understand . Good movie to watch. Leo, we are waiting for the new season.
  9. more than that, a true enigma. your whole life is a puzzle that must be solved. it's a game. small doors are opening until suddenly, the real one opens. there you are, looking into the abyss of existence. you are that, you never went anywhere. always now. I wonder....maybe leo is playing deeper? It looks like he's gone crazy, right? but on the other hand....perhaps no one can understand him, and he is playing a game that no one else plays. phase 2. we will see
  10. the ancient celts went into battle naked, many native americans went happily to the torture pole. They seemed crazy, but the crazy ones, completely, are the current humans, striving to preserve the impermanent, a whole culture of billions erected on a pillar of madness, of fear. denial of death, deification of seduction and worldly pleasure, accumulation, power and falsehood. From childhood they teach you to build a wall to crash against it. A way that is a Guarantee to crash into a stone wall at full speed. Disaster. what we do is reverse this crazy conditioning, and with extreme difficulty and maximum intuition, return to the origin, to the now without attributes. To the real life. The eternal existence. Poor humans lost, trapped in suffering that can reach horrific proportions in old age and artificially prolonged illness. Thinking that they make a paradise, they create the true hell. as sellin water in the river says very well, that nice gentleman with good taste and wealthy knows how to play his game. Now he's laughing, the son of a bitch.
  11. That is. end of the bound state, a complete qualitative difference. They should teach this in school, but no, you have to go through the fun cycle of suffering to get out of there clean, forged. if not, you don't go out. that's how the game is made
  12. Exactly, a long and very difficult road, to get to where you were at the beginning. Where you always where: here and now. You. Well, test passed. a ton of shit released. freedom. now we'll see. to dive into beauty.
  13. if you try to capture god, what i said before happens. you lock yourself up. to open your hand is to give up knowing. knowing is like saving water in the sea, it doesn't make sense, it's useless, stupid, impossible. the reality is. you can only be. all you can do is to tune yourself in to what is. completely break the barrier. knowing is a barrier, it is greed. The mind has to be totally empty of knowing. The only knowing that is useful is about the ego, to manage to open it. The infinity can't be Known, it's in another frequency, the frequency of being, if you try to know it, you are in jail
  14. keep clinging to your little ideas and your fictitious structures of reality. It's your way of controlling. but you control absolutely nothing, you just keep hanging around on the surface. the miser has many strategies. Knowing things is one of the ways to keep you locked up. The question is: Do you want to get out of your jail, or do you prefer to stay inside? or put another way: are you smart, or stupid?
  15. there is the infinite vastness of existence, and superimposed on it, a beautiful drawing of colors. everything is pure beauty, perfection. only the greed of the self sees misery where there is plenty. it is extremely difficult to convince the greedy usurer to open his hand. He has an iron fist closed with a hydraulic machine, the bastard. You have to caress him and whisper in his ear: greedy bastard, open your hand, it's the best for you. if I already have it wide open! he will say . no, bastard, you have it totally closed. give him anesthesia with a psychedelic to make his greed manifest. everything is pressure, control, fear of losing what you have, absolute terror of opening your arms and letting go. deep, solid, encysted. the miser has to understand that with his attitude he gets absolutely nothing. upside down, lose everything. miser, you already have everything, but your closed hand prevents you from enjoying it. open it.
  16. Hallelujah brothers, because we are. and that's it. we have it all. we are what it is . we are the depth. we just have to forget the clothes and focus on the only thing that matters: being. form is utterly indifferent, pale and unimportant, compared to the vastness and wonder and sheer beauty of being. Bottomless. absolute.
  17. Sorry for insulting, i was insulting myself, because you are me, and i have been so greedy, caressing my treasure of bitterness, like a gollum caressing a piece of shit ?. human stupidity knows no bounds.
  18. It's not about not thinking, it's not about knowing, it's about not being afraid of being. fear is a wall in front of your face. Get over it and your vision will be infinite. Right now you are creating limits with your fear, you little coward. you have to throw yourself into the well, without reservation. without keeping anything for yourself, because you already have everything, you idiot, there is nothing to get. you have to open your heart completely. freedom. total surrender to now. How are you not going to give up to yourself? it's completely stupid. it's like robbing yourself.
  19. Hahaha no, I'm sober, psychedelics are just tools, they serve to understand the iron grip that you are imposing on yourself. control. Form. You have to spill yourself, break the glass. all this work deals with that. relax the hold, open yourself to the now for real, without any reservation. You will see the infinite right now. You will be the infinite, because you are! It's obvious. Fucking miser greedy coward ?
  20. There is not enlightenment, there is only being. You, now, are. Man ...that's everything. Shit, we are trapped in ourselves, like miserly misers holding back an infinite river, for fear that it will be spent. each one in his capsule of greed, caressing his treasure like crazy gollums. just drop it. Give it. break your greed, give yourself to yourself. You are holding what cannot be held. Let it go. now .
  21. Nothing else matters. Nothing matters. You are and you will always be. the form is indifferent, you are the eternal smile, the eternal flow, the total freedom. at the end, after all, I am without resistance. that's what it's all about. identify the resistance, look at it. is fear. Step over it, open up yourself. surrender. Don't be petty, give it your all to the now. open your heart completely to the now and say: I am. and you will flow
  22. dignity is absolute, the same as perfection. everything that exists is dignified and perfect, since the fact of existing entails these qualities. God is absolute perfection. all that exists is god. it is perfect, loved, worthy of existence. nothing is left out, everything is included. torture is dignified and perfect, child rape is dignified and perfect, slavery is dignified and perfect, genocide is dignified and perfect. reality is a perfect jewel. its perfection is dazzling, its dignity is total. Its love is absolute.
  23. Ha! That's powerful. Happy to see that you are is so good state.