Breakingthewall

Sure you are right, even in that moment you are totally closed to the unlimited it's not the same than if you are absolutely closed in the bubble and you never have broken it. The problem for me is denying the reality of a level of the reality. What I perceive is that it's a barrier, a real one that traps you. If you call dream to the dense level you can't integrate it and use it's power to move yourself to another level. You will stuck, it's very subtle, very Buddhist. The dense level is absolutely real. Maybe feels bad or anything, but you can't scape from it thinking that doesn't exist , doing it would castrate your mind, like a narcissist

Or maybe important or not important are valorations, like saying; reality is boring. Well, it depends of your emotional state I guess. Or saying: the self is not real. It's like saying: being bored is not real, it's an illusion. Really all that stuff comes from Buddhism. It's an attempt to avoid suffering and domesticate the emotional density, but denying what is calling it false, you castrate your mind, then you could become very limited, and the idea is breaking the limits

But the spirit is the mind, there is no other. Not superior self. Let's use "tao". The mind is the tao expressed as a mind. So if you see a higher spirit guiding the mind, you're creating a barrier that closes it off. The Tao isn't someone or something that directs; it's the unlimited being that manifests itself in what is possible. And the manifestation is the mind. That is to say, it's the mind that orients itself toward, for example, clarifying its density to see, not a higher force. Nothing is superior; everything is interconnected realities that ontologically have the same level. As I see it, it's crucial not to categorize anything as false, real, true, or illusion because those are absolute closures. Openness occurs when the mind integrates itself and sees itself seamlessly, as the totality of reality. There is no other reality, no other levels; there is only density that clouds perception.

Id say that I can't interact with my mind because I am the mind. What I am is the process that's happening and it's a mind. What I can do as a mind is point to the direction that is better according my vision, that is what any living being and life itself does, and the mind is a living being. You could say that the essence of that process is the unlimited, the tao, anything, but the process is happening and I'm that. You could say that I'm the tao in the form of a mind, but not that I'm the master of the mind, because there is not an I separated from the mind , the I is a part of the structure of the mind

So animals are pure and do what reality wants, but the mind, on the other hand, doesn't; it's against reality. Is reality sad because the mind thinks? Maybe the problem is that you can't see how the human matrix is the reality expressing itself as a mind

I understand you. You mock what I said because you need to be enlightened, then any deeper sight threaten you, and your defense is ridicule to feel safe. You could keep saying all people around you that of the self doesn't exist and that you are enlightened, and only very few are like you, I'm sure that they will get very impressed. Maybe some of them bit bored.

Ok thanks

The observer is the structure that a human is. Is the fact of perceiving. Perceiving is the reality reflected in itself. The observer and the observed are the same, but exist in an structure that allows the fact of perceiving. I don't know what did you read, but denying what's obvious only will mess your mind

I don't see things that way. I'm not constantly defining myself as a self; I don't care if there is a self or not, nor do I want to be enlightened to get a medal and a diploma. I simply perceive that I exist. It's quite strange if you stop to think about it. Let's see, I exist, and right here, now, the fact of existing is happening. You completely empty your mind of ideas and focus entirely on this reality. Then you perceive an energy that is keeping you isolated. If you focus on that energy, your heart starts beating fast. It's primal fear. Not a silly fear you've learned, but the atavistic terror of destruction. Then you stare at this terror; it's fascinating. You begin to see how you are closed in a kind of bubble. Even with your mind at zero, the bubble is there. Then you want to break it. These aren't mental stories; it's absolutely real, it's your current structure, what reality is now. At a certain point, the door opens, and your nature is revealed. Then your eyes open; it's wild, it's fire, life, creation, the absolute power that springs from the boundless abyss that is reality. It's the fire that makes you exist, interconnected with a web of inconceivable proportions, that makes you who you are. In fact, it is exactly what you are. But over all it's open, it's unlimited. Then you could think: how's this possible? But it's obvious that it's inevitable. There are no limits, then you are, and you are that, the unlimited that emits potential in all directions, the absolute being. This is not a mental history, it's the reality. But then your psyche, created by the human tide of which you are a part, shuts you down again and again. It's a process that starts and moves forward, like anything else that exists

