Ima Freeman

Hello forum I need some advice on my chronic illness problem concerning heavy metals (again) For reference I link two older posts I made: 1. The Cutler Protocol failed to cure my problems after 80+ rounds and had heavy side effects 2. Out of desperation I took cilantro juice + binders for two months, then switched back to the Cutler Protocol and had a health downfall after that Half a year after my incident with cilantro juice, as seen in the second topic, my health restabilized again. It was possible to make some progress in my life and things went better again. Still I had problems with reoccurring fatigue, attention deficit, being intellectually on the slow side and being overly-neurotic. After working on my gut health, my liver health and doing some parasite cleansing, I decided to restart my endeavor of chelating heavy metals again. Because the Cutler Protocol with DMPS and ALA was way too high in side effects and did not bring much gain and cilantro brought me half a year of severe health problems I was on the lookout for a new approach and researched deeper. I found this chelator called NBMI otherwise known as OSR-1 or Irminix. As I read reports of people using it in a frequent low dose way, as developed by Andrew Cutler, and having little side effects with it, i choose to give it a try. First round with 15mg went quite well. Side effects where less dominant then with ALA or DMPS. Sporadically, they included headaches, being emotionally volatile, being neurotic, having slight anxiety in the evening and hearing a hissing noise. Some rounds there where little to no acute side effects, which surprised me. I was very happy to see that after years I found a method, that I managed to live a functional life besides. My general mental health was declining though, as always when I do chelation. I saw that the side effects had some impact on my life, but this impact was still small. After six rounds, everything seemed to go hunky-dory. But the next three rounds had increased side effects that came after them. After the last and 10th one I was impacted heavily. I was forgetful, confused, very undecided and felt weak. As a side note, the downfall started after being bitten by some ticks, but a test for a lyme's infection was negative. Normally after Cutler Rounds, side effects would slowly subside after 1-3 weeks for me. But this time, they even worsened. I am more cognitively impaired, it is harder for me to organize my life. The worst is, that a month ago I even got suicidal thoughts. My mind furthers the idea of ending this life, organizing how and when to do it and what steps to go until the final day. I have problems now with being mentally even slower than before, having intrusive thoughts, having difficulties with getting out of bed, feeling suicidal and tired of life. Looking back, I felt amazingly good after removing my amalgams and taking antioxidants and minerals. Compared to this short time span after removal, starting with chelation five years ago, my state got worse, I lost creativity, energy, happiness and cognitive function. There are still things I know of that could be the culprit: - Some chronic infections, I did not test for which block the ability to excrete heavy metals - Some other detox blockage - Some immune defect, maybe metal allergy or something else - Some other factor I am unaware of I know, this is kind of a rant, but given this information, maybe someone can give me valuable information. I would be very very thankful.

I was bitten by around nine ticks in 2022 and had a health breakdown afterwards including a slight fever and shivering which was so intense that I went to the hospital. I became slightly sick a couple of times afterwards and my general problems with emotional instability, ADHD and digestive health became worse. At the same time, I did heavy metal detoxing too, which went fine until then. First I attributed the decline in health to that. Only some time later I became conscious about the possible connection between the ticks and my decline in health. Couple months later I did a blood test for the most common chronic conditions including lyme, but it came back negative. A similar thing happened this year. Got bitten by couple of ticks. My health declined afterwards again. Went to a doctor for a lyme test. Came back negative. My rant maybe of no value. But here some recommendations: Don't go though high grass or woods, especially if you see wildlife around. Check your whole body at least every night before bed, this includes getting two mirror to look at every bit of your body Use some repellent, but please no toxic chemicals that damage your body Get one of those: https://www.amazon.co.uk/geo-versand-Tick-Tweezers-Removal-Geocaching/dp/B07F3DQQMC

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If there is only one self, why am I surprised with the action of other people. If the one self is creating everything, including all beings, why is there confusion about the motives of these beings? I can go to some person and ask them a question, but why am I unsure about the answer, If I am supposedly creating that exact answer. Isn't it, that with absolute solipsism everything must be totally predictable. Why are the self's own creations unpredictable to the self?

So, that means, on very high states of consciousness, everyday conversations feel like talking to yourself?

Experience shows me that I'm bad at handling conflict with others. Be it coworkers, family or friends. If someone is opposed to something I did or there are arguments I can't really handle it emotionally. My first instinct is to not give anyone any surface, to be somewhat ignorant. Even if I stood up for myself, I have strong emotions that run my mind afterwards. My knees get shaky and I feel resentment. Are there techniques to get better with handling confrontations and be calm during it?

