Breakingthewall

the first time i tried malt it was the worst trip i ever had, i thought i could die of cardiac arrest for an hour. I managed to go down to the street to walk from one place to another in a state that was the same as when you do 5 meo and expand to infinity, but just the opposite. full contraction at one point. Now it is the substance that I like the most. mostly snort malt and then vape some 5meo dmt. I got it just when leo said it, then it disappeared and I think now it's back

I never heard anyone else talk about that experience. think of leo or amanem or many others who have made hundreds of maximum depth trips. everyone says that any negativity is ego resisting. do not underestimate how cunning the ego is to prevent its demise. Anyway, the only real test is go there again.

That of the heart did not happen to me, I had several experiences of being alone trapped in eternity, existential horror, then a total rupture to infinity, and then the total peace and joy of recognizing myself as what I always was, eternity without limits. I thought it would be impossible to forget that, but when the psychedelic ends, you forget it. well you remember but you are not. with a small dose of psychedelic I remember it again I think that the psychedelic path is always the same, many horrible realizations before the real one. After that, everything goes easy, or at least not so difficult

the fact that nothing prevents it

What I have seen is not that, it is that reality, being infinite, automatically manifests itself infinitely. right now the infinite is being, the finite is appearance, a trick, reality is now the infinite. You as a human avatar are the result of the apparent limitation of infinity, and the same with everything else. The paradox is that only you exist and only your direct experience is real, and at the same time the infinite is being as it always was. infinite dimensions within infinite dimensions infinitely repeated.

There is no delusion, there is exploration. The op is a is a true psychonaut, someone with a vocation for psychedelic exploration without underlying motives such as escaping suffering, etc., but only for the love of consciousness. their realizations are interesting, although only one's own realizations have value

Id say that Leo refers to the understanding of reality or god. many people, myself, have had the realization of our true nature, as it appears in the text you shared. the realization of what we are beyond form or time, the return to what always was. this seems to be the end of any search. what Leo says (I think) is that it is the beginning. This is what it looks like to me. The explanation of the "cosmic joke" seems very silly to me. a much deeper understanding can be reached. It seems that after years of continuing to delve deeper, Leo has realized deeper truth. interesting, right? I have that impulse to get to the bottom, and the psychedelic path works. you have to have intelligence and love for the truth, and courage btw

with a total dose of 5 meo your body relaxes completely. you realize that in your life you were never relaxed, there was always control. at the moment of breakthrough the control disappears completely. every fiber of your body, every energy channel, is aligned. then everything returns to normal, but a little looser.

For me, the problem with salvia is that reality takes on a demonic flavor. Every time I've done it, after two seconds I've remembered that taste and I've thought: oh no, I remember why I didn't want to do that anymore. it is as if the texture of reality completely changed its character, and everything is cutting, pricking, sharp, and it seems as if the very essence of reality is wobbling, breaking down, all accompanied by a howling and syncopated sound. You come out of there like after having ridden on a hellish roller coaster. maybe it's time for another trip

Suffering can be the first motivator, which makes you look for a way out and look inside yourself, but then the key is understanding (yes, what Leo says). we are locked in a kind of labyrinth, box, enigma, which is me, you. Understanding (non-conceptual, pure, direct comprehension) is what frees stages of this labyrinth. psychedelics are extremely useful because they deform the labyrinth, they allow you to see yourself from another angle, and this makes understanding happen. understanding is the absence of barriers. without any barriers understanding is absolute, then the barriers come back and understanding is lost... to a certain extent. with psychedelics you can fully realize the absolute. how this moment is being created, your body, reality. of all the layers of energetic patterns that form you, what you really are, what you have always been, with complete clarity. then the barriers return, but increasingly tenuous

I would try to remain humble. It's easy to fall into the pedantry of believing yourself to be a master who knows all the tricks of infinity when you're just taking baby steps, like everyone else btw.

I'm not focusing in my fears but in how to realize the absolute in the deepest possible way, because it is absolute beauty.

you assume many things without knowing me at all and you put yourself in a position of superiority, as if you were a teacher, which is very funny. idolizing leo gura does not make you leo gura

What do you try to say? That you are very advanced? We already know that. So, if that's clear, we could talk normally. Yes, everything is imagined, but i live in the relative and i can't realize the absolute unless i do a psychedelic, so I'm trying to understand the obstacles that avoid that i realize the absolute at will. Well, i can at will, doing psychedelics. Yes , psychedelic are imagined. And everything else .

Great report. deep truth. I also notice a huge difference with mushrooms after doing 5meo many times.

With Absolute state i meant to be in a state where there is no ego or bias

That's all good, but as a human I go after what I want and run away from what I don't want. the ultimate reality is the infinite total absolute, which is absolute perfection and that is what we are, but I do not live in an absolute state, since I am human. I want my business to succeed, I want to have the best possible people around, I want to be away from toxic people, I want to have the best possible health, I want sex, I don't want to live in material poverty, if they tell me I have a degenerative disease, I might get a gun and blow my head off, and this will all be absolute perfection. the same as gang rapes or burning 8-year-olds kids alive with gasoline.

Man please, we know all that, but we are talking about what are the obstacles to realize the absolute, an understanding exercise. Why do you think death is a so big demon? Maybe not for everyone

Im not talking about demons, i meant that if you want really realize the absolute, you must eliminate even the slightest preference from yourself. If you prefer to live than die, you will not realize the absolute, or if you prefer to keep your hands than have them amputated. you have to come to a complete resignation. but taking a psychedelic you realize the absolute completely without the need for this. I'm not talking about being happy or erasing your trauma, but realizing the absolute

I don't know because i didn't do that, but it is what the mystics of all times have tried. Maybe some of them got it.

many have understood and tried. living in a cave, depriving himself of any comfort, sleeping on a bed of nails, fasting for a month, etc. works up to a point it seems, but well used psychedelics work best and you don't need to torture yourself

good understanding, there is no yin without yang. the problem is that it is almost impossible to abandon preferences, and as soon as you prefer one thing over another, as the poem says, heaven and earth separate infinitely. For the glass to be truly transparent, for you it has to be the same as your children being tortured or having Christmas dinner with your family. Quite difficult, but to jump that difficult step, we have psychedelics, which make the opaque transparent without having to renounce being human.

Would you get to see the beauty in a group rape of a 10-year-old girl? The problem with life and why people darken and, as you say, become opaque in the light of the absolute, is the darkness of life. It is a difficult enigma to understand, but possible. But it's not a good idea to underestimate it's difficulty

I would say that the understanding of reality that he exposes is authentic but limited. his explanation of the collective ego, of what a human is and how he creates lasting energy patterns based on social interaction is quite good. what it doesn't explain at all is how to reverse those patterns. He says that one day he woke up and was free of all mental rumination, but that doesn't happen to anyone. He seems sincere when he talks about it, but you never know! there is money in the game, and lots of it

I'm right and you're wrong. I know well your realization, the total existential horror. You're alone stuck in eternity. There are no words to explain this. the problem is to find the balls to return to it several times. the solution is 5 meo. this is very difficult with only lsd, but if you do it with 5 meo, then with lsd it happens. the thing is: infinity. your realization is limited, it is limited by emptiness and loneliness. when these barriers are broken, the absolute will occur. then you will see yourself standing up with open arms screaming yeeeeeeesssssss. Hallelujah. the total, absolute, infinite, unimaginable, unthinkable. the total power of total freedom: god. You have hit the jackpot.