Tim R

Yes, the "NWO" is considered a conspiracy theory, especially in the context of these conspiratorial anti-vax narratives.

There you go.

@WokeBloke What I'm trying to show you is that all distinctions are not actually there, no matter how real or solid they seem. Illusions can be very persistent and convincing. Even such as the distinction between a human body and a computer. Can you please elaborate? "Two things" are defined by the boundary that separates them from each other right? Like the inside and outside of this box: The inside of this box is defined by the boundary and the outside is also defined by the same boundary, right? Right. So, "inside" and "outside" are different (aka "not identical") because of the boundary. What would happend with "inside" and "outside" when the boundary dissolves? They'd become identical! No boundary = identity This is a very obvious and simply example. But the exact same principle applies to the black and white field. When there is no boundary, then there is no difference. There only seems to be a difference between the black and white field. Can you point your finger at the dividing line is between "each color"? Or can you see that the "difference between them" is actually just a beautiful illusion? If you understand what I'm trying to communicate here, chances are that you'll also start to consider that maybe there is in fact no difference between a human and a computer. Or anything else, for that matter.

No boundary = Identity

Whether you call it point or line makes no difference. I might as well ask you then; what color is this point? Black or white? Because it has to be either one, it can't be both. And if it has no color, then there is no point. So what is it?

Ahh careful. I'm not saying "they're" the same either. Either there is computer and body, in which case we pretend that there is a difference. Or, we realize that we are only pretending that there is a difference, in which case there are neither computer nor body anymore.

Is there a dividing line between the black and the white field? And if so, what color is it? Black or white?

No, there isn't. @WokeBloke My man, you're speculating too much?

@WokeBloke I'm saying that experience and experiencer are literally identical, completely, 100% no difference whatsoever. It's one. The visual field IS you. You're not experiencing the visual field, you ARE it. You are looking at yourself. All sounds that are going on, you're not hearing them. You ARE them. All experiences are not "experienced by you". You are the experience. Go to YouTube, put on your headphones and look for "Om chanting" or "singing bowl". And then close your eyes and listen. Just listen. And then tell me, can you hear the hearer? Are "you hearing" sound? Or is there only sound? Is there only you? Listen closely, very intently. Don't you realize that there is no boundary between you and the sound? I invite you to find the boundary between the sound and yourself

Yes!!? This is also one of the BIG differences between Actualized.org and a Zen monastery for example. In the monastery, the master personally knows the students. He knows where they're at and he can help them from where they're at. This becomes very clear for example in Rinzai Zen, where they practice by using Koans; it's a very personal process of realizing the answer of the Koan and then presenting it to the master. There are no pre-defined answers to Koans and the master must know when the student has understood the Koan. Buddhism is a dialectic method. Actualized.org is not: The best we have is this forum. Because other than that, there is no exchange of information between Leo and his followers whatsoever, much less any spiritual guidance. The Zen master wouldn't dream of telling the students all the secrets of enlightenment. With Actualized.org, the situation is quite different, where you can binge watch one video after another, revealing too much, too early. And then people get themselves into trouble.

@WokeBloke There is neither an "experiencer" nor "something which is "experienced" by the experiencer. There is only experience - although even that is saying too much, because "experience" can only be know by contrast of non-experience - which also doesn't exist (Nonduality). let me try to illustrate this, but it's crucial that you read the explanation afterwards, otherwise this might seem rather abstract. Imagine a sphere, the inside of which is covered with mirror substance, so that it is completely self-reflecting within itself. Now imagine this mirror would also be self-illuminating so that you could now see something inside of this mirror sphere. Now imagine that the mirror is conscious (it is aware of what is going on inside of itself). Now imagine this mirror would not only be a smooth sphere anymore, but shape itself (on this inside) into the forms of this world. Of what would the mirror be conscious, other than "of its own consciousness"? Nothing of course! The "reflection" of the mirror (experience) is identical with the "mirroring of" itself (the experiencer). There is no experiencer apart from that which is experienced. There is literally only ONE self-illuminating, self-knowing consciousness. Sight is, but nobody who sees. Sound is, but nobody who hears. The conception of an "experiencer" is nothing but a grammatical convention: For example: "I hear sounds." I - the experiencer hear - the connection between experiencer and the experienced sounds - that which is experienced Now I want you to notice, that either both "I" and "sounds" or "I and "hear" are completely unnecessary for describing the experience. "Hearing sounds". This is a completely redundant expression, because OF COURSE you would "hear" sounds. Are the sounds which are not heard? You could say "I hear" or "there are sounds", because both describe the exact same thing. Or you could even say "hearing" or "sounds". Which again, will describe the exact same thing. "I experience experiences." Again, completely redundant. There is only experience, and it is 100% independent of any "experiencer", making the notion of "something being experienced by" entirely redundant as well. Consciousness is not conscious "of" anything. Consciousness is everything. The mirror and the reflection are identical.

