Breakingthewall

It simply softens the ego and can suppress it at a given moment. The problem is that it is violent, but that violence is necessary until you can do this more or less naturally. I got more openess with meditation and some thc than with 5meo, 5meo is just the tool to break your energetic blockage, to reconfigure the energetic pattern that you are, to make you less dense I personally do not give any credibility to the realizations of psychedelics like: oh I am god, reality is mental, blah blah. I simply seek the death of the ego. This means the total suppression of the relation subject/object, perceiver and perception. The problem is that you can take a large dose and the ego resists. For example, if you are seeking to understand. If so, you, that is, the ego, is there taking notes to understand. In my opinion, you have to leave the mind out of this, no conclusion is valid. any conclusion is ego. What you are looking for is openness, openness is not translatable to the mind, and that's it. It is something like reality, by fusing the subject and the object, becomes fluid. By being fluid, it can go deeper into itself, and in doing so mysticism emerges. The moment you try to give it meaning, you are out, whether with 1gr of 5meo in your vein. Psychedelics are an aid, not a magic pill. The objective is be able to dissolve the ego easily, many times a week just with meditation, or low dose or psychedelics. The rule number one for me is empty the mind, no ideas about god or anything, just dissolution. Then, after time, some ideas about reality could arises , but I think it's better to be sceptical. The thing is bigger than it seems. And another thing, now I'm in normal state, close, zero mystical, then any idea is just a mental construction, you should differentiate between that and real openess. For me if there is not openess, like now, it's better don't thinking in spirituality at all, just seek the openenss when the circumstances allow it

Let's say that there can be a total awakening or openenss to the living void, to the ultimate essence of reality, to the infinite well of nothingness. This is enlightenment, although it sounds empty and Buddhist. is that it is empty and Buddhist and can't be transmitted by words because it can't be thought. But from the Buddhist emptiness there is another awakening equally absolute and completely opposite. the openness to what the dance of the cosmos is. You can say that this is form and therefore secondary, but it is absolute, eternal and total, just like emptiness. It is a mirror in which on one side is emptiness and the other is life, and on the side of life you cannot open yourself completely because you would burn. the life side is absolute power, the eternal cycles in which the infinite synchronizes perfectly and flows, the unimaginable total glory of existence in its perpetual motion. the game we're playing now.

Your level of authenticity is....well, not very high

No, it's just the beginning of the infinite exploration. But if you have the ineluctable need of being above, ok, think what you want if it's useful for you

Illusion means nothing since there is nothing else to compare that is not an illusion. The power of what it is and it's beauty and perfection is what brings you real energy, real life. Be open to that is wonderful. Be open to the void is freedom, I know it very good, but be open to the other face, to the life, is the eternal happiness. The Cosmos is like a plant, like a flower. When the flower starts to open, the power of the universe manifests. It's absolute beauty,it is impossible to be better.

Read the first post. I said what is enlightenment, I think you would agree.

Lately I became the moment all day more or less, I meant anything else, and I used to do just with meditation and a couple of puffs of weed, just to soften the mind. It is to become the moment, as you say, but to make the moment fluid, to make it lose its solidity, it's center. No self. manage to maintain this as long as possible, without any interpretation, then a real opening can occur (not always), and this opening can have various levels or qualities. unlimited total emptiness, flowing energy that is total intelligence, which burns the mind and makes it disappear, leaving a hole through which reality emerges like a plant. This can make you laugh out loud with pure happiness without stain. It is total perfection, the glory. existence that shows its true face. When you manage to do this, anything else is pale.

You repit the world "you" many times. I already told you that "you" have a begging and a end. You is precisely a limitation, you are inside of that limitation and in you entire life you didn't break it even an instant. The thing that we are trying is breaking the bubble for a moment, become unlimited and open the doors of perception. You repeat that about the birth but it worth for anything? It's limiting . What we try is go beyond those limits. It's not easy , for example today I'm trying and no way. Limited.

Before your birth you did not exist so for you there was nothing. The thing is, what is you?. You are an emergent of existence that becomes aware of itself, creating an energetic structure that is the human psyche, and that is going to disappear, but existence is not going to disappear. What we try is to open ourselves from that limited bubble to the unlimited that we really are beyond form. Before your birth everything existed, the same thing that will continue to exist after your death, what happens is that you are not aware of it because you cannot see beyond the limits of your bubble.

@James123 You will see when your mind opens to absolute life. It is the other side of the mirror, it is the same as absolute emptiness but absolute fullness, it is not something you intuit, like...ah yes, I would say there is that. It's not like looking at the core of the universe, it's absolute power. On the other hand, it is obvious, if it were not like that, you would not exist as James. You can say that life is an illusion if that makes you happier, but there is no difference between real and illusion, what is is, and that's it.

