Breakingthewall

The direction of desire is completely different from a limited perspective than from an unlimited one. The energy that flows is the same, but from the limits, it tends toward conservation, toward greed in the sense that wanting things, sensations. From an unlimited perspective, desire is to flow, to be, to expand. And to do that, you must follow the flow of reality and adapt to it, be one with it. From the limited perspective, you fight against it to get what you want; you are contracted. From the unlimited perspective, you dance with it; you are expanded.

That's a view focused on the form of desire, not on desire itself. The energy of desire is exactly the same in the bodhisattva as it is in the cocaine addict; only the orientation changes. The drug addict's is contracted; the bodhisattva's is expanded. What you call desire is the contraction that occurs due to the human energetic structure. What you call the absence of desire is the absence of contraction. But the energy is always the same; it is expansive energy inherent to reality. The intelligent thing to do, as a human being, is to dismantle contraction, since it is unpleasant, is suffering. But to do that you have to locate yourself in a unlimited perspective.

Go beyond the limits of human experience and open yourself to the true dimension of what you are. Then, continue living your human experience, but from another perspective.

You can have zero interest in prestige and ego boosting and at the same time have great desire, great ambition. Your ambition isn't to be recognized, it's to do, to penetrate life, to connect, to flow, to enjoy, to overcome challenges. Simply because that's what it means to be human; it's the innate human drive.

Self-referential thoughts are just a superficial layer of who we are, the software for functioning as humans. It has a solid evolutionary basis, but it can be disconnected at will. This doesn't mean that without thought there is no reality or existence; it exists as a flow. But this also doesn't mean you're open to the limitless nature of what you are. You can be silent and closed off within your sensory reality and your impulses .

It's impossible, because what you are is literally infinite. Imagine if they made that robot into a human, and you were still alive. You'd see him doing things you'd do... sort of. He'd never have your intuitions or your feelings. Life wouldn't flow through him the way it does through you. He'd just be a finite machine.

Prestige means that people think you're a great guy. Someone who's interested in making people think they're a great guy is supposed to be operating on a relational level, where public opinion has value, then he's not free. Ideally, you should operate on a relational level, where what you value is what you contribute, what you are, what you vibrate, not the effect it has on people.

Concepts that describe a reality . For example Imagine you're walking down the street and a tiger appears and starts chasing you. Is that a thought? No, it's a reality, but then you can explain it to people through concepts. Your sensations, what the tiger was like, all that. But while it was chasing you, there was no thought; there was a tiger chasing you.

I would forget absolutely the non duality, it's a limited perspective full of contradiction and inherently false. That's the problem with spirituality, that changes some concepts by others. In my humble opinion, all that about conciousness and no self absolutely closes the mind in a limited perspective, same than God No Self means nothing, existence exist, and you are that, then whats that mess about there is not a self? The mental image, like adjectives? Obviously, but Beneath that lies the ocean. As Rumi said, you are not a drop in the ocean, you are the ocean in a drop. Rumi was a man who had opened his being to the limitless. Whats that about what you are is conciousness? Conciousness is an arising. As reality is unlimited and conciousness arises, conciousness is infinite, but it's not the source of the reality, is it's result. Same than God. in absence of limitations intelligence is inevitable, then it's infinite. But also intelligence is an arising Your true nature is the unlimited, and the unlimited can't be named. You can open yourself to it. The unlimited is not something, is the absence of limits that's make inevitable that you are. You are totality. Open yourself a bit, a bit more, open your heart, drop your mind, then the door will open, you are total, that's it. Your substance has no dimension , not quality, just open. All the qualities, all the dimensions.

When you stop thinking, your mental identity dies, but all the energy patterns that form and block you are still active. Your mental identity is very superficial; your energy patterns are much deeper. They come from the evolution of life, from evolution through lifetimes. Your energetic structure is much deeper than you think. Thought is just the tip of the iceberg; beneath it lies an iceberg that expands without limit, emitting infinite butterfly effects that reverberate into eternity. Thought has power; it closes and opens, but it is a superficial logical structure supported by an energetic structure of unimaginable complexity.