By the way, a reflection on openness to the totality. It's not something you know. If yesterday your openness to the limitless that lives was the case, but today, for whatever reason, the structure of your psyche closes, then you don't know what the limitless was. It's impossible because it's not something concrete, it's not someone, an entity; it's the bottomless, boundless from which reality inevitably springs. If you are open to it, it is total light. If you are closed, you start to think...let's see, so I am the inevitable bottomless flow? That seems impersonal, wild, meaningless, an eternal prison, an infinite machine of equations that creates things because it can't help but. Everything turns gray, sad. The mind finds no foothold, nothing makes sense, not even death is an escape. Relationships with people, work, life...what is the point of this madness? It's what they call the dark night of the soul. So you have to be astute and understand how you close and reopen.

This wasn't intended as a method, but rather an explanation to understand what enlightenment is, its nature, where the closure lies, and how to approach the movement that tends toward enlightenment. It may seem like I'm teaching people, but that's not the case. What I write are reflections, and I share them because doing so helps me... let's say, refine the mental scalpel necessary to understand this game. What I say is based on real experience; I'm not making anything up. But having the experience is one thing, understanding its structure is another. I can't help but focus on this for a considerable amount of time each day, then it's great that there is some people to share, even for argues 😅

What we are is a structure that the synchronicity of reality creates, existing in an interconnected relationship with the rest of reality, like everything else that exists. Given our dual nature, as self-preserving processes that interact with an external world, oriented towards permanence, a process called mind appears, which is a link between the inner and outer universes. This universe, which we call consciousness, can open itself to the totality of nature that is its source and essence. This is the eye of the reality.

The observer doesn't vanishes, the observer opens itself to it's unlimited nature. The observer will vanish when it dies, but there are many observers. Infinite more or less. Then if you die nothing important is lost. But the point is not this, is being open to the source. Understanding is a mean to allow that openess. Human nature is such that closes, then real understanding is needed. If not life is shit because you are closed. It's the same if you have everything, you are in the desert

So you are the observer right? The observer is just a structural point that happens in the experience. Enlightenment happens when the observer open itself to what reality is, becoming an eye that see the absolute and realizing that the eye is the absolute in seeing itself. If you want to open yourself to the absolute you have to start from humility. You always have addressed this work from the need of increase your ego, and this doesn't work

I think that the answer is easy. The "I" of the experience is always the same: the experiencer. That is to say, you and I are exactly the same, without the slightest difference: an experiencer having an experience. Can you feel it? It's the "I am." Take away the content, and the difference between you and me is exactly zero. We are "I am," period. So if you die, don't worry, I'll try dating models or something for you. But the point here isn't to be that boring, empty "I am" that's absolutely always there experiencing different funny experiences like the absolute nihilism and the black depression of the lonely oldhood, but rather for that "I am" to open itself up to "what I am." Then the I, that is a structural construction made by the fact of the experience will be the eye of the reality looking itself. Then the I and the reality will recognize as the same absolute unlimited that is everything, the total fullness, the life, the cosmos, the unfathomable that lives. and they will say: Hallelujah, the prodigal son wandered for a long time in a shitty desert of sadness, lack, misery and madness, but he has returned home, and now his cup is filled to overflowing.

Experience is a expression of the reality, the reality doesn't need experience but as it is a possibility, experience happens. You are the experience, but as the experience is an expression of the reality, you are an expression of the reality, then what you are is the reality expressing itself as an experience. Do you get the logic? It's very simple and surely you did. What is not so simple is breaking the shell of the experience and open yourself to your nature as absolute reality, but if you are interested I can explain you for free how to do it. I guess you would appreciate the gesture that comes from anyone that had to listen all your angry thing 5 years😅

Sure but your experience is not the absolute, the absolute is the source of your experience. I think it's quite easy to understand it. "Experience" means awareness, and awareness happens due the human process. But your true nature is not the process, is the source of that process. Then, from the process you can perceive the nature of the process, and realizing that you as a process are an expression of that nature, so what you really are is that nature, then when the process finish the absolute nature remains, and it's irrelevant if it's conscious of itself or not, if your self disappear or not, the absolute is and you are that. Really, not a mental history. If you don't open yourself to it you can't understand it because for you reality=experience.