Cosmos is a word that I use to describe the realization of what reality is. When your being opens completely to the absolute void and you become that, you realize the non-causal nature of reality, the only cause is the absence of limits, that is not a thing, and from that inevitable circumstance total reality manifests. You become aware of the nature of the living infinite and you open yourself to it partially, since totally would be like looking at the core of a star. As I said in the post, it is a two-sided mirror, on one side it reflects total emptiness, on the other, total plenitude. both are reality and both are absence of limits, and both are absolute .there is no logic here, there is existence. The interesting thing comes in the exploration of what lives. Opening to emptiness is total liberation, and it is not that difficult, you just have to let the self fall completely. It is the obligatory step to openness to the full, to the dance of the cosmos. I guess you would have noticed that the trees grow, the galaxies are there and all that. It is not an idea of the mind, you make an idea in the mind from a reality, but you are not the creator of the cosmos with your mind, that is a fallacy. No one is the creator, the only creator is the non-impediment to the existence of everything. Infinity is cyclical and synchronic, its what I can see, and I can also open myself partially to its absolute power. That is true spirituality, it is more than you think, infinitely more. break the final barrier, which is nothingness, and you will open yourself to everything. it is not so difficult

That's because the center remains , you must to drop the self totally into the void, then what reality is manifest. I did this thread that no one found interesting It's direct vision, zero conceptualizing, it's what it happens when you are totally open.

I know you like what Papaji says, but it's an obviously limited perspective. forget the "masters" and empty your mind, so you can see what reality is.

😭😭😭😭😭 No hope . Nothing is the same than everything. Everything ever happened, is happening, is going to happen. It's the cosmos. If you don't believe me, take a hammer, hit your dick 10 times with all your strength and then say: nothing ever happened

It is simply impossible for there to be nothing, since there are no limits. It is eternity, total emptiness without containment. At some "moment" in eternity, even at some "point" in the void, something will emerge, and that moment is always now, and that something is always the cosmos, which is absolutely everything, infinite without limits. Enlightenment is realizing that you are total emptiness, opening yourself to it and being it. automatically the cosmos emerges like an explosion. There is no other option, it's absolutely obvious. it is the eternal dance and it cannot be any other way. It is the living infinity, and it has no limits.

Solipsism is the result of a partial ego dissolution, in which there is still the experiencer who sees himself as the center of the experience, the perceiver, what they call consciousness. This occurs because it is extremely difficult to dissolve the self completely. If you dissolve the self there is no solipsism, there is no one to realize about: only I exist. Solipsism is a history of the self, and therefore is a semi-psychotic mixture of mystical experience and relative experience. This is the problem with psychedelics, that without being prepared they take you far. you have to be smart not to be fooled

Solipsism is the result of a partial ego dissolution, in which there is still the experiencer who sees himself as the center of the experience, the perceiver, what they call consciousness. This occurs because it is extremely difficult to dissolve the self completely. If you dissolve the self there is no solipsism, there is no one to think about: only I exist. Solipsism is a history of the self, and therefore is a semi-psychotic mixture of mystical experience and relative experience. This is the problem with psychedelics, that without being prepared they take you far. you have to be smart not to be fooled

@Keryo Koffa 5meo is completely different from lsd or other psychedelics. I wouldn't even call it psychedelic. I would say that it is a substance that stops the ego, and does nothing else. It acts on the part of the brain where the ego is in run mode and stops it. This can be wonderful, horrible, normal, whatever. It doesn't always stop it, sometimes there is a little ego left, in fact most of the time, but what you are looking for with 5 meo is not to realize something, or understand something, it is to perform an action: stop the ego. It is a meditative exercise to later be able to stop the ego with other psychedelics and even sober. It softens your mental structure so that the ego's track is not so solid, since you have already seen that you can be without it for a while and still be alive. If you do it many times, your system receives the signal that you can be without ego, and in fact thats perfect, then everything loosens up. Then you do LSD and you can really delve into the beauty of whay you are.

Sounds great, a real change. Don't you feel the need to open yourself to reality more and more? that mystical openness is something common in your life? more psychedelic trips for example. I think that a lot of beauty is waiting to be uncovered, thats what im triying

Meditation is essential to observe yourself in depth, and to remove the limits of the mind. Without meditation you do nothing in spirituality, you become a crazy person who believes things from books and memories of psychedelic trips. The problem is if you meditate and don't go beyond the surface, then it is irritating and unpleasant shit. It has to be a deep dive, you must have broken the linear surface of the mind, for this it is very useful to have done enough psychedelics. You can also try meditation with low doses of THC, as long as it doesn't lead you to threads of ideas, then you haven't broken the ice yet.

