LostSoul

@kbone @LostSoul @Tim R @Nahm thanks for your replys.

I don't know if I'm prepare to 5meo. First I would like to explore mushrooms/lsd. @Breakingthewall

I can definetely do that @Moksha

For all the enlightened beings out there, does enlightenment mean that we will have to go through gore experiences at some point in other lifes? Another way to frame it, I'm experiencing ritght now gore things but I'm not aware of them? You guys now what I'm triying to ask, because I got so fucking afraid seeing one video on Whatsupp of a man who had an accident with a turnstile and turned into dust in seconds. Sorry for the low quality type of question

Thanks everyone for the time to comtemplate my question!! Btw,@Gesundheit you nailed it.

Wow, very good bro¡¡¡¡

So I would like to hear some advice on this situation: I'm totally lost on a career level. I've been studying electricity since I left college (3 years from that moment). My economic situation is that I depend on my father, who is CRAZY on an emotional level, he is hyper neurotic and I know I have to leave this house the moment I can. My chest is burning 24/7 since I had an spiritual awakening 3 years ago. Since then I KNOW my passion is helping people on a spiritual level, like a life coach, I love brathing techniches, i love meditation, i love psychodelics, i love psychology, methaphisics... (I LOVE this things deeply, i could be researching all this for eternity). My plan 3 years ago was to keep studiying electricity and make money to then, far away from my father, try to live my passion. Today I have a heavy confront with my parents, my father is literally crazy and my mother was triying to help me out. I can't put into words what I feel inside, I've been struggling for 3 years with anxiety and all of that, but inside me I see the light of that awakening I had, that moment I saw what I'm capable of and the potencial of life. I never liked the idea of going to university but it is my last chance to make it happen studiying psichology maybe... I don't knOW. I'm years old, very young, this could be my chance to change careers and trowing away electricity, but I will have to keep depending on my parents.

I see your point. Appreciatte it. Thanks¡

No, it's no really that bad. I appreciatte your advice Roy. Just sometimes all my feelings came out from nowhere and its really difficult for me to cry. I have too much weight in my back in an emotional sense. You are right, maybe coming up with a vision will make things don't seem so abstract.