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    17 hours ago, NorthNow said:

    Clearly the awareness is here, now. But when this body dies, where does the awareness move to? Another body? Does awareness simply return to the all? Does anyone even have answer?

    This idea you have of death is merely a thought/idea in awareness. That’s it. So awareness doesn’t go anywhere. It’s relatively omni-present but ultimately, nothing can be said of it.

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    I’m going out on a limb and saying: the best (and most advanced and dense) guide to enlightenment exercises is the late Rob Burbea’s Seeing That Frees. If you haven’t heard of it or haven’t read it, you’re missing out. I don’t even want to spoil it it’s so good...it’s basically just a complete, exhaustive guide to realizing emptiness, and following the beauty of the thread of emptiness, which is a clear and tractable spectrum that goes all the way from tantrum to nirvana. “What is unfabricated is not unfabricated. What arises dependently does not arise.“

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    6 minutes ago, Artsu said:

    Psychosis is often used as a label for a variety of higher consciousness phenomena, but i suppose you are referring to the harrowing aspect.

    Oh believe me, it was psychosis lol. The disso+psychedelic+cannabis trip was not psychosis. I had a realization that was so incredible it was the first thing I thought about every morning when I woke up, for like 2 years. I still feel God looking through my eyes. It was what drove me to meditate hours every day and quit subutex (used for heroin addiction). I feel like the luckiest person in history.

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    I’m not so sure about synchronicities. I do believe in them but my absolute most harrowing and actually convincing run in with them was while under the influence of a meth overdose where I thought every speck on the wall was an alien camera and I was on a day-in-the-life-of-a-human show broadcasting on some alien planet. It was 18 hours of perceived persecution and actual synchronicities that I still can’t fully explain 5 years later. I chalk it up to psychosis. Also had a similar thing happen without psychosis when combining a dissociative with a psychedelic. I think they could be relative-God speaking with you.

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    16 minutes ago, Heaven said:

    Thanks for the reply?
    So u are saying to be very cautious with Mondafinil? (Do u have any experience with it?)

    I stopped to use caffeine completely so I feel kinda tired during the day, so I was looking for something to keep me sharp..

    I’ve been scripted modafinil before. I liked d-amphetamine better. I’ve been thru the ringer with all (lots) drugs. My lesson has been to avoid them. I was taking subutex and Dexedrine and was getting into jhana but I developed a heart condition (probably from the Dexedrine/d-amp) and the subutex without the added Dexedrine boost was making me too drowsy to get into jhana so I actually just quit subutex July 7th and am going through detox (opioid wd; aka HELL) in order to get back on track in my meditation. Meditation has gotten me into versatile states that are like 100x more effective a nootropic than any substance.

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    22 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

    See I couldn't do that. Anything more than 3gr I'll get maniac and nauseous.

    You do have a point. I mean if I could get a buzz just "dosing more" I would be VERY addictive to Kratom. But fortunately the drug doesn't work for me that way. And it hasn't changed in the last 2 years (it has gotten more difficult to catch a recreational effect, to the point that as I said I use it now for work and when I dose I literally dose the less I can for energy not looking for anything else).

    Anyway congrats man for your detox. I know some close people were addictive to H and I know it's a dark, dark place to be in.

    You got it!!!

    Thanks! And by the way why do you think I’m using kratom? The WD is so much easier than subutex! Lol. It’s still opioid WD though. Yeah as far as opioids go, kratom is on the low end; but as far as ALL drugs go, opioids are by FAR the most (worst) addictive.

  8. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

    @The0Self Yes, I'm not denying the recreational effects of Kratom. It does have an opioid feeling effect if you can get the buzz. But as I said, the question is can you get the buzz ?

    With heroin and straight opioids you can get the buzz if you have money to take/smoke enough (even if you got tolerance) (correct me if I'm wrong). With Kratom, the fact of having 100gr in front of me doesn't give that much because I know that I won't get a recreational, craving, buzz unless I dose once or two a week.

     

    Ok now that is interesting. I got a pretty good buzz just yesterday on accident by taking 2 doses too close to each other. I take 4g 4x a day. Sometimes 2g 8x/d. NOT recreationally. As I said I’m detoxing from subutex. Took my last dose of buprenorphine 0.5mg 4x/d at Tuesday July 7th at 4pm.

  9. Posted

    9 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

    @The0Self But of course I'll be sure to make tolerance breaks regularly to check how dependent my body is in it.

    All I can say is that after two years using it sparely and last year daily, if I quit it in 4 days I am at normal energy levels.

    Maybe after 4 years using it it would take me 10-12 days?

    Coffee took me 25 days to be normal again, so that's what I'm saying I don't see such a difference, unless by some sort of genetic thing you are able to get euphoric effects using it daily! Then some nasty WD will happen. Dosing daily I  don't get euphoria or anything like that, just a stimulation that I like way more than coffee. But I'm sure if I would dose to pursue euphoria and recreation, then I would get bad WD

    All I’m saying is it CAN be very dangerous and it IS addictive. As addictive as any commonly prescribed opioid pain pills.

  10. Posted

    5 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

    I agree, but what I'm seeing is that problems comes with those who can do those doses.

