Breakingthewall

No, I'm totally different, It does not depend on DNA, it depends on the circumstances of your life. I have seen that same process in other people but not as pronounced. it's people who have been brought up telling them that they are super special, that the world owes them something, and then things have not turned out as in their fantasies and they have begun to see life as a scam and seek affirmation and revenge. they have an open wound and every word that comes out of their mouth is an attempt to affirm how special they are. they suffer a lot and have serious addictions, liars without the slightest honor, since honor means consideration for the other. Vampires, it's a strange phenomenon. absolutely unhappy beings, without love but in need of love. If they have some power, be careful. For example, in my house the two pets that we have they were sacrificed in less than a year, since they had come out "defective", not stable. Was true, they were terrified, crazy. Be close of that energy is a challenge.

Sure, i see quite clearly the perfect design of all that history to get exactly this experience. many times I have seen with total clarity that my father is exactly me, that I have created all this to get to where I am now. This is the formula I've been looking for to get this. Many coincidences, everything leads to here. Let's see what happens.

I know that, that's why I meditate many hours every day, to be absolutely present, empty, here and now, and why I did psychedelics a lot of times. I spend a lot of time in great happiness, in total openness to the now. but sometimes, like right now, that story catches me, I feel the hate, and I can't get out of the labyrinth. the trick is to take advantage of that energy to awaken deeper, but even so, I would like to have peace with that story, it is a difficult acceptance, but possible. Pd, crying like a baby, I know ??. I had a bad night. Ashamed for telling that crying

Yes, but it can be applied to me perfectly. my life is a difficult challenge in a certain sense. in the past I have been tempted to use spirituality as an escape. there is no escape, you can realize the infinity that does not matter, if you do not love the totality of your life, you will return to the labyrinth. In my case, I have my father floating in the air. abusive, my mother got sick and died and he mistreated her in her illness. then he actively try to make myself fall into an unresolvable depression, all subtle, little by little. he died in a very unpleasant way when I was 20 or 21, all that time is diffuse. he smoked 80 cigarettes a day when he was operated on for throat cancer at the age of 38, his idol was hitler, even though my mother was from a muslim country. He was very attractive and was a good pianist although he had failed at everything, due to family influences he was placed in the diplomatic corps. In 10 years he didn't learn a word of English, he insulted everyone but always had a cohort of admirers. He despised and hated my mother's country, I was educated in several languages but I completely forgot them, they were garbage languages. Every time I think of him it's like the devil is blowing on the back of my neck. my feeling is that his wish would have been my death from a degenerative disease. I don't know how to get this person out of my experience, how to love this .... aberration? sickness that walks? horror? It's an interesting challenge. In the past I was quite addicted to dangerous challenges, like some business, climbing, gliding, boxing, or crossing the Atlantic sailing with my girlfriend in a storm zone. when I was in a storm and in the middle of the night there was a problem and everything was mess, darkness, blows, I heard his voice in my mind: you're shit, you're useless. like a schizophrenic, auditory hallucination. always challenge, difficulty. that's life. It has a beauty component. But really id like some rest of that shit.

Really? I don't think so. Life is a challenge itself.

Bah bah bahhh, sex is nice, sure, but give me adventure, give me challenge, give me evolution, give me a good war to fight. I'm not a penis, I'm a man.

nonduality says what reality is not. is not two. Well, once you realize this, that's when you start to go deeper into yourself, that is, into reality. It's just the beggining Buddhism i would say that it point much deeper, to realize the essence of reality, to truly open to yourself.

I don't know, and I would say that no one knows. It is obvious that psychedelics enhance the depth in which one can perceive/understand/be. leo is a pioneer in this, since although it has been tried before, it has not worked with 5meo . He says he's gone deeper. it's impossible to know, only if your inclinations go that way, use him as inspiration

It is one thing to dissolve suffering and another to understand. Understanding is not conceptual, you understand by being. sober understanding can be very profound. there are moments of truly deep and clear understanding of what I am, of what reality is. this does not dissolve suffering if later I'm in the story. They are two different things. psychological suffering disappears with the total acceptance of what is. you can have total acceptance and swallow understanding, or vice versa. Leo speaks in more depth. why not? My experience is that the more depth, the more beauty. Denying what Leo said as psychedelic delusions is a closed mind. If you have dived into existence, you will know that the deeper, the more beautiful, and you will give a vote of confidence to the possibility of going even deeper.

lets see. For me, awakening is breaking the apparent limits, realizing that you are unlimited, infinite. and beyond, being aware that you really are, of the essence of reality, its quality, you. but, as @Leo Gura said, it can be much more to be conscious of. Are you aware right now of exactly how and why you are creating this experience? no, you are not, ramana maharshi was not, nor was buddha. Is Leo? Maybe yes, or maybe he's deluded, but let's give him a chance. Let's see, this reality is perfect, and it has a purpose. to say: it is only a dream, only the absolute is real, is to simplify what is not simple. you are reality, therefore you can be fully aware, now, of what reality is. All those who say that they are awake in a traditional sense refer to realizing the infinite, and realizing what reality is, its essence. I realize that, more and more easily. I realize that I have always known. But there are limits, very clear. I do not realize how I am creating all this or why, and all this is being created to the micron, with absolute intentionality. So my realization is, let's say, diffuse and general, like an intuition. Obviously, there is more to see.