The first step is not to dismiss science, nor the direct observation of reality, nor the logical mind's ability to structure and understand. There is a facet beyond understanding: the nature of reality, the total. To open yourself to this, you must let go of the mind; it is an obstacle. But then, manifestation is absolutely logical. The logical mind is an arising of total reality and can understand absolutely everything, but it cannot encompass the unlimited. Manifest reality is simply coherence, only what's coherent with the whole appears, just because every change is relative. That's very easy to understand. What's difficult in this game is the opening to the absolute, that's the real challenge

If I were you, I would stop believing all the spiritual gurus, almost everything that they say is wrong. Maybe the tao te king could be more or less accurate, but no duality is absolutely limited, it drinks from Buddhism that is also limited. Even Huang po is limited. Even Ramana. He's open to the unlimited nature of reality, but his mind is a mess. Being open to the unlimited nature of reality some moments is not difficult. People as Ramana born with a kind of energetic pattern that makes them being in that way, open, without desire, no interest in the world, but that doesn't mean that they understand how the reality is structured

Sure, in this realm. And some ideas. I'm lost in concepts in any realm . Because concepts are illusory and everything is one. Or if you prefer: spirituality, that's completely wrong. Good luck.

Everything that is manifested is change, no change no perception. Just observe the reality. What is changeless is the nature of everything, because it's unlimited. The unlimited can't change because "change" means reflection, appearance. You could say that everything that happens is appearance, or reflection, but same time is the manifestation of the totality. The point is being able to open yourself to your unlimited nature, then see the limited reflection that is always happening. Any perception is change, and any change is reflection

Anything that changes. Manifested reality is change. Without change there is not experience, nor conciousness. Conciousness is created by the change. you think that in deep meditation you are in a still, or changeless, state, it is because you do not realize that the now that you are is in ceaseless change and composed of infinite changes. Change is, the absence of change is not. Change is the unlimited reflecting on itself and fluctuating with respect to itself. Since it is unlimited, this occurs, and given its limitlessness, it occurs always and infinitely, and everything unfolds without limits, manifesting what is synchronous with the rest, for the simple reason that what is not synchronous relatively to the rest is not; it is an unmanifested possibility, since it needs to be reflected in order to be. To be is simply to appear; not to be is not to appear. The nature of both is the same: the unlimited. What appears is only an inevitable appearance, given the limitlessness. It is impossible for there to be no non-manifestation because there are no limits; it is inevitable, and its structure is simply what fits together.

Any movement implies duality, since it is relative to another perspective. You could say that this other perspective is the same nature as the first, but it is still other. Without "other," there is no happening, and as we can see, there is relative movement and therefore separation. Infinite perspectives reflecting in infinite dimensions. You could say they are all the same, but in a certain sense, they are "other."

For me it's difficult to understand my culture, Imagine the Japanese 😅 I used to do long trips sailing, I'm fighting hard to do again as a business, and this is the cover of a book of jack Vance, a series b scifi writer that love, and also it represent to me the slow path without end

And then you'll realize that a thought is as real as a universe. All that stuff about, you have to transcend thought, the self is illusory, it doesn't work, friends. Everything is real. There are various levels of reality, infinite levels, and all of them are the same level: the reality . A synaptic connection is as real as a galaxy, and as infinite as it. We are swimming in the fluid of infinity right now, dear friends, or better, we are that. This, precisely this, is the reality, and it is total. Its depth is unfathomable, and nothing is more real than anything else. All of that is being lost in meaning. Nothing means anything, or everything has infinite meaning, it's exactly the same. Just open the eyes of your mind and see. There are no limits.