    I love Kratom but I can't raise the dose because it just doesn't work or gives me negative effects 

     

    This is the first dose in grams I did two years ago when I first started using Kratom : 2grams

    This is what I do nowadays: 2grams

    In between this two years I have raised to 3grams, but found that 2grams were my sweet spot.

    I m sure if i could do 15 grams with the same effects, I would get bad WD, but the fact is I CAN'T because I get bad negative effects and nausea. So the way that tolerance works for my body and a lot of bodies makes Kratom pretty safe (so far, maybe I'll be wrong? But why it would get bad after two years using it?). However in those you guys that because of genetics or who knows can get good effects dosing and dosing more, then you guys get bad WD

    Correct me if I'm wrong in my theory but I think it's what is really happening here.

    Could be. I started out using it as a social lubricant when I was 16-17. Usually taking 3-10g at a time, once a week or so. I had almost no issues with it until I was 18 and got a perceivable WD upon cessation for the first time of using it daily for a month straight. It was so subtle I didn’t even know what it was until it was over (in 3 days). About a year after that I was into H on and off and also kratom still (there was this amazing source abbreviated ZE). Got pretty bad WD but not horrible. I can see many getting caught up with it just like ANY pain pills. It’s no IV heroin, but it is absolutely as powerful as oxycodone. It’s just that, as you said, it gives a bit of nausea.. SO DOES HEROIN. Every heard the term “I tried heroin and I can’t imagine anyone liking it, it made me sick/puke”

    Sound familiar?

  11. Posted · Edited by The0Self

    Pregnenolone and histamine (base, or HCl if gut issues). Magnesium sulfate USP. Also might as well use pure d-amp if you’re willing to use modafinil — better off just mind-over-mattering it unless you have some kind of gut or brain issue. Stims can help productivity a whole lot though especially in the beginning. Every drug works in the beginning...

  12. Posted

    2 minutes ago, Javfly33 said:

    People always use the fact that Kratom helps very good with opioid WD as a scare tactic in to why Kratom must be bad too or dangerous too in the same level.

    It just not correct, it's not rational.

    I have been using Kratom daily for months, I have stopped, and the WD are a joke compared to any serious drug. The WD were not more difficult than those of coffee (actually those from coffee were worse, but I atributte it to the fact that I had been using coffee for years, not months).

    You guys will have to come up with serious scientific research (or even anecdotical, but the thing is anecdotical is full of experiences as mine, although I'll give you that also there are anecdotical evidence too of bad WD, but that is most of the times because of reckless dosing)

    That’s probably true, but reckless dosing is all that works when you’re an ex heroin addict. Though, gas station or head shop kratom is nothing compared to the stuff you can get online (HS). My tolerance gives me brutal WD’s and I take 16 grams a day and feel literally perfectly fine. Years ago I would take 60 grams a day and believe me it’s basically identical to tramadol. You’re gonna have a bad time if you use it for years on end. I started out with kratom btw, not H, but I was young and dumb and used high doses and both of my birth parents were addicts so I always craved opioids. Once I experienced jhana abusing any drug became impossible but I’m still coming off subutex.

  13. Posted

    I hate to ruin your parade but kratom is playing with fire. I’m using it right now to get off of buprenorphine. It takes away all withdrawal and then some. It has strong opioid effects. Use it for a month straight and stop abruptly (don’t actually). You’ll feel a bit restless. Do it again and stop; feel a bit more restless but this time it’s agonizing. Before you know it you’re having full-blown opioid withdrawal which is just about the worst feeling you can imagine. You know the feeling you get when you get a papercut or break a bone? Hurting so bad you break out in a cold sweat? Combine that with the feeling of nails on a chalkboard IN your spine, and you have a shallow facsimile of opioid WD. Be very careful and maybe never dose 2 days in a row.

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    My sister has Hashimoto’s And Type 1 diabetes. I have narcolepsy without severe cataplexy. Medical troubleshooting used to be my passion.

    Supposedly T3 (triiodothyronine) without T4 (levothyroxine) is a far more effective treatment. And most people just get T4. Also oral histamine can help tremendously with both thyroid and gut issues. And pregnenolone. Basically with hypothyroidism you want to increase cortisol and thyroid but you also want to decrease iodine and adrenaline. It’s very subtle research to actually find that this is the case but it used to be my passion. Plus, I’ve been through an insane amount of troubleshooting-away my own fatigue as I have narcolepsy — though the fatigue is nothing compared to the fact that I have to enter REM sleep first before going into true sleep onset; this causes terrifying hallucinations that made me procrastinate going to bed every night but it was a blessing in disguise as I basically got a free DMT trip every night for a decade, and this did provide a lot of insight. Meditation skill allows me to deal with it like it’s nothing now.

  19. Posted

    Listen to some of Rob Burbea's talks over on dharma seed. I DL them to my podcast app. His "practicing the Jhana's" (2019) and "meditation on emptiness" (2010) are incredibly inspiring, soulful, and informative. He just died a couple months ago due to pancreatic cancer. He was about as spiritually developed as one could be at his age (60 or so) and I think he even invented a new post-Buddhist-awakening framework called "Soulmaking Dharma." Although, nothing will motivate quite like tasting Jhana :D. Come back to it organically if you don't currently have the burning desire to be a master of perception.