Adamq8

Hey guys! Lately ive been feeling stuck and having not so empowering thoughts like : I am only my body and im here because of my parents and life has zero purpose we are here by a random chance and when im dead im gone forever and will never know anything else, im also just my brain and the brain is creating my reality, therefore when it is gone everything else is gone. Psychadelics is just a hallucination and you are just going around in your brain and thinking that you have met god but it is just a happy thinking thought/experience, i aint got no power, im stuck at a useless job and society is corrupt and fucked up and humans are evil. i can't fucking understand why my brain or whatever it is is keep pulling these thoughts up, even when im having a small breakthrough into my mind i get pulled back like this, feel like nothing is worth anything, and people i love will be dead and i can't ever see them again, so life is just a big nothing and pain. i don't want to feel stuck like this, feels like a dark night of the soul almost. I feel like i have zero life purpose, and spirituality and so forth is just magical thinking. im pretty stuck in the paradigm of materialism i think but it is something ive grown up with, my dad have been an atheist his entire life, and im trying to shake it but it keeps pulling me back. I still feel happy and so forth but im feeling that i can break through this but i dont know where to start.

Thank you man! ive tried psychedelics 2 times before but with friends and it was fun and i actually disolved into light particles when i was trying to go to sleep at the end of the trip, but i guess i didn't integrate it at all, but now i have ordered some LSD and will do it like a spiritual trip instead of having fun with friends thing. I will let that be my purpose cause it is all that i need right now in my life. I appreciate your answer

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Why do you care? So you can somehow proof that psychedelics don't enlighten you or what? ? honest question.

Christopher M Bach, maybe not that enlightened or maybe he is, very interesting book to read is LSD and The universal mind

I can recommend that you read this book : LSD AND THE MIND OF THE UNIVERSE - Christopher M Bach

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Yeah i can relate! It is Hard, sometimes i can keep the "high" and feel like life is awesome and I can accomplish everything and I love all people and so forth but then something just burst the bubble and I get back to ego thinking, not totally aware of why that happens

Haha awesome short video!!?

Haha yeah it is what it is, sometimes i feel like im not in the body at all just like a void of conciousness looking at a screen , it makes up all of it for some reason ?

I like this! The pure awareness is nothing, it got no properties but it is still aware, so the Self is just presence, so what got the power of creation or imagination? My feeling is that pure presence just is, it is only aware and thats the real you, but im wondering where the creative power comes from?

Thank you ? yeah it opens your mind but it is also kind of easy to get negative thoughts but it is the ultimate test to get good at choosing thoughts, thoughts sort of flows in and out of your "brain" all the time , thoughts is like an Infinite fractal keep going and going and going but you can change the direction of it and get a different outcome / feeling

Hey guys! Well yesterday night i was doing some really deeeeeep contemplation and was high as well on cannabis and i could go really deep, my mind got traction. And the thing is when your mind get the traction it ends up deep in knowing. ( atleast for me ) The feeling like damn i already know this and it is obvious and that the knowing has always been there it just that you have not shined light on it. its right infront of you, all along it has been in front of you. It is like god is sending you messages all the time through other people and wordly events all the time just so you can go inward and come back to LOVE. cause that is all there is to it. it is like a hide and seek game, srsly it is litteraly that. thats why the realization is so good and it really is LOVE. People sometimes are searching for something that is outside them self and they get stuck in a illusion that everything is seperated and that you get to be happy when you buy that car or that house or that promotion and so forth. CAN't you see the grand illusion here? no object or feeling or whatever is better then to realize your true nature. And im just scratching the surface. You create your own reality 100 %, changing your thoughts or changing your imagination all to together will produce really different RADICAL outcomes. "Dont ye know that ye are gods" you are the creator of your own reality, that is gods gift. To get to experience everything and create whatever you like on this Earth. As above so below. Mini versions of gods Cannabis is really good for enlightenment, im not saying im full enlightened tho, but it really put alot of pieces together. OH and one thought that really hit me yesterday aswell was that, enlightenment or waking up or anything else is HIGHLY INDIVIDUAL, YOU, THE SELF is always there, but the ego illusion is taking credit for everything. Life is the greatest game ever! GOD is the original game maker and srsly a trickster What do you guys think about this?

