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Read The Disappearance of the Universe or the Lifetimes when Jesus and Buddha knew each other.

To solve the world is child's play. God's play is to dissolve it. And re-dreaming it. And tweaking it. And admiring itself. All in a day's work.

I actually agree with the majority of what you’re saying here, in particular that there isn’t a separate “controller” self managing thoughts. That part resonates. Where I see it slightly differently is this: So when a thought like “I am anxious” appears, I’m not ignoring it or suppressing it. And I’m also not trying to replace it. I’m just noticing: In other words: So the shift isn’t: But more like: On the emotional side, again we agree that fear, contraction, etc. can be felt directly. That’s important. But even there, the practice is: So instead of: it becomes: And interestingly, that doesn’t suppress anything. It actually allows it more fully, because nothing is being resisted or claimed. So for me, meditation isn’t about controlling thoughts or dissolving into them, but instead: Not by force, just by seeing clearly:

I get what you’re pointing to, but I see it slightly differently. It still seems like there’s a “you” that is either creating thoughts or stopping them. In my experience, thoughts don’t need to be controlled or explained that way. They just emerge. The key shift for me isn’t whether thoughts arise or not, but whether I take them personally and give them meaning about who I am. So if the thought “I’m anxious” appears, it’s not something I created or something I need to push away. It’s just something arising in awareness. My practice is more like: not adding more to it, not building identity from it, and letting it pass on without interpretation. When I don’t add meaning, things naturally loosen. This is not because I made them stop, but because nothing is being held onto. So it’s less about controlling thoughts, and more about not taking them as a “me.” What I find is, when nothing is taken personally, then nothing is truly separate.

Meditation is stepping outside the imagined reality - which is quite simply my interpretation. The mind itself doesn’t switch on and off; it keeps moving, but my one freedom is to not follow its meanings. I then see what is arising without adding anything to it. In that moment, identity loosens, because identity is nothing but added meaning held in place. I don't seek to stop thoughts, but to stop being the one they are about. For example, if the thought “I am anxious” appears, I notice that as a movement in awareness, not as a statement about what I am. I don’t engage or correct it, just subtract what was added. Then I return to the simple recognition: nothing missing is what makes nothing separate.

Never a better time to be alive and all we do is argue bitch complain ad nauseam how bad it it how blighted the world how blameworthy God is. We did nothing ourselves to cause the wars the famines the corruption. I am innocent and others not to mention God are wholly to blame for my woe.

I like to read and study the darkest of the dark. I want to understand. And I have come to. I devour all true crime and deviant personality studies - I volunteer in the prison and work soup kitchens and shelters. There is a reason people get where they get. They were treated deplorably and they dish that out on others as being the only response they know. Hurt people hurt people. The more awake you become you move from I mind what happens to I care what happens. You see everyone as broken wounded fragile. You recognise I could be them very easily. There but for grace go I. I am willing to go through shit if need be. I will take a bullet to the head if it will save a hostage's or a child's life. Reason is I believe that would be a force for good in the perpetrator's mind. Could be a turning point. My life does not mean anything now that I see.

Boredom is the belief: something is missing, something is lacking, let something here be different. Peace is the recognition: nothing is missing, nothing is lacking, let everything here be as it is. The shift is this: I no longer take myself to be someone in lack. I withdraw this meaning I myself added. I chased excitement for so long that lack became the default. But it was something I always brought to the table.

I need to forget humans and focus on myself. My life is hard due to self inflicted wounds. I can't lay that on God. If I work on me, I can wake up. Then I can be used by God to make the world a less shit place. The saving of the entire world is in my hands. Will I step up is the only question.

Anger is me trying to violently impose my worldview on you as if I had any clue about you. You don't need to change. I do.

For me it is as follows. There is nothing bad that can hurt me and nothing good that can help me. I look around with forgiveness and disenchantment, the former means don't worry about something because it's all good and latter means don't hope for anything because it's all bad. The world is a passing dance of mist on water. Nice enough, nothing special. Engaging the world with this mindset allows one to be unstoppable, untouchable and unmovable. Allied to this one sees one is not a doer, a chooser, a thinker, a feeler though doing, choosing, thinking, feeling happen naturally and smartly. I don't take credit. I enjoy the fruit, the wine, the song, the dance. The following nicely encapsulates such a mood. Forgive the typos needless to say.

Thanks. Every day is better. Life is endurance and determination. I'm on track with it.

You give them grace and leeway while protecting your space and peace. It's a tough balance. Family is how you are who you are. So you play your part.

Yes families are messy. They know our weak spot. They bring out our worst aspect. So it's always a struggle to make it work. Bit it's your blood and your mirror. So you do your best to find a way.

I don't say it's good for another. It is a hard-gained lifestyle choice to protect peace and harmony. Like they say all happy families are the same. All unhappy families are unhappy in a unique way.

I explained in copious detail. Feel free to ask if anything is unclear.

Not all. Can only speak for yourself right?

There are two ways to be in a family. One is to sometimes take initiative and sometimes reach out. The other is to do high days and holidays with them for the sake of unity and duty. I do the latter - what you might term minimal involvement. I don't support their values nor partake in their flashiness and materialism and feed it no fuel. This I suspect is a strain for them but it is a necessary step for me. I choose not to go no contact in order that they have the semblance of a functional family and maybe one day they reform their lives. I stick around them sacrificially because I love them despite who they are.

There are 2 things - truth and illusion. Believe illusion see illusion. Believe truth see truth. Faith works. You have to fortunate enough to believe truth. Which isn't easy as all you experience is illusion.

So cut off family's toxicity root and branch. Still entertain them just don't listen.

Mind mastery is everyone is perfect and I'm the problem.

Violence is arrogance and hatred manifested: I'm good, you're bad to the extent that If you stand out and I'm having a bad day I will happily hammer you into line. Everyone is violent and feels it justified and keeps it locked up. Anytime you are not in absolute peace, you sow violence inwardly then outwardly.

There are just two things and in fact they are not-two - appearance knowing itself as awareness and awareness clothing itself in appearance. So step 1 is know yourself. Don't let appearance dominate you. Abide as what is. What is, unresisted, is peace; the experience of peace is happiness and from there a good final chapter of the human incarnation is possible. And the you that you thought you were doesn't do that. It is done through you. The old you is over.

We only need care about another's opinion if they are paying our bills. If not what they say is irrelevant. If you have money, you can forge your own path irrespective of another's input. Money=freedom.

It's an attempt to remove or improve what is already unmovable. The anger, fear and control I think I have is pure madness and does nopthing except keep me stuck. My will is perfect happiness not self-defeating resistance. Nothing here needs to be different. From that clarity flows love and peace and joy.