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Defining reality as material or spirit doesn't make sense because both categories are labels that don't delve into the nature of what appears. Spirit, consciousness, or imagination means nothing if you don't understand what it is, and you don't understand. Everything that appears is relation. The relation of the unlimited to itself, and everything that appears, from a thought to a brick wall or whatever, unfolds relationally to infinity in infinite dimensions. Classifying reality as consciousness or spirit is in elementary school. It's not real, it's a dream. And what's a dream? Something you imagine. And what is imagining? Magic! Tadah. Nonsense. Everything is made of the same substance, the relation of the absolute to itself, and everything unfolds to infinity. All reality is contained within a photon, and not even a nano-micro-whatever can move without causing a butterfly effect throughout infinite reality. If you don't see this, you're blind. Or, if you prefer, asleep, as they say here.

Even in that case I doubt. If what brings this life is extreme suffering maybe it's a good idea going through it. I guess that depends of the intuition in that moment

Creativity depends a lot on your self-confidence. A lack of self-confidence castrates your creativity, but that's not something definitive; it can change. What's more innate and difficult to change is the depth of your understanding. I'm not talking about understanding practical problems, but rather the energetic dynamics of reality, human interactions, the shape of your energetic pattern, and its barriers. Anyway, if you accept an advice, stop judging yourself completely. Judging is stupid because it's comparing yourself to others in skills or beauty or anything, the only value is truth. If you are absolutely true you are in the top, period. Even if it sounds like spiritual bullshit, the entirety of existence unfolds within you. It's not something subject to judgment; it's total reality. You have to completely separate yourself from any comparison. It doesn't matter if you're never going to have sex even once in your life; that's nothing. What you have to do is open up to yourself, to the substance of reality that you are. Then you'll understand your path, what you have to do here, what the energetic enigma is that you must solve, how to free it. The game is to completely free your emotional structure, to open it up, to make it diaphanous, transparent. Then your potential will develop. The rest is secondary. If having cancer helps you with that, it's better to have cancer, that's how it is. You have to open your heart in this life without barrier, anything else is a trap. Being a great winner, a world champion, if it closes you, it's a curse, it's better to be homeless if it opens your heart. Existence is not just this form, this life. This is only a path, don't judge is good or bad, just open it, it's glorious, even it seems the worse shit ever. This is not self help, it's absolutely true without a doubt. Of course it's not easy because there are a lot of obstacles, but your situation is much better than others, you have much more possibilities of real success than 99,99% because your circunstance. If everything is ok , even bit bad , you just will try to improve a bit, fix a bit, but if you are on the mud, you could dynamite it and break all the barriers

Yes but this is being in the form, Wich is normal, and we're all there, in the preference. But we have to understand that enlightenment is being outside of this, it's stepping out of experience, out of its density, and seeing it as a transparent hologram in which everything is exactly the same. You won't be at that point all the time, as if you were an Indian saint or something, but you can enter that dimension or perspective at certain moments and open to your unlimited nature. Then you dive back into the flow and give it meaning, but know that in essence, what you are is reality itself. Then god is made of that nature, it's an arising.

Maybe for you breathing would be enough movement, it seems that some people get in that state, those indians. For me it's just a nightmare because I'm attached to the movement because the need of survival Rumi is the best. He's absolutely straight to the point. If you take a step back, one thing is the same as another, one thought is the same as another. Being a great winner is the same as being an outcast tortured by his misery; they're just forms. Being in the form is being in the form. Total reality is all the same; it's total, it has no limits, it is. But the form is so magnetic that it's impossible to don't merge in it . Anyway being merged or detached is just a change of perspective. One is contracted, another is open. Seems that the best idea is going towards the openess, because go towards the contraction leads to suffering and madness As Rumi said: Why do you remain in prison when the door is wide open?

Your circumstances are extremely difficult, but you articulate them with great clarity, so don't underestimate your IQ. There are many kinds of intelligence, but the only real intelligence is depth perception, and it seems that's exactly the kind of intelligence you possess. If you're open-hearted, you'll find a place where you fit in. It will simply appear. You just have to do that. Your value as a human being is proportional to the openness of your heart, the true openness. Everything else is games, narcissism, irrelevant.