Yes, that's exactly correct and very important. When I read people write things like "there are no other people", I sometimes feel bad for them. They involuntarily trap themselves in a solipsistic hermit mode, forever. And in doing so, they completely rob themselves of any possibility whatsoever to adequately fulfill their social needs. Because you have to believe in "other people", otherwise your loved ones turn into "NPCs". That is fucking horrible and the reason why I spend hours and hours helping people to understand solipsism. Solitude can be extremely dangerous. This is what happens when spiritual teachings are being misapplied. Misapplication in this context means: too early, too much.

The last 3 years, I have lived completely alone. After the pandemic hit, I didn't even see my friends very much and it was quite normal for me to not speak more than a few words (if any...) over the course of multiple weeks. I guess you could call that solitude/isolation. I have learned so much during that time. Social contact is very important, it can be what keeps you from going too deep into your own, insane little rabbit hole. Because people reflect your behavior, thus providing you with a social mirror. Solitude can also be spiritually valuable, it has been for me. When there is nobody around, reflecting to you all the time "who you are", the chances of you discovering who you truly are, increase. Spiritual people/gurus going full "hermit mode" is no coincidence, I guess I got a good glimpse of what that looks like. The upside of having people around is that they can be a source of Love and can also evoke the Love within you. Balance is key.

Very nice post, I enjoyed reading? To summarize your position with my own words; developing a system (body+mind) that is capable of dynamically adjusting itself into a state of equilibrium (a "stable system") is an essential part of the process of growing oneself. For achieving/catalyzing this, many people use drugs. However, you view drugs as an "solution from the outside" and thus not necessarily very suitable for developing a self-regulating/-sufficient system, given that drugs, being external forces, disturb the internal systemic balance. What about the distinction between system-intern vs -extern? Are drugs truly a solution from the outside, when in fact there are for example some psychedelics like DMT or 5-MeO that are endogenous? When do you consider something a "drug"? Are vitamins after a certain concentration also drugs, since they only make your body function "better"? Is there even such a thing as an internal (i.e. independent from the external) equilibrium? Or is a temporal disequilibrium maybe just part of a larger context of equilibrium? I agree with you on this: and this: But: What if the distinction between the self as in "self-regulation" and "outside" starts to crumble? Btw, I'm not nitpicking on any of what you wrote, I think it's a well thought out post.

Try all the classic relaxing methods, meditation, yoga, stretching, a cup of tea, journaling, etc. If those still don't get you the results you want, start maybe experimenting with natural remedies like CBD. Are you hydrated properly? I have trouble falling asleep if I am dehydrated, I also get monkey mind and insomnia (even if I have exercised that day and meditated etc) and the only thing that helps is water? it's very strange.. And lastly, don't regard monkey mind as too big of a problem. People who suffer from insomnia often hate their mind chatter so much that it's actually this very discomfort which prevents them from calming their mind - sometimes, seeking peace of mind is what disturbs the mind in the first place.

Do you exercise regularly?

We are so out of touch with physical survival. Comparing my life with the lives of these people, I can't describe how absurd it feels to sit here at home, in this box that I call "my room", at my desk, in front of an electricity powered computer that gives me access to the knowledge of humanity, sipping coffee whilst marveling at the way our ancestors used to live. Just imagine what it would be like to swap your life with that of the tribe's chief. He takes your place and you his - how long would you survive? With the help of the tribe, perhaps a few weeks, maybe months? Or would you simply shrivel away at the overwhelming brutality of direct, physical survival? I feel modern people need to, at least occasionally, find ways of getting in touch with physical survival again. We are so busy surviving on an abstract-identitarian level that we simply forget and take for granted the basic level of our survival. I think reconnecting with physical survival would recontextualize our enterprise of abstract survival and expose a lot of the bullshit that we are so eager to defend.

What are your methods for financial housekeeping? Do you use any program or just pen and paper?

*starts laughing* Hey look, I found something with the name just one thing!

A few years ago, I have developed a technique for running meditation, I practice it daily and it has produced great benefits for me and I've had several insights during the state of no-mind that this technique evoked. Check it out:

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What you're describing is logical deduction, not mystical realization.

No description whatsoever is possible. All description is comparison - so what are you going to do when there is nothing to compare with?

I'm really having trouble understanding what he says? what's the reason he wouldn't take the vaccine?

Terence McKenna