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being authentic is not listening to others not being swayed by others not relying on others supportive energy to persevere few are willing truth is hard, popularity, another word for inauthenticity, is for the masses a litmus test is do i need another to motivate myself, or is my motivation intrinsic

anger is, i need you to change since i am unwilling to envy is, what you have is what i want jealousy is, what you are is what i should be

yes the ego wants to be the star of the show and relish all the acclaim and approval and affirmation ... i am doing good after all right?

my perspective of the dream: the prerequisite is just show up ... life is about showing up when you are supposed to ... most cannot do this reliably once you have shown up, you now do nothing don't interfere a notch with anything that is going on what is going on has been laid on for your advancement and your benefit every little detail, every little text, every little comment is to further your consciousness it is all utterly perfect, you did nothing to deserve it, it is just how god's will works, all you did was show up and take a look around the world right now is going to try to lure you into its action, but no, you do not step in to reform it or to destroy it in this place of clarity and detachment creator stands poised to use you to get stuff done how do you know that you are in this zone? you are welcoming of this grand stage and thrilled to be on it you are willing to do whatever is required you are wholly available and deeply receptive you are massively thankful for this opportunity you are unmoved by the world but moved by god's prompting you know deeply what you do will be bad but what god do will be good namely for your highest unfoldment you note that you have no thoughts whatsoever since thoughts are a fake overlay on the luminous richness that is all around you now god can work

self halt > self help fast from the incessant consumption you got to be nothing to get to be everything

be it don't bring it demonstrate don't remonstrate i am willing to help you only if you are willing to be helped

only believe what you come up with yourself or verify for yourself find that which resonates with you and that which works for you i integrate christian mysticism with leo's teachings perfectly soundly

the work is 2 steps forward one step back, notice this embrace this relish this, just don't let it become one step forward 2 steps back

to me fear is, how much of this am i willing to risk if someone says to me during today's meditation there is 50% chance you will die and 50% chance you will awaken, i will say let's do it i feel privileged in that i have nothing to live for, in this life i don't need anything, i am playing no role, no one relies on me, i have done what i want to do to die today is okay f-eel e-verything a- r-isk perhaps i am too immature to know of dark nights and beast's bellies (please don't misunderstand the above, i take huge delight in life and live to the utmost max and am not a suicide idealist)

society defines evil in order to keep the people in line ... if you are in line then you can see the truth of it, that evil is simply my survival bias, if you disagree with me i brand you as evil - so speaks the unawake god knows no evil since the people who commit evil have perfectly explainable reasons for doing so they have no choice but to commit evil (in fact there is no choice in anything; free will is only possible for the awakened)

be ten times as hard on yourself as you are on others, don't criticise yourself, just do the damn work no excuses become master of your ship - and quick

why you say fear judy? i am introspecting all the time, the main obstacles is laziness for me but i have conquered that pretty well, i have not encountered fear fear for me is the willingness to take risks ... you bet i am willing ... it is only me after all and as bad as i am the court in which i am held to account is my own making ... ripping out the garbage is all for my own benefit so i continue undaunted ... maybe i have never encountered fear face to face

perhaps sign up for a vipassana retreat, plenty of places to choose from in the uk ... https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/locations/directory#GB

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the 7s's of love: sharing serving shining spreading singing seeding if you haven't loved today you haven't lived today

thinking is not bad and thinking is not good, thinking will come thinking will go, it is nothing to do with me, i haven't control over thinking in any given moment, it is random and arbitrary and mystifying i do not demonize thinking, what i say is the thinking is believed to be who i am, it is controlling me, it is a program that is running things on my behalf if i see thinking doing this to me, i create distance and am aware that i am not the thinking, the only choice is to be aware of this or not to be aware of this when i stay in awareness, i become the watcher of thinking and i see deeply how the process works, it is just a conditioning program to have me strive for the best life irrespective of who in what stands in the way awareness sees all this and starts to unravel this program and make me the master of my own destiny it is only by looking at thinking that i become truly capable to engage in thinking, no mind isn't no thinking, it is the ability to use the thinking capacity and not have it use me awareness is the only freedom one has, it is a superpower and curative of all life's ills, spirituality at root is the development of this power

an insight i happened on today is the following: mind is always in one of 3 states - crave, cling, oppose crave (desire) seeks to improve the what is cling seeks to prolong the what is oppose seeks to stop the what is notice this can mind accept the what is? what would that look like? hint: no-mind

i say do the latter first then you can do the former, the former is what bernadette roberts refers to as returning to the marketplace to do the inner work is why you have incarnated

you are awesome, thank you for being here and sharing your journey, i see you and appreciate you greatly

i think as we awaken we soften existence has my back and is making everything work for my good what's mine will find me and i don't need to lift a finger existence makes it walk through my door and there isn't need on my part to chase, crave, cling

many claim to be awake yes ... but how many are saying another is awake ... i don't claim any awakening but i do claim to know awake when i see it ... as an aside, david hawkins has a table of levels of consciousness 0-1000 with jesus krishna buddha at the 1000 ... if memory serves me right NM was about 850 which is extremely high ... i don't trust things blindly but this definitely resonates with me ... NM together with Ramama Maharshi are the best expositors of non-dual awakening for me and i recommend people study their material deeply

the man nisargadatta maharaj is just the most beautiful person who i ever encountered, so much love wisdom tenderness compassion relatability and i am not one to gush sentimentally over others https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_Am_That https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nisargadatta_Maharaj will try to add some more later

desire is make this bigger fear is don't make this smaller love is this could not be more perfect

desire is desire of more fear is fear of less