Breakingthewall

Sure, the problem is that maybe what you always wanted was to be a sex slave from the congo and get raped with a bayonet

The big problem we us the humans have is lying. we lie to ourselves all the time. our life is a running software of lies. you remove a layer and another appears and another. even the spiritual ones supposedly in love with the truth are a ball of lies. do you see the lie in you? No? that is because you are a good liar, an artist of lies and farce. every word you say carries its load of lies, every thought you articulate. Realice that you are liar and a scammer, or it's impossible to awake

Agree, when you realize the infinity once , the glass is filled. It's like you've been blind all your life and you finally see. The prodigal son has returned. It's perfect happiness and total love, because it's everything. but if instead of once you have realized infinity 20 times, it is closer to the surface in your baseline. The thing is that your mental structure is not compatible with infinity and you forget it, but if it happens many times, you make changes to make it compatible. If you realize the total absolute infinity, it doesn't matter if it's with drugs, sober or sleeping. is the absolute total infinity

it is not enough to have realizations. They are useful, necessary, but they pass and you are left, miserable, needing human love so as not to sink. addicted to others, sad, stupid little human. you have to get out of there. you have to understand, and abandon the attachment to the ego, or life is total shit. but it is extremely difficult. guide me life, as you are doing, putting me to the test harshly. forcing me to drop all the little crutches that served me to live in deception. leave me naked like a worm in the immensity of your solitude. I don't cling to false stories. help me to let go everything because i know that are all lies.

the mistake is thinking that awakening is knowing something. It is not that, it is to be open now to infinity. and obviously there are degrees, because if you were in the maximum degree, you would be god creating universes now, and you are not realizing that completely, you would have to stop being human.

Don't you understand that the only awakening is now? awakening of the past is imaginary, that is, it is in your imagination. So what is your degree of awakening now? right exactly at this moment. because this moment is the only thing that exists. How deep can you go into the now? What degree?

@Inliytened1 @Inliytened1 how do you know, if you never did psychedelics?

THC is too confusing imo. Useful, i do sometimes, and sometimes i got total openess with it, but mushrooms or LSD are another level. And 5 meo, of course

@Inliytened1 I'm not talking about Leo's episodes, but about his way of approaching spirituality by doing psychedelics. his ideas are just ideas, they can be useful or not, the absolute truth is infinity, you can't talk about it, just be it. But you can understand what this now is. Well, you could understand it if you let go the need to be so total enlightened. But if for you it's important, ok. Anyone has his preferences

@Yimpa good description, i agree, but why not to try another psychedelics?

It depends on what we consider awakening. for me it is realizing the true nature of reality: the absolute infinite total. it is unimaginable because imagination is finite. and you can realize the absolute infinity, but if it is hidden again, you forget it and that realization has no value, it is memory, ego. you have to be open to infinity full time, if not, you are asleep. It's a level of awakening, but even so, it's not total, we don't realize god. i had a minimum glimpse. Believe Leo: we aren't god realized. At least I'm not. But i realize the infinity right now. It's a matter of deep understanding, when you understand, another level opens to you

The awakening proposed by Leo, which works, is instantaneous and gradual at the same time. it's gradual because it requires deconstruction and understanding, and it's instantaneous because it happens with psychedelics, especially 5meo in a moment. with 5meo you have an opening to total infinity but when it closes, after a short time you forget it, since your mental structure is not compatible with it. then you enter a phase of integration, of understanding, which reaches a certain level. then you once again have a total openness to the absolute. Hallelujah! but let's not get excited, it closes again, and another period of integration, deconstruction and letting go of attachments . more psychedelics, start over. infinity is getting closer to the surface, but it is still covered by the thousand veils. 5meo opens the door for you, but then it is you, with your intelligence and your will, who has to identify what are the veils, what keeps you locked up in appearance. because you want to open your being completely to the truth. who has had a glimpse, and thinks that this is all... well, maybe it is all for him