Then you are saying that it's better for your life being detached than attached, and surely you are right, but that's different to affirm that you are not real. One thing is a preference, the other a self induced psychosis. Your preference can open yourself to the totality, but the induced psychosis will encloses you.

Then if they do that, according to you it means that my previous life didn't exist, because I don't remember it? Look, we are a local process that's going to finish, but you can transcend the process and be the essence. That essence has no memory, will, desire, can't die and never started, it's the unlimited that is absolute potential. The point is not knowing it but being open to it, then it's clear that the process is just a process and you can stop being enclosed in it. That's very simple to understand imo, but not simple to do. The point is do the movement, align yourself to make the action possible. The action is the openess of the actual structure to the nature of reality

I understand perfectly. You're referring to the feeling of centrality, of being an individual in control, a receiver of experience, moving along a timeline, defining itself, fearing, and desiring. Since this is something transitory, according to your assessment, it's unreal. What I'm saying is that this self is a process, a local expression of the global process of this universe, and its drive is the drive that is taking place. So, if this self is an expression of the universe, which in turn is an expression of reality, then it can dilute the density of its local structure until only reality remains. Then this self and reality are one, but even so, the fundamental structure of the self persists. This structure is the fact of reality being conscious of itself.

Do you think that reality is your memory? No, there is reality beyond your memory, spirituality is about transcend the self, the memory, etc, and open yourself to your unlimited nature. Just be humble and start the process

I learned how to talk due the billions of years of learning that life needed to learn how to talk. Your actual life is just a line in a huge process, not an independent reality

Totally agree, the problem for me are the terms illusion, false, true, etc. when I got interested in spirituality I read all this stuff and it didn't help at all, and I see the effect of that paradigm in people and its clear that leads to confusion and closure For a while I mean. If you do often you reach a point where you do DMT of anything and you get more closed than don't doing, then it's time to stop Do you see? That's the problem for me. They feel vulnerable because they really are. There is not a belief in separation, it's real. You could say that in essence everything is the same reality in different expressions relating at all levels, but at the level where we operate, the separation is real. You don't want to be enslaved or locked in an Iranian prison. If a non-dual teacher comes along and tells you that being gang-raped daily in a Congolese prison is the same as being rich and doing whatever you want, and that this is awakening, the best thing to do is tell him to go to the Congolese prison himself to get more awakened. Those ideas only lead to confusion, are a denial of the reality

That valoration is just an opinion, and incorrect in my opinion. Now it matters , and when the body dies an energetic imprint will remain. In the form of your son's structure for example, or anything else. Then he will die, and the planet earth will disappear, but all the information will remain until the big freeze and when the universe restarts it will keep the information of you. This is not new age, just physics. Then maybe you could better say that everything matter What you call the body includes that self that you define as nonexistent. Human structure is a stable energetic process of unimaginable complexity that is happening now in reality; that is to say, it is an expression of reality. This process includes a hyper-complex network of relationships between fields, particles, atoms, molecules, cells, and electrical impulses, which form a self that decides. This self is entirely real. It can decide between burning itself alive with gasoline or eating ice cream. There is a universe of cause and effect that gives this self a concrete form, but ultimately there is a decision that is not predetermined. Reality works this way; it is the principle of quantum decoherence. Nothing is determined until all current relationships occur. Reality in not a determined thing but a wave of potentiality that actualices itself when the relationship take place The self is the visible tip of this cascade of relationships that give rise to movement. An action happen, and it's decided for a drive, a push, an unbalance to a side. The self is that drive. Not other mysterious force but you, the reality happening . All those are conditions that construct the structure that the self is as a manifestation of the reality, but ultimately the self is the final drive. Nothing can be determined, it's impossible. You can't know all the data because the uncertainty principle forbids it; it's absolutely impossible to know all the variables, even with an infinite computer. Reality pushes in one direction or another. You are reality doing that, manifesting as a self that decides. It's the reality knowing that is and what is. And you are that. Why to deny what's obviously real?

Because it's a mess choosing the right food every day? No, you are because you think that it's more healthy, or because it's unfair exploiting animals. You, that "illusion" , made that choice due it's structure. You like to say that this structure is illusory, but it's precisely the structure making a valoration and classifying itself in the label: illusory. Well...you could make any valoration but the reality is that the self exist, it's a real process that's happening in the reality and that decides that being vegan is the right choice