God is not a guy who is watching reality, it is the reality. what exist is nothingness organizing itself into complex patterns of existence. a miracle. God is the subatomic particles that form atoms, it is the hydrogen nebulae that organize the stellar systems, and it is life, the extreme complexity. God is, and the fact of being is perfect joy. for god to be those hungry children is absolute perfection. the complexity of what a human is is unimaginable. we see everything according to what we like and dislike, this for existence is nothing, suffering has nothing negative, it is pure love, like rot, or a supernova, or cutting your nails. existence of infinite depth and absolutely perfect. We just have to realize it.

Means: I evade the fact of being human.

Well, it depends on your standards. If you want your body to work perfectly, you like to demand the maximum from it and you are looking for a constant sensation of physical balance, you have to eat the best possible diet, vegetables, proteins in the right amount, antioxidants, vitamins, resistance and strength exercise , sports that require coordination, precision, balance, sufficient hours of sleep, sufficient water, correct ph... etc.

Let's take the example of growing weed in hydroponics. If you change the proportions of magnesium and calcium, the plant will grow differently, the contribution of iron and other metals must be exact, the macronutrients, nitrogen, phosphorus and potassium, must vary their proportions throughout the growth cycle. Contributions of sugars favor the absorption of the roots, the microelements are essential but an excess will block the growth. Carrying these proportions perfectly will make a difference in volume X3 or X4, and a huge difference in product quality. So, why in a human being would it be different? the balance of all the elements that circulate through your body must be perfect. it is an art to perceive this and optimize it.

Yeah, life is absolutely brutal. it is, let's say, a playground with certain conditions. Imagine that you are nothing, empty. you throw the dice, big bang, the rules are defined, but the game is unpredictable. you do not control it because you are that. So you dedicate yourself to that, to be. more and more complex, perfectly perfect, more intricate. you are the executioners and the victims, suffering means nothing, engine of evolution, depth, yang inside the ying. more and more complex, more intelligent, more conscious, deeper. the magnitude of your work is unthinkable, the scope of your power, total. billions of galaxies now dancing a cosmic dance in which you bathe in the depth of yourself. your joy has no stain, your perfection is total. you love yourself and dance with yourself, and your dance is wonder made form. Hallelujah, that's what you are.

Let's say that your arm and anything else are appearances within the experience, of the now, which is unfathomable, infinite. you with your arms and legs are an appearance, what you really are is the experience, the now. in the now appearances arise, and time seems to pass. It seems that you and other things are there, but everything is you, you are the dream, and beyond the dream, you are the singularity that contains all of existence, the unthinkable complete infinity, where nothing is excluded, nothing is outside, everything is inside. everything means infinity. then you, now, are perceiving part of the infinite, but this is not real, since if you could see clearly, without limit, each part that arises is the complete infinity, in each thing that appears all of existence is contained. nothing is finite, the finite is appearance, everything is infinite.

Sure, but if your daughters are tortured in front of you and then killed, your mind may wander to hatred and revenge. we are genetically programmed for it. To turn the other cheek is to enter heaven, but it's not easy

Naive, much better the American way. when the fight is unavoidable, provoke and allow your opponent to strike first, (or even strike yourself) a spectacular blow without much effect, planned and controlled. then crush them. you will have the victory and the reason. The second is almost so important than the first.

I d say that the first is to identify the negative fear patterns that the interaction has created in you, face them, and overcome them. On the other hand, stop thinking in terms of what is fair or not, things are as they are, the damage your father does to you is the same qualitatively as a stranger or a virus. But It's easier to say it than do it

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I have had deep realizations of what reality is, and meditating I easily get a silent state of expansion and joy, but sometimes I fall into recurring thought patterns. It's always the same theme. I am involved in business, there are always problems but that does not obsess me at all, on the contrary, I take that stress very calmly, but family matters are very complicated for me. on the other hand, it is the key that forces me to really go deep and really let go. But really, I think now it's time to really let go that shit.

how? blood through the skin?

thoughts are manifestations of real energy patterns. attacking the symptom never works, you have to understand the root. nothing you do is casual or silly, everything has a motivation.

I already see that without any drug, but I could see it deeper. what drives you to do that? I mean upping the doses to crazy levels, like 100mg. Do you notice any barriers that are still there, that need more dynamite?

For me, the only important thing about death is: you have to arrive at it with the ability to let go of everything. you have to do the work, completely. it's crucial to get this