@Human Mint This is conflict

This is the aftermath of conflict

Good point What do you mean with bursting your own bubble?

Thanks a lot for your scientific treatise Have to read it a couple of times to decode it

Very helpful. Thank you. The eMotion tries to push me to a fight or flight reaction

This might be seen as to hysteric because of how easily I feel hurt On the other hand I manipulate by being ignorant, like having no surface

Lately I asked to friends for postponing a date for a little time, came late to that and one was very directly projecting his anger onto me Looking back his anger was justified, but I still plan to cut him out of my life, because I feel disrespected. A coworker had a very disregarding attitude towards me after I respectfully turned her romantic longing to me down. I tried to ignore her passive aggressive attitude and stayed stoic. But I felt bad because I can't stand people disrespecting me. Basically she was in such an attitude where nothing would have really helped other than a clear rebuke from the higher ups. I did not even tell my manager once. In another workplace, a pretty unregulated one, I had some quarrels because I was trying to improve things, but in a direction one coworker did not like. That was a quite reactive and immature person when coming to a dispute with someone. I was setting up boundaries in a respectful way, but did not urge the manager running the place to settle the dispute for good. He was not interfering much. Mostly it comes down to me being someone who is very autonomous, which is not liked and seen as a threat by some people. I'm not really communicative with others and can even get purposefully ignorant to the elephant in the room (the conflict) And I tend to be hurt quite easily and have the impulse to cut people from my life

The problem is my body can't handle confrontation. I feel nauseous, shaky, heartracing, sweating I'm pretty sympathetic and nervous generally

I have to be careful. Last time I took a normal dosed trip of LSD, I had some emotional trouble at the end of the trip, causing me to frantically leaving my flat, feeling a slightly panic followed by being teary and having a fall in my self-esteem, then I went jogging because I was so agitated Something like annihilation is something I won't follow because I tend to have emotional disregulation and I could run into panic attacks I like to nudge myself into meditative states or higher contemplative states carefully with moderate doses

@Human Mint I did that in the past, but the problem arises when you have agonistic people around, who use your lack of boundaries and niceness to assault you. One thing I suspect is, that I have a personality that is prone to be attacked, for whatever reason. Maybe I'm quirky, or not the witiest or fastest, I only suspect Some might get trough with such an personality because they are cheerful and kind of a goof, but I'm quite tense and sober at the ground level

@DianaFr Thanks for sharing The thing is that I always react calm and try to minimize damage. But I can get very resentful, can hardly shake that feeling and want to ban people from my life. My ego is hurt very easily, and I don't want that. I wan't to be at ease and not so vulnerable.

This is a great example of how misinformation works, by telling half truths. In fact Hitler was vegetarian, not vegan. Sounds totally unimportant Now imagine the same little differences in political discussions...

Btw, I don't have lack of energy anymore Now I have a good amount of it, but being nervous, neurotic, unfocused, unclear It's better though. With energy you can at least work on yourself a lot

I do not want to discuss what the culprit is. This is a very complex matter that I'm working on for years and will take some time, if ever it will be solved. This is about how to live as well as possible and to progress through life, while having a low level of physical drive/energy... Having little motivation, no enthusiasm at all, only feeding on hope Having little mental energy for imagination, planning, seeing a big picture Being undecided, having poor judgement Not being light on your feet, being sluggish So I'm speaking about times where you have to endure something like that without.. getting addicted to caffeine getting stuck to Youtube or social media for stimulation feeling under pressure not to get hopeless getting lazy and doing everything the easy way (fast food, watching shows)

Just gold... Health is such a mysterious thing

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Relaxation definitely helps. I do shavayatra, basically a yogic form of muscle relaxation and feel a lot better afterwards

Must Watch I think LSD as a chemical weapon was too in Us army stockpiles back in the day

My experience with psychedelics was always that the feel "healthy". The invigorate my body and cause the life inside me to strengthen. It's especially interesting because psychoactive compounds, "drugs" generally are regarded as subtracting from health, causing bodily harm. Alcohol clearly dose that, stimulants, opiates. Even though the cause a pleasant stimulus, this stimulus runs into discomfort, pain, disatisfaction. After taking psychedelics on the other hand, I feel more alive, satisfied, peaceful, stronger. They are a general medicine in a way. In my experience the reorder the life in the direction of holiness, of perfection. I'm especially referring to light dose of psilocybin mushrooms and LSD The only way in which I would consider them to be unhealthy is, if the stimulus is to strong for the foundation to withstand, causing stress in form of anxiety, panic, strengthening psychotic thought patterns.