Forgetting is easy if you stop classifying things. The memory of what happened is faint and does not bother much. The classification of what happened is always present and annoying. The meaning. it is a source of anger and shame. Anger is a useful emotion for fighting, which is necessary in life. Shame is a mechanism to not act in a way that will cause you to be rejected. But if you classify the past you remember it and when you remember it, anger and shame emerge in a useless way. On the other hand, nothing is really useless, everything has a function. Those memories loaded with emotion are telling you that you are vulnerable, that you can be manipulated, that you are not the master of yourself, since there is fear in you.

disappearing. It is an interesting work, a serious challenge. If you have anger, hatred, deep sadness inside you, good. that is the fuel you need to burn the self

The basis of awakening, of living an awakened life, is leaving time. There is a moment in life, perhaps around the age of 12,13,14, that you begin to see life as a temporary process, and not as an in-depth approach. Little by little this takes on a dimension, you begin to have an idea of yourself as an entity that moves in time. This entity accumulates data every day, until it takes on a solid dimension, which overrides the deep focus and veils it. There comes a time, without realizing it, when you are outside. You do not flow with life but rather you are a few meters above classifying it. All this mental activity could be classified as an illness if it weren't for the fact that almost everyone processes this way. The causes are social interaction, language, the conceptualization of reality in order to function as a collaborative hive organism where each gear is in its place. an evolutionary work of art that creates things like spacial trips or atomic energy . A manifestation of the intelligence of the cosmos that, like all its other manifestations, is genius, art and perfection. but this is built with some foundations, some bases, that are the primordial mud of the evolutionary jungle of life, and life is absolutely ruthless, its consideration towards what it creates is the same as that of an engineer with a machine: it must work, it doesn't matter how. and once it works, then he treats the machine well, he doesn't force it to work too hard, he loves it and enjoys it, but if it is necessary to tighten, it is tightened, if parts have to be forced until they break, it is done. Well, time is a dimension in which life puts us so that we fulfill a function, but it has a problem: it is a dead, false dimension, a mental virus necessary for the software to work. This dimension, once it starts, grows in a cancerous, exponential way. In a few years since it began, humans live in a psychotic dimension, we are prisoners of the matrix, robots with permanently running software. In some cases, quite often, this software is dissonant, full of cracks, hidden areas, anger, fear, hatred, shame, lies. a real party. This same software, at a given moment becomes aware of itself and says: yes, ok, but this is unbearable shit, a disease. I am a disease. Then, the self sets itself a titanic task: getting out of itself. cross a door that really is him. If you want to cross that door, you must deactivate time, since time is your essence. Without time the self disappears, since time is its dimension. To deactivate time, the self must begin to release ballast, stop comparing, analyzing, judging, fearing. quite a challenge since the foundations of the self are solid, otherwise it would not have the irresistible drive that it has. breaking the self is breaking a work of life engineering, it is not a small thing that is done, it is a serious achievement. It is life shaping itself, and this is always through challenge. Life wants you to deactivate the self at a given moment. You are called to it, if it were not so, you would not be trying. once you achieve the complicated maneuver of opening the self, first just a moment, them more often, the self start changing completely, the software continues to exist, there is still a controller, but it knows that it is software, it goes into the background, it begins to stop progressively letting more space to the real, to reverse the process that originated it and make a change . then it seems that the self begins to be a kind of mirror. begins to reflect reality, and to find attractive the idea of merging with reality and disappearing completely.

@Keryo Koffa It is a change in energy frequency that is simply impossible to do and that is why no one does it and I would never have done it without 5meo DMT. What 5meo does, at least for me, is that it breaks your mind. There were times when I did it and thought: friend, you are playing with your sanity in a very serious way. If any friend saw what I do, they would think I had lost my mind. More or less what you do with LSD, but its different. The first time I did a 5 meo breakthrough it was horrible, then everything in my life started to revolve around that, my mind was there all the time. What should I do to adjust to the breakup? My mission in life now is to break up. Total violence , it is violating your mind again and again, several times in a day, disintegrating the mind and reintegrating it, like inflating and deflating a balloon. Once I did it 12 days in a row and several times a day some days, at my house, in the countryside,. awakening at four in the morning to have a more empty mind, rape and more rape, until one day, on a trip, sleeping alone in a very uncomfortable place, while sober, reality opened up. 5 seconds, but enough. then doing lsd, or weed, i get sometimes for a second, other a minute ,being open to the unlimited, to the real, facing the infinite. Now with a little weed and half an hour of meditation my mind opens like a plant, I have a hole in my mind from which the unlimited is seen. Maybe I'm crazy, but my happiness is enormous, the energy flows, there is no shadow of dissatisfaction. Before I had a disgusting mental dynamic. I hated my father to death, he died young and I felt very cheated for not having been able to destroy his face and break his teeth, that was in my mind, disgusting shit and I had to open it or die. Strange path, but instinct is our only guide in life. The goal is move apart the psyche, make place for the real thing.

Anyway about the craziness or weird ideas. I'm honest enough to talk only from the clarity, in moments of openess, never from memory or from the logical mind, there is an important nuance. All that comes from memory is false, by definition. You could evoque a moment of openess then have a small openess but real, then talk, not to talk from the mind.