I do think that you make what you want of reality, after all that is what makes life fun, maybe it is just a random thing, or there is a universal mind, nevertheless how magical isnt life? How is it possible that we are here? Maybe its all about survival or maybe its all no limit reality you can do and create whatever you want

I understand and appreciate your conclusions, well im pretty observent in conversation and you can lead to that both have the same realization and say like i was also thinking like that, but i have also experienced when ive had not talked about a specific subject or told anything about it and we bring it up at exactly the same time, there is more then just physical world, there is energy that is all around us that carry information that includes thoughts feelings and so forth that you somehow can access This is just my experience tho

BTW EGO backlash is srsly a real thing. atleast for me, but when you keep shining light on it , it becomes obvious what it really is. A Illusion for you to emerge yourself into the illusion of a earth in a universe, it creates and slaps on meaning on everything, notice that. But im starting to pierce through the veil, im not saying that everything is not real, it is. But there is more to the illusion than the ego can COMPREHEND! But there is no distinction between whats real and whats unreal, it just is.

Actually you can become 100% aware of another persons information "field" cause it is all in the field, you can srsly do this kind of stuff especially on psychedelics. You are aware of stuff more then you know. Even if it doesen't seem like it. And god or the field or whatever you wanna call it is always present, and my experience is that you can access it in deep meditation or other forms of mind altering stuff.

Hey! So i have been doing spiritual work for a while now and ive had some "minor" breakthroughs and ive had like a "knowing" that im just pure void imagining up my reality, it was felt and seen, this was when i smoked cannabis and I was lying in my bed almost asleep and that experience or knowing just hit me out of nowhere. But after those kind of experiences i get thoughts like this = , We got 2 brain halves, one more "logical" and the other more "big picture" thinking and understanding what if our imagination and thoughts and so forth is just all in the brain? That our brain is communicating with itself all the time and that beings on psychedelics and other people is just you, i know you guys are saying that its all "YOU" and god and so forth, but let's say that the brain just wants to believe that it is god and all is infinite, and now you maybe will dismiss me and say that the brain is not real and you can get a direct contact with GOD conciousness, what if that is just as far as you can go back in the brain? Like go back to the beginning of conciousness and see that is nothing and everything happens within it but it is still in your brain which hold your conciousness. Like I mentioned i had breakthroughs and I felt the love part of all creation and felt like I really can experience what you all are talking about, infinite intelligence and so forth, but then something is pulling me back and these kind of thoughts come.into my head, its all in your brain, the universe doesn't exist, spirituality is just a feel good magic thinking sort of stuff to hide from the cold truth that its by random chance that you are here and you will die and it will be like you never existed, hence we all trying to fight the inevitable truth that we will die and never get to experience anything after we die. Sorry for a long ranting and I really don't like my thoughts about this stuff, but it just comes naturally even as im doing the spiritual work.. Would love to hear your thoughts on the subject

Why do you guys think that we as a society are stuck with the notion that you have a brain and it hallucinates your reality, It kinda condradict its self that theory, because if your brain hallucinates your reality then the brain is not really the brain just an image? therefore the brain do not exist? is it just me who thinks this way? i mean neuro scientist are really taking this srsly and thinking that your brain hallucinates your reality, then the brain is just pure conciousness, its no form but in objective reality it looks like a form?

Yeah it feels more "logical" cause how could something that small house a freaking colorful and big reality? Hologram perhaps ?

I will do that alot more then just intellectualizing everything with theories and so forth. But some theorys do make you feel good tho ? What's even worse is that im dreaming up a fantastical reality in my mind but get blinded by it as well and im not to present in the moment now, and how amazing it is to really be here against all odds

Yeah thats true, like seeing through the veil except there is no one to see through and the veil is imaginary? Mindfuck ?

Enjoyed your replies! It feels good that you can come in here and talk about whats bothering you and see that it is normal and just keep pushing through the illusion, cause you are right the only thing i can ever be certain of is my direct experience! The Ego works in mysterious ways ? And Reality is the most mysterious, i can see how easy it is to get stuck in the limited view of the world thanks to culture and to be honest by neuro science as well.

Thanks for reply. So i just keep doing the work and maybe do some DMT then? I have not done DMT yet. It is all a big mindfuck, how the hell is anything even possible ? how can i be here writing on a forum about brains and psychedelics and so forth, its mind boggling

I get small hunches and feelings that the brain story is not really the case, but then some logical rational thoughts arise and get me to doubt every progress in spiritual work and so forth, i don't know why. Maybe the right side of the brain is the spiritual one and the left side is the one doing the logical thinking and thinks that the right side is an idiot and magical thinker ? Or maybe the brain doesen't exist and im just getting an ego backlash from the work im doing. Because nevertheless a story is being broken down inside of me. But it may be just mere beliefs and more storys just changing the narrative to something other then what i have now.