5 meo only shows the absolute infinity to me. It's something quite simple, it's as if there was a limiter in your brain that limits infinity and makes it seem finite. like blinders on a donkey. You only see what you have to see, this does not mean that there is only that, but if you want to perceive something concrete, you must be blind to everything except that. For example, the limitless void is imaginary, and it's not limitless, it's limited. Why? because there is not a single elephant there. where are the elephants? hidden. if you remove the limiter, everything, absolutely, manifests. man....is a wild cry, is the absolute total infinity, the source of total existence. and it's completely obvious. if there are no limits, there is everything. you cannot imagine it because to imagine is to select some things over others. you can only be. will fill your being with joy.

Maybe you are right, with 5meo, LSD, mushrooms, weed and DMT should be enough ?

Not in my opinion. If you have broken the ice of the surface it is obvious. Basic awakening for me is realizing the infinite and what the limited appearance is. the infinite absolute fills you with joy, you realize that you are that and that it is impossible for it to be anything else. the finite are perfectly arranged boundaries that create an appearance. How many people have really, truly, opened up to this? This will make you laugh out loud for a while, with pure joy. all your repressed energy will be released. but is this realizing god? No. do you realize the will and intelligence? really, without conceptualizing. everyone lies here! Or it seems so Maybe basic awakening is the most important, but still, we aren't not totally awake to what we are, just the first glimpse

@Water by the River Exactly. the need of the other is enormous, every word that you articulate in your mind comes from the other. Without the other, you would be silent. are you? maybe you are. From what I read, you have great experience in spiritual work. complete dedication, like a monk? how, when, why? anyway the need of the other goes by degrees. In the maximum and sick degree, you take your self-esteem from the (imaginary) opinion of others towards you. In the healthiest degrees, you need others for the flow of love, mutual support, trust, give, between you and them. in both cases absolute solitude is the desert, the death of the soul. We have to be capable of absolute solitude, your mind in total silence, 40 days in the desert, in total silence, flowing, open. without that, all that we think about awakening is deceit imo , if you are still addicted to the others(I'm quite far from that but that's the goal). here we are communicating right? to learn or out of necessity? In my case it's clear: addiction, even it's useful and necessary for now. The first step to overcome an addiction is to admit it

Yes of course, but do you have a real opening to reality now? Are you not a prisoner in your mind? really? that is the aim of this work, of course, but there are many pitfalls, the ego mind is powerful. Haha god is capable even you shit yourself. How was the experience? So you went to a clinic and they gave you a couple of lines of ketamine? You mentioned an infusion, how's that? Id like to try

I don't think it's useless. Every time a liberation occurs and you open yourself completely to infinity, you are a little freer, your body loses tension, your experience becomes more fluid, distortions manifest. It's a gradual process, little by little.

@Water by the River Interesting dream, after psychedelic maybe? But for me the hard thing is not letting go of this life and die I think, because until it happens, you are here. The difficult is letting go the need of the other people now, when alive. the need for other people is extremely deep. Other people are the illusion. They are in our mind , at least in mine, all time. The others are the big wall, the jail

@Yimpa But even harder than letting go of what you hate is letting go of what you need.

we will see. It is an absolutely blind path, it is immersing yourself in existence without any handles. without any goal except to dissolve into oneself. To let go everything is very difficult and scary, maybe impossible. But don't ot let go, is a jail.

Yes, absolutely, It is very difficult to see the love in what you hate. And if you don't, you're always divided. Extremely difficult to detach yourself of the preference

Yeah, but imagine that you blink, and when you open your eyes you are a black hole floating in the center of the galaxy. or a god creator of universes. Of the infinite void . You have to be extremely detached to no pee your pants on the enormity of the matter

@Yimpa Me neither, im starting to see a bit. may be you are and im wrong, but id say that the thing is much more deep than it seems. It is one thing to realize the infinite, the absolute that we are, but God, the infinite will, the intelligence is another.

Meditation without having previously broken the mental capsule many times with psychedelics is very difficult, since you don't know exactly what the goal is, where you want to go